Louis's POV I just didn't want to go... It was Emily's funeral and I really didn't want to say goodbye... I haven't cried since we went to Africa, but I have since Emily died... I just went with the proceedings and kissed her lips one final time... I just went home depressed and sobbing...
Ana's POV:
We all took Emily's death hard. Especially Louis, he hasn't come out of his and I are taking care of him because no one else can get in. Only Harry, Louis, and I have a key to his place. Anna, and Amelia had come to London from America to go to the funeral. Anna supported me when I wouldn't even let Harry see me. I threw a tea cup at him. I just have random mental breakdowns now, but Harry helped me. Kali was with me all the time to make sure I didn't do anything rash like try to commit suicide again. Dan made a video and told his viewers and mine that there might not be any videos on my channel for a really REALLY long time. Maisie has also come over, we had gotten really close. She reminded me so much of Emily because of her personality. Right now, Niall's driving to Nando's with me to eat. I have kind of gotten over it this last week. "Hello, Earth to Ana?" Niall says "What? Oh, hi Niall, just reflecting on this week." I say and he nods. I'm not alowed anywhere without anyone. Lately I've been having dreams of memories with Emily. The first one was when we met. I was the new girl and we shared a lot of classes: Math, Chinese, English, and Science. The second one when we got into trouble during science for talking. The memories were freely flowing. I burst into tears and Niall pulls out his phone. "Harry. She broke into another crying fit." He says "But I'm hungry!... I get you don't want the paps around her that would send her over edge... Fine, I'm on my way to your place, but order Nando's will you?" Niall asks and then sighs. He starts the car again. The public didn't know about Emily dying, they thought Lemily just broke it off. Management wont allow them to tell the truth, but with no tweets from Emily's twitter fans were getting suspicious. I was still crying by the time we got to my home. When I get inside Harry is the first one to comfort me. "What was it this time?" He asked "T-t-th-th-the memories." I say stumbling on my words. "Baby, I know she's dead, but you will be okay. We will get through this. You want to go see Kali?" He asks seeing my expression which was showing I wanted to punch something. I nod and he pulls out his phone. "Hey, Kal?... Yes, another breakdown... Memories this time... She looks like shes going to punch something... She was on her way to Nando's with Niall... Get over here, please!" A moment later the door opens. "Come here, I know it hurts. Do you want to punch something?" She asks and I nod. She takes my hand and brings me to the backyard that our two houses now share. Back there is a punching bag that has the Murdoctor's face. I go to the puching bag and pick up the gloves off the ground. I start punching him in the face over and over again. Once I was done, I put the gloves down and walked into my home. I feel so much better after everytime I punch that jerk. Collin had to cancel lunch with Matt Smith because I wasn't mentally stable. So, yeah I missed lunch with one of my favorite actors. Its to bad though. When I get inside Harry is holding a teacup. "Baby, I made you tea." He says and I grab it. "Thank you." I say quietly and they look to me. "You have an apointment tomorrow and Kali is taking you because I have an interview. Louis isn't coming." Harry says. Louis wont be there which will make the girls think that hes really heart broken and they will send more hate to Emily, that she will never read because she's dead. Kali knew how to handle me unlike everyone else because she was there when my parents died and I did the same then, but worse. By Doctors Appointment he meant to go see a Therapist for the first time. I have had thoughts of suicide, but haven't had the chance to try. "I want to see Louis." I say and Harry nods and holds my hand as we walked to the car.
When we got to Louis' the door was open and he was outside on the porch speaking to Liam. I was surprised. I went up the steps and greeted him. "Louis, you went outside!" I say and he looks over to me. "Hey Ana, I was just talking to Liam here and he talked me into going to the interview tomorrow." He says cheerfully. I give him a strange look and did a slight head nod towards his house as if saying to go inside. When we were both inside, we went up the stairs and hid in the guest room. "I don't want to go! It hurts so much to just be outside. I might let it slip that she died and I could get fired!" He says and I give him a knowing look. "Lou, do you want to punch the Murdoctors face?" I ask and he nods. "Come with me to my house and you can, well not the real version of him, but a punching bag with his picture on it. I punch over and over again and it makes me feel good." I say and we leave the room to find Harry in the living room. "Haz, Lou is coming over to punch the murdoctor." I say and he gives me a shocked look. "how did you get him to agree to leave the premises?" He mouths and I shrug. We go home with Lou riding in the back. All of the sudden I go into another crying fit and Harry pulls over. "What was it this time?" He asks after sighing. "I don't know, it was sudden" I say and try to stop myself. I look in the back to see Louis shocked. I wave shyly, embarrassed. That was the first time I have had an attack with him around. "What was that?" He asks "I break into crying fits, mental breakdowns. It's been happening ever since Emily died. It happened when my parents died as well. That's why I'm usually with Kali. She knows how to handle me like this. She has experience. I also had mental breakdowns while I was dating this guy named William. He abused me." I say and see Harry tense. Louis has an even more shocked face when I say this "You have been abused?" He asks "Y-y-yeah." I answer not very comfortable with the topic. He seems to understand and stops talking. "You were abused by this William guy?" Harry asks really scaring me. "Harry, lets do this later yeah?" I say hopeful "Ok baby, but we will talk about this and get William arrested." He says and I nod to afraid to argue.
*Later that night*
"Tell me who this William kid is!" Harry demanded and I was scared by his anger. "My e-e-exb-b-boyfriend." I answer stuttering while shaking with fear and from the memories. He sees this and stops instantly "Sorry, just he abused you, and thats not alright with me." He said soothingly I stop shaking and cuddle into him. Kali walks in. "I heard Harry say something about William. You want me to get out that punching bag too?" She asks and I nod. She leaves and comes back some minutes later. I exit Harry following me. I go straight up to the bag and put on my gloves. "Here's for the first time you hit me." I say and punch it. "Here's for the first time you kicked me." I punch it again. "And here's for trying to rape me!" I scream and punch it with all my might and it flies off the rack. Harry looks shocked. "He tried to RAPE you!" Harry screams and runs into the house. I look at Kali, afraid of what Harry might do. "If I go inside will you follow?" I ask and she nods. We walk in and I get more afraid with every step. When I finally get to our bedroom I see Harry pacing the room. "Babe?" I ask and he looks up "Sorry, for my outburst. Just, this William guy needs to be locked up." Harry says "Trust me, I know Haz. I was the one he did all those things to." I tell him and he nods. "I've always been too afraid of if I tell on him he will get me." I say and Harry nods again. "I always kept his picture in my purse incase I had the nerve to go to the police station one day." I say "Let me see this picture!" Harry said and I get it from my purse. "I've seen this guy. He was at the mall one day when you were with me. I noticed he was following us and thought he might be paparazzi." He says "Lets tell on him. I finally have the courage, I've got nothing to lose." I say and Harry looks up.