Hey my lovelies, sorry this chapter is as long as normal, but it's basically the part two from the last chapter soo... ya.
Thank you guys for the reviews, not gonna lie I was surprised. Some of you guys loved the SonAmy fluff and felt it was really important. I can tell you now, if you thought last chapter was good then you're in for a treat with this one :)
Also just so you guys know I did struggle to write this one as well, I'm trying to get the story moving forward but sadly I put in so many plot twists there's more loose ends to tie up lol.
Anyway we can move on with the story now, please stay tuned and I hope you enjoy the chapter.
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There was nothing Amy could think of to say. She held Sonic up by his shoulders as all he did was fight against the tears that leaked down his cheeks before wiping them away with his hand, now angry at himself for letting his emotions get the better of him. "I'm sorry, its lame I know" he mumbled, sniffing back the last of his sobs before drawing his knees to his chest, using them to lean the side of his head down. His eyes trailed along the playground and followed Cream as she ran around, fortunate that she hadn't been paying attention to him. "I just… She makes me feel like I'm needed. She acts like it's impossible for me to be a bad guy and I didn't realise how much I wanted to feel like that. Even though she's only six, she understands what I'm going through more than anyone else. I want to help her get home and get her away from this hell hole but I'm so scared that if I lose her I'll have nothing to live for… I'm scared I'm gonna… I'll…"
Amy rested her hand against his shoulder and rubbed soothingly, wanting to provide as much comfort as she could, but upon hearing how he truly felt she leaned herself into him, wrapping her arms around his torso and holding as tight as she possibly could. None of this was what she had ever expected to hear from him. Sonic was so confident in himself, everyone loved him, the guys wanted to be like him, Amy would have burnt her own heart if it meant having a chance to be with him! But now… the boy everyone loved hated himself. Her caring heart only ached as if it was already burnt.
"Sonic… You have no idea how much you mean to people, if only you knew…"
"Amy please!" he snapped tiredly, sitting himself up so she was forced to let him go. Sonic hugged his arms and sighed lowly, eyes wondering to the ground. "Things in School were a lot different then I made them out to be. I was stuck in my own world where I was popular, nobody could hurt me and I was free from being called a freak and a demon. But that's the thing; I convinced myself I was so important and untouchable that the moment things went wrong everyone jumped at the chance to get rid of me I didn't see it. No one 'loved me' as much as they went on, they all just used me to score points. The worst thing is for once I can't lie about it, or blame it on anyone, because it was all my fault. I should have never lied to my Uncle, I shouldn't have been such a jerk to people! I should have listened to Tails and let him explain before I threw him into the wall!" he threw his head down into his hands as his voice started to break once again at the painful memory. He needed a moment to control himself, not wanting to breakdown a second time in ten minutes, so shaking his head and rubbing his eyes, Sonic regained himself. He knew there were tears still threatening to fall, but he tried to forget about them, wanting to finish what he had to say. "Nobody cares about me Amy. No one wants me back. I saw what they all put on that SpaceBook page, it's practically turned into the I-Hate-Sonic club."
He failed to see Amy cringe at that comment.
"Sometimes I really think the world would be a better place if I wasn't on it. I've ruined so many lives…"
He heart finally broke. In a moment of de ja vu, Amy felt like she was back at Jet's party all over again, listening as Sonic broke down to her, confessing all his anguish and pain to her, treating her like she was the only person he trusted. And just like that she felt she had to help him, do anything to show him how much she valued his life. Only last time she had Rouges voice running through her ears telling her she needed to find any reason to kiss him in time for Sally to run in on them.
Only this time, Rouges voice was replaced with her own.
With her hands reaching to his face, she unknowingly to both of them leaned in and placed her lips on top of his. Sonic's eyes were wide opened and he became as stiff as wood, not expecting her to do that. But slowly he felt his fears and grief start to melt away as he relaxed into her hold and let Amy pull him in. He felt so confused and yet for once he decided not to care.
Amy pulled herself away, realising he had placed his hands on her waist and she had hers on his back, but knowing that she really liked it. She gave him a sweet, sympathetic smile before raising her hand and cupping his cheek. Yet her smile wasn't happy, it was desperate. She trembled as the tears fell from her own eyes. "Sonic, please… I know things look really bad now and you've been through so much, but please don't say that! Don't say you mean nothing because you mean so much to me! Every day in School when I watched you with Sally, the amazing way you treated her and special she looked to you, I envied it so much! I wished so badly that you would see me in that way Sonic. I wished I could have meant to you what you mean to me. And I know I came on as crazy and obsessive in the past and it freaked you out, I see that now. But it was only because I was so desperately in love with you that I didn't know what else to do…"
Sonic looked up at her, his lips opened slightly and eyes widened in wonder, "You… you're in love with me?"
As Amy hiccupped on her tears, she felt her face almost burn with shame, suddenly regretting saying anything. "I… thought that… Well I…" she stuttered, not thinking Sonic would have been as shocked as he was. Didn't he know?
They both sat silently, neither knowing what to say at this point. Sonic looked like his mind had drifted elsewhere while Amy inwardly panicked. She shook her head and opened her mouth to defend herself, but before any words could escape, she felt familiar lips press back down onto hers, keeping her quiet.
Sonic hugged her close to his body; she leaned in and embraced his face as they let the kiss take over. There was no real passion behind it; there was no excitement or thrill. It was just hurt; hurt trying to be swallowed up by compassion and care for each other. Neither one was thinking this was the start of something special, they were both using it as a means to make the other feel less empty inside. To feel there was something worth living for.
Parting from each other, Amy leaned her head down on his chest and cuddled into his hold. Sonic planted a small kiss to the top of her forehead before leaning his head on top of hers.
"Does this mean we're still dating?"
Sonic laughed at her, squeezing her tightly in his arms, "Yeah, I think so."
Sonic and Cream walked Amy back to the train station. It hadn't been a long wait and the majority of passengers had already boarded. As instructed by Sonic the young rabbit waited on the benches by the entrance, she was under strict orders not to speak to anyone and if anyone tried to speak to her she was to call out, just in case.
They didn't have long before the doors would close. Amy stood with her hands held tightly in Sonic's as they kissed each other goodbye.
"Thank you for coming all this way Amy" Sonic spoke shyly, almost forcing himself not to feel uncomfortable or sad by the fact she was leaving.
"I'll be back soon, don't worry."
"Yeah, hopefully I'll get my phone back from Nack and we can arrange a day again?"
"Of course" Amy forcefully smiled, a sudden thought entered her mind that he doesn't have his phone almost sounded like a false promise. Almost like a guy who doesn't like a girl makes an excuse that he can't see her because he doesn't have his phone… She had to get rid of those thoughts. Sonic wouldn't hurt her like that, not after being so honest… was he being honest?
"So um… about… Cream's mum" Sonic whispered quietly, aware there was an echo in the train station. He consciously looked back to the small bunny to check on her. She still sat and watched happily.
Amy snapped from her thoughts and smiled, "I'll look online when I get home. I'll text you when if I find anything out."
"No uh… let me text you, just so you know I got my phone back" he suggested, shuffling uneasily on his feet and fidgeting lightly. Truthfully he didn't trust Nack to not check his phone and read his texts.
"Oh okay. Well if you text me or give me a call, I'll try find out what I can. I still think the best thing to do is go to the police with her though. If they get Cream's DNA they can track her mother and…"
Sonic threw his head in his hands out of frustration, "No Amy! I told you I can't do that!"
"But why?"
"I just can't okay!" the sudden outburst echoed around and a few passer-by's stared disapprovingly. Amy started at him, now feeling uncomfortable herself and hurt by his display of anger.
Seeing the results, Sonic groaned to himself and turned away, feeling like an idiot. "I'm sorry" he mumbled, opening his arms wide in a gesture. Amy accepted and moved into him, allowing his arms to fall around her body.
The last call for the train played through the speakers and they knew that it was time to say goodbye. Sonic planted a last kiss onto Amy's cheek and he watched as she left him and got on the train.
It had been almost an hour's walk from the train station to the orphanage and Cream was officially worn down. She lay sleepily in Sonic's arms as he carried her all the way. He could have done without the extra weight but he didn't have the heart to say no anymore.
The sun was nearly down by the time they got home. Fortunately the door wasn't locked so Sonic could walk straight in.
His intention was to put Cream straight to bed before going up to his own room, but the moment he reached the bottom step two large hands quickly grabbed the hood of his jacket and pulled him back, choking him in the process.
Cream fell from his arms and landed on the floor with a thud. The girl scurried about, finally awake, and realised she was back in the orphanage. She looked around for Sonic, but screamed when she found him.
"You little thief! Where the hell where you!?"
Sonic was pressed up against the wall, his hands fighting against the ones that laced around his neck, squeezing it tightly where he felt himself unable to breathe. Nack was pinning him, crushing the hedgehog's small skinny frame under his bulky one, making any hope of escape impossible.
"I sent you out this morning to buy food, you had one hour to get everything done! So you spend the whole day doing hell-knows-what and you don't even have the sense to get the shopping!? What were you doing!?" Nack's voice grew louder and scarier as Sonic trembled and squirmed away.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry I completely forgot…" the teen tried to reason in vain, but his own fears gave way as he felt himself try to curl into a ball, his hands rising to cover his face in a hopeless defence. He shortly gave way to pleading tears as Nack shoved his face right into his, spitting as he shouted at him, "You went to the police didn't you? Thought you could get smart on me now huh?"
"No! NO!" Sonic screamed out, his eyes widened in horror at the accusation, or mostly because he knew what it would mean.
"LIAR!" He was thrown back into the wall before Nack raised his fist high into the air before beating it down repeatedly, aiming for Sonic's jaw. "I thought you would have learned speed boy, I got friends everywhere. No one will believe your little story, and nobody is gonna care! You're a piece of crap that got tread in the house! You're such a burden that even your so called Uncle couldn't spend another second on you. You should have died when you had the chance… After tonight you're gonna wish you HAD!"
Grabbing him by the stands of his quills, Nack dragged Sonic all the way upstairs. The blue hedgehog screamed out, begging for help from anyone, but all the doors that the children hid behind were closed shut.
Nack grabbed him by his wrist, kicking at his injured foot when he tried to slip away. It wasn't until Sonic dropped to his hands and knees, crying out in desperation that Nack struggled to get him to move. So he wrapped his arms tightly around the teen's stomach and picked him up that way to force him to his room. Sonic yelled and kicked out, despite the burning pain from his ankle. His face was drenched with tears while he pleaded in desperation.
But Nack kept hitting him against the wall and dragging him until they were in Sonic's room. The caretaker threw him onto the ground so he could shut the door.
Now alone and completely helpless, Sonic shuffled away as the taller, older man descended towards him. He reached end of his room before he curled up into a ball, hiding in the corner of the room and shrieking in fear. "NO PLEASE! I'M SORRY!"
"Too late" was all Nack said, seething through his razor sharp teeth. He dropped down and his strong arms reached out and pulled the hedgehog up from the ground and dragged him towards the bed.
He threw him down, watching as Sonic frantically struggled to get away, but he kept him pinned. His hands drew down to the jacket he always wore and he pulled it up, forcing it over the teens head and arms. Sonic tried to stop him, feeling too exposed and violated as the air got to his overly sensitive skin. It was a battle he couldn't win though as Nack threw the garment away and grinned evilly.
Sobbing uncontrollably Sonic crossed his arms and held onto his shoulders, knowing he couldn't fight anymore and wishing he had just done as he was told in the first place.
He couldn't watch. He closed his eyes tightly as Nack picked up the switched on lamp from his night stand. He didn't bother to unplug it; he simply took the shade off and smashed the bulb against the edge of the table, grinning when smoke emitted from the searing hot broken glass.
Nack held it an inch away from Sonic's eyes, which he still kept closed as he quivered fearfully. He didn't need to see it to know what Nack was going to do.
"I suggest you open your eyes, I'm gonna be the last thing you see-AHHHHH! YOU LITTLE BITCH!"
Sonic's eyes shot open and he sat himself up to see what was going on. He gasped in horror as a new fear took hold of him.
Nack was jumping on the spot, holding his foot and cursing loudly to himself. By his foot was a heavy bowling ball, and in the doorway Cream stood angrily sticking out her tongue to the caretaker.
"You little brat! I'll teach you to a lesson about heavy things!"
It happened so quickly. Nack picked up the bowling ball and instantly Cream screamed and ran away. Nack chased after her.
"No! NO STOP!" Sonic screamed. He threw himself from the bed and ran to the door, but it was shut in his face before he hand the chance. He pulled at the handle but he heard it being locked from the outside, leaving him alone in the small dark room.
"No! No Cream! Please leave her alone! Please!..." he slowly fell down to the floor, tears streaming down his cheeks as loud sobs ripped through his throat, "please… C-Cream…"
He heard the faint sounds of high pitched cried, the yelling's of an angry man, and the loud thud of something heavy hitting the girl.
Sonic fell to the floor. He curled up and gripped his aching stomach, knowing that at any moment he was going to throw up. He cried so much his ribs ached and his heart stung in his chest. He felt like he couldn't breathe, he hyperventilated in panic. He rocked back and forth repeatedly as he wanting his Uncle there. He wanted his Uncle to show up and save Cream and find her mother, save the day, solve everyone's problem like he always did. He wanted to throw himself in his Uncle's arms and hear that everything was okay, that this was all one big nightmare and the orphanage never existed.
"chuck… I-I'm sorry… p-please…" Sonic closed his eyes and wept loudly, wishing he could block out the noise from the other room. He hated himself so much for what he didn't do. He should have found Cream's mother and saved her from all this, he should have been the hero Cream needed him to be… but he didn't. He was selfish.
Now he wished for his own hero to save him, to undo all the problems he made. But Chuck would never come back for him, not now.
There is never a hero to save the villain.