Chapter 37
Sam's father gave his permission for Sam to go to the prom with Jake. In face, he, Brynna and Gram had a good laugh over how Maxine had suckered Jake into going knowing that the only girl he could ask would be Sam. The same Sam that both families figured Jake was secretly in love with and that they all hoped he'd marry one day.
Sam spent the two weeks trying to find a dress. She finally found a forest green one that Gram, Brynna and Sam agreed on. Neither wanted anything too sexy or daring, but neither did Sam want a turtleneck. The dress was scoop necked and Brynna told Sam she could wear a pair of her hoop earrings and Sam would wear the turtle necklace that Jake had given her.
As the prom approached, Sam was getting nervous for some reason. She knew the only reason Jake had asked her was because he was too shy to ask any other girl, but she couldn't help fretting that he might not like her dress, like what she planned on doing with her hair or not like anything to do with her.
Sam knew she wouldn't be dancing that night. She would sit with Jake at the table and he'd be wanting to leave as soon as he possibly could. Sam debated on whether or not to wear her watch. She was sure Jake would be asking her what time it was every five minutes until he figured it was long enough and be able to leave.
She had to admit, she was curious to see what Jake wore. She had seen him sorta dressed up a couple of times, but never in a suit. It would give her a preview of what he might look like when he got married.
Sam had been in her room late at night, not being able to sleep, when that thought crossed her mind. She had bite back a cry at the thought of seeing Jake at his wedding. She wasn't sure why the idea of Jake at his wedding upset her.
As she lay on her back in bed, she allowed herself to dissect her feelings. She cared a lot about Jake, she would admit that to herself or anyone who might ask. What she wouldn't admit to anyone was just how much she cared. She couldn't admit it even to herself.
She was still worried that she felt more for Jake and something happened and they broke up, it would ruin their friendship. She couldn't do without his friendship so she kept all other thoughts and feelings at bay.
Of course, she knew that if she continued Jake could find someone else and she'd lose him that way. She'd still have his friendship though. Could she stand by and let someone else kiss him?
Not that she had much choice in the matter. Jake had never told her that he cared for her as more than a friend. Yes, she was going to prom with him but she realized that the only reason he was going was that his mother was making him and she was the only girl he talked to due to his shyness.
Sam rolled over onto her side and sighed. There were no easy answers. At least not for her this night.