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Embry's POV

"Has someone taken your faith?

It's real, the pain you feel

The life, the love

You die to heal

The hope that starts

The broken hearts

You trust, you must

Confess.

Is someone taking the best…" I slap the clock radio off. Thinking about it logically I shouldn't be taking my anger and anguish out on it, all it did was play music when I woke up, today was new years eve. All the clichés of New Years annoyed me. The idea that people used one day to say they'll change who they are was laughable to me. No one changed because a new year was in progress, it was because they didn't have an excuse to do what they should have before. People would say they're going to change their lives, then give up by March, if not February. New years eve was over hyped. I'd never done anything on it. Most times past I'd spent it with Jacob and Quil, One year I was at a La Push party. I got to watch Leah and Sam kiss at midnight, I was jealous, when the party came around next year I stayed home by myself, Jacob and Quil never knew why, funny how that happened. Hopefully today Patrick would actually leave, I didn't like him In Minnesota. I heard a knock on my door but no one came in. I called for them to come in. Harley turned the corner. Arm was almost healed but not quite yet, he'd taken the down time to stay with the Cullen's and foster a trusting relationship so there weren't any more battles between us, he like myself didn't like Patrick at all.

"If he doesn't leave we'll need to take action, and I mean my whole pack." I nodded in agreement. We didn't need to say his name to know who we were referring to.

"If you do, I'll join you." I affirmed. He leaned further in to the room.

"He's here now, saying his goodbyes to Leah." My body tightened at response to them together, he obviously saw it but ignored it anyway. I sighed softly then jumped to my feet running down stairs with Harley behind me. Patrick was at the door and he was speaking with Carlisle.

"I have nothing against you personally but you can't take up residency here or anywhere if you're going to feed on humans. This state is under protection, and we're not going to kill innocent people for you to preserve your life style, I'm sorry but you've made something of a problem here." Harley tensed when he saw Patrick. Patrick's eyes were immediately drawn to Harley.

"Really, these protectors…" he said fading off as if thinking.

"And more so, I might be inclined to join them, because you'd be endangering our lifestyle. If you decide to not hunt humans we can talk but I'll need to ask you to leave." Patrick started turning to leave but Carlisle stopped him.

"I'd stay away from La Push, it's not safe for you anymore." Patrick's eyes turned to me for a moment and I felt a shared dislike for me. I couldn't read his eyes very well but at the very least he wasn't happy I was around. His eyes turned to Carlisle and silently acknowledged his words. Leah came running through the halls and hugged Patrick.

"I'll miss you Pat." He smirked looked at her.

"Hey don't worry Lee, We can keep talking, I'll come visit some time." His eyes turned back to me and they weren't the pain in the ass look he once had, but something different, I couldn't put my place what it was though. I turned and walked away, walked down stairs, I had a particular song I wanted to play, it was a band that Jasper introduced me to because some of their music could bring him up when he was feeling down, not the song I was thinking of. Rosalie was sitting on the drum set. Honestly she might be better than me by now, I wouldn't know how to judge who was better.

"Jasper, Emmett want to join us? Actually the song I want to play is Five Iron Frenzy so if Carlisle could come down and play trumpet that'd be nice too." I asked at only slightly over a normal talking voice. Emmett was the first one down stairs followed closely by Jasper. Carlisle made his way down smiling.

"I suppose I have time for one song before I go to the hospital for the day." Carlisle came downstairs with a laptop.

"What song is it, I'd like to find the part before playing it." I grinned.

"Isn't it obvious? New Years Eve." Carlisle was on his laptop looking at music, the Cullen's abilities to memorize nearly anything was amazing to me. I looked up to the drum set where Rosalie also was on a computer looking at music.

"Hey Embry, I got this song, mind if I drum?" I shrugged, I guess that left me singing. My largest concern was that I don't have the vocal range that Reese Rooper has. I took the microphone at the front of the room, this had turned in to a mostly Cullen event, everyone who lived here was down now besides Leah, even Harley had came down to see what was going on. Rosalie on drum set started the sound quickly joined by Carlisle on trumpet. I grabbed the mic and pulled it to my face, someone thought it should be recorded. I didn't know who, but it was definitely recording right now.

"It's New Years Eve and I'm full of empty promises

I half pretend to keep this time just like last year.

The band is loud and I'm wandering the shadows

Wishing I was never here. I persevere

A crowded room

These whitewashed tombs

They raise their glasses high

They kiss the past goodbye."

"This New Years Eve, I'm waiting for tomorrow

My heart is on my sleeve, and yes I still believe,

This New Years Eve, will turn out better than before

I'm holding on, still holding on until they close the door… on me." I took a short moment between the Chorus and the verse to think of its meaning to me. This song had meaning, all songs I sang did.

"It's New Years Eve, and I feel my insecurities

Are haunting me like ghosts, this sinking quicksand.

And then with thunderous praise and lofty adoration

A second passes by, yet nothing changes!" I sing meaningfully before continuing the verse.

"I hate my skin, this grave I'm standing in.

Another change of years, and I wish I wasn't here!" I concentrate on the song as I go back to the chorus.

"This New Years Eve, I'm waiting for tomorrow

My heart is on my sleeve, and yes I still believe,

This New Years Eve, will turn out better than before

I'm holding on, still holding on until they close the door… on me." I bring my voice down remembering the soft part of this song, I'd never realize how hard it was to actually sing with a group.

"A year goes by and I'm staring at my watch again

And I dig deep this time, for something

Greater than I've ever been, life to ancient wineskins.

And I was blind, but now I see."

"This new Years Eve, something must change me inside,

I'm crooked and misguided. And tired of being tired!" I yelled finally

"This New Years Eve, I'm waiting for tomorrow

My heart is on my sleeve,

And yes I still believe, in you…

in you..." I sigh softly as I feel my energy drain from my body. To me it was as if the song, feeling monotonous drew on me heavily. I was tired of going through the motions, I wanted to tell Leah how I felt about her but she knew anyway. The Cullen's all disappeared to their own hobbies. I pulled out my acoustic guitar and started strumming a song that I'd heard. I'd only learned the Chorus so far so I took and attempt at singing a small part of it.

"If we've only got one life…

If we've only got one try…

If time was never on our side.

Then before I die I want to burn out bright." I stopped strumming and exhaled slowly I looked up. My vision followed slowly up the stairs and to a pair of legs. They were Leah's, they were all I could see of her was her legs. I stood up and put my guitar away turning back to her. She had now made her way down the stairs and looked me in the eye. She was a couple stairs up still so she was eye to eye with me. I made attempts to speak. I stuttered , I stammered, I wanted to say anything, but I couldn't. she breathed out softly, I inhaled her scent taking in the calm before the storm. As seconds questions spun through my mind, could I love the person I feared most? Was it logical to give someone your entire being and trust them not to hurt you? Truly it wasn't logical, it was just what love was. It was the essence of love. It was to give everything to someone and trust them with all of you, and get the same in return. The only aspect of your life you need to control you can't. I thought to myself. Leah grabbed my head and shook me softly.

"Hey Embry, you there?" she said after shaking me. I nodded in her hands. Her deep brown eyes pierced me. She closed her eyes softly and sighed again.

"Embry I just need some time to think, just give me a little time." I nodded. she turned and made her way up the stairs and walked away. I could feel in the pit of my stomach a pain an emptiness that wasn't there before… like something that was gone right now that I'd lost somehow all I could do now is.

I'm sorry how abruptly it ended, but something that shook me to the core just occurred and I needed to change the end of the chapter, they were going to work it out but I couldn't because I couldn't put my heart in it. Like I said something happened that shook me to the core… since this is public I'm not going to get in to it. If this event doesn't change… doesn't get fixed, it will definitely change the direction of my story, I have a direction to go with my story, but now I might need to go completely differently… I'm sorry again for how this went, I want to write because writing is a passion i have, however emotionally I can't, until i can finish this story I can't continue writing. I hope to back sooner rather then later, but I don't know if i will be able to, once again I'm sorry, TDFireproof