Sorry for the delay in posting, RL got the best of me these past few days. I did make this chapter a bit longer than usual though to try and make it up to you.

The weekend…that's all I've been able to think about…for various reasons.

I made good on the promise to Bella to take her away for the weekend, and she made good on her promise to have us locked away with some of the things she found in the boxes the last time we were working on my house.

She wouldn't let me know what she packed though, saying she wanted it to be a surprise.

I thought a weekend getaway to Lake Tahoe would be nice, and rented us a cabin there that was secluded enough so that if we got too loud or anything, no one would hear us.

The weekend started of amazingly.

Our day there we relaxed and then Bella made us dinner that night. Afterwards, she told me to wait in the living room for five minutes and then head into the bedroom.

When I did, I found Bella naked on the bed, one of those Trojan vibrators in her hand.

"Edward," she murmured. "I want you to watch…I want you to see how worked up you get me."

I swallowed thickly, unable to find any words as I watched her take the now buzzing toy and begin to tease herself with it.

I tear my eyes away.

Her pussy began to glisten as it became coated in her wetness. Her hips began to buck upwards, her moans and whimpers began to fill the room.

I couldn't take anymore. I didn't want it to be some toy making her feel that way. I wanted it to be me, I wanted it to be my cock inside her that made her shatter into a million pieces.

I ripped my clothes from my body as I pounced, making my way to the bed in just a few short steps. Grabbing the toy from her hands, I threw it behind me, where it continued to buzz and vibrate against the wooden floorboards.

"I want to be the one making you feel good Bella," I grunted as her hands wrapped around my cock, stroking me. "Not some battery operated toy."

Bella moaned as I leaned in and kissed her. As we broke apart, she pulled away for a moment, reached over to the nightstand and grabbed one of the condoms she had packed from the house.

"I…it's not that I don't trust you Edward," she said as she unwrapped the condom and rolled it on me. "It's just that I'm not on birth control. Plus, this kind looked sort of fun…they're colored and ribbed."

Colored…ribbed…I couldn't process the words with Bella's hands wrapped around me like this. All I could focus on was being inside of her.

With another kiss, I pushed her onto her back as I moved forward and settled between her legs.

I could feel the heat from her core as I lined up with her entrance, and when I pushed into her…I swear I saw heaven. Never before had I felt anything that could compare to Bella being wrapped around me.

I wanted things to be slow and loving and romantic, but I don't think either of us had the patience for that. We both moved, our hips thrusting in perfect tempo…fast and hard.

Bella's moans got louder that deeper I went. Her nails dug into my back and her legs wrapped tighter around my waist the closer I pushed her to her orgasm.

She screamed as she came, her noises echoing off the bedroom walls.

Seeing her come undone pushed me into sensory overload, triggering my own orgasm.

That's when it happened.

I don't know if it was the hard fucking or just sheer bad luck.

As my thrusts began to still I felt something snap and I froze in place, knowing it could have only been one thing. I could tell Bella felt it too by the look in her eyes, she knew just as well as I did what just happened.

I pulled out of her, and we both looked down at my now rapidly deflating cock, and the shredded remnants of the broken condom that I wore.

"Oh God…Edward, the condom…" Bella said, her voice laced with nervous tension.

"I…I know Bella. Um…wh-what do you want to do? I could take you to a pharmacy if that's what you wanted to…" I trailed off, the only sound in the room being that godforsaken toy that was still vibrating in a corner somewhere.

I was freaking out inside, not so much because Bella might have gotten pregnant, but because in the moment I saw the broken condom, I realized I wouldn't mind the idea of her having my child. I loved her, and for me…I knew she was it. There was no one else I would ever want the way I wanted her. I was just freaking out because it seemed like she didn't want children yet…if at all, so how could I tell her that I would have actually been happy if she got pregnant.

"I don't know Edward. I have a window of time if I wanted to go get the pill…I think I need the night to think. I'll let you know in the morning," Bella replied, barely even looking at me as she wrapped herself in a sheet and left the room.

"Bella," I called out as she reached the door. "I love you…no matter what you decision is, I love you and will support your choice one hundred percent."

I barely noticed her head nod as she whispered back to me "I love you too," before walking out.

I wanted to go to her, hold her and tell her it was okay.

I wanted to apologize for our first time being ruined like this.

But she clearly wanted to be alone, and if that is what she wanted and needed, I would give her that…it was the least I could do.

Glaring at the wrapper for the condom on the nightstand, I picked it up to throw it away when I noticed the expiration date on it…it was over a year ago.

Not wanting to burden Bella with anything else, I made my way to the bathroom, tossed the wrapper in the trash, and washed up before going to bed.

When I woke up in the morning, there was a note on the bed next to me.

Edward,

You looked so peaceful sleeping, I didn't want to wake you. I'm sorry, I need more time to think…alone. I'll call you Monday with my decision.

I love you,

Bella

She had left me. In the middle of the night…during what was supposed to be our first romantic weekend away.

I couldn't think. I couldn't process everything that happened as the overwhelming fear of Bella leaving me…possibly for good consumed me. It made me want to go on a massive shopping binge, so I did the one thing I could think of...I called Dr. Brandon as I started packing and told her I would be back in town in a few hours and needed an emergency session.

As I grabbed the last of my things, I heard a buzzing sound near the window in the bedroom and when I looked down, I found the stupid toy that Bella had used from last night…damn thing had the battery life of the Energizer bunny.

Not wanting anyone else to stumble upon it, I picked it up, turned it off and tucked it away in my suitcase before leaving and heading home.

I tried calling and texting Bella several times, but all my attempts went unanswered. I took the hint and figured it would be best to leave her alone until she was ready to talk to me.

I spent three hours in Dr. Brandon's office when I got back, before heading to my house, where I now sit, reliving every moment of the weekend as I anxiously wait for Monday to arrive.