Matt's lips were warm and gentle, nothing like Mello's lips which always set my lips on fire. This, this was just a kiss. I stood there confused, as Matt's hands cupped my face. There was no flame, no searing heat, no rush of blood into my cheeks, no flutter in my heart. This was just a kiss, one that will help figure out his true feelings. He pulled away, his hands still cupping my face. His eyes held such confusion. An uneasy feeling settled in my stomach.
"What did I do wrong?" He asked, completely pulling away. I stood there, not knowing what to do. What could I do? It wasn't my feelings that needed to be sorted. I couldn't console him.
"What do you mean?" He went and sat down on the hood of a random car. He held his head in his hands.
"There should have been something, anything." He whispered to himself. "Why wasn't there?" He looked up.
"Kya do you love me?" He asked, his eyes frantically searching mine.
"Matt I-"
"Just answer the question Kya. Do you love me?"
"Matt." I whispered. "I do love you." I paused. I felt someone staring at me from the darkness and I looked around, but no one was there, not anymore. "But not in the way you want me to." I said looking back at him. "I do love you Matt. I really do but I'm not in love with you. There's a difference. I love you like a brother. Almost as much as I loved Lollipop, but I'm not in love with you. I believe that is where your confusion lies." He shook his head. I walked over to him and held him in my arms. "I'm sorry Matt. I'm sorry I caused you such pain and confusion. You won't have to worry about that anymore. I promise." His shoulders slumped and he weakly held me back.
Matt I'm so sorry I caused this. No more will I be the cause of such pain. I promise you Matt. "C'mon let's go find Mells and go home." I said tiredly. We both stood and I reached out and caressed Matt's hand. I pulled him to the door and back inside the club.