Chapter Thirty-Seven
Fantasies
I'm not sure where I am, but it looks like some sort of garage. I walk in, the smell of motor oil and sweat reaching my nostrils and I sniff at the air like a blood hound. This feels weirder than waking up with Sora in my room, riffling through my drawers. I'm serious, it's such an invasion of space, I feel so violated. I lick my lips, which happen to be really dry and step further into the shop, realizing that while this is weird at least Sora isn't here. It's so strange that I don't remember coming here, I haven't even had a drink since that night, so I couldn't of ended up here drunk...right? Or did I have a fight with Axel and drink so much I am in a coma? I take a deep breath to steady my nerves. Man, I need to calm down. I'm sure there's a reason for him. It is scary that I have absolutely no recollection of where I am, so I hope I can find a worker, or someone to ask how to get home. I hear a drill start up, and I turn to where the sound is coming from and walk towards it. At least there isn't any scary background music, though in a way it'd be helpful. I'd know if something bad were to happen, instead of feeling so anxious like I do right now. I have no idea what or who I'm walking towards, so I'm almost literally shitting bricks. I look to the side and find a room with a door that has a window, but it's covered with a thick layer of dust. I walk towards it and use my sleeve to wipe a little circle into the grime. I look through and see someone working on a car there, so with a deep breath I walk into the weird office.
When the guy looks up, I see it's Axel. The worry that I'm going to be murdered dies and is replaced with a weird, excited buzzing just under my skin. His hair is tied back and a black streak runs across his cheek cheekbone, his skin shimmering with a light sheen of sweat, the thin white tank top he's wearing looks painted on, a sharp contrast to the loose jumper he has rolled down to his hips. I've never seen anything so appealing before in my life, and I feel kind of barbaric when I drool a little. Suddenly, this autoshop is a whole ten degrees too hot and I start to sweat too. He smirks when he spots me, like he's just been wasting time until I got here. I stand frozen at the entrance and he seems to dance toward me, his movements so quick and graceful. I just stare like I'm in a trance, his eyes holding mine and not letting me look anywhere else. Each step gets him way closer than you'd think until suddenly, he's right in front of me. The musky smell of Axel and his skin reaches my nose and I feel sort of dizzy. I have no choice but to close my eyes and inhale. Everything is spinning. I open my eyes and look up just in time to see him coming towards me, his lips sticking to mine as if pulled together by magnets. I melt in his arms, and luckily he catches me, then pulls me towards his body until I feel every inch of him pressed against me. I groan as his hands slide along my sides, the temperature still rising, more beads of sweat collecting on my skin and rolling down. Axel doesn't seem to care, his mouth seems to almost want to catch every last drop. His tongue dances down my neck, a burning path that seems to seep right into my blood stream has my knees turning to jelly. Axel grabs hold of one of my legs and tugs it up to rest on his hip, our fronts coming together in an almost shocking wave of pleasure, especially when he presses against me harder, his lips crashing back against mine as his fingers press roughly into my flesh.
I'm almost completely lost in this, when I get a horrible stomach cramp. My legs quiver and suddenly, my eyes snap open when I get the worst urge to shit. I pull away, breathless and Axel stares at me confused, his hands holding my hips against his in the most provocative way, but then again...is there any other way of doing that? I scrunch up in pain when the feeling gets worse and I have to pull myself away from Axel. I start to hurry towards the door as my stomach begins to gurgle loudly, a deep tremble from my middle has me speeding up and Axel just stands there, looking lost and I send him a look. He's staring at me like he's disgusted. Then I look down and realize...I've fucking shit myself.
I wake up in a cold sweat, the bed sheets sticking to me and I want to scream, but instead I sniff the air crazily. I don't smell anything weird, no sweat or motor oil or even...poop. In fact, the only thing out of place is my boner popping up from my lower half, looking like a little bed sheet ghost. I look around and curl up quickly, feeling embarrassed for some reason, having been laying there on my back, everything out in the open. The room is really dark, but I can hear someone talking downstairs. I get a little freaked out until I look at the time and realize it's my parents getting ready to head to the airport but then I feel even more worried. I mean, what if my mother came to check on me and saw something? I clench my eyes shut and push that thought away, I need to be optimistic. She hasn't been in here yet.
Instead, I wonder why I never ask them where they go, and figure it's probably because ever since I was a kid, I'd like to imagine they go on spy missions. I know they are probably going to some resort now, to relax after all the stressful shit and I'm glad. But during the week, when they leave for days at a time for work...that's when they do spy shit.
I roll over and look up at the ceiling but quickly look away. Looking into the darkness makes me remember that creep and when he chased me. I swear when I smacked my face into the ground, everything went dark for a split second and I thought I was a goner. Closing my eyes doesn't really make it any better, I mean, it's still black but it makes me feel a little safer. I slow my breathing and just when I think I'm going to fall asleep, I hear my door creak open. I roll onto my side quickly because, somehow I'm still a little hard and it's awkward. I squint into the hallway light and see my mother's figure at the door. "Hey...you awake?" she breathes quietly, so quiet that if I were sleeping, I probably wouldn't hear. I hope this is her first time popping her head in.
"Yeah..." I whisper back and I can't tell if she smiles or not but she blows me a kiss.
"We're leaving now, Axel is on his way baby. We'll see you sooner than you think. I'll call every day or every now and then just to check in...okay?" I nod and she tells me to sleep more before closing the door and leaving. I hear my dad ask her if I was awake and she tells him, though he doesn't come to the room but I think he knows mom said everything that needed to be said. I close my eyes and sigh, I should probably sleep...Axel will be here soon.
When I open my eyes again, it's still kind of dark outside but I know it's time for me to get up. I roll out of bed and stretch, the bones in my back popping before I stand and head to the bathroom. I hate exams because I have to be there on time and there is no way I can skip. Though, I know I have to stop skipping school. My marks are on a steady decline, so showing up to class would probably help. I yawn as I step into the shower, deciding I need one to wake the hell up. I need to be as alert as possible for these freaking boring tests.
The water really does the trick and I feel a lot fresher when I step out. I don't take really long showers anymore after I shaved off my hair, I swear it's almost pointless to shampoo myself. I wrap a towel loosely around my hips and realize quickly that I need to get my hamper to the laundry room. All I have left are the small towels, that barely cover my decency, in fact they are probably only a few inches too long to be considered face towels. I walk out of the bathroom, cursing my laziness when I get the feeling someone is watching me. I turn around quickly and scream so hard I think I might rupture my esophagus. Axel screams too, dropping his little Tim Horton's bag on the floor but luckily keeps his grip on the coffee. I briefly wonder how he rode a motorcycle and brought all those things before remembering that I'm in a fucking towel a tiny ass towel. "AXEL!"
"Roxas," He says quite calmly now that he's not terrified. I look around the room before scurrying to stand behind the bathroom door and he just watches me, not even trying to hide the smirk on his face. It seems he got over the scare quite easily, and I can almost feel his eyes looking at every inch of leg and chest I have exposed. Well, I'm glad one of us has a normal heart rate. He bends over and picks up the paper bag, then drops it on the desk, placing the coffee there too. Thank God I moved Sora's little sex kit. I threw it safely into the furthest depths of my closet. Not the closet in Axel's room, but into my own walk in one. I feel my legs shaking when I look and realize Axel is directly across from me, standing in front of the desk. He must have gotten there when I was concentrating on remembering where I'd put the sex kit. He turns and looks at me, the bathroom door isn't even hiding me now, it's pointless to stand here. "Why yah hidin' from me?" he looks like a wolf, watching a tiny lamb that strayed from the heard and is now cornered, all alone. I look up at him, my breaths coming quick and shallow.
"Uh...towel..." I squeak but he reaches out and pulls me away from the door and towards him. I feel my towel grow just a tad bit looser and I start to panic. He looks down at me and I'm pressed against his chest before I can start frantically trying to squirm away. Axel's hand slowly slide down my arms and all the way to my back, he doesn't stop smirking for a second. I finally feel his hot palms against the small of my back, and if I ever had any sort of ache there, it's gone now.
My hands move up his chest, almost without my say and they start wind around his neck, before I lock them together and pull myself a little higher up, in the process bringing Axel a little lower and closer. We stumble into the bathroom door as our mouths connect and it's almost the same feeling as I get in the dream, only a million times better because his lips are sweet and taste faintly of coffee, and well, he's real duh. I know I shouldn't have kissed him, at least not until I had gotten some pants on but damn it, my brain just sends commands without letting me give the go ahead. He presses our bodies against the wood and I push my tongue into his mouth right away, figuring I've already started, so I might as well take advantage. I went way too long wanting more of his taste and never getting it. There's this warmth that spreads through me when his tongue slides along mine, leaving behind the familiar ashy flavor of cigarettes.
He groans, moving his hot hands along my back, before stopping and changing his course half way through. I realize quickly where his hands are going and tense a little, but something in me doesn't let me reach back and stop him. I feel the heat almost right away as he grips my ass and really starts fighting to win control for the kiss. Once he starts, I'm just fighting against a never ending current. There is no way I'm going to win, so I just let myself be kissed, tangling my fingers in his hair and enjoy the whole feeling as he gently sucks my tongue into his mouth. One hand releases my ass cheek and moves to touch the soft skin of my thigh and I shiver, pulling away to take a deep breath but Axel doesn't need to breathe apparently. He latches onto my neck and I think I just might collapse, my heart hammering against my ribs so hard it almost hurts. Just when his hand gets a worrying distance up my towel, the bedroom door slams open, Sora walking in and stopping abruptly. I realize I'm panting when I look to the side, my chest heaving and Axel is also pretty out of breath when he pulls away from the crook of my neck. I feel the little wet spot get cold almost instantly, and the faint sting worries me.
"Oh uh...thought you were ready..." My cousin clears his throat before looking to the side "well then...I'll just be downstairs," he turns and runs out of the room and we hear him smack right into Riku, telling him to turn his ass right around and go to the kitchen. At first the silver haired buttface is curious, wanting to push past my cousin or at least it sounds that way, but finally, we hear their retreating steps. I turn back to Axel, feeling my towel as it slowly slips looser and looser, but he pulls away before it falls off. I grab hold of it with nothing short of cat like reflexes and my blush is burning me, making me almost sweat.
"Sorry Roxas...yah just drive me crazy," he looks towards me and grins while shaking his head, "I haven't been near yah for so long, havin' yah this close is enough to kill me," I almost drop onto my ass when he says this and I watch him pick up the paper bag from the desk and grab his coffee. "I don't think I'll be able to stay mad at yah for much longer if yah keep prancing 'bout in little towels," He winks, which only makes my blush burn harder. I'd try to pull down the towel, to at least cover more of myself but looking at the size, if I'd try and cover my legs, I'd only expose everything else. "Yah should really get ready for school, don't wanna be late," He smiles before turning and leaving the room. I watch in shock as he slips out the door and closes it for me, leaving me here alone with my thumping heart and quivery legs. I hurry over and lock it, just in case someone else barges in and I press myself against it, almost sliding down and sitting on the floor. I notice my body is completely dry though, so I rush to gather my uniform, not really having all the time in the world to waste. It's not just because Axel is downstairs, but because he brought something for breakfast in that bag and I'm fucking starving.
When I get downstairs, Axel and Riku are chatting and Sora is going through the bag of goodies, though it seems he didn't ignore the little doughnut box to his right. He looks up at me, cheeks stuffed and teeth latched onto a doughnut. I point at him, glaring before charging into the dinning room and ripping the bag away. He has at least three different things in his hand and one in his mouth, why the hell is he still going through the bag? He looks at me, almost like he's insulted but I glare even harder before looking into the crumpled bag and finding a delicious cheese croissant. I pull it out before moving to the kitchen to get a glass of orange juice. Axel calls out to me, telling me that he might not be here when I get home, because he needs to buy some things. Apparently my mother left a long ass freaking list. I spot it on the counter, rolled up when I walk into the kitchen. Yeah, it's almost like a freaking scroll.
I hear the kitchen doors open and close right behind me and it's no surprise that Sora got up and followed me. I turn to look at him and the doughnut is quickly sucked up by the black hole known as his mouth. His hands are empty in a few minutes and when he's done licking the crumbs and chocolate off his fingers, he looks up at me. "What was that all about?" he asks with his eyebrows raised high on his forehead and I roll my eyes, placing my croissant on the counter and grabbing a glass. My cousin doesn't stop looking at me, and when I pull the juice carton out of the fridge I cave in and smile hugely.
"I have no idea, but holy shit Sora...it was amazing," I almost pour too much into my cup, on account of being busy remembering what happened upstairs but Sora saves me by a few centimeters. He puts the juice carton away, claiming my hands should be free so that I can tell him every little detail. Of course I refuse and only give him the basics. I walked out of the bathroom in a small towel, Axel was in there and attacked me, then he came in and ruined my life, yet again. I chug my entire juice cup before Sora speaks.
"Did you read the booklet?" his eyes glisten when I groan and look up at the ceiling. I only read the first two sections. The whole bit about preparation and how the guy has to relax my fucking anal muscles and then the hygiene. Over and over it kept repeating that once you do the enema, your ass will be best comparable to fucking Niagara Falls. Everything in the hygiene section terrified me, so I stopped reading after that. I mean, if anything, it seems like the process of the enema gets you dirty. The preparation part wasn't so bad though.
I'll admit, something about having Axel touch such an intimate place excites me, and the thought of being able to touch and feel him...oh God. But I have no idea how to go about starting this. Last time I tried, he rejected me and sent me to bed. Well, one thing is for sure and that is that this time, I won't be drunk...or well, if there even is a this time. He's still angry with me and I don't want him to be when we decide to do this, or like you know, if we decide to. I'm trying to convince myself that I don't really want this as much as I do, but holy shit, I've never felt my hormones raging like this before. Talk about absence makes the fucking heart grow fonder. "Roxas...you do realize you've got quite the hickey on your neck," My cousin says nonchalantly and I rush towards the fridge, using the little magnetic mirror to look at my neck. I spot the purple bruise almost glowing against my pale skin and I squeak.
"Ah, fuck!" I lift the collar of my dress shirt and check in the mirror to see if it's covered. Thankfully it's not visible, but the problem is I have to walk around like a douche bag who pops his collar. I decide I don't really care, I'll only be in school for like 2 hours anyway.
"So, did you read the booklet?" My cousin eyeballs my neck before deeming my hickey hidden and returning to his previous train of thought.
"I only read a little okay...I'm still not 100% sure about this Sora," I chew my lip nervously before going to grab the croissant but notice that it's gone. I look towards my cousin and he grins, flakes of the pastry all over his uniform blazer. I glare viciously before I stomp my way back to my empty glass on the counter "What the hell?"
"Don't hurt me or I'll scream," Sora opens his mouth, looking ready to wail like a siren but I stop him. Promising I won't rip him limb from limb and he believes me because I'm not even close to him. Instead I move to wash my cup, rinsing it before setting it in the dish rack. My cousin follows me around the kitchen and stops me before I walk out. "Do you think you guys might? I mean, it sure looks like you both want it bad enough," My cousin can't even suppress his giggles and I push him out of the way by his face.
"I'll give it a month of him being here...before I even consider a way to bring it up," I level my cousin with a glare but he just nods his head.
"Fair enough...did you use up the enema? I'm sure you can reuse it...I've always just gotten another one though..."
"SORA STOP!...and no, I didn't use it..." I look away embarrassed to be talking about this again with my cousin but he just laughs before patting me on the back. When he got so close to me again, I will never know.
"I don't think you'll both even make it to a month."
We walk out of the kitchen and I stop myself from saying anything, though I doubt I would have been heard. Axel is speaking when we barge into the dinning room and all we get to hear is "So fucking hot." He almost seems to choke on the words when he sees us standing there but he pulls it together pretty quick. I mean, he could be talking about anything with elevated temperature, right?
Riku stands up and stretches, announcing that we should all leave now. It's so weird any time he decides to go, considering he hates being in school more than I do. Everyone agrees, though it's probably because we have no choice. Damn exams. Axel wishes us all luck and waves us off. When I go to start the car, my hands are shaking because I don't feel that prepared and now that I'm actually on my way, this fact hits me full force. I mean, after reading Sora's booklet, I did some real studying but no where near enough to feel safe. I just hope everything goes smoothly. I'd like to be back home with Axel as quickly as possible.
Sora climbs into the car after, both of us having finished our exams right around the same time. The brunette is quiet before looking at me, wondering why I haven't started the car yet. I look around for Riku but the parking lot is completely deserted. "Isn't Riku coming?" I ask and my cousin shakes his head.
"He says the science room has at least another 20 pages left in their booklet," I nod my head and start the car. It's this sort of strange silence, but I guess I only feel awkward because I expect Sora to start ranting about my anal hygiene. I grip the steering wheel and leave the school, wishing the roads weren't so slushy. I'd be speeding down the street if they were clean. My cousin clears his throat and shifts slightly in his seat, I don't take my eyes off the road but I watch him in my peripheral vision, my mind preparing for the onslaught of Gay Sex Ed. He's smiling. "Roxas, I noticed that so far...all you know about sex is horrible. I promise it's not all about enemas and anal fissures, I mean...with the enema I was really just pulling your leg," I scrunch my nose before stopping at a red light and looking at him. "You know, see if you'd actually go that far to shag Axel!" Sora bursts out laughing like it's some great joke and he pats my arm, giggling.
"What the fuck..." I go to continue but he cuts me off with this weird look. It seems sort of stern but like he wants to laugh again and he turns quickly, looking out the windshield. I can't believe him sometimes, and the stupid shit he does. He had me scared half to death with that fucking enema. "I know about sex Sora...I just didn't know about all that weird shit your booklet talked about!" He starts to shake his head, putting his hands on his lap and I watch his body tense up, before he turns to face me again and grins. Every time he looks at me like that, nothing good ever happens.
"No Roxas, you don't know about sex..." He inhales deeply, still grinning before looking me dead in the eye "when it's all done, the prep and the awkward feeling in your belly...when he starts to move and gets it juuuust right. Oh god Roxas," My eyes widen, horrified but my cousin's eyes are shut for this, his fingers curling into the material of his dress pants and he bites his lip, still smiling before opening his eyes again. "I swear I die every time."
I have to stop him here, not only to save my brain from permanent damage, but also because dear Christ I don't want to think about this while driving. Also, I still have to bitch at him for being such a jerk about this whole hygiene thing. I step on the gas and he lurches forward, my plan to shut him up working like a charm. When he sits back and looks at me confused, I send him a disgusted look. "That was waaaaay too much info there Sora," I scrunch up my nose again, still trying to fight away the image of Sora doing anything that involves his butt hole. "And thanks for freaking me out completely. That booklet says things about your asshole that shouldn't ever be said," We should never have to speak this much about our asses to each other, but my cousin doesn't seem to realize this. All he does is laugh.
"I know, but all sex help things are like that. They exaggerate the bad things dear cousin," Sora smiles before smoothing the wrinkles out of his pants. "I just want you to know, all the awkwardness and shit...totally worth it." I park the car, and Sora just seems to realize we're home. He sighs sadly, before opening the door and stepping out. Okay, that was weird. I shut off the car before climbing out after my cousin and catching him before he starts walking towards the fence.
"What was that all about?" I stare at my cousin but he looks startled that I followed him. He starts to laugh which really confuses me.
"Oh no, I just wish Riku was..." I slap my hand over his mouth before glaring at him. I've heard enough and seen enough of him and Riku together. I don't need to know anything else.
"Okay Sora, go home," I push him away and he starts laughing, turning away from me before walking through the fresh snow, looking at me over his shoulder before laughing again.
"Okay Roxas, take it easy," I roll my eyes before walking towards my house. I see Axel's motorcycle, parked close to the garage door but I wonder if maybe he took one of my parent's cars. I'm sure my mom must have left him something to be able to properly do groceries in, especially if she left a list like a torah. So, I open the front door not really knowing if he'll be home, and for the most part, I think he already left. I drop my empty bag by the front door and take off my boots and jacket. I don't hear any noise through out the whole house, which slowly confirms my suspicions that Axel is gone.
It's when I'm half way upstairs, ripping my blazer off that I hear it. A soft mumbling, which I'll admit creeps me out. I turn and head back downstairs because the noise is coming from somewhere down here. Don't ask me why I'd walk towards the sound that is weird and out of place in my empty house. That is, unless the house isn't empty and there is actually someone in here. I stand in the foyer and wait for more sounds to come, and when I hear them, the still soft mumbles, I realize they are coming from the garage. I wonder if I had left the door open this morning as I make my way towards the side entrance. I press my ear against the cool wood and hear Axel's voice, as he talks to someone. "I just don't know...yanno?"
I scrunch my eyebrows before turning the knob and walking into the garage. Sometime long ago, my father made sure he'd never freeze in this room while working on his bike. In fact, I think this is the warmest part in the house during the winter, so it's no surprise that I feel a little sweaty as soon as I step into the place. I shut the door softly behind me and when I look around, I spot Axel standing by his motorcycle, a box of tools by his feet along with Oblivion, sitting there meowing softly at him. My eyes decide to trail up Axel's body slowly, just to torture me, taking in the sight of him in sweat pants, rolled up to the knee and a tight white tank top. I get even sweatier when my eyes linger on every inch of exposed flesh. My curiosity is peaked about Axel's tattoos again when I spot a few on his legs. I swallow thickly, and when I try to take a step closer to get a better look, I knock over an empty bucket, bringing Axel's full attention to me. When he turns to look at me, I feel like my heart just exploded in my chest. His hair is tied back away from his face and on his fucking cheek there is a black streak. Just like from my steamy dream. He smirks when he sees me, giving a little salute and my knees turn to jelly. I did not need to see my fantasy in real life.
My brain sputters like a dead car, trying to bring me back to the world of the living but it's not working and I fear what I might do in this state. All I can really see is the next scene in my dream, where Axel comes over to me and starts trying to fuse our faces together. My breathing gets sort of shallow as I try and fill my lungs but they aren't expanding like they should. It's too hot and stuffy in here...I can't get any damn oxygen. The redhead takes a step towards me and I have to stop myself from squealing. If Axel keeps being this irresistible, Sora's gonna be right. I won't make it a month before I try and tackle him into a bed even if I'll be totally awkward and inexperienced. Before either of us can say anything, I turn on my heel and rush back into the house. I'll just go upstairs and take a cold shower, because those always work, right?
Well, for me and my brain's sake, it better.
A/N: Hey, I was wondering how many of you guys would be willing to read a mystery/crimescene kinda fanfic?
It's different than what I usually write, but I got this idea and I'd like to try...I dunno. Check out the poll on my profile and gimmie all your feedback 8D
I have no idea what I should do once this is over...I mean, I've been working on it for a while!
Oh and this chapter, how many of you knew the Axel as a sexy Mechanic part was coming? Ohhh yeah.
I told y'all I'd write it in somewhere.
Anyway, enjoy!
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