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Chapter 36

"Would you stop your pacing, it's driving me crazy," Emmett bellowed as he sat on the couch engaged in a video game with Jasper.

I flipped him the bird behind his back and sat back down at one of the dining room chairs. I glanced at my watch and saw that I still had fifteen minutes before Jasper and I could leave to pick up Bella and Alice. They were getting ready for prom at Bella's house. Alice said it had something to do with me getting the full effect.

I had no idea what she meant and I didn't want to. What I wanted was to be with Bella and holding her as we danced. She reluctantly agreed to go as long as I didn't dare ask her to another one for twenty five years.

Why are you so edgy, Edward?

I wasn't sure how to answer Jasper as I wasn't completely sure myself why I was anxious. Since Bella's return from Jacksonville, things had been going smoothly. Alice's visions said we were on the right track, Bella seemed more at ease, and I finally felt as if things were going right in my life. There was no need to be worried or anxious, Alice said so herself.

Even when Bella talked to Charlie about her supposedly after school plans, it went better than Bella thought and as well as I expected.

I had stayed in her room as she and Charlie talked downstairs. Charlie had been trying to talk to Bella about her plans for a while now, but she kept blowing him off. It took Alice telling her it was important for her to do this when Bella finally found the courage to do it.

Charlie was, well a bit skeptical to say the least. He worried that Bella would have a harder time going to college if she waited too long. But, my girl stood her ground, used sound logic and reason with him and after awhile he agreed to think about it. The next day he spoke to Renee who talked some sense into Charlie like she told Bella she would do. In the end, Charlie agreed to the plan with added proviso that Bella only goes to the community college for one year. I could tell that Bella hated lying to Charlie, it was in her eyes. But she held herself firm and agreed to what Charlie was requesting.

Later that night I held her as she cried. She was finding it hard to say goodbye to Charlie. She knew that she had to be careful as he was too observant for his own good. We ran through several ways for her to be able to say what she wanted, but so far nothing felt right to her.

In my own mind, I had hopes that when I finally did speak to Charlie about marrying Bella, that his blessing, if he gave one, would help Bella find her peace. We were planning for me to talk to Charlie a few weeks before graduation. So far Alice has been unable to see how Charlie would react.

That alone caused Bella some serious anxiety. Only after I told her I would do all the talking, was she finally able to relax and calm down.

I have heard him think the thought of us marrying. But whenever it came across his mind, he was quick to dismiss it and think of something else. He was having a hard time seeing Bella as a grown woman and not the small little girl he once knew. Many times I would find him replaying memories from when Bella was younger. That was the Bella he was familiar with, not the grown girl that came to live with him. He was having a hard time reconciling the two of them.

So, this all brings me back to why was I so anxious? I guess it came down to one thing; I was worried that something was going to fuck things up. I was waiting for the proverbial shoe to drop and it had me on edge. I was so close to getting what I always wanted that I was worried it was all going to be taken from me. The old insecurities that I didn't deserve Bella crept back, making me anxious.

We never deserve them, Edward. All we can do is show them that we are thankful that they love us and by doing so, they didn't make a mistake.

I whipped my head to turn in Jasper's direction, confusion at his words coursing through me. He must have felt it for he continued to talk.

Look at me. I did some pretty fucked up shit before I meet Alice. But, somehow despite it all, she loves me. Me, Edward. There are days when I still wonder why.

I made my way to the couch closest to where he sat, still playing a game with Emmett. He glanced at me out of the corner of his eye and I nodded for him to continue.

All of us, including Carlisle, have days when we feel we don't deserve our mates love. But that doesn't mean we don't stop trying to be worthy of it. Don't forget, you are a mated vampire, Edward. With that comes the knowledge that she is it for you, just that you are the one for her.

He was silent as I thought over what he said. He was right. Bella and I were mated. That is the ultimate form of connection you could get. Nothing could change that. Nothing could break that.

But most of all, you need to have faith; faith in her, in you, in your bond and in your love. Stop second guessing it all. Because when you do, you doubt it all. Including her.

We were interrupted by the sound of tires on gravel; the limo I had rented had arrived. Jasper and I busied ourselves with putting on shoes and jackets, while Esme grabbed the corsages out of the fridge. She reminded us to take lots of pictures and to have fun.

"Thanks," I told Jasper when the driver shut the door. "I don't know why I'm anxious all of a sudden." I finally confessed.

Jasper smirked at me, "It's ok. You two are dealing with a lot and there are bound to be times when you feel insecure. I have every faith that when you need to be strong, you will."

He looked out the window to see that we were close to Bella's house. "Forget about the next few months, instead, just enjoy being with Bella. Make this a good memory for you both."

With that said, the limo stopped in front of her house and we quickly scampered out of the limo and up to the front door. Charlie was already waiting for us, with the door wide open. He eyed the limo with a speculative glance.

"Going all out I see boys."

"Got to treat our girls with style, Sir," replied Jasper in his slow southern drawl.

Charlie smirked. "They will be down in a minute. Alice said something about making an entrance."

We both nodded and stood by the couch, turning anxiously towards the stairs waiting for the ladies to appear. I could hear Alice putting on the finishing touches to Bella all the while she recited the Latin names for STD's complete with visual aids. I skipped out of her mind in a hurry.

No less than three minutes later, I heard the sound of heels on the floor and watched as a silver clad foot stepped down followed by flowing chiffon. From the quick intake of breath behind me, I knew that it was Alice who was coming down.

She looked beautiful in a long, flowing gown of emerald chiffon that was mostly sleeveless except for the small strap over one shoulder. It looked gathered at the waist where a small beaded detail held it all. The slit on one side ran clear up to just above her knee and from Jasper's thoughts, he was zeroed in on that slit.

Jasper came from behind me to meet Alice at the bottom of the stairs, where he grasped her hand, kissing her knuckles gently while murmured, "Beautiful, Alice. You look stunning."

She kissed his cheek and surveyed him in his all black tux. We opted to do vests and ties as Alice stated it was more modern looking. Of course, Alice also made sure we matched the colors of their dresses as well.

Jasper presented Alice with her wrist corsage of pale yellow roses and slipped it onto her delicate wrist. With her other hand she caressed his face and looked at him adoringly, "Handsome as ever."

He tucked her hand into the crook of his arm and led her towards the sofa. I kept my eyes peeled, anxious to see Bella.

She looks beautiful, Edward.

I scoffed inwardly at that, when didn't she look beautiful?

Just then, I heard the click of heels on the floor again and with bated breath, watched as a black kitten heeled shoe stepped down. My eyes traveled up the exposed skin of her legs and caught the hint of a dark red dress. Soon I saw the perfection that was Bella.

Her dress was stunning. A halter top framed her breasts in a modest but still so enticing manner, the waist was fitted to her luscious curves and the skirt of the dress was tiers of chiffon. The front went to just about her knees and the back kissed the back of her calves. The darkness of the red was set off beautifully by the paleness of her skin. Around her neck was a small black satin choker. She was exquisite.

Somehow I had found myself standing at the foot of the stairs, my eyes never leaving hers as I drank in the sight before me. I couldn't help but smile at her as our hands connected. Her eyes sparkled with excitement and her lips curved into a delectable smile. Her hair fell gently down her back in chocolate waves.

"You are absolutely breathtaking, Bella." I placed a chaste kiss on her cheek and presented her with a wrist corsage of a single red rose with a small sprig of baby's breath.

"You look good, too, Edward."

I wanted to keep staring at her but a giggle form Alice and a loud throat clearing from Charlie brought me back into reality. I escorted her towards the sofa where my siblings waited and began the process of picture taking. What seemed liked hours, but in all actuality it was only minutes later, the pictures were done and we had helped the girls into the limo.

The drive over to the school was short and sweet and before long, we were in the gym that had been transformed into a ballroom. Kind of. Alice tsked over the decorations and I had to agree with her. Although it wasn't as tacky as Homecoming. Now, hundreds of twinkle lights hung everywhere, soft billowy fabrics hung from the ceiling to cover up the harshness of the gym equipment. A DJ was set up and spinning tunes in one corner, while the opposite corner held a refreshment table.

Small circular tables lined the perimeter of the gym. Each of them was covered in black or white tablecloths, tea lights burned in crystal centerpieces and the entire table was covered in black, white and silver confetti.

The four of us commandeered a table where we set our belongings before we went out to dance. It was easier to get Bella out there than the last dance we went to. Of course we made a bargain that I wouldn't let her go all night long. It was a small price to pay, but I was more than willing to have her spend the night in my arms.

As the night wore on and we danced, my need and desire for her grew. The feel of her body as it molded to me as we swayed to the music only furthered my lust. The feel of her ass as it grinded up against my rock hard cock only intensified my longing.

The smell of her neck teased me and I couldn't help by lay small, feather light kisses over her exposed shoulders. The feel of her fingers as she played with my hair at my nape sent shivers down my spine. As the minutes turned into hours, our world narrowed down till it was just us. Till all I felt was the heat of skin and all I heard was the sound of her breath against my neck.

By 11:30, I was desperate to be alone with her. Prom was supposed to go until 1 am, but I knew there was no way I would last that long. I needed her now. I trailed my nose up her neck and flicked her ear with my tongue. I was rewarded with a small whimper.

"Ready to leave, baby?"

She nodded yes and we hastily gathered our coats and her purse. I made eye contact with Jasper to let him know that we were heading out. He gave me a nod and I all but dragged Bella towards the waiting limo.

I had made reservations at a little bed and breakfast just outside of Port Angeles. Charlie was under the assumption that Bella was staying at my house. Emmett will come and get Jasper and Alice when they are ready to leave. But that wasn't what was on my mind at the moment. I was focused on Bella. She looked radiant.

There was a slight flush to her skin from the dancing, her breathing was a bit erratic and I could smell that she wanted me as much as I did her. Once we were inside the limo, I raised the privacy screen and reminded the driver not to interrupt us. He already knew where he needed to go.

Bella kicked off her heels as the limo pulled away and I dragged her across my lap. Automatically one of my hands twined itself into hair and pulled her down for a kiss. I wanted to start out slow and gentle. But one taste of her and I was gone. The heady scent of her swirled around me and I crushed our lips together in a fierce kiss.

Lips and tongues meet in a frenzy of need and desperation. I could feel what control I possessed slowly slip away. My cock ached, and my need for her had reached unbearable heights. When Bella grabbed a fistful of my hair and smashed her lips to mine, I was a man consumed by desire.

My hands deftly untied the top of her dress and just as fast I had the zipper down as well. I moved Bella so she was straddling me and quickly pulled her dress up and off of her. When I took in what had been under that dress, I had to keep myself from fucking her senseless.

Her tits were bare but she had on a skimpy and sheer thong with a black lace garter belt that held up her sheer black stockings. I couldn't contain the growl that rumbled through me. Bella's eyes closed at my growl and moaned as she felt the vibrations roll through her.

Without warning, I stripped off my vest and dress shirt. I needed her and I needed her now. Nothing short of being buried into her wet heat would be satisfactory. Bella's hands were all over my chest once my clothes were removed while my hands attacked her nipples and my lips licked hr collarbones.

Her whimpers and moans filled the limo and I reveled in the knowledge that I drove her to make such glorious sounds. We were a flurry of hands, roaming, teasing, stroking and caressing. I could hear her panting and my cock was ready to bust forth from my pants.

"Need you," I panted into Bella's mouth.

"Me too," she moaned.

Together we worked to undo my belt and pull my pants and boxers down to the floor of the limo. My cock sprang forth and slapped my stomach. I ripped the pathetic excuse for panties off Bella with a flick of my fingers.

Without warning I pulled Bella closer, lined her up with my cock and slammed her down in one fluid motion. She was so wet for me that I glided into her with ease. We both closed our eyes, lost in the feeling of steel in satin, fire merging with ice.

"You feel so good," I gasped against her lips.

As if we were one mind, she pushed her hips down and I flexed upwards, driving even deeper into her pussy. Bella placed her hands on my shoulders and used it for leverage as she began to bounce up and down on me. My hands held her hips, guiding her, moving with her as if we were one pulsing being.

Faster and harder we went our cries and groans were the rhythm that moved to. I watched as my cock slid in and out of her, covered in her warm juices. Just watching us, as we joined in the most primal and natural way added fuel to the fire burning within me. There was an overwhelming drive to make Bella fall to pieces, to watch as she rode the high that only I could provide her.

My hands roamed over her slick body, a pluck of her nipples, and a lick of her neck. I kneaded her ass as she rode me faster and harder, panting and moaning her needs. Her hands had a tight grip on my neck and her face a picture of bliss and desire.

"So good," she chanted over and over. Her pussy started the tell tale fluttering and I knew she was close.

I pulled her closer, so that there was no place that out bodies were not touching. I could feel her pants on my neck, her heart beat against my chest and her blood pulsed along the contours of my skin. The delicious pressure in my gut grew from a dull ache to a full out throbbing mess.

"So close," I whispered in her ear. "Come with me, love."

With that, I sucked hard on her ear and ground her clit against my pubic bone.

"Oh, yes!" she screamed as her orgasm zipped through her body, her body trembled with the force of it. Her pussy clamped on my cock like a vice and it milked out the cum that boiled just at the surface. My head was thrown back as my body jerked from the spasms racking my body.

When we were both spent, Bella collapsed on my chest and I held her close. I stroked her back as she struggled to calm down. I placed soft kisses on her temple and murmured tender words of love. A glance outside told me we were not far from the bed and breakfast, so needed to get Bella dressed.

With a little coaxing, I helped her slip her dress back on and I worked to redress myself the best I could. I was missing several buttons on my shirt and my vest had a huge rip on one of the seams. We laid there together, enjoying the relaxing feeling that only great sex can give you. I wrapped Bella in my jacket just as the limo rolled to a stop. I kissed Bella's cheek as I helped her out. I tipped the driver and took our bag that he had retrieved from the trunk. I had already checked us in as I knew we would be arriving late.

I had reserved one of the cottages that were separate from the main house. When I opened the door, Bella looked around, her mouth forming a perfect little 'O' in surprise. Our cottage was warm and had a cozy feeling. A small sitting area with a brown leather couch sat in front of a roaring fire. Huge bay windows overlooked a wooded area, while the king sized bed dominated the far back wall.

A small kitchenette was in another corner. A door just off the kitchenette led to the bathroom, where there was a whirlpool tub and huge shower. The whole place was intimate and reminded me of our cottage, hence the reason why I reserved it.

"It's beautiful, Edward," whispered Bella. She was slowly walking around, taking in the decorations and the feel of the room. I walked to the windows to look outside, the moon making silvery shadows with the trees. I turned to see Bella standing in front of the fire, the flames hypnotizing her. I watched as the play of reds and oranges from the fire danced along her skin. Immediately my cock hardened at the sight.

I worried that she may not be ready for me, or still sore from the limo sex. But I needed her; the desire was potent as it coursed through my veins. Slowly I made towards her, inhaling deeply the unique aroma that was all Bella. As one arm went around her waist, my other hand pushed her hair off to one side and I trailed soft kisses down her neck.

Bella shivered and soft moans escaped. My lips never stopped as I untied her dress again and pulled down the zipper. In seconds she was standing in just her garter and stockings. Her nipples puckered at being exposed and my hands came up to flick them.

Bella arched into my hands as I kneaded her breasts and rolled her nipples. I could smell that she was becoming aroused and I knew I wouldn't stop until I had my fill of her. I maneuvered us so that she was standing, facing the bed and I was still behind her. My hands trailed down her back to the garter belt which I pulled off. The stockings were still attached and I rolled them down and off.

I hastily tore my clothes off, not caring that remaining buttons were flying or that I ripped my pants to shreds. All I cared about was being buried inside her wet heat. Gently I pushed Bella down, so her top half rested on the bed. I kneaded her ass as I sunk down behind her and began licking her dripping pussy. I attacked her clit with ferocity and my fingers plunged deep inside her.

Bella, overwhelmed with sensations, fell onto her arms as I licked and sucked everywhere on her pussy. Her juices coated my lips and face but I didn't care.

"Oh, fuck. Yes, yes, more," chanted Bella.

Her pussy clamped down on my fingers and her clit swelled. I flicked it vampire speed and felt as that drove Bella straight to her orgasm. She gushed all over my face, my fingers pumped in and out of her pussy relentlessly all throughout her orgasm.

"Oh, oh my…so good," she panted.

I smirked as I stood up over her bent body. I covered her sweat coated back with my icy chest as I licked a bead of sweat that was at the nape of her neck.

"You haven't seen anything yet, baby." Her body shuddered as my icy breath blew over her overheated skin.

Slowly, teasingly I kissed and licked down her spine. Tasting her saltiness; her own special scent. I watched as goose bumps erupted wherever I kissed her. Moans fell from her lips. My hands plucked and rolled her hard nipples as I kissed every inch of exposed skin. When I got to her ass, I licked and kissed her there, causing Bella to shiver. Her pussy was once again leaking, coating the tops of her thighs.

Bella was squirming and arching, seeking any type of friction. Her body was shaking, she was whimpering, every touch brought forth such glorious moans. Not wanting to keep her waiting I lined up my cock and in one thrust I buried myself deep inside her. Bella fell forward from the sudden intrusion.

"Oh, fuck, feels so good," I moaned. The heat of her pussy felt amazing on my cock.

Slowly I thrust in and out. Watching as my cock became coated in her juices. My hands trailed down her spine, rubbing and kneading. The urge to just go wild and fast was nearly mind boggling, but I kept up my slow and steady pace.

Bella began to meet my thrusts, trying to get me deeper into her. I held her hips steady, this was my show and I planned on driving her wild. She tossed her head from side to side.

"More, Edward, more…please," she begged. I could feel her trying to move her hips, I tightened my grip on her hips and swiveled my hips. The groan I heard from her was reward enough.

I watched as her moans turned into pants and there was a wild look in her eyes, her pussy was absolutely drenched as I could feel it coating my cock and running out of her. Once again, I kissed from the base of her spine all the way back up to her neck, tasting her as I went. My pumping was steady and rhythmic.

"You want more, baby girl?" I asked as I flicked her ear. Each word was punctuated with a deep hard thrust inside her needy pussy.

"Oh, shit, yes. Please!" she begged. She looked over her shoulder at me. "Please, Edward, I need more. Harder, faster."

Her eyes were full of pent up desire and passion. Her face was flushed and she was gnawing on her lower lip. I watched as I pushed into again, deeper and her eyes rolled back. I rolled and pulled on her nipples, drawing out grunts and groans from Bella. I knew I was evil for teasing her, but it felt so good.

"Oh, fuck." She closed her eyes as I continued my assault on her nipples, twisting, pinching, and pulling. She was so responsive, mewls of pleasure fell from her mouth.

I could feel my control slipping; I needed to fuck her now. I stood upright, angled her pelvis and without warning began a pace so fast, so deep and furious that Bella and the bed shook.

"Oh, fuck!" screamed Bella as her orgasm ripped throughout her body. Her pussy clenched down on me and her body went rigid. But still I pounded her from behind, feeling her pussy as it convulsed all around me.

"Oh... oh…yess," hissed Bella. If it was possible, her pussy became even wetter, hotter. But I never changed my pace.

I moved my hips to hit her g-spot every other thrust and kept her on the edges of cumming, over and over I fucked her. My eyes glued to watching me move in and out of her. It was such a glorious sight. Once again I felt Bella as she clamped down on me, her body shaking, whimpering. Sweat covered her body, her heart thrummed, her pulse raced.

I changed angles again and this time I always hit her g-spot, I was wringing one more from her, one more that will bring me with her.

"Oh, fuck, no… not again." She shook her head, not realizing her body was betraying her. Her pussy fluttered her g-spot swelling. The orgasm that I had been holding back, moved through me. That all too familiar coil wound tighter and tighter. I thrust faster, almost at vampire speed.

No longer were any words being spoken, we were both nothing but loud pants and groans. I slipped one hand to hold onto her shoulder and tip my pelvis to go even deeper.

"So close," I chanted.

"Oh..please," whimpered Bella.

I threw my head back, getting lost in the sensations of her warm pussy around my icy cock. The pulsing need of my own orgasm thrummed through me, closer and closer as it came to the edge. Bella's pussy was quivering non-stop, her own orgasm just seconds from erupting.

As her pussy clenched down hard signaling that she was cumming, I pulled Bella up, her back flush against my chest and I pumped a few more times before my own orgasm was ripped out of me and flooded her pussy with my jizz. Bella's entire body shook as came down from her high. I stroked her face and arms to help her down gently. My cock pulsed as I drained all I had into her.

When our bodies finally calmed, Bella slumped in my arms and I pulled us onto the bed. She was a sweaty mess and I was so completely sated and blissed out. I barely had gotten the covers over us before Bella fell asleep. I arranged her to be more comfortable and snuggled her close. I closed my eyes and was lulled into a state of complete relaxation by the sound of her heart.

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