(A/N): I said I would get it up and it might be late tonight, BUT IT'S UP! Well, I don't know if it's late where you are… It's almost 11:30 here so… Anyways, before this gets really long, thank you to Milkamoo97, oOo KitKat oOo, jihanbtr (Aw! This is your favorite story? I'm honored!) and Dreamer1992 (I explained their relationship from Katrina's view in here… sorta… you'll see) for your reviews! I do not own Big Time Rush nor do I own the episode Big Time Terror which is finished in this chapter. I also don't own BTR's song Shot In The Dark nor do I own Artist Vs Poet's song Giving Yourself Away. Enjoy!
Chapter 37: Giving Up The Details
Katrina stepped out of the elevator onto the floor for Penny's Pet Care to find everything furnished and ready for their opening day. Brandon and Tim were behind the front desk, going through paperwork. Every now and then, Brandon would glance over at Tim before going back to his own papers. After they heard the elevator bing, they looked up to see Katrina standing there. She smiled as she limped over to join them. Brandon noticed this right away.
"What did those boys do?" Brandon immediately blamed them.
"Actually, this time it was Gustavo who pushed me over and sprained my ankle," Katrina replied.
"Ah, change up," Brandon looked back down to the paperwork.
"So, is there anything I can do to help here?" Katrina asked.
Tim responded this time, "Nope. We've got everything done except for filling out these last few forms for our first clients."
"Oh," Katrina looked disappointed, "But there must be something."
"Griffin's coming for an inspection in a couple minutes," Brandon told her, "You have to be here for that since you're the person in charge and stuff."
"Right," Katrina sat down on one of the waiting couches, "So, I guess I just wait then." She watched the two boys behind the desk, feeling bored and useless. There wasn't any talking going on between them, which made Katrina even antsier since an awkward silence was filling the room. Soon, she couldn't take it anymore. "So, how was your weekend?"
"Oh, not big," Brandon began as he pulled out a magazine from the desk and flipped it to a random page, "I just opened my magazine on Saturday to find out that my best friend had done a very scandalous photo shoot WITHOUT TELLING ME!" He held up the magazine, showing the picture of James and Katrina. "Do you know what the media is saying about you? What happened to you to make you do something like this?"
"I DON'T KNOW!" Katrina yelled at him, "I – We – Money – And then – But we didn't –" Katrina started crying, not really knowing how to word it.
"So, let me get this straight," Brandon seemed to understand her babbling, "You got roped into paying Gustavo money, but that backfired into him owing money to Griffin. So you and the others did that car wash, but that wasn't making enough money. Katie gave you the opportunity to more money so you wouldn't have to wash cars and this happened to be one of the opportunities. And it got a bunch of money for Gustavo who, for some reason, stopped telling you and the guys that you still owed him the other half of the money."
Tim stared at Brandon in shock, "How did you get all of that from those simple words?"
"I've known Rina since she was born," Brandon explained. He turned to Katrina, whose crying had stopped from the shock that Brandon had been able to understand her, "Don't you know that the media thinks you're dating James?"
"I kind of guessed that," Katrina mentioned. "But I'm not!"
Before Brandon could say anything else, the elevators binged and Griffin walked out of the opening doors being followed by two of his assistants. He looked over the place and smiled at Katrina.
"This place is great!" Griffin told her, "Welcome to the RCM CBT Global Net Sanyoid family! Now, to some other business. It has come to my attention that you have picked up modeling again. According to your contract," He held out his hand and one of the assistants set a stack of papers in it. He opened to a specific page and cleared his throat to read it, "'Once the executive in question gets into any form of entertainment, such as modeling, singing, acting, dancing or any type of art or sport, then the CEO will be able to assign her a producer to help with the fame and will earn half of what she earns from the performances/gigs/shoots.' And I've decided to let you be under Gustavo's rule. I would check-in with him soon. Have a fantastic day!" That said, he went back into the elevator and left.
"Shit," Katrina mumbled.
"That's not good," Brandon added.
"I don't get what's going on," Tim looked back and forth between the two best friends. "Who's Gustavo?"
"You don't want to know," Katrina told him, "I'll just wait until after we open."
"No, it's fine," Brandon responded, "You can go talk to him now. We've got things covered here."
"But-" Katrina started.
"We'll call you if there's an emergency," Brandon went on.
"This is my business!" Katrina argued, "I want SOME say in this!"
Brandon sighed as he got up, "Rina, can I talk to you? Alone?" He went over, pulled Katrina to her feet and led her out of the room.
"What is going on?" Katrina asked him.
"When you're around, things feel awkward between me and Tim," Brandon explained, "But when you're not here, things are great! I want some time alone with him, so I think that we could use some space. Why don't you hang out with the guys more?"
"Do you really think that's a good idea?" Katrina looked angry and confused, "I mean, I've gotten a broken arm and a sprained ankle within a couple days, plus Logan and I kissed and he's-"
"YOU AND LOGAN KISSED?" Brandon screamed.
"Oh, right," Katrina realized, "I forgot to tell you that, but we're still not dating… I think. Actually, I'm not entirely sure on that. We could be, I don't know. I've never had a boyfriend before so… Does it mean that you're dating if you kiss someone?"
"What are you doing, Rina?" Brandon asked her, shaking his head, "You're messing up your life here! What would Evan think?"
Katrina sighed, "Evan wouldn't want me to date at all, but he didn't meet Logan! He's sweet, smart, nice, hot –"
"He's also attached to someone else," Brandon reminded her, "Do you want to be the other woman? Evan would be disappointed with you, just like I am."
"Fine, I'll talk to him," Katrina gave in, "I'll tell him that it's either me or her. It can't be both."
"Good," Brandon told her, "If he chooses Camille, then he wasn't worth it in the first place. Now, go talk to Gustavo. I'll text you later." He left the room.
Katrina groaned, "But he IS worth it." She scowled as she left the room, heading for the elevator.
Limping down the hallways of Rocque Records, Katrina made her way to the recording area. She found Kelly behind the control board and the guys in the practice room with Gustavo and the band. Once all of them heard the door open, they looked over and saw Katrina. The boys waved to her while Kelly looked confused.
"I need to talk to Gustavo," Katrina admitted. "According to Griffin, he's my producer."
"Well, you'll have to wait," Kelly told her, "The boys are about to sing their new song. Wanna listen in?"
"Why not?" Katrina sat down beside Kelly, "I've got nothing better to do."
"Doesn't your business open today?" Kelly asked.
"Yeah, but apparently, my employees have everything perfect so I'm not needed and Griffin told me to talk to Gustavo ASAP," Katrina replied.
"Ah, okay," Kelly turned the microphone on for the practice room, "Start whenever you're ready!" The music began for their new song Shot In The Dark and Kendall was the first to start singing.
I promised I would be there
I swear I'm on my way
I know you may not hear me
But that's the price I'll pay
Katrina had this weird look on her face as she listened to the song.
Now, I don't know
How I would ever go all alone
Walking on my own
Like angels
You were floating to me
And that's how it should be
Then the chorus rolled in and they smiled at Katrina.
Cause I don't wanna waste another moment
I don't wanna pay for things unspoken
I just wanna reach with arms wide open
Take a shot in the dark to be where you are
I don't wanna watch the world keep changing
When I'm not with you, my heart keeps shaking
Cover up my eyes and just start pacing
Take a shot in the dark to be where you are
Carlos picked up the next part as Katrina relaxed back in her seat.
I promised you I'm gonna be there
I wanna be there
No matter what happens
No matter how tragic
There was a hitch in Katrina's breath as Logan took over.
Because the clock is ticking
The world is spinning
Our lives are passing us by
He held onto the note as the others went on with the chorus.
I don't wanna watch the world keep changing
When I'm not with you, my heart keeps shaking
Cover up my eyes and just start pacing
Take a shot in the dark to be where you are
Take a shot in the dark
They began cheering in the practice room as the song ended.
"That wasn't terrible," Gustavo commented, "We'll work on it more tomorrow. You dogs are free to go for the day." They cheered again. "I have to talk to Katrina anyways."
"Wait, what?" The guys looked at Gustavo, confused.
Katrina reached over and pressed the talk button on the control board, "He's my producer now." When they still looked confused, she continued, "I didn't read my contract with Griffin carefully enough."
"Now, go!" Gustavo told them, "And Cat! Go to my office!" Katrina groaned as she got up and left the room.
"Are you going to treat her just like the boys?" Kelly asked Gustavo.
"Why wouldn't I?" Gustavo replied, "You've got to train cats correctly too, otherwise they will destroy your home. Dogs! Why are you still here?"
"We want to be there for Katrina," Kendall responded as he and his friends crossed their arms. "Dogs are loyal and we won't stand back and let you break her."
Gustavo glared at them, but there seemed to be something going on in his mind because the glare didn't seem as intense as usual. "Fine," Gustavo gave in, "But I want no complaining." He led them into his office where Katrina looked bored, sitting in the seat in front of Gustavo's desk. The boys sat in seats around her, Logan and Kendall on either side of her.
Sitting behind his desk, Gustavo stared at Katrina for a couple seconds before he spoke, "I honestly don't know why Griffin made me your producer. You're a model, not a singer. But, I'm going to use this to my advantage to help the dogs."
"Uh oh," the boys and Katrina mumbled.
"I just don't know how yet," Gustavo told them. They let out the breath they didn't realize they were holding. "So, while I think about this, you will all leave." They stared at him in shock. "GO!" Quickly, they got up out of their seats and left the office.
"Maybe he won't think of anything?" Carlos suggested. The others looked at him, hoping he was joking. They all knew that Gustavo would come up with something that would ruin their lives again.
"Let's get out of here before he thinks of something," Logan responded. The others agreed as they left for the Palm Woods.
Logan, Carlos, James, Kendall and Katrina arrived at 2J to find no one else there.
"So, who's up for the pool?" James asked them. The other boys seemed to agree, but Katrina moaned as she made her way over to the couch and fell onto it. The boys watched her apprehensively as she broke down.
"No one needs me anymore!" Katrina complained between tears, "My brother's missing, I'm an orphan, I have no family whatsoever," The guys looked at each other, confused at this. They knew that was wrong and she had an aunt out there somewhere. "Brandon's left me for Tim, my business no longer needs me, I have a broken arm and a sprained ankle, the guy I like likes someone else," The guys went stiff at this one, Logan's eyes going wide. "I can't model, the media thinks I'm dating James of all people," James looked conflicted at this. "And now I have to be manipulated by Gustavo! When will something go right?" She couldn't speak anymore as her tears took over.
The guys, not really knowing what to do, scooted into the kitchen where they hid behind the counter.
"What do we do?" Carlos looked to Kendall.
"I don't know Katrina best," Kendall pointed at Logan, indicating that he probably knew her better.
"I don't know much more than you," Logan insisted, "She likes to keep to herself!"
"I know what to do," James spoke up, surprising his friends, "I've watched how Katrina reacts to things. She uses music to express herself, both listening and singing. During our photo shoot, once the music went on, she got better. Logan, you mentioned that when Katrina messed up her house, she was listening to music that was about how she was feeling. For the sing-off, she sang a song that had something to do with that day. And if you saw the way she watched us while we recorded that song today, you'd realize that she liked the song and was considering the lyrics. She takes music seriously, probably more seriously than a model should. So, we sing her a song." The other three looked at him with different expressions. Kendall looked curious, Carlos was impressed and Logan seemed defeated. Once James realized his friends weren't saying anything, he reminded them, "Hey, girls are my thing!"
"Apparently," Kendall commented, "So, what song would you suggest?"
"All Time Low is her favorite band," James replied, "So, something by them or a band like them."
"So, we look them up on the internet and figure out what song to use?" Logan asked. James nodded as he pulled out his phone. The other three did the same, searching the internet on their phones for a good song to sing to Katrina.
Kendall was the one who found the song, "Hey, check this out." He showed the other three the lyrics. "We can split it up here and here and she'll love it."
"I call this part," Logan pointed at one part.
"Darn, I wanted that part," James complained. "This was my idea! I should get it!"
"That's the chorus," Carlos observed, "We all get it."
James and Logan took a good look at the lyrics before responding, "Oh."
"We might want to practice a bit first," Kendall suggested. The others nodded their heads before they snuck out of the room to practice the song.
Carlos, James, Kendall and Logan came back in the room later to find that Katrina was face down on the couch. Mrs. Knight and Katie were in the kitchen, staring at the sobbing teenage girl. The boys made their way over to them.
"Why did you leave her alone?" Mrs. Knight immediately blamed them, "Do you know where I found her a couple minutes ago? She was lying on the floor of the kitchen with a knife in her hands, talking to herself about suicide!" The boys went wide-eyed as they glanced over at Katrina.
"Yep, she needs this song," Kendall commented.
"You left her for a song?" Mrs. Knight looked enraged at them.
"What were you thinking?" Katie added.
"We wanted to cheer her up," Carlos defended their actions.
"Then go sing her this amazing song that will cheer her up!" Katie insisted, "Cause she could definitely use it."
The guys wasted no time making their way over to Katrina. Logan went over to her and brought her up to a sitting position. She watched as Carlos pulled a stereo out of nowhere and placed it on the coffee table.
Katrina sniffed enough of her tears away to be able to say, "Wha-What are y-you do-doing?"
"We're singing you a song," Logan began.
"To cheer you up," Carlos added.
"Cause it seemed you could use it," Kendall went on.
"It was my idea," James finished confidently. The others hit him before they smiled at Katrina. She was still crying, but she also looked intrigued and confused. Carlos pressed a button on the stereo and the music for the song Giving Yourself Away by Artist Vs Poet started to play. Kendall began the singing.
It happened again,
You're afraid to open up or just give in
Cause someone's gonna hurt you like you've been
In the past, heal the wounds, be broken glass
And now you're jaded
But please don't fade away
Carlos added his voice to the next line.
If you only knew how much you made me feel alive
Katrina's crying was starting to fade away as the other two guys joined in for the chorus.
Where do we go?
How do we find ourselves?
When this world brings so much pain
And how do we cope with the things we hate?
The things that made us feel this way
She wiped away a tear as she gave the guys a sad smile. James picked up the next part.
Oh girl, can't you see
The affect you have on me
And I'm not the only one
You stay inside, try to hide, just deny
Those who just wanna make you smile
Again, Carlos jumped in for the next line.
If you only knew how much you made me feel alive
The others helped out with the chorus as Katrina got this weird expression on her face.
Where do we go?
How do we find ourselves?
When this world brings so much pain
And how do we cope with the things we hate?
The things that made us feel this way
How do we know?
When it's alright to take the jump and not look back
We may never know
But that's what makes this life worth living
Taking chances, loving, giving yourself away
James, Kendall and Carlos dropped out so Logan could sing the next part. He looked straight into Katrina's eyes as he sang.
And no, whoa-oh
I can't stand to see this state you're in
And oh, no-oh
I wanna make your fears all go away
Cause you make me weak every single day
Katrina had tears forming in her eyes again, but this time she was smiling, so the guys knew they were tears of happiness as they went into the chorus.
Where do we go?
How do we find ourselves?
When this world brings so much pain
And how do we cope with the things we hate?
The things that made us feel this way
How do we know?
When it's alright to take the jump and not look back
We may never know
But that's what makes this life worth living
Taking chances, loving, giving yourself away
Giving yourself away
"Thank you," Katrina told them as the song ended. "I needed that." She wiped away the last few tears from her eyes. She got up and walked over to give, to everyone's surprise, Kendall a hug. He hugged her back, giving confused looks to his friends. Mrs. Knight watched the scene with curiosity, Katie looked happier than before the song, James looked insulted, Logan seemed disappointed and Carlos still had the look of surprise on his face.
When Katrina broke away from Kendall, he asked her what was on his mind, "Why did you hug me?"
Katrina shrugged her shoulders, "I don't know. It could be because singing a song to make me feel better was what Evan used to do. And you still remind me of him. It's so weird how much you two look alike. I really wish that I had a picture to show you."
"I don't need to see it," Kendall assured her.
"Yeah, we already saw him in the video anyways," Carlos blurted out.
"CARLOS!" Logan, James and Kendall yelled at him, but the damage was done. Katrina had heard it.
"Video?" Katrina scanned the boys over, looking for some type of answer, "What video?"
"Oh, it was just a video on this website," James covered it.
"Yeah," Logan added, "It was no big deal!"
"Did you guys watch another video besides the hospital's security videos of the day that Katrina and Evan were brought into the hospital?" Carlos asked, "I'm hurt for being left out! I thought we were searching for Katrina's brother together!" The other three facepalmed.
"You're looking for my brother?" Katrina exclaimed in surprise. "After I told you to stop?"
"We want what's best for you," Kendall explained, "And finding your brother is best for you. You can't stop us from looking."
"I'm in the news!" Katrina reminded them, "If he wants to find me, there are plenty of ways he can! But he hasn't, which means, he doesn't want to find me! So, I don't want him found!" She stormed towards the door.
"Where are you going?" James called out to her.
"The pool," Katrina told him. "I don't want to think about my brother and usually something there distracts me." The boys shrugged before they followed her out.
"I'll never understand her," Katie shook her head.
"She's very stubborn," Mrs. Knight replied. "She's just like her mother."
"Whoa," Katie turned to look at her mother, "You know her mother?"
Mrs. Knight got a quick look of terror before it quickly dissipated and she responded, "Oh, I used to look up to her in the tabloids, that's all. You should go hang out with friends or something. I have to go grocery shopping. Bye!" Mrs. Knight ran out the door before Katie could say anything else.
Katie crossed her arms as she stared at the door, "Something smells fishy. I've got some digging to do. But I have something to do first." She smirked as she left the apartment.
The Palm Woods teens, besides Camille who had an audition, were relaxing by the pool. Because there weren't any extra lounge chairs, Katrina shared one with Logan, Carlos shared with Stephanie, James shared with the random girl he called 'sunblock girl' and Kendall and Jo were sitting at the table, playing checkers.
"Whelp," Kendall began, "Looks like everything's back to normal."
"Gustavo is gone," James went on as he put sunblock on the girl beside him.
"And so is the ghost," Carlos added.
"And we can all relax again by the Palm Woods pool," Jo finished.
Suddenly, the teens heard a scrapping sound. Moving past them was the table that started it all, by itself. The teens stared in confusion and horror.
"Stephanie," Logan pointed at her, thinking she was to blame.
"It's not me!" Stephanie insisted, raising her hands in an innocent gesture.
The group started screaming as everyone cleared the area besides Stephanie and Katrina.
Stephanie turned to Katrina, "Why didn't you run?"
"I can't," Katrina reminded her, pointing to the leg brace.
"Oh, right," Stephanie winced. She got up and stood next to a plant.
Katie popped up from behind it holding a roll of fishing line. Katrina raised her eyebrows as Katie spoke up, "Man, I cannot believe how much fun you can have with fishing line!"
Stephanie laughed, "I told you so." The two girls fist bumped.
"Why am I not surprised about this?" Katrina mentioned. She got up to head over to Katie and Stephanie.
Suddenly, she tripped over the fishing line that she didn't see and fell over, into the pool. Both dry girls stared with horror, Katie covering her mouth.
Katrina raised her head above the water and shook her head, "I am the clumsiest person in the world!" She looked over at her cast which was already starting to soften from getting wet. "And now I have to go to the doctor AGAIN to get a new cast because I'm not supposed to get it wet!"
It was at that moment when the guys ran in after realizing Katrina wasn't with them. They took one good look at Katrina in the pool before saying one word together, "Crap."
(A/N): And back to the hospital they go! If they have to bring her back any more times, I think she deserves a discount. I've finally finished this episode! YAY! Now, for the burning questions. Is something going to happen when they go to the hospital this time? What is Mrs. Knight hiding? Poor Katrina. Her best friend's found a boyfriend and now she's got nobody… Actually she's got the guys who are searching for her brother that she doesn't want found. Are they going to keep searching now that Katrina knows what they're up to? And now, Gustavo's her producer…. Oh God, that can't be good. Especially because Katrina seems to have the worst luck ever. What's going to happen with that? And James is sort of a creeper. He seems to be watching Katrina TOO much. And Katrina had spiraled into her depression again only to be pulled out. Are the guys going to have to keep doing that or will they be able to find a way to get her out of her depression permanently? Find out next time! Until then, review and happy reading!
