CHAPTER THIRTY SEVEN

TOBIAS POV

It has been two days since my nightmare breakdown. Tris has stayed with me the whole time. I hate having her worry about me so much, but I'm glad she does. I know she plans on going back to the dorms tonight, I hate the idea of her being there and it's not because of my nightmares. It is less than a week until initiation will be over and then she can move in.

Caleb is still here, Erudite have put out a missing persons alert for him. Mum and dad know where he is because they came for dinner the other night. They all just have to pretend to act worried and concerned in front of others. Tris finds this extremely difficult but it will only be for a short time. The trials will start next week.

Today we are starting the fear simulations again. We are going to have the initiates go through two a day. One in the morning and one in the afternoon. It isn't going to be much fun for them but it will make it all go quicker. We are just going to have three days of fear simulations. Then they will get a day off and then we will have their fear landscapes.

"Christina," I call her into the simulation room.

I can see the dread on her face as she goes to sit in the chair. I never did tell Tris what happened in here that day. Maybe one day Tris and Christina will be friends again and Christina can tell her.

"If you get the same fear as last time I am going to get the computer to skip over it. You might not get the fear again, especially now that Eric isn't here but I can't promise it," I say.

"I understand," she says. There seems to be a spark that has left Christina lately. It's sad really, as much as I hate her insistent chatter I don't like to see her this way.

"If the fear does come back, you are going to have to face it at some point. If not in here than you will have to face it in the fear landscape. So I want you to think about how you might be able to get past it."

Christina just nods and I inject her with the serum.

I move over to the computer screen and I watch. Where her fear of Eric had been horrible to watch, well this fear has me ready to roll on the ground laughing. Moths. At first it is funny because there are only a few but as the simulation goes on there are hundreds of them. I look at the time at the bottom of the screen, she has been in here for ten minutes. I hope she can start to calm herself soon.

Eventually Christina gets through it and I can start moving through the other initiates. I am over half way done for the morning when Uriah bounces into the room. I hope he is this positive once this is over.

"Hey Four," Uriah says.

"Hi Uriah. You ready?"

"As ready as I'll ever be," he says as I inject him.

I watch on the screen and I can't help but actually laugh at him. Thankfully he is only in there for six minutes. As he wakes up I look at him and say, "really?"

"What do you mean?"

"You are afraid of the kitchen running out of Dauntless cake?"

"I would think you would understand my fear Four," he says.

I start to laugh; I just can't help myself.

"You can't tell anyone can you?" he asks, extremely seriously.

"No Uriah. Your secret is safe with me," I say.

"Good. Could you imagine the shit Zeke would give me if he knew," he says. This just makes me laugh more.

"See, look at how you are reacting he will be a hell of a lot worse that you," he says.

"I wasn't laughing at you Uriah. I was laughing at the thought of how Zeke would react."

"Oh, okay. I'll see you later Four," Uriah says and he bounces back out. Probably wanting to get to the dining hall as quickly as possible so he doesn't miss out on his cake.

"How are the fear simulations going Four," Zeke asks.

Uriah looks over to me, I can see the worry etched on his face.

"You know I can't discuss them with you Zeke," I say.

"I know that. But you could at least tell us all what some of the fears are," he says.

"No, not going to happen. If anyone wants to tell you what their fear is then they can but I'm not going to tell you anything."

"Come on Four, we could do with a good laugh," Shauna says.

"Not happening. You have seven initiates sitting at the table, ask them yourself," I say.

I look around the table and there are seven heads all shaking their heads no at us. "There, I think you have your answer," I say.

"Oh well. So what's happening with the trials?" Zeke says.

"They have started with the lower level members of Erudite. They arrested sixty-five of them. Jack thinks it will take all week to get through what they have to say. Then they will start on the ten Dauntless members. Once they are all done they will start on all the leaders," I say.

"Are we able to go?" Shauna asks.

"Yeah, they are all open to the public," I say.

"Are you going?" Zeke asks.

"I have to be there for the leader's interrogations. I have also told Jack to tell me when Eric's will be. I really want to see what Eric has to say," I say.

"What do you think will happen to them?" Lynn asks.

"It will depend on what they are found guilty of. I think a lot of people will be found not guilty because they were just following their leader's instructions," I say.

"Including Eric?" Shauna asks.

"I have no idea when it comes to Eric. There have been moments where he has shown he can be nice. He treated Tris well in training sometimes and then he acted horribly towards others. I have to wonder what is really going on with him," I say. "I just hope we get everyone who is guilty. As for anyone else, I feel sorry for them. This will stay with them for a long time after it is all finished. They will always be remembered for having to go on trial."

I spend the afternoon going through all the initiates fears again. I can't believe some of what I have to see. There are the usual fears like heights and afraid of the dark. But then we get to some of the stranger ones like clowns and snowmen. Then there are the ones that I haven't seen before like flowers and beards.

Tris has the quickest times of all the initiates with Uriah following behind by the smallest of margins. Neither Tris or Uriah have shown any signs of being divergent in the sims but I had spoken to both of them separately before they had started last week so they understood what they needed to do.

At least there is only two more days of this.