After arriving home and filling Stephanie in, I smiled as my brother and sister in law made their way to my bedroom. I let them have my bed since I doubt I would be doing any sleeping. My mind scolded me as I thought about Cody, I don't know how he could do this to us, but deep down I kept hearing the small thoughts telling me there had to be a good reason. I sighed, glancing to the clock realizing there was only a couple hours left before I would have to get up, I pushed myself up to my feet and walked down the hallway. I stood in the doorway of my son's room, watching him sleep peacefully, his little arm dangling off the side of the bed. I walked into his room, sitting with my back against his bed, letting my hand hold the one that dangled off the edge. I wasn't sure how I was gonna break the news to him, or even how to tell him. Cole loved Cody and this would break his heart I'm sure. Leaning my head back against his mattress, I closed my eyes for only a moment to rest.
My eyes were still closed when I heard the familiar sound of my son giggling.
"Do it again!" Kyle's voice spoke, and I could tell he was standing next to me in the room. My eyes didn't flutter when I felt my son's little finger poke into my cheek playfully, as he giggled again. I smiled grasping my son by the arm, as I playfully pulled him over my shoulder into my lap, wrapping him up in my arms, holding him tight to me.
"Mommy!" Cole squealed as I hugged him tight.
"We need to get going." Kyle spoke, I turned to look at him as he held Cole's mask in his hands, holding it out to me. I grasped the mask, snapping it into place before wrapping my arms around my son again as he sat on my lap.
"Mommy Let Go! I gotta go potty!" Cole exclaimed as I let him go, and he ran out of the bedroom. I pushed myself to a standing position, running my hands over my face, resting my forearms on my knees. I felt the bed move as Kyle sat next to me, his hand resting on my back.
"What time is it?" I asked, looking over to my brother.
"5:30" Kyle answered.
"No time for a shower I guess." I said stretching my neck.
"Ewwww….is that what I smell?" Kyle responded, a playful smile on his lips.
"Shut up!" I teased, smiling and pushing him playfully.
"Here." Kyle spoke handing me my phone as I let out a deep sigh. I hadn't checked it since last night, and I worried about checking it. Half worried that there would be nothing there, half worried that there would be. I squinted my eyes, as my phone lit up.
"Anything from Cody?" Kyle asked, looking at my phone from where he was sitting.
"Nothing." I said, my voice shaky, as Kyle's hand rested on my shoulder once again.
"I'm sure he has a good reason." Kyle said again as I nodded my head, not really believing him. I looked up as he stood from the bed walking towards the door.
"And if he doesn't, I'm gonna kill him." Kyle added before walking out of the door down the hallway.
Within a half hour we arrived at the hospital, and they immediately placed Cole in a room. The hospital was great, letting him wear his own pajamas and letting him bring whatever he wanted with him to make him comfortable. I tucked him into the large hospital bed, pulling out the small DVD player I brought from the house with some DVD's. I glanced at my son who was cautiously looking around the room, looking at the different machines and plugs.
"You wanna watch a movie?" I asked, running my hand through Cole's hair, as he nodded his head in agreement.
"Whatcha ya wanna watch?" I smiled looking to my son, trying my best to be upbeat and keep him calm.
"Wrestling!" Cole answered happily. My stomach twisted, I wanted to avoid anything to do with Cody.
"How about Batman?" I counter offered my 5 year old, as he shook his head.
"Wrestling." Cole said again, with a more stern voice. I smiled pulling out a DVD that Cody had once brought over and let Cole keep, slipping it into the DVD player. I sat on the edge of the bed, Kyle made his way over to sit on the other side while Cole sat in the middle and we watched as the DVD began.
"Steph, do you wanna watch?" I asked, glancing over to my sister in law who was fast asleep on the chair in the room, her hands still hanging onto my bags that she carried up from the car. I chuckled to myself, before turning back to the DVD.
Cody's match came on screen and I closed my eyes waiting for the questions, and as if on cue, I heard Cole's voice speak.
"Mommy, where's Cody?" Cole asked, looking up to me. His little fingers wrapped around the Cyclops action figure Cody had given him that first night. I turned to my son, running my hands through his hair, as I tried to think of what to tell him.
"He's running late buddy." Kyle spoke up quickly, as I glanced over to my brother with wide eyes, as Cole nodded his head and turned his attention back to the DVD. I stood from the bed, motioning to Kyle as he walked with me outside of the room, when I pulled him to the side of the hallway.
"How could you tell him that?" I asked my brother angrily.
"Oh, you want to tell him the truth? That you don't know where Cody is." Kyle responded, looking me dead in the eye, as I turned my back to the wall of the hallway, letting my back hit the wall.
"Look, at least he thinks that his favorite person is on the way to come see him. After the surgery, after everything, then you can tell him. Don't crush him before he goes in there, give him that at least." Kyle responded before walking by me back into the room. I pulled my phone out of my pocket, glancing at it one more time. No messages, before I tried Cody's phone one more time and still nothing but voicemail. I closed my eyes only for a moment, swallowing back the tears before I walked back into the room, a smile on my face.