Danny and Alice arrived at the hospital in record time. Alice went straight to Lexi's room. Expecting to find it empty and to see Ethan in pieces. Him telling her lexi had… Alice's heart felt like it was going to stop right in her chest. A boulder lodged deep in her throat made speech impossible and her eyes were already glistening with what she was sure she was gonna hear. Danny had stopped and was taliin to a doctor. Alice burst into he room. Saw Lexi sat up Ethan mumuring close to her ear. Lexi's eyes were open only slightly and she looked groggy. Like she had too much alcohol to drink.
"Your mum had arrived." Lexi moved her head closer. "Look."
Lexi turned her head and saw her mum. "Hey." she said weakly and tried a smile.
Alice rushed over. "Oh my god Lex we were so worried. We were scared that you weren't gonna make it. They told us you might not and it broke my heart and I love you so much baby and…"
Lexi stuck her heand up distressed. Green eyes pained.
"Slow." she said. "Left ear nothing. Right ear partial." she said slowly concentrating. "Can't fast understand." shook her head. She was talking funny concentrating hard on every word. She frowned. "Can't understand fast!"
Alice looked at her sensing she was thinking of something else to say.
"Cupboard door on ambulance. Head fell on." her eyes were frustrated. "Fell on head. Heavy. Metal. Ambulance flipped. Last remember thing." Shook her head again. "Last thing remember!" Lexi was so angry at herself. Her eyes were full of rage. Barely restrained rage.
"How do you feel sweetie?" Alice asked slowly leaning in so she could hear her. She held her hand. Careful not to move the IV.
"Fine. Sore. KO." shook her head. "OK!" she said angrily. Ethan squeezed her hand. "My head jumbled up. Sentences out of sequence." she paused. "Got to think hard to get them right!"
"At least your ok baby." Danny said walking into her room.
Lexi didn't hear him enter. She was looking at Ethan. "Lexi." he pointed.
She turned. "What you doing here?" she yelled freaking out. "Go away!"
Danny looked behind him. "Baby it's dad."
She frowned.
"He said it's dad." Ethan supplied.
"My dad died 5 years ago. You I know don't!" she yelled agitated. "I know don't you, DAMMIT!"
"Calm down honey, Lexi he is your dad." Ethan murmured in her ear.
She eyes Danny wearily. "What song you sing me when I was little? My dad never forget."
He searched his memory. His memory still held blanks. "Baby I…"
"Knew it. Imposter! " she shouted. Her agitation grew. Green eyes venomous.
"Lexi calm down please." Ethan pleaded.
"Him out!" she fumed. "Not dad!"
"Lexi talk to him. You'll see!" Alice coaxed.
"NO!" she yelled.
"It's ok. I'll go. See you later. I'll prove I'm your dad."
Ethan murmured what he said to her.
"Just coz you look like him," she paused thinking hard. "Don't make you him!"
Danny sat on a chair outside Lexi's room. How could his daughter. His little girl forget him? Probably the same way he forgot her. 30 minutes passed. Alice came out. "She's asleep if you wanna go in."
"And if she wakes up she'll kick off. Why can't she remember me?"
Alice shrugged. "It's ironic."
"What?" he aksed.
"Like tit for tat. You forgot her, she forgot you."
"Your enjoying this!" he spat.
"What seeing my daughter distressed at the sight of her father? O yeah I love it! Wake up and grow up Danny!"
"I'll just leave shall I?"
"Yeah GO!" Alice walked back into Lexi's room.
Ethan looked at Alice.
"You heard that?" she asked.
He nodded. "You two gonna be able to work this out?"
"It's not looking good Ethan. He doesn't understand."
"If you want you can tell me about it. Confidentially of course. I might be able to help." he asked in his softest voice.
"Your trying to analyse me aren't you?" she asked.
"Not you. Your relationship. An outsider can see things you can't. And I'm a trained outsider!"
Alice looked at him and gave him a watered down condensed version of what happened at home. He sat back in his chair. Frowning deep in thought. He didn't release Lexi's hand though. His free hand rubbed the back of his neck. "Right both of your problem is your not listening to each other."
"I listen to him!" she said insulted.
"But do you hear what he is saying. Do you think about it? No you don't and neither does he. All I hear is he doesn't understand and she doesn't understand and point scoring. And I was alone and I had to bury you na na na na na like your experience was somehow worse than his. And vice verse. Both of your experiences were equally awful in your own ways. He had the trauma of the plane. You had your image of what happened and sometimes imagination can be far worse! You had to bury your husband and felt alone metaphorically. He was actually alone. Need I go on?" he asked patiently. "Look you talk but you don't listen, and that's not how it used to be with you two and to be honest your both not the people you used to be. You need to come together and find a way to make this right."
Alice stared at him. "Wow your good."
"That's my free diagnosis. Just wait till I bill you. Then you get full on therapist Ethan. At my very best." he grinned cockily. "What can I say, I'm a genius." his smile faded. "But seriously Alice you and Danny have got to resolve this. Lex can't see it in her current state. Amie adores him and wouldn't understand and Daniel will only encourage it."
"Do you know why Daniel hates Danny so much?" Alice asked.
"Daniel, he's a hard one. While I've been doing out techniques on anger suppression I've talked to him. Tried to get him to open up. Even get in his head. He shuts me out as soon as he realises I'm in there. See he doesn't know what I'm doing but he knows he doesn't want me doing what I'm trying to do. So he's subconsciously blocking me. Keeping me out of his head, He's a hard one." he murmured to himself. He thought then carried on. "See I get the sense that he has 2 things. One a festering resentment but he won't tell me what that is. So I can't help him with it. And the other thing is I don't think he fully knows or understands why he's angry with Danny he just is. It's an irrational anger. They are hard to read and predict. His ADHD makes him even harder to read see to a child with ADHD everything is heightened. The area of his brain which controls his impulsivity doesn't work properly. Hence the heightened energy and aggression. His brain just goes off in all these different directions all the time. So he can be thinking football one minute then clouds the next with no apparent connection. I think we're making progress though. He trusts me. Has confided some stuff that's bothering him."
"And?" Alice asked.
Ethan shook his head. "I can't tell you. I told him I wouldn't. Unless it endangered his life or the life of one of his family. He's the same as my other patients Alice."
She nodded. Looked at Lexi. "Do you think she'll remember her dad?"
He shrugged ran his thumb over her hand. His eyes rested on her. "I dunno. I think it's fear more than anything else. I mean she has had a serious accident which almost kills her. Wakes up and sees her dad who just so happened to die 5 years previous. That would creep anyone out. Especially someone who had had a near death experience. She freaked out she might be ok when she's feeling better."
She nodded.
"Look before you talk to Danny you need to sort out in your own head what you want. Like whether or not you wanna be with him anymore. Don't get me wrong. There is love there at least the way you talk about him indicates there is but it is starting to get squashed down by bitter rages and anger and that will only destroy you and your children if you let it."
"Ethan why don't you go home?"
He shook his head. "I'm staying." he pushed a strand of hair behind her ear. "I'm never leaving her." Alice sensed a silent again at the end there. It wasn't spoken but she heard it all the same.
"Why don't you go and make up your mind about Danny? You know have some time alone to think?" Ethan suggested.
"How good is it having a therapist in the family? Free advice on tap. I know I've told you before but your amazing."
He shook his head. "I'm not that good really."
"You don't give yourself enough credit son."
"So you gonna go and have a think about this Danny dilemma." He hated when people tried to make him out to be better than he actually was so he quickly changed the subject.
"Maybe later. I'll sit with my daughter. The only thing that kept her he is Danny's stubborn never say die attitude."
He smiled. "I thought she got that from you."
She shrugged. "How do you feel, after seeing you dad and everything." including the baby. She added silently.
"I haven't spared him a second thought. Me and Lexi argued."
Alice looked sympathetic. "I'm all ears."
"Well as you know 5 years ago I left. I had no idea but she was pregnant at the time. She mentioned that the other day. And as you know she lost it about 4 weeks later. Anyway she saw me with my dad and she stopped me from losing it and killing him even though that's what I really really wanted to do! The way she stopped me was by telling me she was pregnant." put his hand on her stomach and smiled at it. "Then she told me to leave coz I was going to eventually. Coz that's what I did last time. I tried to tell her I wouldn't when she wouldn't listen I lost my temper, she told me she loved me and I said she didn't. I didn't tell her I loved her back. I guess I should practice what I preach about listening huh?"
"She know you won't leave her really. She probably just freaked out. Last time you had an issue with your dad you left. She was pregnant then too. She probably felt like history was repeating itself, and decided if she was gonna lose you it was gonna be on her terms this time. Just hang in there. She'll see you won't leave as long as you stay!"
"You'd make a good therapist yourself Alice."
"Na I just know my kids. And I'm gonna be a nana soon too. Daddy."
He smiled.
A/N ethan trying to help the danice survive but will they? hmmm i cud tell u coz this story is fin...but u have to wait and see *evil cackle*
