Epilogue

As Rowena sat in the front garden of Godric's Hollow she looked towards the rose bushes. She remembered that once they were dead or dying when she last looked at it. Now they were full of bright red roses but soon, the weather was turning hot and dry and soon they would wither and die again, though Rowena knew that Albus could just re-grow them with a flick of his wand.

Rowena sighed and shifted her body weight around to become more comfortable on the bench. She looked down and took off her old shoes and stared at her socked feet before lifting her head again. She sighed again. Her life had become slow and boring. It was not what she had ever wanted. She was constantly tired from doing nothing all the time.

Suddenly, Rowena felt a small shiver run down her spine. She turned her head to the side and her eyes met with Albus'. He was watching her from the living room window. Rowena quickly looked away and back to the garden. She could no longer hold his gaze as she once could. It had become an extremely difficult and painful thing to do. Albus' looks to her had changed too. They had become distrustful and cold.

Rowena was now thirty-six years old. She had spent ten years in Azkaban but she was grateful to be out but it was hard having to stay here, especially when the person it's with does not love you anymore. Albus said before that he still loved her like his own, but every day it was hard to believe and accept. It bothered her, as did many things, but she never said anything. She still loved Albus, even after everything that happened between them.

When Rowena thought about Azkaban she usually shook violently. It was an awful and horrible place that she hoped to never lay eyes upon again. Every night was just a repeat of the last. The nightmares never seemed to end and it was the same ones over and over again. The visions and the darkness seemed endless. It was dark place but Rowena found a darker and scarier place in her mind.

The nightmare that haunted her was herself. She would look up to the ceiling and see herself there; crawling along the wall as though it was the most normal thing in the world. When reaching her, her figure would stop and twist its head around to face the floor and its yellow eyes would fixate upon Rowena's own. The rest was worse. It became like an insect. The nightmares were more violent but Rowena never thought about it unless she had to or if the nightmare happened again.

She no longer slept very well and her weight had plummeted dramatically. Azkaban took away the wanting of food also and the looks she used to have. Rowena knew Sirius had been in Azkaban and she knew that he found it the most horrible place to be and it had made him bitter. Rowena was a little bitter but she was more depressed and withdrawn. She knew she wasn't the same person and that she never would be again, and when she really thought about it, it was good thing.

She had done terrible things, though sometimes it had never seemed like it at the time. Rowena regretted some things more than others. She did end up regretting sleeping with Walden. She learnt not long after that she had become attached to him and not long after entering prison, she learnt she was pregnant, though she was unable to keep it. Albus wouldn't allow it.

She had been disappointed when she couldn't keep it but she knew she wasn't the motherly type. She had raised Teddy for four years but she knew it was different. Teddy wasn't hers and she wouldn't be around for the child, though that probably would've been a good thing. Albus said he wouldn't allow the Slytherin bloodline to continue and Rowena thought it a pretty good idea. The line seemed to cause nothing but trouble and troubled people.

Rowena did see Teddy again. A few times, actually. Albus allowed Rowena to see him, only if Teddy agreed and he did. He remembered Rowena from when he was younger and Rowena asked him if he remembered being scared and he told her that he was scared when around Greyback only. At the time, he hadn't felt scared with Rowena at all. He had trusted her and he was now glad he did. She was the only non scary person around. It had made Rowena smile, though she was sad not to see him again.

Teddy told her how things were going. He said he missed his father greatly. Rowena had been unable to look at him when Remus was mentioned. It made Rowena feel worse to hear that Tonks had not yet recovered from Remus' death and Rowena knew she never would. Tonks would die alone.

Albus had told her things when she arrived back. Harry was head of the Auror department and he had married Hermione once they had sorted everything out. Harry sometimes wondered if Hermione's feelings for him were genuine but he couldn't imagine her faking it. Rowena knew they had three children together; the third one was still only a baby. Rowena hoped they were happy.

Ginny had eventually moved on and married Blaise though it took a while for her family to accept him. Bill and Fleur remained together and had three children, Charlie went back to his dragons, George married Angelina, Percy met a Muggle and fell in love and Arthur and Molly were still together, though Rowena knew she was still heartbroken about losing Fred and Ron.

Rowena thought to her own personal relationship. She had been allowed to see Walden one last time, though she only got to spend several minutes with him. She surprised herself when she cried a little before leaving. Albus watched the entire time.

Things at Durmstrang had returned to normal and Rowena got a chance to apologise to Dobtcheff though Rowena wasn't sure if he accepted it. She never thought she would get that look from him. He had always been so kind to her.

The Death Eaters that escaped her fate were living low, including the Malfoy's. They had resurrected their manor and were living there once again. Narcissa buried Lucius quickly and she managed to get Draco back home. She decided to keep her baby and she had another boy. She named him Caelum Lucius Malfoy. Rowena hoped she was happy and at peace.

Now, Rowena spent her days in Godric's Hollow, unable to leave and unable to speak to anyone but Albus. He had her wand and it was on him all the time. Albus was always around at home now since retiring as headmaster of Hogwarts. He only recently retired, after he took her out of Azkaban. McGonagall was now headmistress and she seemed to fit into the role nicely.

Rowena sighed heavily and loudly. She constantly wondered if Albus would die soon but the thought of it scared her. When Albus dies she'll be here all alone. She still won't be able to leave or speak to anyone else. She'll remain here until her dying day and Rowena knew it was a long way off unless she ended it herself and to Rowena, it was nothing more than a depressing thought.

A/N: Overall am happy with story. Has been edited and updated a couple times. Flashback scenes are for the reader to try and get to know Rowena a little better though I am unsure if they help or not. Please Review.