Okay so I'm excited to start this chapter even more than any other chapter so far. So please, you don't have to enjoy this chapter but you have to be excited okay? Besides, soon, Ciel has to choose… will he make up with Sebastian? Or will he find someone else? Dun, dun dunnnnn. But, oh, god, I love this idea of 'couples counseling'. It makes me laugh. XD Even though it's not really counseling, it just cracks me up.

"Ciel, can we agree to let Sebastian speak? You'll have your turn afterwards, okay?"

Ciel wasn't paying much attention. He was too busy hugging and cuddling his cats, he hadn't seen them in a week and they were currently the only people, well, 'living' objects, that he trusted with no complications, "Okay. I'll be quiet and listen."

"Sebastian? Tell everything. Whether we know it or not. Leave nothing out. Understand?"

Sebastian nodded, this was when he found out if the rest of his life was going to be miserable or happy beyond compare,

"Ciel? Please, can you look at me?"

Ciel glanced up at Sebastian taking in every remorseful detail. Dark, bi-colored eyes met bright red ones. Sebastian's eyes stayed trained on Ciel's throughout his explanation. "After I, um… broke down… I left your bedroom, Ciel. I ran to the kitchen and collapsed. I utterly collapsed, which was a whole new experience for me. I felt like I had been ripped in two. I didn't know what to do, what to think, what to feel. My entire life had… left me. In a foolish attempt, to mask my emotions, I forced myself to… blank out in a way. I still felt terrible but it was a little better knowing no one would be affected with needless worry."

So that explains why his eyes were like that.

"So I walked into the parlor and I knew Adelina suspected something was wrong. When I heard you walk in, Ciel, I couldn't bear to look at you. I felt even worse… I thought you weren't even affected. All I wanted to do was die. It was as if, your every word was there, mocking me, as if they knew they would never, could never, be mine. Then, when you sat down, I was this close to running out. So when my mother asked for a tour, I willingly complied. I took her around in silence until we reached the garden. She berated me again for falling in love with, not only a child, but one that used to be nothing but a meal. I didn't say anything. I couldn't say anything. I was still silently beating myself for getting caught up in this. But then she started insulting you, Ciel. That's when I snapped. I yelled back, trying my best to defend you, I really was. But she said something unforgiveable in my eyes. Even though it may have been true, I let my anger control me. That's when I began to hear both of you back in here. I ran here as fast as I thought was possible but by the time I got away from my mother and ran here, you were gone, Ciel. Adelina, you remember, I yelled at you, using my anger at my mother, my concern for Ciel and my confusion and sadness at what I heard. I have to stop here and say something. Ciel, you were never hated. You have never been hated nor will ever, no matter what. Anyways, I stumbled out and knew immediately where you were. That one hallway that seems to have no purpose. Through our contract, I could feel that you needed me. I found you unconscious and was scared half to death. I took you back to your room and laid you there. Having you in my arms was a wonderful moment for me. Adelina and I talked about some… things. I'll tell you after what they were if you'd like. That night, I stay by you, Ciel. Adelina came back in I found out it was my mother who did this to you. Something you don't know about her, her animal form is a spider and a poisonous one at that. Similar to Claude's. I'll explain that later. I found bite marks over your collarbone and absolutely destroyed your room, Ciel, trying to find my mother, the one who did this to you, cutting my chest in the process. I was… unsuccessful. I then resolved never to leave your bedside. But Adelina convinced me I had something to do. I… um… while keeping our contract intact, I went and created other contracts so that I could properly feed you as if you were a demon child. Which, technically, you are. It killed me to be away from you for that long while you were in that condition, and angry at me on top of that. Just this morning, when I returned, the first place I went was your bedside. These past seven days were probably the worst and longest days of my life, I almost forgot about your anger. You remember the rest don't you? I can't tell you how much I hated knowing you were angry at me and I couldn't talk to you at all. It ate away at me from the inside and tore me to pieces. Just being able to see you again, awake and well, with those bright eyes of yours, helped me more than anything."

Ciel listened intently the entire time, eyes peeking out from behind the stuffed cats, knees curled up to his chest arms wrapped around them, as if he could guard himself from Sebastian's words. He felt terrible himself. But what was he to do about it? Apologize? He had apologized to Sebastian before but this was… different. Ciel felt different. This feeling of utter disappointment in himself and utter devotion to Sebastian overwhelmed the small boy.

Ciel watched as Sebastian realized how intensely he had been watching Ciel, looking for a reply. He lowered his gaze slightly and waited.

Ciel knew he should say something but what was he supposed to say? The silence was broken once again by Sebastian, "Ciel? I really don't mean to rush you or make you uncomfortable, but are you alright? I realize this is awkward but are you…okay?"

"…What did you and Adelina talk about? I-I want to know," Ciel said in a voice smaller than ever.

"We had two conversations. One in here, one by you when you were unconscious in your room. There were a lot of things we talked about. But, in the end, what it came down to was that by keeping information from you, I was indirectly lying to you. And by doing that I hurt you. She also said… that… when I… cry… it is because I'm confused as to my next move. I usually always know what to do in England with humans but here… it's different. I didn't know what to do so I channeled my confusion into tears. And…"" Sebastian hesitated.

Adelina, who had been quiet up until this point, said warningly, "Sebastian…"

Sebastian sighed and smirked a little, closing his eyes before continuing, "She said that you trusted me and… loved me a lot. And I should stop trying to protect you all the time and instead, help you get stronger, mentally and physically. And that sometimes, I don't give you enough credit, that you know more than I think."

Ciel was both mad at Adelina for telling Sebastian that, and glad she was able to put in into words. He was upset that Sebastian had to hear it for someone other than himself but happy he knew now. Unsure of what to say in his contradictory state, he went back to rubbing his face, and slightly damp eyes, into Corvus and Sinta's soft fur. He stopped when he heard Sebastian again.

"Speaking of which, Ciel? Did you know I was a raven?"

Ciel nodded.

"How did you know? I don't recall telling you."

"…I figured it out on my own."

Sebastian smiled, "You're getting smarter every day."

Ciel blushed and looked up at Sebastian. They watched each other for a while, wishing something would happen or that the other would talk.

Ciel was the first to speak but on a slightly different topic, "You said you got cut. Are you- I mean- Can I- un, actually- sorry- I mean-"

Saving Ciel from his futile attempts at speaking, Sebastian helped him out, "You want to see it?"

"Yes- I mean- No! Because you know… I just want to make sure. It's not like I want to see, like, well- you but I'm worried and-I mean… you don't have to."

But Adelina had already snuck out of the room respecting their privacy and Sebastian was already standing and had removed his tailcoat. He folded it and placed it aside. Ciel began to heat up again and unsuccessfully tried to force the blush that was appearing on his cheeks away. He looked away but Sebastian grabbed his chin and pulled his face up to meet his own. Ciel's eyes tore themselves from the hypnotizing red ones in front of him and travelled downwards.

Ciel's breath quickened and his heart sped up at the sight of Sebastian's bare skin. He almost convinced himself these reactions were because of the scar on his chest. But… if he was to be completely honest with himself…

"Ciel."

Sebastian's urgent voice brought Ciel's gaze back up. Sebastian reached out and ensnared Ciel's face in his bare hands.

"I love you more that anyone or anything. When I figured out you had been, for lack of a better word, poisoned, I just about died. I tore apart you room and bathroom, I couldn't bear knowing you were in danger. Within minutes, I checked everywhere. There was blood all over me from cuts and scratches and I hadn't noticed until the end. Ciel, all I want is for you to be happy. And if you're 100% sure your happiness doesn't include me then I'll go back to being just your butler. Or I can leave entirely if that's what you so choose."

Instead of answering, Ciel's fingers floated down, soon followed by his gaze. Being a demon, Sebastian had already healed but the scar was ghastly. Staring at the bottom of it, by his ribcage, Ciel's warm fingers traced the heated, red cut up towards Sebastian's shoulder where it ended.

He got this from trying to protect me. Everything id did, everything he does is to help me. And how do I repay him? I'm disgusting.

Sebastian's smooth voice filled the room once again, "Adelina is not my 'girlfriend'. Nor is she the one I love."

Ciel's small fists clenched and he pressed them against Sebastian's broad shoulders as he stared into Sebastian's bright, anticipating eyes. When Sebastian spoke he watched his lips.

"Now that you know everything, I need to know. The suspense is killing me. Ciel, can you forgive me?"

Ciel spoke for the first time in a while, "I not only can, but already have."

Sebastian smiled in relief and happiness, something that hadn't happened in a while. His hands raised Ciel's face higher and he allowed their lips to meet.

Like always, Sebastian silently rubbed his tongue against Ciel's lower lip and, like always, Ciel quickly granted Sebastian access to his mouth, eager to have the unique taste in his mouth again. The older demon lifted Ciel and sat down. He gathered the smaller figure in his lap and Ciel rested against his bare torso. Ciel wrapped his arms around Sebastian's neck to pull them closer and to deepen their kiss. His hands went up and tangled themselves in raven-black locks. Reluctantly, Ciel pulled away quickly.

"Sebastian?" he asked before moving back in towards the raven's lips.

"Yes?" Sebastian replied, mumbling into their kiss.

"I'm sorry. I overreacted. You were right. Like always." At this point, Ciel couldn't care less about his pride; he just wanted to taste Sebastian again, without the taste of a soul upon his lips.

"My Ciel, my kitten, my life, you have nothing to apologize for. But it's alright anyways."

Ciel whimpered into Sebastian lips and they sat there, kissing and hugging like there was no tomorrow, both missing the feel, the taste of the other.

Of course it was just their luck that Adelina had to come in at that moment and interrupt. Ciel and Sebastian both turned to her and glared, didn't she know they were busy?

"Adelina, what are you doing? Couldn't whatever you have to say wait?" Sebastian was obviously peeved and pulled Ciel closer. Ciel, in reply to this action untangled his hands from Sebastian's hair and wrapped them around Sebastian's shoulders, shielding him slightly from view. Sebastian was Ciel's and Ciel's alone. No one could see him.

"I'm sorry, but there's someone here to see you. He said he couldn't wait. He had to talk to tyou both."

Ciel hugged Sebastian tighter and buried his face in his neck and mumbled, "I don't care. Tell him to go away."

Sebastian nuzzled his face into Ciel's hair and whispered, "It's alright, we have forever to continue this. Let's go get rid of him."

"…Fine." If Ciel's voice was anything to judge by, he was ready to murder someone. In an attempt to calm him, Sebastian shifted the boy's hair slightly and kissed his cheek, "Will you help me get dressed again?"

Ciel blushed and shoved Sebastian away. The older demon smirked, "Okay then, I can do it myself."

"No!" Ciel cried, "I mean- it's alright, I can help you."

Okay that was really fun but REALLY HARD. I need to stop promising I'll update my other stories. This took way to long and my mom's mad at me. Some other people came over yesterday and I was just hiding in a corner writing like crazy, scribbling things out, shuffling through papers and digging through a thesaurus. It was rough. XD And now she's kicking me off my laptop for who knows how long. I'm really sorry, I just about hate myself but I'm trying my best. And I suck at writing this whole loving couple thing. The whole 'never had nor want a boyfriend thing' is coming back to bite me in the butt. But god… this is so much fun. And I absolutely love every single one of you and your reviews. Please, I hope this chapter was to your liking, review and tell me if I did anything wrong. I'll update as soon as I can! Bye!