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Jane had not ever been able to sleep since Maura had been brought home. Now it was Maura who would comfort the other woman. Even after they assumed the baby, well she had always had restless rest.
It was also a sad sight. The doctor would comfort her the best way she knew how.
It was something they needed to face head on. They hoped that the whole situation could be sorted out. They needed to discuss everything, every aspect. The force had long ago implemented a therapy and counseling program.
Things would be taken slowly. That rush they both felt when Maura first came back had since disappeared. Things should not be taken likely, especially on this level, it had a major magnitude brought with it.
To overcome everything would be a process and have to be done little by little and would take time.
"So we start today right?"
"Yes."
"Maura are you ready to tell?"
Sign up was anonymous and kept anonymous but Jane and Maura were already tired of hiding they had discussed just coming out in general.
Both were tired of hiding.
They went through the day normally. This had also been a fact, they continued to work through it all. Both women figured it would be best to have a routine.
They were after all cleared after the kidnapping as is usual for cases where endangerment occurred.
Jane had been through the process before and knew all the hoops to jump through one might say.
Maura passed well because she was oblivious. No word had gone to the station of the pregnancy scare.
It gave them an opportunity to compartmentalize themselves. It also gave them an opportunity of being together, one which neither ever
wanted to lose no matter how distant they had become in certain ways.
Maura came up to meet Jane after the full day.
"You know- they might trigger something for you- you are ready for that?"
"No but like I said, it will be good. I cannot work through it all until well, it comes back."
"I'll be there for you, when it happens." Jane smiles halfway. "You are there for me at night, so I'll be there for you."
In all honesty Maura knew of mental illness. She suffered from anxiety herself, major anxiety. Some might even say she was to some degree a sociopath, never wanting to communicate with others, a little to self reliant.
"Hello!" it was the counselor speaking to both of them. In the schedule it stated that some days would be group therapy and others would be individual. Today was individual but they insisted they go together. The man had agreed figuring that he would just explain the rules of everything during the first meeting.
"So Maura…" He looked over. "It says here you wanted to discuss recent events that pertain to, your, situation involving a Mr. Stark."
"Yes sir that is correct."
He smiled sympathetically and then looked over to Jane.
"So what may I ask are you doing here Ms. Rizzoli?"
"Well, I figured I should be with Maura for Moral support."
Maura looked at Jane with disappointment.
"Well, okay, I was the one who well had to save Maura, and she feels that… well we feel it has taken a toll on me. I myself was abducted before and, it was never really dealt with."
"I've always felt weird and out of place, well corky as some might call it. I never really have many people to rely upon. I felt this may be a reason to expand myself. It is hard, we both have been put into this situation multiple times. We usually come out on the other side without any, well problems. There is always something that occurs that we are able to get though it quickly without it leaving a mark.
"The thing Maura is trying to say I think is that, this situation left a wound and now we need help, letting it scar."
"I see. And what may I ask makes this situation different?"
"She wasn't saved in time."
The doctor looks between them.
"It says here you do not remember the trauma is that right Maura?"
Maura nods.
"Do you mind if we try a few exercises?"
"Not a problem."
"Jane would you mind stepping out for this? I think I should talk to Maura alone and do these things more one on one. You may be next, I feel like we should also talk one on one."
Jane nods and steps out.
The therapist starts to question Maura.
"So Maura, would you mind telling me about your past?"
"Well I had felt pretty neglected, until recently. Things started to get better, I went to Africa and worked with my biological mother who was very kind. I recently learned about all of this, that in itself was sort of… a process…this whole ordeal was just the straw that broke the camel's back."
They then underwent multiple psychological tests. Word association was common and done. He also as usual made her undergo giving abstract pictures names of objects that she made them out to be.
"Can I ask you about Jane?"
Maura exhaled. He seemed intrigued and wrote down a note.
"This is confidential right?"
"Of course, I am not allowed to dispel any information unless there is reason to believe you will harm someone or yourself."
"We are together and it drives me crazy that we haven't told anyone. We are considering doing it soon but it's all just… complicated. This part I want on the record, the reason that this part was different also, was because we had a pregnancy scare. It was horrible and now I do not know how she feels about it all."
"A secret relationship causes stress on anyone, it is not healthy. Maura, if there is anything I learned in my work it is that you must help yourself before anyone else, you can never aid anyone if you yourself are unstable. When you go on a plane the first thing they state is that if the plane starts to go down that you have to put the mask on yourself first, or you won't be able to help anybody else. I'll be honest, politics are never my strong suit but…"
"I see. I never really thought about it all that way."
"Well that's why I am here." He smiles. "Now will you call Jane in here?"
"Yes!"
Maura already felt a bit better just being able to discuss it all.
Her hand was on the door knob when his voice started again.
"Maura would you like to discuss your relationship when Jane and I are done? The three of us should have a talk about it I believe."
"Would it be best?"
"I believe so."
"Then yes. I think we should discuss it."
She exits.
"How did it go?" Jane looked her up and down. Was it all too much to beaten beyond repair?
"It was quite exhilarating. It was nice, being able to talk. It made me feel less deserted."
"I'm happy that is amazing."
"He wants to speak with you alone next."
She hugs Maura with care before entering.
"Hi detective."
"So what are you going to do? Do some brain scans?" She laughs.
"That's a psychologist's job Jane." He joins into the light heartedness.
"You seem very relaxed that is good. Usually it takes a lot for me to get those who have undergone such ordeals to open up."
"Well, if you don't smile you cry… that's how it goes right?"
"Very precise." He smiles.
She undergoes most of the things that Maura had.
"So tell me about your past?"
"My father was amazing, until recently, my mother was protective but that is understandable."