Look Through the Pages

by Alice Vampire

What if Bella had a "hate" for men because of her past? What if she wasn't the quiet, "I need protection" girl she was in the books? What if she was forced into the protection? How would Twilight play out under those circumstances? OOC, AU.

37. Chapter 37

October 1

I do not own the characters of Twilight.

Dear diary,

I don't know what the hell happened last night. I had a nightmare. Well, it wasn't really a nightmare until the end. I can't wrap my head around it. I think its time for me to talk to Esme. I know I can trust her. I think I can trust her. But as Edward's mother, would she be the right person to talk to? Could she be objective? Maybe I can talk to Angela. She might understand me more. She is human and my age. I just need to find a way to talk to her. Being grounded doesn't make it easy. Would it be safe to have her over?

Bella