This is the last chapter taking place in the forth year, I think. Enjoy!
The weeks go by, and the pain doesn't fade. I've stopped going to the Death Eater meetings, and although they haven't confronted me yet, I know they will soon. It's only a matter of time before they force me back, I can't deny it.
I'm growing to hate it, and everything it stands for. The Death Eaters killed my father, and they won't let me get away either.
Lily tries to be there for me, but she doesn't understand. Despite her rebellious streak, she's never done anything bad. She's never been bad. And I can't help but resent it. Resent that she's had life so easy, that she's never been misguided. Maybe she would be bad, if she'd been through what I have.
The Marauders are the worst thing that's ever happened to Lily, but she doesn't seem to realize it. She may act annoyed, but I know she's starting to enjoy it. Behind the insults there is nothing.
I see the way her eyes follow Potter around the room, and how she blushes when he catches her watching. She doesn't want to believe it, but someday she'll fall for it, and it sickens me.
But then today, I notice for the first time the red circles under her eyes. I know she's been crying, and I don't know why. She doesn't trust me anymore, and I don't blame her.
Maybe she doesn't have things is easy as I thought. She's just better than me; she's still good, no matter what happens to her. And I should have known that. At one point I did, I knew that Lily is pure and perfect, but somewhere along the years I lost that.
So when I meet her that afternoon, I immediately wrap my arms around her, because that's all I can do. She doesn't tell me what's wrong, but she smiles for the first time in a while, and I smile too, because when Lily's happy I can almost forget that I'm alone, because when she's smiling at me I don't feel it.
So, on another note, if any of you are Scorpius/Albus fans, I'm writing another story called "Stargazers" if you want to check it out :) Reviews are loved!