AN: right well this ones up now too! I'm getting back into writing... but i find this chappy kinda boreing, its prolly second last too :) so about 2 more till 4th year! YAAAAY! didn't get it betta'd kinda forgot so excuse the errors :

Chapter 36:

Look on the bright side

Lisa was sitting beside Liz as they studied in the library for their Exams, they where writing the next day. "I don't think I can concentrate… God he really did fuck up my mind didn't he…?" Liz stated glaring at her text book.

Lisa looked up from her book. "Hey, it'll do no good to think about him… anyways the Twins are planning the murder as we speak." She said, lightly giving Liz a joking shove.

Liz forced a smile; she had to at least pretend to still be herself. "Yeah, well wish it where so easy… I need iced cream, apparently that works." She winked and giggled… but both girls knew she was faking her happiness. Closing her books and stacking them up she put them into her bag. "I think I'm gunna go find Fred and George… want to come?" She asked, actually hoping Lisa wouldn't… she wanted some time alone.

Lisa flipped her page and looked back at her friend, who stood expectantly at the end of the table. "Nah, I think I'll stay and study… one of us has got to pass… And I think you could do with the alone time…" Liz nodded at Lisa and started to walk away. "Wait! Liz, don't do anything stupid… and if anyone bugs you… you know what to do." Again Liz nodded and then proceeded out of the library.

She wondered the halls for a while, and then decided to go outside… she needed the fresh air. It was warm and sunny, and many students where sitting down by the lake with their books out, studying. Out of habit really, she looked to where she and Jason used to sit under the willow tree and sure enough she saw Jason standing alone, looking out over the lake… she felt a shooting pain and looked away, walking right past him, yet ignoring him as best she could. "Wait! Liz…" She stopped dead in her tracks… no, no, no! don't talk to me! She thought, but turned to see him, despite her mind her heart went to him… there was pain in his eyes. He walked up to her, so close… to close. She backed up. "Please don't run away, I wish I could tell you I didn't mean what I said… but it's not aloud. Believe me when I say I did it for the better good. I didn't want you to get hurt anymore." He said looking at the ground.

Liz growled, her anger was the only thing keeping her from breaking into tears. "Don't you talk to me! Don't you dare apologize! Let me just tell you one thing Frost I stuck up for you so many times. I guess I should have believed Sirius though… and maybe I wouldn't have gotten hurt, but remember what I know about you! You do anything more to me, I tell everyone in the school about your life. I don't want to be the bitch… but I can't stand to look at you, to hear your voice… it kills me! You don't know how many mornings I've woken up to hope it was all a dream, I still love you… but I'm not stupid, I know when to take the hint! And I don't trust you anymore! You, if you recall are just my ex… nothing more, you ended it and I'm not falling for your game again. I was stupid the first time… but never again, I never want to see or hear you again… leave me alone Jason, I'm moving on!" She snapped back.

Jason gaped at her, had she believed him that much… he wished he'd never agreed to the stupid deal. "It was for you… I did it for you, you wouldn't believe me if I told you why, not now anyways." He muttered as she started to walk away.

Liz rounded on him. "And why should I even try to believe you?! You broke more than my heart! I thought you where my best friend! I thought you loved me! But then, then you broke all my beliefs that Slytherins could be good! I hate you, I hate you, I hate you!" He reached out to her but she hit him away. "Don't! I'm not yours to comfort! I'm not falling for your mind tricks anymore you little fucker! You're just like them all, so why don't you go marry Pansy and become the next Voldy like a good little boy!" She screamed at him, tears spilling down her face as she said it… truthfully she wanted nothing more than to hug him. To let him hold her… but she wouldn't let herself be deceived anymore, so she turned and ran back into the castle… She needed to find someone. Someone who'd understand. As she ran into the main hall she ran straight into a young raven claw boy, almost knocking him over. "Damn it!" She looked at the surprised boy, he had black hair around shoulder length, very pale skin and was about her height, he was rather skinny and his eyes were a dark brown… but what shocked her the most was he had eyeliner around his brown eyes. "Sorry, um I wasn't really looking where I was going." She brushed a tear away and saw him nod.

"You okay, you seem kinda… I dunno… sad." He said, frowning at her.

She shrugged and laughed a bit. "Well yeah… I'm alright I mean I've been better but what can a girl expect?" She quickly changed the subject. "So you're a Raven are ya? Nice… um I'm stumped as to what to say." Liz said, giving him a friendly smile.

He looked down at his robes and then back at her. "I guess you got that from the colors… Well if you wanna call us that then yes! I'm a Raven. So I haven't seen you in any of my Gryffindor classes, what year are you?" He asked as they began to walk together, toward the Great Hall.

"Well I'm third year; it's rather dull really…" She said twiddling her thumbs. "How 'bout yourself? I haven't seen you in any either."

They turned into the Hall and stopped in front of the Gryffindor table. "That's cool I guess, I'm fourth year… so you'll be stuck here a year longer." He said winking, a grin playing across his face.

She forced a small smile. "Yeah, hey what's your name anyway?" She quickly asked.

"I'm Kevin, and you are?" He asked.

"I'm Liz and it's nice to meet you Kevin… Um but I best be going, my friends will be waiting." She said, turning towards where she'd seen Fred and George at the other end of the table.

Kevin smiled lightly. "Yeah, see ya Liz." He called after her.

"See ya!"

Liz Sat down between her two friends, both of which where giving her an odd look. "Why's you're face all red and puffy?" George asked, frowning at her.

She looked up at her older friend. "Nothing… Don't worry about it kay?" She said sighing heavily, she didn't really wanna think about this.

Fred and George exchanged looks and then they both looked over to the Slytherin table, to where Jason, Nikki and Draco sat. "Liz… We know its about him… Did he try and talk to you again? Did he hurt you?" Fred inquired worry etched into his eyes.

Elizabeth looked up at him and couldn't help but smile; they both had a way of making her smile… "Yeah, we talked… But I let him know I never wanna talk to him or see him again, and guys, he could never hurt me more than her already did." She said simply, her smile fading.

George put his arm around her. "Look hun, you'll get passed this… you'll find another guy and life will go on. See look at it this way Liz; compared to other peoples lives yours is awesome, so don't worry about a stupid slytherin." He smiled at her as she rested her head on his shoulder. "And hey, we'll both be here for you forever promise. Kay?"

She smiled and nodded as he let her go and she sat up again, beginning to eat.

Over at the Slytherin table Jason, Nicole and Draco sat, eating their lunch. "Jason… what happened the other day, you gunna tell us yet – I mean you aren't hanging around with Liz… and she won't talk to me, what did you do to her?" Nicole asked frowning at the silver haired boy.

Jason slammed his hand down on the table. "Why should you care?!" He asked glaring at the girl across from him. A few Slytherins looked up from their own conversations to see what was happening but soon went back to their own when nothing more happened.

Nicole glared back. "What the fucks gotten into you?! And I think I have a right to know why my friend suddenly won't talk to me! Do you not?" She snapped back at him, how could he be acting like such a prick? Where had the old Jason gone?

Jason didn't want to talk about it, he had had enough with it… but she had a point. "Fine… I broke it off with her, for good. And I probably could have gone about it better too." He said quietly, his mood changing from mad to sad rather fast as he looked down at his hands. What had he done?

At this Draco looked up from the paper he'd been reading, a shocked look on his face, but not nearly as shocked as Nicole was. "What do you mean… 'could have gone about it better'? What did you do to her…?" She demanded worry creeping into her voice.

Jason looked up at her, frowning. "Well… I told her I'd been playing her the whole time… and I hated her. Bad huh?" He stated solemnly, glancing between his two friends, the only real friends he had left.

Draco stared in shock at him. "Dude, I never much liked that girl but that's just cruel. Why would you even go there?" He asked astonished.

Jason was about to respond but Nicole jumped in before he could. "Why in gods name would you tell her that? You don't hate her! God if anything you where in 'young love' what's wrong with you?! And now she hates me on top of this?! Well you better clear this up, because I don't want her hating me!" Nikki growled.

Jason glared at her. "I can't! And if I'd told her the truth she'd have gotten mad at me for doing what I did… saying I shouldn't have thrown myself away for her, but how could I let her get hurt?" He muttered dismally.

Nicole frowned. "What? What do you mean… what's the truth, and what do you mean threw yourself away?" She asked, lightening up her angry tone.

"I made a deal… Blaize and his group cant hurt her… if I let her go and become a 'Death Eater Wanna-Be'." Jason responded ashamedly.

Draco smirked. "Well not so bad then mate, you've finally seen the path that all slytherins must inevitably take." He said pouring himself some pumpkin juice.

Jason glared at him. "Yeah well I didn't ever want to take that fucking path! I hate the Dark lord… and for reasons you'd never understand, reasons none of you would understand… but she understood." He said looking over to Liz who was leaning against George. "Argh… I know I don't have any right but I hate seeing her with those two, they're too 'touchy feely'" He said glaring at George.

Nicole shot a glance to the Gryffindor table. "Well, you don't have a right… so leave it. Anyways they're just being good friends and looking out for her." She stated as she stood up and walked up of the great hall.

Draco looked after her, then smirked. "Hey, sorry about all that shit… but I'm gunna go, see you!" He stated standing up and walking after his girlfriend.

Jason nodded and also stood, exiting the great hall, headed for the grounds again…

(SUNDAY BEFORE EXAMS)

It was an over cast day, but rather warm due to the humidity, though not many students where outside Liz and Lisa walked along the lake shore, they where quizzing each other on memorization for their exams tomorrow. "Okay… so I think we know everything pretty good… um I have to meet Harry now, but I'll see you later. I feel bad for leaving you alone though." Lisa said looking from her watch to Liz.

Liz offered a small smile. "Don't worry about it too much, I'll find someone to hang with, you go find your boy… and play nicely Lisa." She said winking at her friend, Lisa smiled and broke off from her, heading up to the castle so Liz found a small birch tree to sit under as she looked out over the lake and thought about how good life had seemed… but it would be okay again, she knew things would work out, somehow.

While she was off in a daze, thinking of the past she didn't notice the person sit down beside her. "Hey Liz… You looked lonely, thought I'd help you out." She jumped at the voice and turned to see Kevin sitting cross lagged beside her. "Sorry… you seemed kinda outa it, I'm sorry if I freaked you out." He said looking at the ground.

Is he blushing? Liz though. "Um no, I was just caught off guard. Don't worry about it… and thanks, I was lonely." She gave him a quick smile then looked back to the lake; it was still shimmering even without the sun hitting it.

Kevin coughed and looked up at her again, she was cute… but he could tell something was bothering her. "Liz, why don't we get to know each other better huh?" He asked, trying to lighten the mood.

Liz glanced over at him again… he seemed so dark, with his black hair, black eyeliner, black robes and dark brown eyes… She kind of liked it, but not in that way, she just thought he was handsome. "Um okay, my favorite color is blood red, how bout you?" She asked smiling.

He flashed her a grin. "Mines Black… and don't say its not a color, I don't care what they say! In my mind it is!" He said pointing at her.

She blushed lightly. why am I blushing?! Her mind screamed at her. "Well I love black too. Um my favorite type of animal is a Dragon, how 'bout you?" She asked, she couldn't look away from him once she looked at him more… his pale skin and dark hair and such posed such a contrast, it was actually very beautiful. God damn it, stop thinking about that… you'll never like anyone again remember? You told yourself that the night after… well the night after. She told herself, her brow creasing in frustration, she heard a soft chuckle and looked to Kevin. "What are you laughing at?" She snapped, without thinking really.

He forced himself to stop, but a smile still played about his face. "Well, you see I responded to your question a few times… but you where too deep in thought to notice it." He said.

Liz narrowed her eyes. "Yes well be quiet! I have issues, and what was it…?" She said stubbornly.

He grinned at her, again… causing her to blush, again. "Well I said Dragon too… and you're going all red… Oh by the way you're cute when you're mad, also when you're thinking."

She glared at him, her face growing redder. "Shut up! Stop making me fucking blush, and no I don't like you if that's what you think! It's just flattering and annoying and, and, and… Oh fuck!" She stopped her rambling as she saw Jason walking towards her. "God no, not again! Kevin, mind getting rid of him?" She asked her newly acquired friend, pointing to Jason.

Kevin looked puzzled as he turned to see Jason walking toward them. "This your boyfriend?" He asked, he sounded disappointed too. Liz's mind yelled many warning at her then, but she ignored them.

She shook her head repeatedly. "No just someone who likes to make me feel like crap. But hey what can one expect from a Slytherin?" She muttered. Kevin nodded and stood up, blocking Jason's path.

Jason stopped and glared at the older boy. "Mind moving?" He hissed.

Kevin looked at Jason critically. "No I'd rather stay here thanks." He said smirking slightly; he could tell the Slytherin boy was losing patience.

Jason just moved around him, muttering a 'fine'. But Kevin caught him by the arm, not letting him near Liz, who was blatantly ignoring them both. "Do you mind? I'm trying to work something out… I need her to know something; I need to let her know why I did something. And I don't believe you have any business in it." Jason said calmly.

Kevin looked at the Slytherin boy. "You and her have history?" He asked quietly, understanding now why Liz was always slightly upset… and why he needed to speak with her. Jason nodded and Kevin let him go, glancing at Liz, she'd just said he was someone picking on her… he was a little annoyed with her, but he'd get passed it. He leaned up against the birch and looked up at the castle as Jason walked up to Liz.

"Leave me alone…" Liz said not even looking at him but she felt him put something on her lap, looking down she saw a letter. "What is this? And what makes you think I'll read it Frost?" She asked icily.

Jason shrugged and looked down at the letter. "You said you never wanted to hear my voice again, well I thought I'd write out what I needed to tell you; because you said hearing my voice hurt you… I didn't want to hurt you…" He wrote on a scrap piece of paper in his hand.

Liz smiled lightly. "Damn it Jason… just tell me in words, how I can't hate you… But if its not for good reason then I don't want to see you anymore, it'll be easier that way…" She said looking into his blue eyes, those eyes that used to always make her happy to see now only filled her with sadness.

He nodded in understanding. "Alright… Well see I made this deal to keep the slytherins from hurting you, they threatened to get you fucking killed over the summer if I didn't agree." He heard her gasp. "So I mean, I didn't have a choice… I couldn't let them do that… So I agreed to their stupid deal, and it was that I'd break everything off with you, and become a follower and a wanna be like all of them… See Liz? I did it all for you!" He said, feeling hate and anger boiling up inside himself again.

Liz nodded. "So we can't really be seen together, we can't even be friends?" She asked sadly… how could he have made that deal? Just for her! She hated herself right now… it was all her fault.

"Can't be seen together, I shouldn't even be talking to you right now…" With that he stood up. "And Liz… Don't you dare blame yourself about this! It was my deal to make… you knew nothing of it." With that he walked away, leaving Liz to sit in shock.

"You okay hun?" She heard Kevin's slightly rough voice ask, she nodded but a few tears rolled down her cheeks. Then she felt his warm arms wrap around her slim body, hugging her to him. "It's alright… Hey…. Shhh." He muttered in her ear, and he rocked her back and forth. "Life goes on Love, you'll see." He said quietly, patting her back.

She wrapped her own arms around him, taking in his smell… he smelt like pine trees and smoke, it was nice… "Thank you, for being here when you hardly know me…" She muttered to him, and more tears forced their way out of her eyes.

"My pleasure hun, I know what its like going through though times… I've had my fair share of them." He said quietly, giving her a light squeeze.

Liz Felt herself smile, maybe life would find a way to work things out again.

AN:Well any good? I know new character YAAAY! maybe no? okay :P well don't anyone get all worried, as it said life will work out.