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Chapter 35

Holly's P.O.V

Sage. Nik had mentioned that she was a vampire now. She was certainly different, she looked as though she had dies, although she had. Her pale skin was even paler and her eyes were bright red with big black veins surrounding them, they made her look so much more dangerous and she definitely was far more dangerous than the last time I saw her. Kol grabbed me around the waist from behind and drug me backwards and stood in front of me as a growl emitted from deep inside his throat in a threatening manner.

"Sage?" I whisper gently, trying to step out from behind Kol only to be shoved back. I settle for looking over Kol's shoulder.

"Stay away from her Holly." Kol warns me and I scowl at him.

"Its is not like she has killed me." I spit at him not missing the opportunity to tell him what I thought. "Sage its ok, nobody is going to hurt you." I say to her, trying to calm her down.

"Yet." I hear Kol whisper and so I give him an aneurysm, I wasn't really sure what I was expecting but I was quite pleased with the result. He sunk to the ground holding his head and a few moments later, when I had decided he had enough punishment. Serves him right. "Was that really necessary Love?" He says and I reply with a sly smile.

"Sage, everything is going to fine. You just need to calm down." I say sternly, hoping she would calm down after she got the message.

"I want to see Amelia." Sage says, her voice firm and strong. "I am calm. Now let me see my daughter." She says with a stern voice.

"Sage I don't think you understand what is happening." I say to her.

"I know exactly what has happened, Finn killed me and now I am a monster like the Mikaelsons, lie him." She snarls. "Now why cant I see my daughter? She is my child and I will see her Holly with or without your consent." She spits at me, she begins to move further into the hut. Kol growls and pushes me further behind him.

"Sage you cant right now, you're not ready." I say to her trying to get her to see sense. "Your fangs are out and it will scare her. You don't want to turn on her accidentally, do you?" I ask her as a final plea as I know her answer. She shakes her head and looks down solemnly.

"Holly, I'm sorry. I don't know what to do." She whispers and I push Kol out of my way ignoring his hopeless pleas to get me to stop.

"I know Sage, but you have me and we will get through this. We get through how we always get through things. Together." I assure her that she will not be alone. She doesn't deserve this and I will not let her self distrust.

"How? How can you act like I'm not monster? I could kill you and your children right now and it would only take seconds." She says to me, I know she is trying to scare me. It wont work, I am not leaving her alone.

"But you wont." I tell her as I stand my ground to prove a point. I know she wont hurt me, she would feel too guilty. I walk closer to her. "Tell me you will kill me, look me in the eye and tell me you will kill me." I tell her, she wont do it because she cant.

"Your trust in me is sweet Holly." She pauses and a sinister snarl crosses her face. "But I am a monster now. If I'm hungry, who is to say I wont harm you?"

"You." I say, she stares blankly at me, so I go on to explain. "You wont harm me or the children because then you would turn into the person you hate most. Your Father." Sage looks down at her feet. The veins around her eyes disappearing, fangs retracting.

"I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry." Sage babbles over and over. She finally starts to fall apart.

After a very long couple of hours, Sage begins to calm down. We sit in silence with each other for a while, a peaceful moment that would soon be disrupted by our lives. Although I wouldn't trade my life I cant help but feel that if Esther wasn't in my life, I would probably be down a few problems. I wish that Kol and I could leave with the girls and go on an adventure, find a home. A home that would be ours and only ours. It wouldn't happen though, especially now. Kol would rely on his siblings to help him through this blood lust and I? well I would be left picking up the pieces with a smile on my face because that is what I was taught to do, be the dutiful wife. I stare deeper into the fire, is this how it would feel? Would our immortal life be filled with sorrow and loss? My family gave their lives for this and I am sat here wishing they hadn't. Sure I had infinite amount of time for Kol but what of our children? We would get 20-30 years happy healthy lives from them and then, we would watch them die. What sort of life would that be for us, for them. I couldn't give them up. I carried them both for 9 months, I birthed them, raised them and gave them all the love and attention they need. I didn't want to watch them die. I didn't want them to age whilst I stayed the same.

By the time Sage had finally gone quiet, I had decided that it would be best to get some sleep whilst I could. I changed into a white gown and lay down on the bed pulling the lush brown wolf fur over my freezing body. Winter was coming and it was getting colder and colder with each passing day, the snow would come soon and that would lead to a horribe winter, Erin would have to be kept warm constanly and we would have to buy Sophie more and more clothes. Clothes cost gold, gold we dont have, especially as Kol is no longer working. It seems we will have to hope for the best. Maybe this curse will become a gift, maybe it will solve our issues for a short period of time. I lay in bed staring into the darkness, eventually I feel myself falling into a peaceful sleep that lasts minutes because just as I'm on the verge of peacfulness I feel arms wrap around my waist and bring me backwards. I realise that I'm being pulled against a hard chest. Kol. I wiggle only to hear him release a throaty chuckle.

"Careful Love, wouldnt want to wake me would you?" He whispers suggestively in my ear. I remain silent, thinking about the future and what it holds, we have children and we cant live on anything. Kol cant leave the house in the day and what jobs are there for the night? "You're thinking too much, its keeping me awake." He states.

"Well I'm sorry that I worry about our children." I look at him and quickly look away, avoiding his gaze.

"What do you mean? They are well taken care of and will continue to be, what more is there to concern yourself with?" I sit up on the bed looking at the wall.

"You burn in the sun. You cant work, nobody will hire a women and believe it or not Kol, you don't get whatever you want. That isn't going to buy our children the things they need and want. What will we do hmm?" I say quietly, I don't want to anger him, his temper has become more dangerous with this curse. I never know what to expect with him anymore. " We cant live like this forever, Sophie needs clothes, Erin needs warmth and the three of us need food."

"I'm not going to apologise this wasn't my fault, I didn't ask for this." He says and looks at his hands. "We will sort this. I promise you that Sophie and Erin will never go without, I promise that you will never have to do anything you don't want and I promise we will live better and happier lives because that's all I can offer with assurance that I will fulfil these promises." He moves to sit behind me on the bed, leaning his head on my shoulder. "You know I love you more than anything." He kisses my ear. "When they told me you were dead I could've easily died and when you woke my heart leapt with joy." I chuckle.

"You're heart doesn't beat, Love." It is his turn to laugh in my ear.

"Always have to have the last word." He pulls me against his chest.

"Always and forever." I lean into his hold until my head is on his chest. I kiss his chin and push him back, he doesn't feel the push but he falls and lies on his back. "Now we have few-" A cry breaks through the air. "And its over, I'll go she's probably hungry." He nods, getting up. He needs to check on Sophie, the fear that Esther will get her haunts him and I have no doubt that it will haunt us forever.