(this is continued from last chapter.)
(BPOV:)
"What do you mean you found it?" I asked confused.
"I promised you I would find what it is that is keeping us apart, and I did," He smiled big. His eyes we're lighting up, and I truely realized that Edward Cullen was happy.
I mean I knew he was happy being here, and trying to make me see how sorry he was, but I truely know he's happy now.
"Then what is it?" I smiled fighting the urge to kiss his beautiful face.
"You love me don't you? I mean, I love you so much Isabella. Your everything i've ever wanted. I was so stupid to deny my true feelings for you in school, but I just couldn't ever imagine someone as beautiful," He breathed and leaned towards me,"and as breathtaking as you are."
I gulped loudly at how close our faces had came too. His breath was hitched, and I could taste him on my lips.
"Of-of course I love you," I stumbled out, trying not to fall backwards off the bed.
"I thought so hard while you were gone. About how much I loved you, and how much I need you in my life," He stopped to smile at me, letting his green eyes bore into mine.
"It's like fate is keeping us apart because there's something missing in our life, like you said. I thought about it, and it's Forks," He breathed heavily.
"Forks?" I repeated confused.
"Yes. Forks, Washington,love," He leaned over, and gave me a small peck on my cheek. I touched where his lips had just been, and felt it sting.
"Why would Forks be the missing puzzle piece?" I grew more and more confused with every word spoken.
"It's where we met, and grew up. It's where I first saw your beautiful face, and where I snuck into your room everynight to hold you close to my side," He smiled taking my head in between his hands.
"I'm so confused,Edward. We live in Chicago now, we both have good jobs here," I shook my head in confusion.
"Bella don't you feel it? Don't you miss the green rainy forest that use to surrond us? It use to be our little safe house," His smile slowly started to disapear. "Your not happy are you? It's not the missing puzzle piece is it?" His hands fell slowly to his sides.
"I just need to clear my mind, okay?" I stepped back a few feet shocked, and grabbed my jacket.
"Bella, i'm sorry! Where are you going?" He pleaded. My heart slowly broke at his sad voice, and I wanted to turn around and tell him everything was okay. It's not though.
"To get some air," I muttered, walking out of the warm apartment.
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(EPOV:)
"Edward?" Alice's perky worrired voice filled the room.
"He's not here right now," I mumbled back, holding the covers over my face tightly.
"I'm guessing it didn't go so well." I felt the edge of the bed sink down, assuming she layed down beside me.
"Not really," I mumbled.
"What did she say?" She kept pressing.
"She said she needed some air," I moaned.
"That's not bad you silly goose!" She yanked the covers off my face, flashing her white teeth at me.
"Alice, please! I'm not a idiot! I ruined every damn thing!" I grumlbed reaching for the covers, but she threw them across the room.
"Stop being so petty! She loves you, and the 'missing piece' is Forks. She's just trying to take it all in! A girl has to breathe ya know?" She hit me on the arm and jumped off the bed.
I closed my eyes tight, hoping this was all just a damn dream. I mean, it has to be Forks. That's the missing piece for me, but what if it's not for her? What if it's something I can't ever find, and we aren't meant to be toget-
"Ahem." My eyes jolted open to see my angel standing over me.
"Great, it was just a dream," I let out a sigh of relief.
"No," She giggled sittind down beside me.
"Fuckkk," I moaned falling back onto the bed.
"We're going home," I opened one eye to look at her. "To Forks," She smiled.
"Wait! What changed your mind?"
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(This is what happened when Bella left to 'get some air.' )
(BPOV:)
I stepped outside the doubledoors letting the freshair hit me in the face. I pulled my jacket tighter around me, as I got coldbumps from the chilly air. I spotted the bench that once held my spirits high, under a street lamp.
"Watch out for the darkness, you don't know what's out there, !" I giggled throwing a small wave over my shoulder at the doormaster.
I sat down on the bench, and instantly missed it. I use to come here when Edward was gone, and think about how my life would have been without him. Thankfully he was back in my life, but I was in a sticky situtation.
I had a perfectly good job, friends, and a life here in Chicago. Edward is finally here with me, yet something is still off. I wandered many, many times what that something was, but I couldn't findit. It was like the whole world has been keeping us apart, and each time we get closer, we take two steps back.
Would Forks really be the tie that bonds us together? What is there in Forks for me? Charlie sertantily wasn't there anymore, and i'm postive Mike Newton probably moved away to some strip club joint with Jessica.
"Bella?" I looked up from my thoughts and saw Jared standing a few feet away.
"Hey," I whispered forcing a smile on my face.
"What's wrong?" He chuckled sitting down beside me.
He looked really different at night then he did during the day. His skin was a much lighter tone, and his eyes seemed to have a small sparkle in each corner.
"Wait, why are you here? You live in downtown," I snickered looking into his blue orbs.
"Well, I was actually here to talk to you, but sence you made it much easier for me to find you," He chuckled putting his arm around my shoulders.
"What do ya wanna talk about?" I asked scooting into his side. The warmth felt good coming off his body, and threw mine.
"You first. What's wrong?" He smiled down at me, and I quickly shifted my eyes to my lap.
"The fact that Edward wants to move states away," I sighed.
"Move? Why?" He asked suddenly.
"You know how, Edward & I have gotten alot closer," I looked up slowly. He nodded his head,"He thinks it would be best if we moved back to Forks."
"You don't like that?" He sounded like he was stating it more than asking.
"Not really. I mean, I have a good job here, friends, and Forks doesn't have that much for me," I sighed heavily.
"You could always make it the way you wantit," He cupped his hand around my shoulder.
"I guess your right." I replyed. He was right. Forks might not have had anything for me then, but what about now? I'm a independent buisness woman, I could simply snap my fingers and make my own buisness there. Right?
"Who would you miss here?" I snapped out of my gaze.
"Of course you, probably Gabe," I giggled.
"I would miss you, too," He whispered. I felt his warm breath on my neck, and it made me shiver.
"I think you just made me realize something." I started to get up, but he pulled me back down by my arm.
"Oh you needed to talk," I laughed.
"It doesn't really matter now, but I can't let it go unspoken," His eyes didn't meet mine, and I never saw him like that before.
"What's wrong? You can tell me anything, Doc," I nudged him in the side with my elbo, and he rolled his eyes playfully.
"That is what I need to talk about," He pointed to my face, confusing the hell out of me.
"Uhhh," I mumbled raising a eyebrow.
"You dazzling me. You making me laugh, when noone else can." I looked into his sadened eyes, not understanding what he really meant.
"At first I denyed it. I couldn't let this happen between us, because I saw so much potential of being abestfriend with you, Bells," A small frown came upon his face.
My lips formed a 'o.'
"So you like me?" I felt like a first grader asking him.
"No. I love you," He smiled slightly.
"Jared, I can't, ya , i-"
"No, Shh," He put his finger over my mouth to silence me.
"I understand you don't feel the same way. What i'm trying to say is, there will always be something in my heart for you, but," He whispered, and grabbed my head in between his hands," Your my bestfriend. That's all I could ever ask for."
I felt a small tear trickle down my cheek, and I knew what I would miss here. I would miss the people that care about me most. I also knew what I would miss out on if I didn't leave, and that meant so much more.
"Jared, I love you too. You'll always be my bestfriend, and thank you for telling me this," I smiled wrapping my arms around his neck.
"Let's not let that something get in the way of us being BFF's," he chuckled.
"Never will I," I whispered back.
"Thanks, Bells." He kissed me on the cheek, as I stood up.
"I really need to go save my 'almost' relationship, but i'll call you later," I winked.
I turned on my heel to make a run for my love waiting in my room, but I heard a soft 'Bella' behind me.
I turned around to see Jared standing with one hand on his hip.
"If you & edward don't work out, call me," He held up the phone signal to his ear.
"Okay," I giggled.
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I have alot to say. =)
1)sorry this was a few days late, but here ya go!
2)The next chapter will 85% be the last chapter of penpals4life.
3)DONT'FREAK OUT! BREATHE! AND KEEP READING BELOW! (lol.)
4)After this next chapter will be the epilogue. It will generally be really, really long. So it may take a few days to write. It will be surprising, and will end silly, but good.
5)The ending of it, will not be with marriage, and a baby, blah blah. So i'm considering doing a story on Edward & Bella's relationship. Sence this has been about their struggle of getting together, ya know? So at the end of the epiologue, you guys can vote, and let me know if you wouldlike to read a sequal. If enough people want it, then i will start writing it ASAP! For you guys that will not be that interested in having one, then just stop reading at the epilogue. I will NOT disapoint anyone! I love you all!
6)It's been awhile sence i put anything 'lemon-y' in it. Of course, Edward & Bella have not had sex with ANYONE. They haven't even had sex yet. I haven't decided if i want them to have sex in the epilogue, or in the relationship sequal. If you have any suggestions, then let m know, cause i'm seriously stumped on thatpart. .
7)I made a Forum yesterday. I'm still working to get it up and going, but we can talk about all kinds of stuff on there, if you guys are interested! Make a snazzy chatroom or something,haha. =)
8)Thanks for all the reviews on the last chapter. I really wanted to get 1,000 reviews before ending it, but I don't think that will happen! (596 as of right now,lol.) Maybe on the next one tho! But for you guys that really stuck with me, and put up with my sucky grammar, and lateness, I love you, and I appreciate the 'boos' & 'yays' you guys gave me! Thanks =)
xoxox.