A/N: I go into Target. No Soundtrack. I go into Best Buy. No Soundtrack. What Is Wrong With The World?! I had to order it on Amazon and now I have to wait until Tuesday. I can't wait….Gahhhhhh…Oh, right, back to the story. Thank you to Silverwolf2010 for reviewing; Ahh yes…..the good ol' days. Just stick with your friends and you'll have a great first year of middle school. SilverMoonNymph; I'm really sorry. I used to update really good but school is making my life busy. I'll update the weekends and try updating during the week. And now…the moment you've all been waiting for...Mary spills the beans!
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Italics are thoughts
A Time Remembered
Once we said our farewells to everyone, we took off out of the main hall and into they sky. The Interceptor hovered over the palace as we went into the hanger door. We took off in silence, everyone sitting in their usual seats in the control room. I was between Aya and Killowag. But then Hal broke the silence. "Ganthet's been banished."
"What!?" I screamed.
"How-what happened?" Killowag asked.
"That's all I got from Appa, he said he wasn't there anymore, and he cut me off. I'm guessing Ganthet tried to convince them but…."
"Appa didn't like it." I concluded. Hal nodded. Silence. Killowag and I looked at each other and then we turned to the window. My arms were crossed; my hand's squeezing them until I almost made a bruise on my right arm. Something goes right, then goes wrong, but not Ganthet, any Guardian but Ganthet. No, No…. "NO!" I kicked the panel in front off me, leaving only a small dent. I felt everyones eyes on me, but I didn't care. I got up and flew as fast as I could to my room.
"Mary come back here." I ignored Hal as I went in to my room and shut the door behind me.
I quickly got on my bed, sat down Indian style and began to zone out. Just forget. It will pass, you don't have to face it. You've done it before. You can't let it get to you, it'll just bring you down. Just like mom…Mama
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I opened my eyes to see I was already in the room, all dark, nothing. I saw the whisp of smoke and prepared my self. But the whisp just hovered in front of me. I walked to it slowly, and reached out my hand to touch it. Then I looked at my hand, it was longer. Then I looked over myself to see my 14 year old body. I began to question if I was actually meditating when I heard a soft voice. "Mary." I looked up, and front of me stood my mom. All ok…all right…safe. The way I last saw her.
"Mama!" I went and hugged her, not daring to let her go. "Oh Mama, I missed you so much."
"Never forget, even if they aren't there anymore." She said, her voice become more of an echo.
"What?" I looked up. I shouldn't have, where my mom was just standing, stood a skeleton. I screamed and let go. But the skeleton grabbed my hands, its bones gripping hard on my wrist. "No let me go."
"Mary." Its voice said deeper. "Stop."
"No let me go, please let me go!"
"Mary! Wake Up!" I closed my eyes, than I opened them.
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I looked up to see Hal was holding me hands by the wrist. Even if he wore the mask, I saw that he was worried. I was still on my bed surprisingly, Hal sitting in front off me. I realized I was breathing hard and I tried to calm down. But I couldn't hold it in any longer. So I broke.
My eyes started to water and I hugged Hal. He hugged me back as I put my face to his chest and cried. I never really cried before. Not even a broken bone had me shed one tear. The last time I cried was when I was 10, before the ring, before all this. After I was taken in, I always held it in. No matter how sad. Mom, Sheer, Dulock, and even though Ganthet is still alive, I might not see him ever again. I pushed all these feelings aside, so that I don't have to linger in this feeling of sadness.
But all these flash backs ment something. And I was so stupid to not see them in the first place. That I have to talk about it. I can't keep it all in, I have to let it flow. Never Forget….no…how could I.
I think I was like that for about a few minutes, Hal rubbing my back, calming me down. "Hey, it's ok. It was just a nightmare. You're all right."
I still held him but I looked up at him saying, "H-Hal-I-need-t-to-" But the tear's kept coming and I put my face to his chest again.
"Don't worry, when you're ready, I'll be here."
I felt a huge hand on my shoulder and looked up. Killowag said. "I'm here too Kid."
I smiled at him, then Aya came from behind him and said, "I too will be here as you have been there for me." I nodded and looked behind her. At the entrance of the door, Razer was leaning with his arms crossed. He gave me a nod, letting me know he agreed with the others.
I gave a loud sigh, and finally let go of Hal. While I used my hand to wipe the tears of my face, I began to talk. "I think it's time I start to explain." I began to tell them about what I was seeing. Flash backs, always the same, and sometimes different.
"Why didn't you ever tell me about this?" asked Hal.
"I didn't want to worry you, any of you. I don't want to look fragile, especially now that we're facing hordes of Red Lanterns. Even back on earth I don't want to be a target, not like I was back at the orphanage."
"You?" Hal asked.
"A target?" Killowag finished.
"The whole time the death of my mom played over and over in my head was at my time in the orphanage. I never spoke to anyone, I some kids thought I couldn't speak, but I really didn't care. There was always this one kid who would bother me though. Call me names, push me at school."
"Please tell me you at least punched the Poozer to get him to stop." Killowag said.
"I didn't even fight back. Not until the day Vivian moved my school. That boy never beat anybody else up but me until she came in. I just stood there, until he took her glasses and broke them. Then I finally had it, and I punched the guy square in the jaw. That same day, was the day I got my ring, and my first detention." Hal laughed a little at the last comment. "I've been hiding my past all the time, thinking the only way to pass it is just to forget about it. Since I've been meditating, I thought I just had to live through it again."
"But that wasn't it." Razer said.
"No…because there's more." Then I began to explain what really happened that night my mother died. "I went to bed that night after a normal day. I think we left the stove on by accident, a firefighter found the source of the fire in the kitchen. So I woke up to the smell of smoke, and I ran out of my room. Mom was already awake so she picked me up and ran out. The wall leading to the front was already burned to the ground, so I thought we were going to get a clear way out. But the ceiling began to fall. We both knew we weren't going to make it, but what happened next surprised me. My mom pushed me outside before the ceiling fell. Once I landed on the grass I looked back to see the whole house fall, everything, even my mom. I don't know what happened next but I passed out. Woke up in the hospital the next day. And well, they told me…she was gone."
"So all this time." Hal said. "You've been trying to get away. To forget. And Meditating was just the first step to overcome this."
"Now I realized that there is one last thing stopping me from becoming and expert healer, I just have to be open about it so that when the time comes again that I have to talk about my past, I won't hesitate. And if I have to face loss again, I won't ignore it"
"Because no matter how much you try to stay away," Hal said. "The past will always come back. And you have to be able to face it. You can't pass it. Mary, when my Dad passed I did move on, but I never let go. I don't want to sound like a cheesy movie but it's true, you have to remember that they're still here somehow. For me, when I fly planes and for you…ummm"
"Cooking." I smirked "Did I ever tell you I make the best lasagna."
"What….you've been living with me for four years and now you tell me" and just like when I was ten, Hal began to tickle me. I tried to get away, but my laughing was not helping me. "What, and now you tell me, after all those pizza's and take out. What is this?" He kept tickling me even though I kept telling him to stop. When Hal stopped, it took me only a few seconds to get my breath back. Killowag came and rubbed my head, I smiled back.
"It is good to see you in a happier mood again, Green Lantern Mary." Aya said.
"Yah me too." I said.
"So whose next?" Hal said, looking at Killowag.
"Oh no, I'm out." Killowag said quickly walking out of my room.
"I was kidding." Everyone left the room, but I called for Hal as he started out the door. "Yah Mary?"
"Can you umm….can you sleep with me tonight?"
"Sure."
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"So I just put the eggs in like this."
"No, unless you wan t to eat scrambled egg's with the shell."
"How was I supposed to know?"
"Common sense." Hal was definitely not born to cook.
Since Hal and I woke up early in the morning, meaning me pushing him off the bed in my sleep, we decided to make breakfast. I seriously woke up this morning like some weight on me has been lifted off from me. Wow, letting it flow through really does feel better.
"You crack it like this." I took the purple egg, don't ask, and I broke the shell letting the yoke fall in the pan. "Do that, with the other three eggs."
After almost setting the kitchenette on fire, we finally got the eggs done in time for Killowag to come in and say, "What' that smell?"
"Eggs." I said setting four plates of egg on the table. "Try."
When he sat down and, he looked at it with a weird face, then he smashed his face on it and gobbled it. He looked up with wide eyes and shouted. "This is amazing!" And he started eating again.
"I'm just that good." Then the ceiling opened up and Aya's parts came down on to the table. They formed her body and once the green formed her face, she got off the table.
"You seem to very much like cooking," she said as I sat down at the table.
"Yah, no kidding. Proves I'm smarter than Hal." I motioned her to sit down next to me. Even though she couldn't eat, I still think she deserved a place at the table.
"Hey since last night I learned a lot more about kids. So go slow with me I'm still learning." He said as he sat next to me and Killowag.
"Good morning Razer." When Aya said that, I looked to see Razer come in and sit in down between Aya and Killowag.
"Here." I said pushing his plate forward. "Try it at least." Razer just looked at it then at me. He was meet with stares from the others.
"Why are you all lo-"
"Just try it." He rolled his eyes, took his fork, and ate a bit of it. His eye's widened a little. "Ha I knew it!" We all began to laugh at how surprised he was. I finally told everyone to calm down so we can all eat in peace. Well not totally.
"I have always had this question I've been meaning to ask." Said Aya.
"Ok, shoot."
"Since Hal is only your adoptive father, and you have lost your birth mother, should you not have a birth father?" It was silent, but I knew better then to not talk about it.
"I never knew my father, the only way I saw him was in a picture in our living room. I always asked were he went, but my mother said that he went somewhere else and just changed the subject. When the police tried to find any relatives I could live with they couldn't. My parents were both where an only child, and my older relatives are gone so I had no where to go. To this day, they're still looking for my dad but so far nothing. Like he disappeared of the face of the earth."
"You mean of Earth." Hal said. We just laughed and I punched him.
"Do you ever think he'll come back?" Killowag asked.
I thought about it, and then said. "I don't know."
A/N: Spin off for the next sequal! OMG I almost cried writing this! Gah….Feels for something that's not realy part of the show! Tell me what you guys thought. Hey I'm going to try posting the URL for my old RazAya week picture. #/d5bo4nb . If that didn't work, then just check out "Mary Helps Out" on my Deviantart.