Beginning Our Life
Last Time: Sarah got slushied, so Blaine helped her get back on her feet. She didn't want Puck knowing, but Ryder unknowingly told him. Puck went to defend Sarah and ended up knocked out with a bruised face. Sarah called Ryder stupid who wouldn't accept her apology until she sincerely meant it and promised to tutor him. Jake got slushied because he was Puck's brother. And that's what you missed on Beginning Our Life.
Disclaimer: I don't own Glee or any songs that I may put in here.
We're Done
Puck's Point of View
I woke to my phone buzzing from a text. I grabbed it off the nightstand to see a message from Santana: I'm at my parents save me by taking me out to breakfast.
I chuckled while slipping out of bed, Sarah wouldn't mind; I didn't think we were doing anything today anyways.
~~~~~GLEE~~~~~
I laughed while taking a sip from of my coffee, promptly choking on it.
Santana rolled her eyes, "Always a problem with you, isn't there?"
"Shut up," I muttered.
She smirked, "Alright, time's come to update me on the baby. How's my nephew?"
"Your nephew?" I asked, "Really?"
"I swiped your v-card, without me, you would have never known how to make the kid," she explained.
I stared at her, "That's why you consider yourself an aunt...because you were the first person I ever slept with...you are crazy. What about Beth? Are you her aunt too?"
Santana shrugged, "Quinn's one of my best friends, so of course I'm Beth's aunt."
I rolled my eyes, "You're unbelievable."
"Whatever, now answer my question, how's my favorite nephew?" she repeated.
I took another sip of coffee, "He's great. I'm getting a little nervous, I've taken care of Beth, but this kid's actually going to live with us and depend on me. I'm really going to be a father."
Santana gave a small smile, "You're going to be a great dad, trust me."
I smiled back, "Thanks."
"Do you have a name picked out?" she asked.
I nodded, "Nathan Christopher Puckerman."
Her smiled widened, "That sounds perfect."
"Yeah, it really is," I stared down at my bagel before looking up, "So, Sarah says you and Britt broke up, how are you?"
Santana shrugged, "Fine. I miss her like crazy, but it was the right choice."
I shook my head, "I don't know how you could do it; I'd never be able to break up with Sarah even if it was for the good of her."
She nodded, "It was hard, but don't worry, you'll never have to break up with Sarah."
I bit back a grin, "I know."
My phone rang and I scrambled to grab it when I recognized Sam's ring tone seeing as it was nine in the morning, "Yeah?"
"Dude, where are you?" he asked.
"I'm out with Santana for breakfast," I told him.
"Sarah has a doctor's appointment," Sam said.
My heart dropped and I turned to Santana, "What day is it?"
"Saturday," she answered.
My heart dropped even further when I realized that we had the last doctor's appointment today before Nathan was actually born, "I'll be right there."
"Don't bother, I drove her, we're here now," Sam stated, "She's pretty mad."
"Oh my God," I dropped my head in my hands, "How'd you end up driving her?"
"She didn't want to worry anyone."
"I'll meet her at home. Are you with her now?"
"No, I'm in the waiting room, she's in there now though."
"Why didn't she call me?"
"I told you, she was pretty mad."
I groaned, "Alright, fine, I'll see you later."
"Yeah," Sam ended the call.
I angrily dropped my phone to the table, "I'm an idiot."
Santana looked up from her own phone, "What'd you do?"
I stood, knocking my chair back, "I forgot about the last appointment with Dr. Ashton. I have to go."
"Dr. Ashton?" Santana asked.
"The baby doctor," I slipped my jacket on.
"How upset is Sarah?" Santana stood as well and put her own coat on.
"Pissed," I muttered before downing the rest of my coffee in one gulp.
"Come on," Santana roughly grabbed my elbow and pulled me out of the restaurant.
I yanked my arm back, "I have to go home and-"
"You have to get a gift for Sarah, something that shows you're sorry; it'll soften the blow," Santana said while once again grabbing my arm and dragging me to the car, "We'll get her something for the baby, it'll be sweet and thoughtful." She shoved me towards the passenger side, "Give me the keys, I'm driving."
I nodded and dug them out of my pocket, "Here."
Santana snatched them, "Come on, you moron, time to win back your baby mama's heart."
~~~~~GLEE~~~~~
I nervously paced the floor of the living room. I dropped Santana off ten minutes ago and was the given the advice to not 'screw this up unless you want to end up homeless.' We had decided on getting Sarah a blue stuffed bear and a matching silver bear charm tied around its neck with a ribbon to try and save me a little.
The door opened and Sarah walked through.
"Sars," I stepped forward.
She put a hand out and didn't look me in the eyes, "Don't even dare."
I held out the bear, "I got you something."
Sarah's shaking hand grabbed it. She gently touched the charm before looking up at me with a glare, "You honestly think this is going to make up for not coming to the appointment with me?"
"I-I...Sarah," I desperately stuttered, "Please."
"No! You chose Santana over me and Nathan! Do you know how wrong that is? How disgusting that is? You chose breakfast with your ex-girlfriend over the last chance to see your son before he's born!" her usually soft, blue eyes now shone in a bright, angry color that scared me.
"I didn't remember, I'm sorry," I said softly, "Please," I reached out to hold her hand.
She slapped it away, "Don't you dare touch me."
"Sarah," I whispered.
"No!" tears started coming from her eyes, "I thought you loved me, I thought you loved us."
"Then why didn't you call me!" I yelled back, finally snapping, "Do you realize that you called Sam Evans instead of me? You called Sam to take you to the doctors instead of me! The father of the baby himself! Your boyfriend!"
Sarah shook with anger, "You don't understand the feeling of worry I felt this morning when I woke up! The feeling of dread when I read that stupid little note you left on your pillow! The thought that you were cheating on me etched in my brain and heart as I read Santana's name as the person you were seeing!"
"You should have called!" I grabbed her shoulders and gently shook her, "You did this!"
She slipped from my hands and slapped me across the face, "How dare you blame this on me? You were the one who answered Santana and went on a date with her!"
I rubbed the spot on my face, "Would you stop hitting me? It hurts."
"Suck it up," Sarah spit, "In a couple months I'm going to be pushing a baby out of me and I bet that'll be ten times more painful than a simple slap to the cheek."
"Simple? Sarah!" I took a step closer, "You really need to calm down.
"Calm down? Calm down!" Sarah screamed, "My boyfriend ditched me and our son for his ex! How am I supposed to calm down?"
"Santana's gay! You know she's one of my best friends!"
"And you know that the second you try and sleep with her, suddenly she'll become all straight and forget all about Brittany."
"I would never cheat on you! plus, she's torn up about breaking up with Brittany. She wouldn't-"
"Ugh, just stop! Stop! Ok, we're done with this. You left me in a big, scary doctor's office where I had to deal with all the questions and tests by myself!" Sarah suddenly burst into sobs.
I wrapped my arms around her, "Stop, it's ok."
"No, get away from me," she cried while pushing against my chest.
I reluctantly let her go, "Let's go cool off, then we can talk-"
"No, we're done," Sarah stated as she wiped her eyes.
"What do you mean?" I asked quietly.
She sighed, "We're done, Puck, done. You may be the father of this baby, but you aren't connected to the mother. I'm-I'm-"
"Sarah," I begged, hating myself when my voice cracked, "Don't."
"I'm sorry, but I'm breaking up with you," she whispered. She held out the bear, avoiding my eyes, "You can still live here, but...I'm sorry." She turned to leave.
I winced as the door slammed shut.
"She wasn't happy, what'd you do?" Finn asked while walking in.
I turned around and threw the stupid bear at him before marching off to my room to clear out my stuff. No one was around to hear my ragged breaths as I folded my few clothes we'd left in the closet. I angrily grabbed my pillow and guitar before going up to my original room.
"Noah."
"What?" I spun around to see Ms. Carole standing at the top of the stairs, "Oh, I-I'm sorry, I didn't mean to-"
"Stop, shh, I heard, it's ok," she came over and gave me a tight hug, "I'm sorry, honey, it'll work out."
I shook my head and dropped to my mattress, "That was the maddest I've ever seen her. Like she said, we're done. I screwed up. How could I forget that stupid appointment?"
"You know that you're aloud to stay, right?" Ms. Carole asked.
I nodded, "That was probably the only...nice...thing she said to me, besides Grace needs a home."
Ms. Carole kissed the top of my head, "I'll be downstairs if you need anything."
"Yeah," I whispered, "Thanks."
She turned to leave, but stopped and turned around, "Noah, I'm not taking sides."
"I understand," I laid back on the bed.
I heard her sigh softly before leaving. I stared up at the ceiling, how could this get so out of control?
I was suddenly hit in the chest with a sobbing body, "Noah, please, please, I don't want to leave."
I wrapped my arms around Grace, "Don't worry, we're not leaving."
She cried harder into me, "Why? Why'd you do it?"
"I didn't mean to, I'm sorry, Gracie," I breathed in her hair.
Grace cried herself into oblivion; eventually even falling asleep on top of me. I twisted so Grace was on the bed, but still against me. I buried my face in her hair, finally letting the dread fill me.
~~~~~GLEE~~~~~
Two days. Two days of pure hell. I didn't talk to Sarah at all. I didn't get to sing to Nathan at night. I didn't get to feel when he kicked. I was miserable.
Sarah's eyes were constantly red and swollen. When she'd left, she'd gone to Brittany's; the place where she knew I, or even Jake, wouldn't show up. I heard her telling Ms. Carole Sunday afternoon when she'd returned.
I stopped outside the choir room, "I can't go in there," I muttered.
Mike put a hand on my shoulder, "I know this has been hard on you, but Finn asked us to come and we agreed."
"I know," I groaned.
"Come on," Mike gently pushed me inside.
I halted to a stop at the sight of Sarah laughing with Sam and Brittany, who she sat between.
"I'm sorry," Quinn's voice whispered.
I jumped and looked to my side at her, "Oh, um, thanks."
She nodded, "Even though you should have checked with her first, meaning it sort of is your fault, I do feel bad for you. I know you loved her."
"I do love her. I haven't stopped," I told her.
Finn walked in, giving me a small nod before standing in front of the room. He explained what we were doing here and all that. I kept my eyes on Sarah; not gonna lie, it kinda hurt to see her trying so hard not to make eye contact with me. Sam did catch my eye, though, and gave a small sympathetic smile. My first instinct was to glare at him for taking my girlfriend, but then I remembered that he was sort of taking care of her until she was normal again.
Once I had sat down next to Jake, it was a little better not having to directly look at Sarah, that was until Quinn made that stupid birth control comment.
"Ha," Sarah laughed, "I wish I had some of that a couple months ago."
A cord snapped inside me, "Take that back," I growled; the sadness I'd felt a second ago vanished.
Sarah's head stayed facing forward, "I'm sorry, did someone say something?"
"Sarah! Take. That. Back," I stood, ready to jump down the risers and stand in front of her.
"Dude, sit," Jake muttered, tugging on the edge of my shirt.
I ignored him as I went to kneel in front of Sarah, "I said I'm sorry, what more can you need?"
The room was silent as everyone watched us.
Her eyes flickered to my face before looking down at her newly painted nails, something I've never seen her do before, "I need a father for my son and a boyfriend I trust."
"You can trust me," I set a hand on her knee which she quickly swatted away.
"Oh, God, suck it up Sarah," Santana muttered, "He made a mistake. We went out for breakfast, it's not like we went to the baseball field."
"Go away," Sarah breathed, "Please, this is too soon."
I sighed and nodded, making my way back to my seat.
"Ok," Finn said, "Can we continue?"
I gave a stiff nod, as did Sarah.
Finn smiled slightly, as if this never happened. He explained his idea for sectionals and all I could think of was that I hope Sarah will be ok doing Gangnam Style.
When Sam started dancing since he claimed he was the best dancer for Brittany, I smirked until I heard the distinct laugh that belonged to Sarah. I watched as she smiled and clapped for him. That feeling of being upset earlier was now completely gone and I was angry at Sarah and Sam for everything.
~~~~~GLEE~~~~~
I grabbed Sam's shoulder and spun him around so his back was against his locker, "What is your damn problem?"
His eyes widened, "What are you talking about?"
My hold tightened, "Don't think that I didn't notice the way you were flirting with her, it was disgusting. Did you hold her hand during the appointment too? Did you dance for her when she was upset?"
Sam winced at the pressure I was exerting, "Come on, lay off a little, she was mad at you for not being there and needed a friend, so I stepped up. Plus, she's been hanging with Brittany, who I'm kinda starting to like now which I just great. Have you ever talked to her-"
"Shut it," I placed my face closer to his, "That's great for you and Britt, but right now, I don't want to hear it. Now tell me what I can do to earn back my girlfriend's trust."
"Puck!"
I didn't move at Finn's voice.
"What are you doing?" he ran over and threw me off of Sam, "Control yourself."
I straightened my jacket, "He's moving in on Sarah-"
"Sarah came to me!" Sam yelled, "Get a hold of yourself! Sarah's gone, man, and I'm sorry. Your guys' fairy tale couldn't last forever."
I just glared at him before walking away. I wasn't paying attention and ran into someone.
"Whoa, you ok?" Blaine asked while steadying me.
"Uh, yeah, sorry," I muttered. We stared at each other for a minute before I asked, "So I know I don't go here anymore, but are people taking sides?"
Blaine gave a small smile, "Sorry."
I groaned, "So, who's on my side?"
"All the guys, except for Wade, he's taking Sarah's side with the girls," he told me.
I nodded, "That's what I thought, but I'm a little surprised with you."
He clapped me on the shoulder, "Yeah, Sarah's one of my best friends, but I kinda think she overreacted. Maybe it's because I miss Kurt so much and I just want everyone to be together."
I smiled, "Any reason's fine by me, thanks."
"Fine by me, isn't that a song?" Blaine asked.
I raked my brain before slowly nodding, "Yeah, I think so. Why?"
Blaine shrugged, "Why don't you sing to her?"
~~~~~GLEE~~~~~
I nervously strummed the strings of my guitar as I waited for the glee club to wander in.
"You sure you want to do this?" Finn asked me.
I nodded, "Yeah, I'm positive."
Blaine smiled at me across the room and gave me a thumbs up. I chuckled and gave a small nod.
Sarah walked in with her new best friend Brittany, "Just sing your heart out, that's what San did when she sang the song," Britt told Sarah.
My head shot up. Is Sarah singing too?
"Alright, everyone sit down," Finn announced, "Puck wanted to sing today and show you all how great he claims to be."
"Oh, I don't claim to be great, I am great," I smirked.
"Whatever," Finn chuckled and gave me the floor.
I made my way to the center, "You all know that Sarah broke up with me the other day, I'm not gonna sugar coat it 'cause that's what it was, but I am going to fight for my family."
I noticed Sarah try to discreetly wipe her eyes and take a deep breath while staring at her feet.
"He's just messing with you," I heard Tina whisper.
I ignored her as I started playing the song.
You're not the type
Type of girl to remain
With the guy, with the guy too shy
Too afraid to say he'll give his heart to you forever
I'm not the boy who will fall to his knees
With his hands clasped tight
Begging, begging you please
To stay with him for worse or for better
I stared down Sarah; waiting for her too look up.
But I'm staring at you now
There's no one else around
I'm thinking you're the girl for me
I'm just saying it's fine by me
If you never leave
And we can live like this forever
It's fine by me
In the past I would try
Try hard to commit to a girl
Wouldn't get too far
It always somehow seemed to fall apart
I heard Quinn laugh and broke my stare away from Sarah to see her smiling and swaying along in her spot next to Kitty.
But with you, you, you
I can see what I need
I can dream realistically
I knew that this was different from the start
And it seems that every time
We're eye to eye
I can find another piece of you
That I don't wanna lose
Sarah finally looked up and I could see her eyes shining with tears.
And I'm staring at you now
There's no one else around
I'm thinking you're the girl I need
I'm just saying it's fine by me
If you never leave
And we can live like this forever
It's fine by me
I'm just saying it's fine by me
If you never leave
And we can live like this forever
It's fine by me
I went over and knelt in front of Sarah while continuing to play my guitar. She gave me a small smile, which I gratefully returned.
And it's never easy
Darling, believe me
I'm as skeptical as you
When I think of life without "us"
It seems like "What we're supposed to do? "
But I don't wanna come on too strong
I'm just saying it's fine by me
If you never leave
We can live like this forever
It's fine by me
It's fine by me
If you never leave
And we can live like this forever
It's fine by me
I'm just saying it's fine by me
If we never leave
And we can live like this forever
It's fine by me
I finished the song and stood, keeping her eye contact the entire time. I slowly put my guitar away before going to take a seat between Jake and Joe, taking Blaine's advice to not say anything after and just leave Sarah to her thoughts.
Finn started clapping, "Alright, fine, I'll admit, you're a pretty great singer."
I laughed, "Thanks."
"I think," Finn glanced at Sarah, "We have another performance today."
Sarah nodded and quickly stood being followed by all the other girls, and Wade, to the middle of the room. She looked as if she wanted to say something, but ended on just shaking her head and beginning to sing.
Owwwwh [repeats]
She, she ain't real,
She ain't gonna be able to love you like I will,
She is a stranger,
You and I have history,
Or don't you remember?
Sure, she's got it all,
But, baby, is that really what you want?
The girls all started dancing around as Sarah stood still.
Bless your soul, you've got your head in the clouds,
She made a fool out of you,
And, boy, she's bringing you down,
She made your heart melt,
But you're cold to the core,
Now rumour has it she ain't got your love anymore,
Rumour has it (rumour) [x8]
She, is half your age,
But I'm guessing that's the reason that you've stayed,
I heard you've been missing me,
You've been telling people things you shouldn't be,
Like when we creep out when she ain't around,
Haven't you heard the rumours?
I heard Santana scoff and, out of the corner of my eye, could see her cross her arms. I just rolled my eyes at her and continued watching all the girls, but mainly Sarah.
(Bless your soul!...) Bless your soul, you've got your head in the clouds,
You made a fool out of me,
And, boy, I'm bringing me down,
You made my heart melt, yet I'm cold to the core,
But rumour has it I'm the one you're leaving her for,
Rumour has it (rumour) [x8]
An instinct jerked me forward when a tear dripped down Sarah's cheek as she continued singing, but Jake set a hand on my arm to calm me.
All of these words whispered in my ear,
Tell a story that I cannot bare to hear,
Just 'cause I said it, it don't mean that I meant it,
People say crazy things,
Just 'cause I said it, don't mean that I meant it,
Just 'cause you heard it,
Rumour has it (rumour) [x14]
But rumour has it he's the one I'm leaving you for.
I, and probably the rest of the room, winced when Sarah's voice cracked on the last note.
The girls all broke from their final pose and immediately surrounded her. I could barely hear their soothing words over the rush of blood in my ears.
Sam turned around, "Don't move, everything's going to be fine. Stand your ground."
I nodded, trying my hardest to do as he said. Mercedes reached across Blaine to place a hand on my knee. I looked up and gave her a small smile.
"Love you," she whispered.
I chuckled, "Love you too."
Sarah broke out of the girls' circle with tears streaming down her face, "Noah," she whispered, "I'm sorry," and she ran from the room.
~~~~~GLEE~~~~~
A/N: That was a little hard to write and not in the way where I had no ideas, it was hard because I thought it was kinda sad. Is that what you thought as well? The songs were Fine By Me by Andy Grammer and Rumour Has It by Adele (idea courtesy of Brooke). PLEASE REVIEW with any questions, comments, concerns, or suggestions! I'm sure there'll be a lot of thoughts after this and am open to hear them all!
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Dance-sing-live - Can I just say you're amazing for being so supportive? Cause you are! Thanks a million! And yeah, they're doing Gangnam Style, but I had some ideas, especially after what happened last episode, for the duet. PM me your song ideas! I wonder if they're the same!
Brooke - I hope you liked how I put the song in! Thank you for the idea and your kind words!
smilin steph - Lol, I still thought the episode was amazing though!
Tyra - Thanks! I try!
~~~~~GLEE~~~~~
Sneak Peak: I turned away from Jake to see Sarah doubled over whimpering. Sam's hand was on her back, "What's wrong? Tell me, Sars. What's wrong?"
If there's one thing that can bring Puck and Sarah together, it might be this.