Thank you, Sherry and Paige, for being so amazing. I couldn't do this without you guys!

"You know you got to help me out

And when there's nowhere else to run

Is there room for one more son?

These changes ain't changing me

The cold-hearted boy I used to be"

-The Killers-

EPOV:

He was young and in love...that's what I keep telling myself. The decisions he made years ago could be very different from the decisions he might make today. He found a girl and wanted to settle down, but that idea was ripped away from him. I contemplate what I would've done in his situation. If it had been Bella that I left behind to chase a dream, and I came back to find she had moved on with her life without me, I would have been heartbroken. He had made a choice as well, he chose to marry my mom. Why make that decision if you're in love with someone else? Esme seems as though she is the one who got away, and my dad just couldn't let go of her. Even after all of this time.

My heart aches for my mother. When he betrayed her, he betrayed his children as well. He assured me that it happened before I was born, but he still had Seth and I don't understand how he could do that to him. Why take the chance of ruining your family? I could never imagine being unfaithful to Bella. Maybe my dad never loved my mom, the way I love my girl. He married mom, but his heart remained with his high school girlfriend.

After his revelation, dinner had been uncomfortable and the conversation had been minimal. After hearing his confession, I didn't want to know much else. Despite it all, I still love him, I'll always love him, but I know that I'll be fucking angry for a long time. He seemed so melancholy after he told me, and I know that it's because I no longer look at him in the same favorable light. It fucking sucks, but how can I after all of this. The way he talked about her, the way he described the love he once had for her...it was as if he thought it made everything okay. I didn't need him to fucking patronize me like that.

I was just happy to return home to Bella and my son. I selfishly woke him up from his sleep to hold him in my arms. I just needed to feel his little heartbeat. Bella let me recover from the evening in silence and comforted me by just being there. I had been fuming when I returned home, and I hadn't been able to settle down until I held my son.

"How'd it go?" She finally asks.

I shrug my shoulders and watch Charlie, as he falls back to sleep in my arms. "Like I expected it to."

She frowns and slides across the couch to rest her head on my shoulder. "That bad?"

I sit silent for a moment, playing with my son's hair. "He had an affair." I pause. "I fucking knew it," I say with a short laugh.

"How long has the affair been going on?"

I roll my eyes, remembering how he made it seem that because it only happened a few times, decades ago, that meant it didn't matter. "He fucked around on my mom a few times before I was born. He's pretty much been in love with this woman the whole time."

Bella is calm by my side, saying nothing. She just holds my hand and allows me to vent my frustrations.

"I just feel so fucking weird around him now. I know that she has apparently been out of his life up until recently, but it's still terrible. You grow up thinking your parents love each other...at least I did, and now I feel like it was all a fucking lie. I don't even think he loved my mom, I mean, not really. You should have seen the way he talked about this Esme chick. It was like she was the center of his universe or some shit like that. He's never talked about my mom that way. I wonder if my mom knew about this woman, maybe that explains her terrible mood all of the time. God, I'm not even one to champion her cause, but now I feel so bad for her, you know?"

Bella gives me a sympathetic smile before bringing her lips to meet mine. Her kiss is small and sweet and makes me forget about what is going on in my life, even if only for a moment. I deepen the kiss, not wanting to talk about my parent's fucked-up problems any longer.

She pulls back to breathe and takes a look at Charlie, who is now fast asleep, before meeting my gaze. "Are you sure you want to tonight?"

I nod, rising to go to Charlie's room to put him in his crib. "I just need to feel you. I have to forget about all this shit for a little while."

I return to Bella, pulling her into my arms and planting my lips on hers. Her soft body feels so incredible against mine and I want to lose myself inside of her. She opens her lips to allow my tongue inside and I enjoy the taste of her until I can barely breathe. I pull back to pick her up and carry her to my bed. As soon as she is sprawled out underneath me, all I want to do is fucking devour her. I pull her top off and I am happy to find that she is naked underneath. My entire body relaxes as soon as my lips latch around one of her hard nipples. As I suckle one of her tits, my hand reaches up to play with the other one. I'm so obsessed with her tits, so much so, I would be happy to die buried between them. She moans and thrashes on the bed as I play with her and I release her nipple just in time to hush her, I don't want a crying baby to cockblock me tonight.

I pull her little running shorts down her legs, as well as her sexy, white pair of panties that makes me hard every time she wears them. I trail my hand up her leg, until I reach her wet, little core. I rub her clit with my thumb, as I begin to finger-fuck her. I always want to make sure my girl comes for me before I fuck her, because I know some chicks can't get off with penetration alone. As amazing as I think I am in bed, I'm not completely oblivious to this truth. My mouth finds her tit again and I suck on her nipple just the way I know she likes it. I smile as soon as I feel her pussy pulsing around my fingers and my cock is painfully hard against my zipper, waiting to be released. I was in such a hurry to give her pleasure, I'm still fully clothed. It seems that Bella isn't having that shit. She grabs at my shirt and pulls it over my head before reaching for my jeans.

"You're going to unman me, baby," I teased, chuckling at her enthusiasm.

She bites her lip and gives me a coy little smile, as she watches me unzip my jeans and pull my cock out. I slide off the bed and step out of my shoes and jeans, enjoying the view as she opens her legs for me. I kneel between her legs and reach inside the drawer of my bedside table for a condom. I'm quick to rip the foil packet and pump my cock a few times before sliding the condom into place. Bella is staring at me, her eyes bright with excitement as I lower myself onto her curvy body. I bring my lips down to hers, and I'm inside of her in one harsh thrust. I can't make love, not tonight. I need to lose myself in her body and come so fucking hard that I can't feel anything else. Bella understands, and even encourages it, as she grabs my ass, spurring me to thrust harder and deeper.

I fuck her into the mattress and grin as she spanks my ass. God, my girl turns me on unlike anyone else. I know I won't be able to last much longer, so I make sure my girl is enjoying each and every thrust. I reach down to give her clit some attention, but she beats me to it, and I watch in awe as she plays with herself.

"I love you, Bella," I groan. "I love you so fucking much."

"I love you too," she gasps, reaching her orgasm.

I come so hard, I see fucking stars, causing my vision to blur as if I were intoxicated. I feel intoxicated, being incredibly high off sex with my girl. I pull out and lay beside her. I yank off the condom, knot it, and throw it in the trashcan beside the bed before pulling her silk body against mine. I love holding her in my arms after sex, I feel as if we're one.

Bella laughs, a beautiful sound, but stops as soon as I notice. "What is it?"

Bella shakes her head, still smiling. "It's nothing."

"Tell me," I urge.

Bella gives me a shy smile and looks up into my eyes. "Did you know that you told me you loved me when we first had sex. You were coming at the time, so I never knew if you meant it. I don't even think you realized you said it."

I snort, unable to believe that I did that. I thought I had just been yelling it inside my head, not yelling it out loud. God, I feel like such an ass.

"So you knew I loved you before my confession?"

Bella nods, her lips twitching as she suppresses a smile.

"When did you know you loved me?" She asks.

"Well, part of me wants to say when I first saw you." She blushes. "Realistically, I think I truly fell in love with you when we became good friends. You didn't treat me like anyone else. You didn't judge me for my past mistakes, instead you saw the man I was trying to become. You believed in me when I couldn't even believe in myself, and that meant the world to me. I never thought you would love me in return, but I always believed that I loved you enough for the both of us."

Bella gives me a teary smile and I pull her into my arms. As I hold her, it truly feels as though I was holding my other half…. I love each and every part of her.

I wipe away a tear as it rolls down her cheek. "When did you know you loved me?" I ask.

A beautiful smile lights up her face and she says, "When I saw the way you loved Charlie. You gave up everything for that little boy, and not many would have done the same. I know that you are down on yourself and constantly don't think you're good enough, but you are, Edward. You're more than good enough. I wish you could see you, the same way I see you. Because then you would know just why I love you so much."

I'm all choked up. So, I do what I usually do when I get emotional like this, I tease her. "So, it wasn't for my body?"

She throws her head back and giggles. "Well, I guess it was for the tattoos," she winks.

She loves me for the tattoos. I smile. Maybe I could add to my ink and get a tattoo for her and a tattoo for Charlie. I contemplate the thought, as we drift off to sleep.

A/N: I love having song lyrics in these chapters. I love it so much in fact…I am now giving all the chapters in this story a song. I have a lot of my chapters updated with song lyrics…so If you're interested please check it out (It took me forever).

Song- "All These Things That I've Done" by The Killers