WE'RE THE CULLENS.
Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyer owns it all.
September 23
BELLA
Evening
I could hear the whispers around me, the dripping of water somewhere. Drop by drop. I could feel tears streaming down my eyes and knew why. There was a gash on my forehead. I know there was blood sticking to it, a drop even trailing down.
Even with the efforts of trying to open my eyes, I couldn't. They were heavy. Like they were held shut by large stones. I wiggled my wrists and gasped from the pain. I hurt everywhere. Especially in my heart.
The cold marble floor was making me shiver and I heard the rain falling heavily outside. Where was I? For one I knew I was down on the floor, on my left side, because my left arm was almost numb due to the body weight. I stretched my toes and realized my ankles hurt.
My whole body was on fire from the pain. The dress I wore could barely protect me from the cold. Or the monsters I heard. I tried to remain still when I heard their footsteps fading away from me. The door opened and then slammed shut tight.
I had to open my eyes now. I shifted a little and gasped when my burning cheek came in contact with the cold marble floor. A sob escaped my chest but I tried to stifle it. I had to get out of here.
First, I had to open my eyes. My breathing spasmed as my hands got shaky. I knew why this was happening. I remember it. I can feel it against my left arm. The blood stained and agonizing me. I felt dizzy even with the eyes closed, what am I to do when I open them?
I wanted to shout out to somebody to come help me and scream from the pain. I wanted it to stop. It was almost unbearable. My throat was dry, like a dessert had thrown up. I wanted some water to drink. Where would I find it?
"Bella?" I gasped when I heard a velvety voice whisper in my head.
"E-Edward?" I croaked out the syllables and I know my words are all slurred.
"Bella, baby open your eyes for me."
"I can't." I wept, fighting for breath as I felt to be all left alone to die.
"Yes, you can. Open your eyes, love."
"I can't."
I heard him let out an irritated sigh. "You can. Don't give up so quickly, baby. You'll remember everything. I promise."
My sweaty palms faced the marble floor as I pushed my knees up to sit. My hands brushing roughly against the rope tied around them. I kicked my legs, trying to move but realized my legs were hurting the most.
Edward promised. I have to do this.
I used force to open my eyelids, like opening an old window shutter and they closed twice before I could eventually open them. They were better off closed. Nothing was clear. My head was throbbing as the entire room spun in front of my eyes.
It was dark, just the moonlight glowing from somewhere and my vision blurred again. I blinked away my tears but there was nothing but a blank canvas around me. I couldn't see anything, just dark spots and feeling like I'm in one of those cup and saucer rides that spin your head.
My heart was beating like a hummingbird's as I recalled my day. I curled up into a ball, thinking about it. I shuddered, the fear was making me dizzy and my stomach churned with nausea.
Are Seth and Eli alright?
Where's Edward?
Edward.
He was the last thought in my head before my eyes couldn't stay any longer and I dreamt about how horrible this day was turning out to be.
September 23, 2016
Afternoon
I snuggled closer to Edward, the rise and fall of his chest making me smile. He looked so peaceful fast asleep. I stroked his hair, leaning on my elbow to stare at his handsome face. He sighed, his face a content mask of peacefulness.
It was a good thing Edward got home for a while. It gave him some time to rest. The week has been incredibly nerve-wracking for him so far. He had been going early mornings and coming back around midnight. Eli haven't had the chance to talk to him about anything. She missed him a lot.
Edward took a break and rushed back to us but Eli was asleep and Seth was busy watching a movie. He literally threw me on the bed and we made love over and over. We hadn't gotten time to ourselves since Friday.
I stroked his cheek, my thumb brushing across the cheek bones. His green eyes fluttered open to stare at me. His mouth twisted into a smile but his eyes still looked tired. I felt sad for him. He should get some sleep.
"It's just two. Go to sleep. I'll wake you up in an hour or something."
Edward turned and buried his nose against my neck, his arms trapping me against him. I chuckled. He knew I would leave. I wrapped my arms around him and kissed his hair.
"I'm so tired." He murmured against my neck.
"Well, that's because you worry too much, baby. Nothing will happen to us. I'm worried about you." Edward pulled back to look at me.
"Don't be, angel." He leaned up and placed a kiss on my lips.
"I won't." I said, although I could never stop worrying about him.
"You can't lie."
I blushed. "You know it." I placed my hands on either side of his glorious face. "I love you. We are together in this. I hurt when you hurt, it's simple as that."
"You have me here with you. I'm always with you. In your thoughts, in your heart. Even when I'm not here, you never have time to miss me, because I'm never too far from you. I love to see you happy, I want to give you that. Just another two days, then I'm all yours, forever."
I smiled as tears brimmed my eyes and leaned my forehead against his. The end was so close, I could almost taste it.
"You already are mine. You make me happy every day, I want you to know that."
"I smile when you smile. It's simple as that, Ms. Swan." He played my words back on me. I chuckled, kissing his forehead.
"I know. Close your eyes, you can really use a good hour's sleep."
"Stay." He mumbled and pulled me to him.
"I'm never leaving."
"Daddy!" Eli squealed the second her blue orbs fell on Edward as we entered the den. The kids were watching some animated movie and I smiled. She came running to him and slammed herself against his legs. He laughed, lifting her in his arms and hugging her tightly.
"How's my princess?"
"Daddy, I no see you. Me not happy." Eli pouted and I sighed, going over to sit next to Seth.
Edward walked over and sat next to me, placing his princess on his lap. I tucked a stray piece of hair away from her face and gazed at her adorable frown.
"I'm sorry, princess. But daddy has some work. I promise I won't leave your side from Saturday. We can watch all your favorite movies, make the tent you wanted. You can start school this Monday, there is so much to do."
"You say I goes tomowo."
"I did, didn't I? Well, the people called and said that you should come from Monday."
"They no want me?"
I piped in. "Of course they want you, sweetheart. They're going to love you. You're my pretty girl, there is no way somebody can not like you."
"Weally?" She asked, her eyes wide with anxiety.
"Of course, baby. Come here." I pulled her on my lap and hugged her tightly. Her warm body curled up to mine and I kissed her hair. "I love you so much."
"Wov you too, mommy." She pulled back and smiled, pecking my lips softly.
Edward stroked my hair and I rested my head on his shoulder, looking over at Seth. He seemed a little edgy as well. Maybe it was because Edward spoke to him about something last night. They were talking intently for a long time.
I felt something vibrate against my knee and shifted a little so that Edward could get his phone out. He answered the call and spoke in hushed whispers for five minutes. All I could hear was 'docks', 'port' and 'Laurent'. I shuddered and hugged him again.
After the call ended and he set Eli on his lap, staring intently into her eyes. "Princess, daddy has to go now," My heart skipped a beat. "Stay with mommy, okay? I promise I'll be back soon."
Eli started weeping and shook her head, hugging him tightly. Her face pressed against his neck and he sighed, standing up. He rubbed her back, trying to calm her form wrecking with cries. She never wanted him to leave the house and I knew she was catching up on the tension around. My little girl was very smart.
"Angel, don't cry so much. I'll be back before you know it. I promise. Darling, please don't cry. Daddy can't stand you cry." He said softly but Eli continued sobbing.
I walked over and stroked her hair. "Eli? Honey, look at me." A few moments later, she turned to me, her tear stained face staring at me tragically. I wiped away her tears. "Daddy promised he'll be home soon. We can bake cookies until then, even Gale is coming over. You like Benji, don't you? Daddy really has some work, otherwise he wouldn't leave."
Eli nodded and turned to Edward. Her expression was serious, like what was to come out of her mouth was business-like.
"Daddy, I waits for you. But I no have food if you not come." She patted his cheek and amusement was clear on his face.
"Oh god," He whispered. "Now, I have to get home on time, otherwise my princess won't eat. I promise, angel. I won't be late."
"I wov you daddy."
"I love you too, princess. So much." He pecked her lips and set her down.
Edward walked over to Seth who was standing at a distance. Edward whispered something to Seth as he nodded throughout the conversation, tears brimming in his eyes. I frowned. Why was he crying?
Seth slammed himself into Edward's arms, who sighed, hugging him tightly. Edward spoke to him for a little longer and then pulled back from the brief hug. He wiped away Seth's tears, who nodded silently.
I watched Seth walk over to Eli and tell her something, making her grin at him. She grabbed his hand and they exited the den quietly. I grew scared.
"Edward, what's going on? Why was Seth crying so much?"
Edward made his way over to me and held my face in his hands. "I just told him the reality of the situation and he cried like you did, when I told you. Love, don't worry. Stay safe. Don't answer any unknown calls if they arrive on your phone, don't leave this house, please." His green eyes literally begged me and I nodded.
"I won't. I'll take care of the kids and I don't have to worry when Gale and Benji will be here. Right?" I asked, unsure and he nodded.
"Of course you don't. It might take them another forty minutes. Lock every door, every window. Call me the minute something goes wrong," His eyes filled with unshed tears. "Please don't do anything that will get you or the kids in danger. I can't lose you. I can't."
"You won't. I love you." I whispered as a warm tear trickled down my cheek.
"I know. I love you too, baby."
Our lips touched softly and I never wanted to break our kiss. My arms wrapped around his neck and I desperately tried to last our kiss but had to pull back to breathe. Our foreheads leaned together and I studied our clasped fingers. Our wedding bands shone and I realized it was all going to be over soon.
"I'll miss you." I murmured and tried to blink back my tears.
"Hey," He tipped my chin to look at him. "Smile for me." I shook my head. "I smile when you smile, remember? I know you hate me right now, but I can't do anything about it." I smiled, making him smile.
"I really hate you right now." I gave him a chaste kiss. "Go now, or else I won't let you leave."
"Bye B-" I shook my head.
"Don't say goodbye. I don't want to hear it tonight. Say something else." He wiped away my tears.
"I'll be back before you know it."
"I'll be waiting."
Edward pressed a long kiss against my forehead and then walked out of the room. I heard Eli squeal and smiled, knowing he won't go before talking to her.
I stared outside at the windy sky, the gray clouds making their descend towards us. It was going to be a long, rainy night.
I sat on the chair outside by the lawn, staring at the rain, the thunder crackling and the sound of laughter coming from inside the house. It had been twenty minutes since Edward left and all I could do was… nothing.
There was pattering of little feet in my direction and then a tug on my dress. I stepped out of my stupor and gazed at my little girl. Eli was staring at me thoughtfully, her lips pressed into a thin line. I stroked her cheek softly, smiling at her pretty face.
"Mommy?"
"Yes, baby?"
"Why you sad?"
"Mommy is not sad." I murmured, and the clouds rumbled, making her tighten her hold on the stuffed unicorn. "Come here." I set her sideways on my lap and she curled up to me from the cold.
"I no want daddy weave."
"I know. Me neither but like I told you, daddy had some work, sweetheart."
"We go pawk Sunday?" I smiled.
"We can go anywhere you want this Sunday."
"Otay." She whispered.
"Did you drink all the water mommy gave you?"
"Yes, mommy. But I no wike wateh. Yucky." I chuckled.
"Well, baby, if you want to be a strong girl, you have to drink it for two more days."
"What happens if I no dwink?"
"You'll have to go to the hospital again, maybe the doctor will give you a shot this time." She gasped and hugged me tightly.
"I pwomise I dwink."
"I know you will." I kissed her hair and she let out a yawn.
"Mommy?"
"Yes, sweetie?"
"I have dweam about wainbows." I gasped.
"You did? That sounds lovely. Tell me more."
"I walk on wainbow, it gots lots colors!" She looked up at me and I stroked her face, so expressive and innocent. "I weach pwetty home and make cookies."
I smiled, kissing her forehead. "What colors did your rainbow have?"
"Gween, pink and owange and black! It gots lots snow." I laugh.
"That sounds like a magical dream. Wasn't I there?" Eli frowned and then shook her head.
"I awone but I no sad."
"That's good, were you in the sky?"
"No, mommy. I be in pawk with swings and giwaffe." I nuzzled against her hair.
"That sounds beautiful, baby." Eli yawned once again. "Eli, sweetheart you're getting sleepy. I think it's time for your nap." She shook her head, hugging me tightly.
"No, mommy. I no sweepy. I stay up."
"Okay, then do you want to go inside? It's getting cold."
"Otay." She yawned once more. I smiled, standing up with Eli in my arms.
"Come on, we'll just close this door," I closed the back door and found Seth reading something. I ruffled his hair and walked past him just as my phone buzzed on the coffee table. I walked over and grabbed the phone in my hand.
"I'll be back in five." I told Seth and he nodded.
"Mommy?" Eli sleepily rubbed her eyes.
"It's nothing, sweetheart. Go to sleep." Eli nodded and rested her head against my shoulder. I stepped inside her room and placed her on the bed, pulling the duvet over her sleeping form. I stroked her hair and watched her take deep, tired breaths.
I checked my phone and it was a text message. From Angela. I couldn't help my smile. I hadn't spoken to her since my birthday. I read it.
Hey, Bells! Guess what? I'm in Seattle with Ben, thought I could surprise mom and dad. And you. My flight landed twenty minutes ago, I'll be on my way to Forks. Love, Ang.
I frowned. She should've called. It's not safe for her, or Ben or the baby. I could call and tell her to go back to New York. I hoped she would understand. Should I tell about this to Edward? He will get mad at me but it's Angela, how could I let her get in danger?
I called her phone. She answered on the first ring.
"Angela, you have to go back to New York. It's not safe for you," I rambled. "I'll explain everything to you later, just make sure you're out of Seattle by tonight. I know you'll have questions, but I'll call you back when you're in New York, I promise. I'll explain everything."
I waited for her to speak but heard nothing but someone breathing. Tears built in my eyes, the anxiety made me feel so alone.
"Looks like I got my hands on your friend before you can kick her out, babe."
A tear trickled down my cheek.
James.
"Where's Angela?" I asked firmly although even I knew how shaky my voice sounded.
"You don't have to worry about your friend right now, Bella."
I wiped away the tears that flowed down my cheeks. Angela. He knew everything about her. I did tell him a lot about her. I just hoped he wouldn't harm her. She was carrying a baby! How could he do this?
Edward.
I need to call Edward. To tell him what was going on. He did tell me to call him the minute something went wrong. Will James know if I called Edward?
"What do you want?" I whispered, sitting on the bed, staring at my little girl's peaceful face.
"You know what I want, sweetheart," I cringed hearing his chilling voice. "Your CIA boyfriend must have told you." I swallowed the lump in my throat.
"I have no idea what you're talking about." I said truthfully.
"Oh, you don't?"
"No." My voice was a hoarse whisper. I heard nothing but silence on the other line.
"Bella!" My heart thudded in my chest, hearing Angela's voice, screaming and calling out to me.
"Ang? Are you okay? He didn't hurt-"
"Bella! Help me, please!" A stifled a sob.
"I will, Ang. Don't worry. I'll do everything I can, I promise."
"Now that's what I'm talking about." James was back on line.
"What do you want?" I asked again.
"You."
"What?" I gasped breathlessly. Why me?
"Or do you want me to take your little girl?"
I grasped Eli's hand in my own. Not my baby. I can't let anything happen to her or Seth. Eli was everything to me, how was I to risk her? My pretty girl. Tears silently streamed down my face as I contemplated what to do.
"Not her. Please. I'll do anything you want."
"Good girl. First, you understand that you don't call your boyfriend, if you do, it'll be the last time you'll hear his voice."
"I promise I won't call, don't do anything to him." I almost begged. I never wanted to see Edward get hurt.
"Of course I won't, if you listen to me." That son of a bitch. I was helpless.
"I'm listening."
"Edward taught you well, Bella. You're listening without arguments. I want you to get out of the house and come and get your friend."
"I c-can't."
"You want the boy sitting in the living room dead or what?"
"Where to get her?" I murmured.
"No one needs to know about this, Bella. I want you to come alone, not with the kids. Get rid of them."
"But-"
"Call me when you do your first task."
The line went dead.
I placed the phone on the bed and wiped away my tears furiously. I had to do this for the kids. For Edward. I won't let them get hurt, even if it means that I had to die. I don't care about anything today. I was to keep my family safe. Even if it meant that James would take me somewhere.
I owed my life to Angela. My best friend. She helped me through every obstacle of my life, stood by me, fearlessly. I had to reciprocate. To keep her and the baby safe. Tears pricked my eyes as I stared at Eli. Would it be the last time, I'll be seeing my beautiful little girl?
Edward and I were so happy thinking about our future this afternoon, making plans, talking about how to go about with our life. Was it to end today? I wept into my hands as I realized that it was possibly the last time I saw Edward this afternoon.
He was on the verge of tears, warning me, begging me to be safe. It wasn't my fault James texted but now I can't get out of it. He had Angela with him. I had to save her. Never knew life and I would part ways this sort of way. But, who knew?
Edward.
My Edward would be worried sick if I disappeared. He will have to take care of the kids and himself. Will he do that? Would he back out? I had nothing to do with those drugs, James would kill me knowing I was worthless to him.
My life was in shatters this very second. I had to do what I had to do. I took a deep breath and sat up straighter. I picked up my phone and called Gale.
"Hey, Bella. We'll be there in fifteen. I'm sorry, I was runnin' a little late." I cleared my throat.
"Well, I'm not home right now." I lied.
"What's wrong? Why do you sound different?"
"I had a cold from the change in weather and my car broke down. I'm with the kids by Fremont right now. I needed to get a couple of supplies."
"Bella! Why did you get out of the house? Edward is goin' to flip out, do you know that?"
"I know, I'm sorry, but could you get us, it's raining heavily and I don't know my way around here."
"It's all the way across town," Gale muttered to herself. "Fine, Benji and I'll get you. Stay where you are."
"Okay. Bye, Gale."
"I'll see you in a bit."
I bit my bottom lip nervously and with shaky fingers ended the call. I walked over to Eli's closet and grabbed her blue pea coat. I sat on the bed and stroked her pretty face.
"Eli? Honey, wake up." Eli stirred and immediately opened her blue eyes. I hated to wake her up.
"Mommy?"
"Hi, baby. Can you sit up for me?"
"I wanna sweep." She pouted and tears gathered in her eyes. I leaned over and pressed my lips against her forehead.
"I know, sweetheart and you will, after you put on this coat." She nodded and sat up, rubbing her eyes. I helped her put on the coat and she frowned at me.
"Mommy, why you cwy?"
"I'm not crying." Eli reached over and wiped away the tear that escaped my eye. I sighed.
"Something must've gone in the eye. Come on, mommy has to drop you and Seth at nana's."
"But daddy say no weave house."
"It's daddy's work. He called me." I lied and she snuggled against me, nodding her head. I held her on my hip and kissed the side of her head. She quickly caught hold of her stuffed unicorn, kissing it quickly.
"Let's go." I grabbed my phone and went to Edward's room to grab my purse. I carried Eli downstairs where Seth was silently watching something on the television. He stared at us, puzzled.
"Where are you guys going?"
"We goes Seth." Eli corrected him.
"What?"
"Edward had some work and he wanted to ask me some questions, so I have to go. I'll drop you both at Esme's." I whispered and he stood up, crossing his arms over his chest. He was looking at me like he knew I was lying.
"Gale and Benji will get here."
"They're running late." I told him, trying to control my wavering voice.
"Edward told me to keep you safe and not let you go out."
"Seth, please. I'm getting late."
"But, Edward said we can't. No matter what happens."
"Please, listen to me," I cried softly, tears leaking again from my eyes. "I don't have much time. I have no other choice. Don't argue. Edward just gave me a call."
"I want to talk to him."
"Seth, you make mommy cwy." Eli told him angrily and wrapped her arms around my neck, hugging me tightly. Seth didn't make me cry, honey. I sobbed against her hair, tears of defeat and loss. I won't see them again.
"I'm sorry, Bella. I didn't mean to make you cry."
"It's okay." I murmured and Eli wiped away my tears.
"Mommy we goes, you no cwy, pwease."
"I won't cry, sweet baby. I promise. It'll get darker later on, we'll leave now."
"I'll be back in a second." Seth said and walked to his room only to come back wearing a jacket. I smiled softly. "Yeah, I'm ready." He grinned at me and I had to keep my tears at bay.
I clasped the necklace around Eli's neck and she grinned at me. I let out a deep breath and kissed her cheeks. I lifted her in my arms and carried her to the entrance as Seth followed me towards the porch steps. The rain had thankfully stopped for a while but it was getting cold and I wasn't wearing a jacket.
"Bella, when will you be back?" Seth asked and I sighed.
"I don't know, I'll give Esme a call. Don't worry."
"Okay."
Esme seemed surprised as we stood in the doorway but she happily let us in.
"Don't get any of the family members over or even meet them for too long, just for next week. Keep distance from them, please. We'll tell them everything when this is over."
Edward's words from the past week haunted me. I knew he was going to be hopping mad at me and I was ready for it. Anything for keeping the kids and Angela safe.
I set Eli down in the living room by the couch and she grabbed my hand in hers immediately. Esme walked in holding a tray that held three steaming mugs of something. I bet it was hot chocolate. How much I wished I could drink it, sitting with the kids.
"Nana, what that?" Eli asked curiously and Esme grinned.
"That's hot chocolate, you like it, don't you?"
"I wov hot choco!" She squealed, tightening her hold on my hand.
"Bella, take a seat, dear."
"I'm running a little late actually. I'm sorry. I hope you don't mind I just dropped by unexpectedly, babysitters are hard to find."
"I love spending time with them, don't apologize. I'm sure your work must be important. Go ahead, I'll look after them."
"Please look after them." I whispered and she smiled, pulling me in for a hug. I sniffled and hugged her back, her touch was also so gentle and motherly.
"They both are wonderful kids. Maybe you and Edward can come by for dinner, I'll make your favorite." I pulled back immediately.
"I'll let you know." I mumbled and looked away.
"Are you okay, honey? Is there a problem?"
"No, everything's great. My mind was just preoccupied." I smiled and turned to Eli. I knelt in front of her little form and she frowned at me.
"Mommy, I come wif you?"
"I'm sorry, baby. But I can't take you."
"I pwomise I be good giwl." Eli pouted, her blue eyes looked so persuasive.
"Oh, angel I'm really sorry. But be a good girl for nana, okay?"
"Otay. I wov you, mommy."
"I love you too, sweetheart. So much." I hugged her tightly, wanting to never let her go. My little girl. How will she do her work without me? How was I to live without her? She was a part of me. A speacial, most important part of me. I loved her so much.
"Alright. Be good for me." I kissed her cheeks and her forehead.
"I pwomise, mommy." She pecked my lips and I stood up.
"Seth, sweetie, make sure Eli is within your eyesight." I murmured and he nodded.
"Nothing will happen to her when I'm here."
"I know. I'm sure about it. Bye."
"Bye, Bella. Be safe. I'll wait for the call." I wanted to drop to the floor and cry right then and there. He was pulled into this because of me. I told Edward to get him home. It was all my fault.
"I'm sorry." I murmured and hugged him tightly.
"What happened?" He mumbled and I shook my head.
"I have to leave you both here." Seth chuckled.
"Don't worry, I'm a strong boy."
"Of course you are." I smiled sadly and he gave my hand a soft squeeze.
"You're getting late."
I nodded and quickly left the place just as the rain sprinkled on me through the driveway. My tears weren't seen as it rained and I wept softly, making my way to the car. I sat inside and turned the heater on. I called James.
"You're a good liar, Bella. Done with the work?"
"Y-Yes. Leave Angela alone now."
"Well, I don't have her."
My stomach dropped and heart sped up. What does he mean?
"What?"
"You'll have to get her, Bella."
"Where did you keep her?"
"Her flight just landed babe, what do you expect?"
Seatac.
The rain made it impossible for me to walk around in heels and I was in a hurry to put on the first thing I found. I was prematurely gray and on the verge of passing out any time. I looked up at the clock and saw it was five o'clock in the evening.
I shivered from the cold, looking around for Angela, calling out her name, wiping away my tears as I did. I was frantic, hoping she was safe and so was the baby. Where would Ben be? Was he looking for Angela as well?
I had no clue about anything right now. My head was about to blow and I just wanted to reverse back to the time when I was wrapped up to Edward on our bed when it rained heavily and we he was back from Forks. Nobody was there to disturb us a week ago. It was just us. I sniveled and rubbed my palms together from the chilly air.
There were people giving me strange looks, staring at my vulnerable form but I couldn't do anything about it. I was at the Central Terminal, watching the flights land and take off, wondering where the hell would he keep Angela.
I saw a couple not far from me, hugging and kissing as they cried, those were tears of joy and reunion. Will I have those with Edward if we met again? I wiped away my tears aggressively and took a deep breath.
Not now. Angela first.
I started looking for Ben as well, searching his face in the crowd, that maybe he was also surveying the place just like I was but no, I couldn't find him or her. I called her phone but nobody answered. I decided to call Ben's number but he didn't answer either.
I gazed at the departure-arrival board and noted the flights. Except for Alaskan Airlines, not even a single flight was to land in Seattle from New York. My heart skipped a beat when I noticed it was delayed for two hours due to heavy rainfall.
This can't be happening. I was set up. James set me up. There was no flight landing. Angela wasn't around here. She was safe and sound in New York. I cried tears of relief when it suddenly dawned on me that I should run back to my kids. Call Edward and tell him what happened.
I realized my phone and purse both were in the car and I had to leave this airport before James or any of his men spotted me. How could I be so stupid?
"Please don't do anything that will get you or the kids in danger. I can't lose you. I can't."
Oh, Edward. I'm so sorry. I won't answer any calls again. I'll take the kids and go home. I need to make sure Angela was fine as well. She was just as important to me as Edward or Eli or Seth.
But, what if she was around? Should I check once? I can study around the place as I leave, I guess. I turned and started making my way towards the nearest exit, wiping away my tears, sighing with relief that nothing happened and I was fine. So were the kids.
Somebody pushed past me with tremendous force, sending me toppling and turning in his direction and my mind went blank for a second. A mob of people were marching towards me, holding their travelling bags and kids. I turned and gasped, looking into a very familiar pair of icy, hostile blue eyes.
James.
I was seeing him so close to me after a long time. Except for his hair being trimmed, nothing had changed much. Although he had cuts and bruises all over his face. Tears gathered in my eyes, knowing it was time. Will he kill me? Does he have a gun? His hands were deep inside his pocket.
Edward.
I had to get to Edward. A tear dropped from my eye as we stared into each other's eyes for an immeasurable amount of time. James was here. Standing in front of me. I had no chance to run, there were men standing by his side and they looked pretty huge.
"Isabella, how are you?" He laughed maliciously when I didn't reply. "Your friend is alive." What? He had her? I thought he didn't. Ugh. my brain was messed up.
"It's been a while since I saw your pretty face up close." His hand gripped my chin as he leaned me towards him forcefully. I grabbed his hand on my chin and shrugged it off, pushing him away from me.
"Don't ever touch me again." I said through gritted teeth, my anger bubbling over my trembling state.
"I bet you don't want to see me either." He shifted closer and the stale smell of beer wafted around me. I backed away but felt someone standing behind me. "Don't make a scene, or else your boyfriend will never see you again." I remained still.
"Don't do anything to him." He chuckled, bitterly, his laughter was so cold.
"He can't do anything for you either."
"Wha-Ah!" I gasped when I felt a pressure against my left arm and everything instantly blurred around me as my eyes rolled in the back of my head. I gazed down at my arm and saw something shiny, something white spinning, dissolving in front of my eyes.
My head was throbbing as my stomach lurched and knew my knees would give away any time now. Edward. I thought about Edward. His copper hair, those green eyes, the impish smile, his lips brushing against mine. I won't see him again.
My hands were so heavy that I couldn't even wipe away my tears. I could feel the tears trailing but I was paralyzed from the pain, the moving objects around me and the sudden change of events.
"Edward." I whispered in a soft plea before I was enveloped in a never-ending darkness.
EDWARD
Evening
I sighed, taking a sip of my coffee. It was the only thing keeping me charged through this. Alcohol would be much prefered, but I'd rather have a sober mind. I went over to Samantha and she smiled, making me stare at the screen. I sighed with relief.
Everything was going perfect.
The carrier was ready. The people were ready. All I had to do was wait for Friday. Maybe I could take the day off tomorrow and stay at home with Bella and the kids. I grinned at the prospect. I could stay with them all day. Tomorrow will be Thursday and Eli would want to bake cookies maybe. I was never home to watch them bake. Perhaps tomorrow will be better than I had imagined.
I heard frazzled footsteps coming my way and I turned to find both, Benji and Gale walking towards me, Benji looked deathly pale and Gale was almost in tears. My heart stopped beating and I tightened my hold on the steaming cup of coffee in my hands.
"What are you both doing here? You both should be at my place." I turned to Samantha. "Get me their location."
"Edward?" I turned to Gale.
"What?"
"They aren't home." She murmured.
"I don't understand." I cleared my throat. "They are home, I told them to stay at home."
"Bella called about an hour ago, saying that her car broke down and she was at Fremont." My eyes widened. What?
"Why did she say that?"
"She said she was feelin' unwell," Oh god, what happened to her? "And she sounded really sick on the phone."
"Did you get her? How was she? I should call dad." I muttered and Benji took a step in my direction just as I was about to pull out my phone.
"Edward," His voice sounded so grim and I knew what was it but I wasn't going to let myself believe that. "She wasn't in Fremont, she wasn't at home. Bella is gone. The kids are gone. We checked and asked around, no one knows where those three are."
My entire world stopped. They were gone. Where? I had to find out before I thought about breaking down in tears. I immediately turned to Samantha.
"Track the car. Get me the location." Samantha nodded and I grabbed Dave's attention. "Dave, I need Bella's call history, right now."
"Jacob-" I found him already striding in my direction. "What?"
"Somebody broke into Bella's New York apartment last night." I frowned. "They stole a tape. We have the footage of that tape in the back-up." I nodded.
"Get it."
Benji cleared his throat and I turned to find him staring at me expectantly. "I'm sorry I couldn't help you."
"You didn't fail, Benji. You did the best you can." I gave him a sad smile, keeping my tears at bay. I had to find out before making any snap judgement.
Dave walked over with a print. "Angela Weber was the last person to call and text her, but the location is unidentified. We ran a check, the call was made from Seattle, but the phone is in New York." I ran a hand through my hair.
"I need to listen to the conversation, get it at my desk."
I stood by my desk and turned to Phil.
"Phil, GQ90. Now." He typed something and turned to me, his expression almost reluctant and slightly pale.
"S-Seatac."
"Where's Bella's phone?" I could barely make my mind work.
"It's switched off."
"Where was it before it lost it's power?"
"Seatac."
Samantha placed a hand on my shoulder and I turned. "I found the car's location, it's parked at Seatac."
The cup slipped from my hands, shattering into millions of pieces and spilling coffee all over the floor. Bella was nowhere but all clues led to Seatac. Why did she go to Seatac? Were the kids with her? Was she alone? I told her not to do anything stupid.
Why did this happen to me? I couldn't keep safe the one person who had my heart. I would do anything for Bella, but I lost all the will to think, to blink, to even breathe. She must be someplace dark and all alone. Was she wearing a jacket when she left? Was she cold as I stand here someplace safe? Was she hurt?
My beautiful girl was nowhere. I needed Eli with me right now. She always calmed me down. I wouldn't mind her being clingy either. I would welcome her love for me. I was completely numb.
I knew it was James. He had my Bella.
The pain was almost unbearable.
I buried my face in my hands as was everybody gathered around me, listening intently to the conversation from the past five minutes. I could hear a tracker working not too far from me and Samantha calling the airport security.
I promise I won't call, don't do anything to him.
I promise I won't call, don't do anything to him.
Bella what had you done, baby? Where were my kids? You could've told me that at least. Why was she so utterly selfless? She could've called. She should've called. James was smart enough to hack Angela's phone to text. He knew she would answer it, but the irony was that Bella called Angela.
There was a gaping hole in my heart. I needed to see Eli and Seth. How would I find them? Even Matt wasn't at the place today when the fiasco happened. I shouldn't have left the house today. I let out a shaky breath and wiped away my tears.
"Edward." I heard Jacob call out my name.
"Leave me alone." I mumbled and heard footsteps disappearing from around me.
I pulled out my phone and stared at the photo as my lock screen. Those beautiful brown eyes, cute button nose, plump lips and that gorgeous blush covering her cheeks. A smile was lightened on her face, making me smile. A tear dropped from my eye on the screen and I wiped it away.
She is so beautiful.
I looked up at the desktop and opened the back-up folder for the video which James stole from Bella's apartment in New York. I pressed play and the camera appeared to be recording in her apartment.
The video started with the picture of a cake that had Happy Birthday Angela frosted over it. There seemed to be many people around, Ben and Angela standing at the center and my Bella was probably recording it.
After the cake was cut, Ben fed a slice of the cake to Angela and she was glowing from being so happy. The screen got a little blurry and then Bella came on the screen, her face so bright and happy. She gave Angela a tight hug and they whispered something each other before pulling back.
Angela wasted no time in pasting a part of the frosting on Bella's face, who looked a bit taken aback but then glared at her friend. Ben came to Bella's rescue, holding up a big piece and slamming it on Angela's face, who gasped.
"You didn't just do that Ben!" She said angrily but her husband just laughed and grabbed the tray in his hands, as Bella smiled at her best friend.
"I won't do anything, Ang. Ben will do it for me. Let me record for you to remember," She walked over to the camera, her brown eyes wide with excitement.
The camera followed as Angela ran out of the room with Ben following her and she ended up in the bedroom, backing away against the wall.
"Bella!" Angela screamed for help as Ben applied the cake on her face but Bella just laughed freely.
"I'm not. This is for what you did on my birthday."
"Bella! Help me, please!" Angela laughed, gasping for breath as her whole face was filled with cake icing.
"You know what, Ben? I think that's enough for now. She learnt her lesson." Bella said from behind the camera.
"You're right, Bells. We'll let you go." Angela glared at them, making them laugh and the screen went blank.
I stared at the screen, having no surge of emotions, my mind was blank just as my thoughts. I had no idea what to do. I lost everything in mere hours. All these months of fighting, falling in love, falling in even more love, just smoked away in matter of time.
Three months. It took me just three months to know I wanted to spend my future with this woman. It took me two months to fall in love with her. I had known her for more than two years but we discovered more about ourselves in these months. We found ourselves a family, a daughter, a scared, troubled boy in Seth.
She's gone now. She took my heart with her.
"Edward," Samantha said softly and I sat up straighter to hear talking behind me. "The footage of the airport is here. I found Bella."
I was sitting next to her within a flash as she played the footage and I stared at Bella, aimlessly running around the place, crying and calling out something. Probably Angela's name. Bile rose in my throat as I watched her, her beautiful face streaked with tears and how desperate she looked.
I could see people staring but she wasn't bothered, her need to get to her friend was clear and distinctive. She would do anything. Bella was shivering, trembling from the cold, she wasn't wearing a jacket and it took everything in me to will myself to sit there and watch her being like this.
How much she loved her friend, who had no idea what had happened to Bella because of her. My poor baby. I really hoped she was fine. I sighed and closed my eyes, taking a deep breath, trying to gather my thoughts.
"Look." Samantha whispered and I opened my eyes to see James, and few men gathered around her, talking about something. My fist clenched when he touched her but a spark of relief flashed when she pushed his hand away. I watched a man from her right insert a needle right into her arm and she passed out, her mouth as if whispering my name.
"Oh my god." I heard Samantha gasp next to me and I stood up, leaving the space to go over and stand by the floor to ceiling windows. I can't watch it anymore.
I was reminded of the last time I stood here, as Eli pointed to the Space Needle and I promised her we would go. I asked her if she would like to join the preschool and remember her face, how it glowed when she got ecstatic about the fact that she was a big girl. Where was my princess?
My phone buzzed and I pulled it out to answer. The name made me sigh.
"Hello? Edward, are you there?" It seemed like he was running.
"What, Alex? Why didn't you tell me about this? James took her away. Where is she?" My voice was barely coming out of my mouth.
"I had no idea about this. He sent me to Port Angeles. I'm sorry, Edward. I really am. But, don't worry. I'll make sure nothing happens to her. You have my word."
I wiped away my tears. "Just please get me to talk to her. Tell me the location. I just want to hear her voice. Please." I begged and he sighed.
"Edward, you have to be strong."
"I can't do it, Alex. All I had to do was keep her safe, I couldn't even do that."
"It's not your fault. Think about the kids, be strong for them. They can't see you like this. Eli will ask about Bella, you have to be ready with an answer."
"I don't know where the kids are. We are searching for them, it'll take time."
"Holy fuck, you need to find them before James does. That fucker send me away."
"Please, get to Bella. I just can't do anything knowing she is with James. The case is complete crap without her. None of it matters to me. Just her. I don't care what time you get her. Just call me when you do."
"I promise, but you need to gather yourself. The team needs to know that the boss will do anything to get Bella back. That's when they'll feel like working. You know James took her away because she's your weakness, you should make her your strength. Don't worry about her. I've got her. Focus on the goal."
"Yeah, thanks. I'll keep it in mind." I murmured.
"I'll call you the second I get Bella. Bye."
I ended the call and thought upon Alex's words. He was right. I had to make this right. I had to get Bella safe and the kids back to me. No matter what happened. I heard clicking of boots and turned to see Gale standing with a glum face.
"Hey, don't. It's okay." I murmured and she shook her head, tears streaming down her eyes.
"I'm sorry. You got me from New York for Bella and I just couldn't even-"
"Gale, listen to me." I walked over and held her shoulders, making her look at me. "You know we can still get her back. I'll need your help. We can't keep crying about what happened. It's fine. We can't blame this on anybody."
"Still, sorry." She hugged me and I sighed, hugging her back, tears brimming my eyes.
"We'll first need to check about the kids."
"I can check the traffic signal cameras around the see and check which route Bella took before the airport."
"Okay." I pulled back and she wiped away the tear that escaped my eye. She kissed my cheek and went back to where Benji was.
I walked over to Gina and found her still tracking Eli's pendant. "Did you find anything?"
"No. I can't track it anyplace. Either it must be thrown away or has stopped working."
"Eli wouldn't throw it away." I murmured and sighed.
Jake studied me from the other side and motioned me to get to him. I sat next to him and he shook his head. I buried my face in my hands and a defeated sigh escaped my lips. The kids weren't in Forks or Port Angeles.
"We'll get them." Jake said to me and I let out a bitter chuckle.
"Yeah, right. My girlfriend is gone, my kids are missing and we'll get them all at the same place, where they'll just magically appear from nowhere."
"We have tight security at the airport and every highway, he can't take them away from the city."
"I can't lose them Jake. I love them so much. My family loves them. James will know Bella had nothing to do with the drugs, you think he'll let her get out alive?"
"James is not perfect. He'll make a wrong move. We still have tomorrow's plan. Don't worry about anything."
"Will they get food to eat? A bed to sleep on? Eli hasn't finished her medications yet, what if she gets weak again and catches fever or worse?"
"I bet the kids are fine."
I sat motionless in my seat for I don't know how long, waiting, hoping somebody would locate the kids or where Bella was. I had a hard time talking to the Police, asking for help, even to keep my voice even.
I was waiting for Tim to get back from Seatac, as I sent him to inspect the place and find any evidence of the shot Bella was given right before she passed out. I was going to kill James and every fucking person who stood by Bella as she passed out.
It was twenty minutes later when Tim walked in, holding an evidence bag, which had the cover of the injection. I took the plastic bag from his hands and studied the contents inside carefully.
"Name?"
"I asked, it's Diazepam."
Oh fuck.
Muscle cramps, dizziness, anxiety, vomiting, seizures and much more effects of this injection. James gave it to Bella. How dare he?
"He shouldn't have done that." I murmured to myself, thinking of ways to kill him.
"We'll keep searching more, maybe you should track the kids with Gale." Jake suggested and I went to sit next to Gale.
"Did you find anything?" I asked softly and she shook her head.
"Nowhere near Fremont."
"Check the routes for where my family members stay. Emmett and Rose are the nearest."
I watched as Gale changed the city route to Emmett's place and opened up every traffic signal footage, trying to track down Bella's red Audi. I sighed and blinked back my tears. I couldn't get over the fact that this really happened to me. To us. We were fine until this afternoon. We had plans ready for the weekend.
"Edward, there is nothing."
"Check my parent's place." I murmured half-heartedly and buried my face in my hands, letting out a whoosh of breath as memories hit me like a wrecking ball.
"And I wov you Ehwad." Eli said, giving a wide grin.
"Oh princess, I love you too."
"I call you mommy and daddy?" she asked, her question so innocent, so honest and I couldn't help the happy grin on my face. Bella smiled through her tears and nodded.
"Yes, we'll be your mommy and daddy." Eli turned to me shyly and I took her in my arms, finally holding her little body.
"Hi princess, we missed you so much. Don't ever stay away from us, okay?" Eli nodded and wrapped her arms around my neck.
"You no mad I calls you mommy and daddy?" She whispered in a small voice and Bella gave me a pointed look. I sighed.
"Of course not baby, we love you so much. We would love if you call us mommy and daddy." I said and Bella smiled, wrapping her arms around me.
"Daddy wike Dew and not me cause daddy wike boys. So you weave me now?"
"No darling, daddy will never leave you because you're a girl. Daddy loves playing with you."
"Wif my dollies too?"
"Yes baby, I love it and even your dollhouse, it's so pretty. And I love coloring and watching Rabbit with you."
"Weally?" I nodded.
"I swear and I have fun playing with boys too but daddy doesn't love anyone more than you." Her answering smile was jubilant.
"I wov you daddy." I sighed hugging her to me.
"I love you too angel. So much." I kissed her hair, stroking it softly.
Her mouth was open with surprise and she ran her hand hesitantly over it as her face looked delighted. It was a pendant, which dazzled diamonds over it against the leaves that had a design inspired by the olive branches. It glimmered and shone which was very exciting for Eli because she always likes shiny, bright things.
"You like it princess?" I murmured softly and Eli nodded, looking up at me.
"It's the pwettiest in whole wold." I chuckled and looked at Bella, who had a soft smile on her face, looking at Eli.
"Do you want to put it on?" I asked and my princess nodded. I took it out and Bella held Eli's hair up so that I can clasp it around her neck.
"Edward, what if she loses it?" Bella whispered just when I clasped it carefully around Eli. I stroked Eli's hair and smiled.
"Then I'll get a new one, I don't care."
"Fank you daddy." She stared at the pendant, running her fingers over it.
"You're welcome pretty girl."
I sighed when I held her warm body close to mine and she wrapped her arms around me, pressing her face against my neck. I breathed in the calming sense she always got me and held in my tears.
"Daddy missed you so much, princess." She pulled back to stare at me and frowned. Her little hand reached over and she wiped away the tear that was about to fall from my eye.
"Daddy." Eli croaked out in a hoarse voice and tears gathered in her eyes as it must hurt her throat.
"What?" I whispered and she put some portion of the blanket over me. My eyes softened and I pulled her little body closer to me.
"Oh, daddy loves you so much, baby." I nuzzled against her hair and closed my eyes. She clutched my shirt tightly in a little fist. I stroked her hair and watched her fall asleep.
"My poor baby, hush, it's okay." I went over and sat next to Bella who was crying a little as well. I rocked Eli a little in my arms and she pulled back to stare at me. I brushed away the tears that continued streaming and kept the toy next to us.
"D-Daddy." She whimpered.
"You're fine now. It's okay."
"D-Daddy, bad man comes from window," She sniveled. "He say he huwt me. He say he take―" Eli paused as she hiccuped.
"Princess, he's not coming back. I promise. Daddy is so sorry that happened but it will never happen again, okay? Calm down for me." I whispered and held her close to me. Eli pressed her face against my neck and cried silently.
"I good?" She mumbled against my neck.
"Of course you're a good girl. So, daddy is going to catch the bad man soon and then we'll live happily. Then nobody will come to take you or mommy."
"Pwomise?"
"I promise, can you wait for another week?" She nodded and hugged me tightly, resting her head on my shoulder.
"Daddy? I sweep wif you and mommy?"
"Don't you want to sleep in your big girl's bed, angel?"
"Pwease? I be good, I pwomise."
"Eli, you can't sleep in mommy and daddy's bed. You're a big girl now."
"Daddy, pwease?"
"Nope. You need to sleep in your own bed."
"I no wike you, daddy."
"Yeah well, I'm not a big fan of myself either."
"Daddy, I waits for you. But I no have food if you not come."
"Oh god," I whispered. "Now, I have to get home on time, otherwise my princess won't eat. I promise, angel. I won't be late."
"I wov you daddy."
"I love you too, princess. So much."
Eli wasn't at home for me to go there. Where was my little girl? I told Bella to not visit any family members. I knew Eli and Seth must have been reluctant to leave the house, I made them promise to not go outside. I had them instructed so much but they wouldn't have been able to stand Bella cry. I know I wouldn't have.
"Edward, we found them."
I drove past the house we went to see last week and couldn't help as nostalgia hit me. It was a magical day. Bella looked so beautiful. I had never seen her so happy as she was when the place was shown.
She planned where everything would go on our way to mom and dad's from the restaurant. She spoke about nothing but the house. I knew she would fall in love with it. I knew I did. I chuckled as I was reminded of how she told me that we would only buy a house if there was a library in it.
I made plans for the room myself. This all happened just a week ago. How could so much change in a week?
But there was relief that my kids were safe. They were at mom and dad's and they were fine. I was shit scared before but at least I could see them and hug them. What if Eli asked about Bella? Panic set in me. What would I tell her where her mommy is? Would she be fine if I was the only one there?
I can't keep them at my parent's place, it was too dangerous. I'll take them wherever it takes to keep them safe. I tried to shift my thoughts.
Think about the kids, playing in the backyard now that the rain had stopped. Getting their clothes and shoes all muddy, Bella would've been mad. Dad must be playing with them because he can't say no to Eli.
When I would go, Eli would come running to me and I'll have to hold in my tears. Her calming scent will relax me and then maybe I would think about this case with a clear perspective, gather myself together again.
I halted the car at the entrance and nearly ripped the door open as I stepped out. I took a deep breath and rubbed my hands over my face before straightening out my clothes as I went towards the backyard for some reason.
My heart skipped a beat. They weren't there. I felt a raindrop fall on my cheek and understood why. They must be watching a movie then. I walked back over towards the entrance and climbed the porch steps. I knocked on the door impatiently. No one answered.
I knocked again. And again. What was going on? I couldn't breathe. Fuck. Something wasn't right. But then I sighed with relief when I saw mom walking over to answer the door. I had never been happier.
"Hi, honey. What are you doing here?"
"The kids. Please. I came to pick up the kids." I said, trying to hide my desperation.
"You look so tired and worn out. Come on in."
"Mom, the kids." I ran a hand through my hair.
"Sweetie, the babysitter took them."
I stared at her with my mouth agape. What? No, no, no. This can't be happening. I wanted to scream and drop on the floor and cry my heart out. This cannot be happening.
"Babysitter?"
"Yes, she said Bella sent her because it was going to take you both some time to get home."
It hurt. It hurt so much.
"What was her name?" My voice nothing but a whisper.
"Charlotte something." Alias.
"Bella must've forgotten, now I even told her about dinner. So, are you all coming?"
"Not today, mom. But, soon. I promise."
"Edward, are you alright?"
"Just stress at work." I answered robotically.
Mom stepped towards me and hugged me tightly. I hugged her back tightly and tears streamed down my eyes. I lost everything tonight. Just because of a case. I got them all a month ago. Just because of a case. I couldn't fathom the shock, it was mind-boggling. My kids were safe and playing in the backyard few seconds ago. Now, they were gone.
"Edward, dear are you crying?"
"I'm sorry, I just-" I couldn't complete my sentence as I wept in her arms.
"Oh honey, did you have a fight with Bella?"
"Yes."
"It's all going to be fine. You both love each other so much, everything will be fine. Just go home to your kids and Bella. Maybe buy her some flowers." I could hear the smile in her voice and I had to get out of here.
I pulled back and she wiped away my tears, frowning at me.
"Was it a big fight? You look exhausted."
"I'll work it out." I managed a smile and she grinned at me.
"I know you will. Now go home." There is no home for me anymore.
"Bye mom, I love you." I kissed her cheek.
"Love you too. Maybe make her dinner." I nodded.
"I will."
The rain hid my tears as I walked out of the gate in the rain, soaking my clothes. I pulled out my phone and called Gale.
"Edward, did you get them? Get them to the office immediately."
"They're gone, Gale. They aren't here. Victoria took them. She took them with her." My voice broke as I heard her gasp.
"Oh my god, we'll get them. I promise. Just get here, Edward. Don't go anywhere else. You're not thinking straight." She warned and I sighed.
"I will. Just please keep on searching, do anything you can."
"Edward, you know we will. Please just get here. Then we'll talk." She said softly and I nodded.
"Okay." I ended the call and kept the phone in my pocket.
I saw something shine in the damp rain, right across from my car. It was familiar to me. It was getting damp in the rain though. I walked over and a humorless chuckle left my lips as my eyes softened looking at it.
Guilt. I shouldn't have left the house. I should've kept them safe with me. There were so many things I could've done for that. I didn't do one. I had nowhere to go. They took everything away with them.
I fell to my knees, crying as I did, my hand desperately reaching for Eli's stuffed unicorn. I held it in my hands and sobbed, squeezing the life out of it. It was Eli's favorite toy. How would she fall asleep now? I held it to my chest, my tears halting as I held it.
I won't cry anymore. I had to find them. Bring them all back to me. Keep them safe. I knew they were fine. Alex was there. I had to make sure they were safe in a better place. I had to give James to Laurent and then put Laurent behind the bars. I was going to make it happen. I had to go back to the office now. Start my search.
I stood up, grabbing the toy and made my way to the car. I sat inside and shut the door, I hadn't realized I was shivering until then. I took a shaky breath and started the car. There was no home to go to tonight. I was all alone.
How could I possibly concentrate on a case and not Bella? Ugh. I had to make it fucking work. I had never felt so weaker. Not even when I left Seattle to go New York all those years ago. Or when at one point of my life I had no idea what to do.
This was harder than I had ever imagined it a couple of times, a possibly that I had been mentally prepared for but it didn't work when it actually happened. The car purred to life as I drove past the familiar house again, yes, the one house. Every time I would look at it, it reminded me of Bella.
Home is people. Not a place. If you go back there after the people are gone, then all you can see is what is not there any more.
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