CH.30-3 Whispering Spirits Prt.3

(Previously)-

Holy Shit! Was the only thought in my head as I woke up in my wolf form Bella snuggled up against my belly, my paws over her body, as my arms had been when we fell asleep.

How the hell did this happen? I kept thinking. I was afraid to move in case Bella moved and I hurt her.

I was afraid she would wake up and freak out; I mean it's not every day you go to sleep next to your fiancé and wake up next to a huge ass hairy beast.

No, this is a dream. Old Quil said the peyote induces dream like states; that is all this is I told myself.

Wake up, wake up, WAKE UP! I yelled inside my head.

I must have whined because Bella started stirring, I held my breath (not easy to do when in wolf form) as I watched her turn over and look up at me."Morning wolf Seth." She said then sat straight up.

"UH Seth… I love your wolf you know that but uh why did you phase? Is something out there?" She asked looking around.

All I could do was shake my head no, and hope she understood.

"No, nothings out there." She asked. I nodded.

"Okay, uh why are you phased?" She asked me. I just shrugged my shoulders. Hell I don't know why, I don't even know how. Are they still considered shoulders while I'm phased I wondered.

"You don't know." She said looking at me. Again, all I could do was shake my head.

"I guess I'll make breakfast." She said getting up. I watched as Bella got up, and pulled on her boots and coat and started making her way out of the tipi, I guess I should be glad this is a family size tipi since I am the size of a goddamn horse. I thought as I squeezed myself through the opening Bella held open for me. This is so fucked up.

"I guess it's a good thing we got everything set up yesterday." Bella said grabbing some firewood.

"I don't know if I trust myself with an Axe."

Oh god, Bella with an axe made me cringe, and whine.

"Relax I'm not going to be yielding the axe anytime soon." She told me laughing.

I wonder if she realizes she is carrying on a conversation with my wolf like it is completely normal.

Sure, she is good with weird but this is weird on a whole other level.

I watched as Bella struck the match lighting the cook fire and sat looking on as she heated a breakfast casserole on the fire. It smelled so freaking good, I might have been drooling.

"I'm going to get dressed while we wait for breakfast to finish." Bella told me as she made her way back inside the tipi. I stuck my head in the opening, and watched as my fiancé peeled layer after layer off only to redress in multiple layers.

This is not how I envisioned our Spirit Journey. We were supposed to eat, get naked, play in the snow, get naked, eat, get naked, make a snow house to get naked in. FUCK!

"You hungry?" She asked standing by the fire. I just looked at her.

"Yea, yea I know. You're always hungry." She laughed as she made our plates.

"Come on we'll eat inside or our food will get cold before we have a chance to eat it." Bella said holding the flap of the tipi open for me. I did not want to eat in front of her, it's one thing to see me in wolf form another to watch me eat like I'm a fucking golden retriever. That is not something I ever wanted her to see. It's not like there isn't enough evidence what with the shedding that I am not normal now I have to eat off a plate on the floor. I just looked at her, I couldn't talk to her, I couldn't even tell her what I was thinking.

"Look at me." Bella said.

"I love you, all of you. You do not have to be embarrassed in front of me. I love you Seth, I'm proud of who you are, all of you." She told me. She always knew what I needed to hear.

I licked the side of her face then ate my food before she could blink.

"Seth, bad wolf." She said laughing.

"Oh Bella, you freak I love you. I thought and wished she could hear me.

"I know you want more." She said picking up our dishes and walking outside.

We finished eating breakfast as bizarre as it was. She washed the dishes and I hated knowing that as long as I was stuck in wolf form I couldn't help her.

"Can you not phase back?" She asked after a few minutes.

I shook my head no, I could feel that I couldn't there was no sense in trying.

Bella stood up and started walking towards the woods. What the hell is she doing?

I ran up to get in front of her to stop her.

"Seth I have to pee."

I got out of her way and started walking beside her. "Oh no, you are not going with me while I pee. Go check the area, make sure nothing is there but I am peeing all by myself." She told me.

I don't know why I felt nervous, if something were out there I'm perfectly capable of taking care of it and would have phased wolf to do it, but something about not being able to talk to her had me more on edge than normal.

I made a run around the perimeter and then made my way back to Bella. "All clear?" She asked rolling her eyes. I just yipped at her.

How fucked up is my world when I am yipping at my fiancé in order to communicate?

Bella came walking out of the trees, bottle of hand sanitizer gripped in her bare hands. She was going to get frostbite. I watched her as she walked through the snow she looked graceful. I can remember when she couldn't walk across the floor without tripping, when I marked her she took some of my balance in the exchange. Her clumsiness was always adorable but the fuck me stiletto boots she could wear now were a good trade.

"I want to take a picture of you in wolf form, we don't have any." Bella said as she walked to the tipi.

She came out holding her camera, she snapped a few pictures and then walked up to me leaning in beside me so her head was next to my massive one and held the camera out and snapped one of us together. Yea not the engagement photo I had in mind.

"Ooh I like this one." She said holding the camera so we could look at the pictures she took on the tiny view screen. "I think I want to take a nap." Bella told me. "Come on you can lay with me." She said walking back towards the tipi.

I lay down as Bella stoked the fire, and pulled her coat and boots off. She did not even give a second thought to snuggling up next to my wolf. Dear Spirits I love my little weirdo.

She ran her hands through my fur tangling it between her fingers and I couldn't help the purr that came from my chest. I am a huge ass glorified dog, purring. Oh the irony, I thought.

I watched her for a long time after her eyes closed and her breathing evened out.

I love her so much sometimes I didn't know what to do with it all, and being with her felt unlike anything I would ever be able to explain, it was as if the moments our bodies were connected, we were a part of each other. It was that thought I had going through my mind as I fell asleep.

Four damn days as a wolf, watching Bella do everything, if this was my ancestor's idea of a Spirit Journey I wanted a refund. I wanted to be enjoying our pack free week with no distractions, I wanted to be making love to Bella in the tipi, I did not want to be prancing my furry ass around and howling at the moon.

Bella was taking everything in stride, talking to me, running her hands through my fur (ok so I did enjoy that) she snuggled into my wolf belly every night, I might have gone crazy not being able to phase back if it weren't for her.

"Seth I want to try something, can we?" She asked knowing I couldn't say no because I couldn't say anything. I cocked my head to the side; we were definitely going to challenge the rest of the pack to a game of charades when we made it home.

"You have to get down on your belly." She told me. I lowered my body down into the snow.

"I'm going to get on your back, I want a wolf ride." She said. I turned my head to look at her, Bella climbed on my back her thighs clamping down on both sides of my wolf body as she gripped onto my fur.

"Ok, I'm ready start slow then we can run." She told me.

Sam was going to have a coronary when he saw this in the pack mind; he already thinks we're freaky.

The thought made me laugh.

I started with a slow pace, then increased it until we were running. "OH MY GOD THIS IS AWESOME!"

Bella squealed. It was fun I wonder why we never thought to do it before? I ran around the open field then took off into the woods, I wanted her to see what it's like when I run patrol, dodging trees and ducking branches. When we made it back by the tipi, I lowered myself to the ground so Bella could climb off. "Seth we have to do that again." She said excitedly then kissed my snout.

Taha Aki, thank you for my Bella. I sent a little thanks to the Spirits.

"Snow Angel." She said falling down into the snow and waving her hands over the white fluff. I wished I could be lying next to her making a matching snow angel, but I would take getting to see her smile, hear the happiness in her voice. She was beautiful. I stepped over her trapping her body under my massive frame and licked the side of her face then nuzzled my snout into the side of her neck, her scent filling me with peace.

"I wonder." She said as her hands lifted and she started rubbing the underside of my belly. Oh, hell that felt good. "Feel good?" She laughed seeing my wolf eyes roll in the back of my head.

Yep, now I know why dogs nudge you to keep petting them..

"I think I need to try out the bathtub." Bella laughed referring to her makeshift 'tub'. We walked together her hand in my fur to the tipi. "I'm going to turn the Coleman's on in the pup tent to warm it up and start boiling some water." She told me. This is the part I hated, watching her do everything on her own, and not being able to help her.

Four trips back and forth from the cook-fire to the inflatable pool err tub and, three pots of snow later she had enough heated water to take a bath. Bella grabbed a couple of towels, a pair of long johns, and her coat and went into the pup tent that was way too small for me to fit inside of. "Give me five minutes and then you can poke your head in." She told me.

I lay on the ground outside my eyes closed thinking of how different I thought things would go, when we first arrived. "Ok Seth." Bella called and with that, I poked my head through the unzipped entrance.

This must be what wearing a shock collar feels like, painful.

"Ss…not so bad." She laughed. I could see her flawless creamy skin, her pink nipples that were hard from the chilly air and I whined without thinking. "I know." She said looking at me.

Bella pulled out her travel size shampoos (she would have been a great girl scout if she had been coordinated.) I yipped once; it was way too cold for her to have wet hair.

"I'll wrap a towel around my hair and leave it on all night, I promise." She told me knowing exactly what I was thinking. Bella slinked down in the water wetting her hair, washing it as the soapy bubbles slid down her body.

When Bella had rinsed her hair she pulled a towel and wrapped it then soaped her entire body is that sexy cake smelling body wash, I am almost positive my tongue was hanging out of my mouth.

It's a good thing we cannot show our excitement in wolf form that would be one hell of a red rocket.

Oh dear spirits I have spent too much time in Quil's mind.

Bella rose out of the water dripping and looking so fucking hot I wanted to cry, actually, I think I was.

I watched as she dried her body, and dressed. She threw on her boots and coat and walking out of the tent, she stepped down on the side of the inflatable pool to allow the water to empty.

We trekked back to the tipi, once inside Bella pulled the towel from her head, and brushed her hair.

She smelled so good I greedily inhaled the air around her. When she was tangle free, she wrapped her hair in a new dry towel and pulled her boots off. I laid down, Bella curling up next to me like we had done since our first night here; the week had passed by quickly even if it was freaky as hell.

"We're supposed to leave tomorrow." She said and I knew she was wondering if I would be able to phase, so was I.

"As strange as it's been Seth I'm glad I got to spend this time with your wolf. I love you, all of you."

Bella tangled her hands in my fur as I fitted my head above hers as we drifted to sleep.

I woke up still wolf and had no idea how we were supposed to get home, I am fairly certain people would notice a wolf the size of a horse with its tongue flapping in the breeze as I hung my head out the truck window.

"Morning babe." Bella called as she sat up looking at me and leaning in to kiss my snout.

If I live a hundred years, it will never be long enough to deserve her.

We ate breakfast like we had the last four mornings, "I was thinking we could go on a picture seeking expedition." Bella said like she was part of Louis and Clark's team.

Bella dressed and grabbed her camera, a bag of jerky a couple fruit bars and a few bottles of water threw everything into a backpack. "Ready?" She asked. I lowered myself down and she climbed up. We were deep into the woods when we found some caverns. I laid down letting Bella climb off I knew she would want photos of this place. "Wow! This place is beautiful." Bella said stepping around me as she started taking pictures.

We spent a few hours exploring the woods, Bella taking photos and just spending time with each other.

We made it back to the tipi, Bella stoking the fire, to keep it warm.

"Lunch?" Bella asked. I watched, always watching in this form as Bella pulled a pan from our cooler and set it on the grates of the fire. "How does lasagna sound?" Bella asked. My stomach growled loud, "I guess that's a yes." She laughed.

We played around in the snow while lunch heated, the smells making me drool. I was about to eat the damn tray of lasagna frozen when Bella declared it ready. Bella ate a small portion and I inhaled everything else. My girl could cook.

I sprawled out in front of the tipi probably looking like a malamute on steroids as Bella washed the dishes on the other side of the tipi, where she set up her 'kitchen.'

All of a sudden, my fur stood on end, I looked around not seeing anything or anyone, I inhaled deeply, and that's when it hit me. LEECH!

There was no way to tell her anything, give any warnings hell I could not even drag her in the tipi without making noise. I knew the thing couldn't see me from where the scent was approaching from, I was hidden, but Bella was out in the open, my heart felt like it was going to beat out of my chest.

I had just risen when I heard it speak. "You smell different." It said. I saw Bella look up and heard as her heart started racing but her face showed no emotion. I started moving on the opposite side of the tipi as not to give myself away.

"I've been told I smell floral to your kind." Bella told it. "My kind, what do you think my kind is?" It asked and I could hear the amusement in its voice.

"Vampire, immortal, night walker, leech, bloodsucker. Should I go on?" Bella asked.

My girl was fucking brave as shit and I would yell at her just as soon as I could fucking talk without barking.

"How do you know of my kind?"

"Oh you aren't the first pasty sparkly motherfucker I've met." She said. "However you might be the dumbest." She told it.

Oh fuck Baby; please be quiet until I can get to a good ambush spot. I mentally begged.

"You're funny. Tell me little girl why is it you think I'm a dumb sparkly motherfucker?" It asked laughing.

Clearly, this tick liked to play with its food, I thought. Why else would it go through with a conversation?

"Take a deep breath and tell me what you smell?" Bella told it.

Ah baby you are a genius, I am still going to yell at you but I know what you are doing.

"Interesting, I smell you, and you're right you are floral but it's almost completely masked by wet dog." "Why is that?" It asked.

I saw her glance in my direction to see if I was ready. I was.

"My mate." Bella simply said.

"Foolish girl, humans don't have 'mates.' "It said.

"Are you sure about that?" Bella asked almost tauntingly.

"I'm rather bored, I think I'll snack and run." It said grinning taking a step towards Bella.

"Remember when I said you were the dumbest vamp I'd ever met?" Bella asked.

"I do." It said, as it took another step closer.

"You're about to find out why." Bella said. "Meet my mate." She said as I pounced.

I had my jaws around its side before it knew what was happening.

I wanted to see Bella but I had to focus.

The fucking thing got its nails in my leg but I was able to flip around and latch onto its shoulder and pull a huge chunk off. It paused just long enough for me to sink my teeth into its back tearing another chunk of its marble flesh. Piece by piece I tore through it until it was down on the ground nearly blending in with the snow.

I finished tearing the bloodsucker to pieces trying to figure out how the hell this week had gone so crazy. I thought I was going to spend an entire week with Bella alone, in the wilderness and naked. Nope I spent the week unable to phase human, unable to kiss her, touch her and most definitely unable to make love to her over and, over again like I planned.

How the hell was I going to burn the fucker, I had paws. I turned to look at Bella afraid to see the look of fear on her face. Before I could turn around I smelled the smoke, I whipped my head in the direction to see Bella tossing chunks of white marble into a fire. I have the most badass imprint ever.

I am so going to yell at her, right after I fuck her. Imprint burning my mortal enemy, HOT!

I quickly gathered the remaining pieces carrying them to the fire, watching the purple smoke fill the air.

How long before our honeymoon? Hell I need to check to see if she is still going to want to marry me. It's one thing to snuggle up to me when I'm fluffy and wagging my tail another after you've watched me rip a marble corpse apart with my teeth.

Do not be afraid of me, I chanted as I walked up to her.

"Seth baby are you okay?" Bella asked running her hands through my fur, searching for any injuries.

I couldn't help the wince that escaped when she ran her hand over my right flank; I knew I'd been scratched. It was already healed but it was a little sensitive.

I finally got the nerve to look into her eyes. Please baby, do not be afraid of me, I kept chanting.

She must have seen my own fear as I looked at her, because she reached her hands around my neck hugging me as her fingers dug into my fur. Pulling back, she looked at me.

"Seth Clearwater I could never be afraid of you. You are my protector, my best friend, my lover and nothing will ever change that. I love you, all of you." She said sounding fiercer than I had ever heard her before.

She really was not afraid of me, not any part of me not even the part of myself I sometimes feared.

You are my protector too; do not ever think you're not. I thought, and wished I could tell her.

As soon as the last thought left my mind, I phased finding myself all kinds of naked in the snow.

Bella launched herself at me, her mouth claiming mine before I had to time to sit up.

"Bbbabe, a week without a shower I'm filthy and I have to smell." I told her the words coming out of my mouth like poison but I knew it had to be true. "I don't care; a week Seth, without you holding me. A week without feeling you, a week without you and me, make me dirty." She said breathless.

Snap! Crackle! Pop! Something primal and intently animal clicked inside my head and I had Bella in my arms faster than I could blink ripping at her clothes as I ran us to the tent. Fuck my entire body lit on fire the only thoughts going through my mind was to taste, claim, and mark as mine. "MINE!"

Her mouth was on mine tasting, and licking, pulling the lobe of my ear into her mouth as she rubbed herself against me and that fucking tipi felt like a hundred miles away.

Finally, I stepped inside laying Bella down on the nest of blankets and just looked at her naked before me. A week without talking to her, without touching her, without feeling her, without tasting her.

My mind was in too many places at once, I wanted her legs around my neck as I buried my face in her pussy, I wanted her legs around my waist, I wanted her on herhands and knees , I wanted her on top of me, and I wanted it all; right the fuck now.

"Look at me." Bella said grabbing my face and making me focus on her.

"You can have me every way you want, but right now you need to just fucking have me. I need you!"

She said and, fuck me those were the hottest words ever uttered.

There was no need to check and see if she was ready for me, I could smell her readiness. I grabbed her thighs spreading her like a goddamn Thanksgiving Feast and entered her fast and hard nearly biting through my tongue feeling her surround me.

Bella's back arched off the ground; the guttural moan that slipped from her lips had me roaring.

"Fuck!" I yelled as her scalding wet heat encased me. "Fuck you feel good." I yelled as I thrusts into her hard, bouncing her tits and watching as her eyes glassed over and her mouth made the sexiest O.

Little whimpers gave way to loud moans that turned into heated screams as I pushed harder and deeper inside her.

I could not get deep enough every thrust was more powerful than the last trying to submerge myself in all that was Bella. We had had lots of sex, hell it's a running joke with everyone. Wild sex, rough sex, sensual and slow but this, this was animalistic and raw.

Bella found my mouth with hers; our kiss was just as raw as our sex. Bella bit my bottom lip so hard I thought she was going to bite through it but there was no pain only intense euphoria feeling her suck and bite me as her hands dug into my shoulders. "Fuck Seth!" She moaned taking her mouth from mine. "Sit up." She urged. I pulled myself up Bella with me, never allowing our bodies to disconnect. Sitting with my knees bent Bella tightened her legs that were wrapped around my waist as she moved herself up and down, back and forth taking me in so deep it was all I could do to keep from collapsing. She found my mouth again, sucking on my still bleeding lip her fingers digging into my back.

"Take it, I know you want it." She moaned, and she was right. I moved my mouth to her throat and sank my teeth deep into her flesh, deeper than ever before and my wolf howled. My hands wrapped around her hips slamming her into my body, I could hear the sound of her flesh meeting mine in thrusts so deep, so hard it was savage.

Her taste coated my mouth and my wolf purred with satisfaction. "Seth." Bella moaned her mouth licking my shoulder before I felt her bite down on me. Bella bit me often, but this bite was different I could feel it down to my very soul and I knew what was happening, the Spirits were allowing her to mark me.

Flashes of pictures, sounds, and text flashed through my mind as Bella's teeth embedded in my skin. I felt her clench around me, pulsing and gripping as her white hot cum coated me, my release so fucking strong my body shook, I could feel the stream rush from my body into hers and I swear I could feel ourselves mix together. I grabbed her ass cupping both cheeks in my hands and held her as close as physically possible as I emptied myself into her. I could feel myself twitch as the vice like grip she had on my dick milked every drop of my release.

Our orgasms were so strong we were left gasping and clinging to one another, our bodies still shaking with the aftershocks. Bella released her teeth from my shoulder licking and kissing her mark and I couldn't wait to see it.

"I marked you." She finally said after catching her breath. Her voice sounded awed.

"I know I could feel it in the depths of my soul." I told her.

I slipped out of Bella, slowly allowing myself to ease out of her inch by inch. When our bodies were separated it felt wrong, incomplete somehow. I guided us to our nest of blankets and laid down pulling Bella into my side snuggling her close to me. I had missed the feel of her body pressed to mine.

Bella and I laid side by side her back pressed to my chest as I ghosted my fingertips up and down her body shoulder to hip and back again. This was something I had missed most during the week, our quiet time when we would just touch each other, to feel her body against mine as my body heated hers; it was one of my favorite things.

Bella's hand on my arm stilled my movements; she lifted my arm bringing it to her mouth leaving little kisses on my knuckles. "Did… did you see anything?" She asked softly almost sounding nervous.

"Yes."

"Could you feel it?" She asked almost in a whisper.

"Yes."

"I feel different." She told me, still leaving small kisses on my knuckles.

"So do I, I don't understand but I feel like something shifted." I told her honestly.

"Me too." She said. I raised up on my elbow my other arm still resting in her hands, and kissed her shoulder. "I love you." I told her kissing up her shoulder to her neck; the spot right under her ear that makes her make the most delicious sounds. Bella dropped my arm as her head angled allowing me better access. I slipped my knee between her thighs, as she shifted her body making it easier for me to slide into her.

No words were needed; we were so in tune with each other that it was instinct. We'd never made love in this position before and the way our bodies were joined made it feel incredibly intimate. Her entire body pressed into mine, her leg wrapped around my calf as I slowly shifted so I could move inside her. I let my hand trail her body, her soft skin feeling like the rarest silk under my touch.

This was the exact opposite of earlier, this was soft, sweet, and delicious, the kind of deliciousness you savor. Our bodies moved together like water flows over rocks, with ease and grace. I let my arm trail her side, my hand cupping her hip, stilling her body against mine as I buried myself deeply inside her. We were pressed so tightly together there was no movement just the feel of being inside her.

My tongue ran over the dip in her shoulder before my teeth bit into her, my release instant as more images, sounds, and text filled my head.

My mind was being ambushed as my body trembled with the power of my release and the sheer bliss of feeling hers against me once again. There really was no greater feeling than sharing this level of intimacy with the one person you loved with your entire being.

After the images stilled and our bodies relaxed I pulled myself from her but didn't move how we lay. "Yes." She answered the unspoken question. "So tired." She said pulling my arm across her body and hugging it to her as she laid her head down and her entire body relaxed against mine.