IITS ch36

A/n: here we goooo

BPOV

I finished getting Kendall dressed and packed her a bag with a few toys along with her regular necessities as we prepared to head to Edward's for dinner.

To say I was nervous would be an understatement.

"Why do you look like your dog just got ran over?" Renee asked as she stood in the doorway to Kendall's room.

"I just have to talk to Edward about something tonight and I'm a little nervous, that's all." I replied flippantly.

"What do you have to tell him? I mean, you see him every day at work, what could you possibly have to tell him that you haven't already?" She seemed annoyed, well, more than usual.

"It's really none of your business, if you don't mind." I said with a clenched jaw. I loved my mother but I seriously could not wait to move across the country and be away from her critical eyes.

"Whatever." She said exasperated and left me alone.

I gathered up our stuff and helped Kendall to the car. Once she was in place I took a deep breath and started the drive towards Edward's house. I loved his place. It was larger than my mother's house but small enough that it felt like a true home. I often wondered why he had such a big house for just him, but felt uncomfortable asking him about it.

I began to realize that while neither of us pushed the other to talk about their past, we had skipped out on knowing so much about each other. That made me really sad because I knew that there was depth to Edward, parts of his life that I truly felt like would enrich our friendship if I had only asked a few questions.

I only hoped that he understood when I told him my plans and why they were so important to me. It wasn't him that I wanted to leave when I moved home, but rather the longing that I had to just be in my home.

As we pulled into his driveway I felt the fear and anxiety spike inside of me, I hadn't really told anyone the whole story about everything that had happened when Charlie died. Not even Rose or Angela knew the full extent of all that I'd heard or had said to my dad as he died. But, I trusted Edward and I hoped he'd let me explain my fears, my own way.

Kendall started to squeal as she saw Edward walk out the front door and walk towards my car to greet us.

I smiled and then frowned.

I was going to take away the one man in her life that she trusted and loved.

Suddenly I realized that it would be the same thing I was doing to myself.

And that forced me to hold in my tears...

A/n: *wipes eyes* feeling hurt for your child is the worst feeling ever;(

see ya soon...bring tissues;)

kyla