To all of my wonderful readers who have left me such wonderful messages, thank you, truly. You're why I do this… along with the characters I have grown to love so much. Rated M for a reason – you've been warned.

I'm not Stephenie Meyer, I do not own any of it… this is just my idea of stretching her story a bit further and giving Jacob his time to shine.

Jacob's POV – I Still Feel You

My body shook with sobs as I stared down at Nessie, her broken form and the blood that was seeping from between her legs. I hadn't made it back to her in time - I had failed her.

I nudged her gently with my snout and let out a whine. I exhaled abruptly as her eyes twitched as she let out a scream.

"Please, no more!" she cried, "Please…"

I couldn't take it any more; I had to let her know I was there. I had to show her how sorry I was that I hadn't been strong enough to protect her. I phased quickly and crawled toward her on my hands and knees, keeping my eyes on her face – her beautiful face. I lifted my hand slowly and let it rest gently against her cheek, pouring all of my love into that one single touch.

"My Nessie," I whispered, "I'm here, it's Jacob, baby."

Her eyes twitched again and she leaned slightly into my hand.

"I love you, so much," I said softly.

She opened her mouth and inhaled deeply, her arms loosening from around her body and sobs breaking through loudly. "J-Jacob… I love you," she sobbed. "I'm s-sorry."

"No baby, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry I left you here, I should have stayed."

"Am… I'm dead. I won't ever see you again," she cried harder.

"No baby - I'm here, I'm right here," I answered as I wrapped my arms around her shoulders and pulled her body into my lap.

"H-hurts so much," she cried as she pushed her hands down between her legs.

My teeth clenched as I fought back the tears that threatened to spill. She pulled her shaking hand back up and looked at it…

Blood - so much fucking blood. They had defiled my wife. The woman who meant the world to me – they violated her.

It was then that I smelled it and the hair on the back of my neck stood on end, a growl sounding deep inside my chest as they came around the corner.

"Such a sweet picture, isn't it?" A voice chuckled.

"Truly - such an extraordinary couple, these two," Another voice answered.

"Get the fuck away from her – don't even look at her," I ground out as I slid her behind me in a swift movement and jumped to my feet.

"What are you going to do about it, dog?"

"I'm going to kill you! You sick fuckers - you hurt my wife!" I screamed.

"Such a shame, that. It's too bad Aro wasn't able to sample the fruit of this – luscious and perfect being."

The bile rose in my throat as they looked around me… eying Nessie like she was nothing more than a piece of flesh. She would never again be touched by another man - and I was going to protect her. I'd die for her if I had to. But they wouldn't touch her again…

I blinked my eyes rapidly. They were on fire - I could feel the licks of flames behind my eyelids as I blinked again. My fists clenched by my side and ripples ran through my body. I no longer needed the vision Nahuel had shown me, because I had walked in on so much worse - I had witnessed it in its true form.

My wife was lying there on the floor bruised and broken - blood pooling between her legs.

I opened my eyes again; my vision had turned red – darker and more deadly. I could see flames flickering up inside of my eyes. My body jerked roughly as I let out a scream. So much power - beyond anything I had ever felt before. The burning – it was so hot. It was too hot…

I flexed my muscles as my body tensed again; fire was licking at my skin. It wasn't the heat I was used to; it felt like my whole body was on fire. And my brain - the pain in my head as the fire spread. My mind was screaming, reaching forward… looking for something.

I watched as the two vampires crouched down in front of me, ready to spring.

I reached forward with my mind, letting it go where it wanted to. It reached out to the bigger vampire - the flames I saw in my eyes were touching him, drilling a hole into his head. I could see inside of his mind. I glared into the eyes of the bigger vampire, willing myself inside of his body. I searched his mind, opening it up and driving myself inside. My brain connecting with his –

Click…

I rooted through his brain, feeling it out - reaching forward with my mind and pulling his mind completely into my will. I could see the light leave his eyes as I took control – his thoughts stopped completely as I took over his entire being. What a feeling, to steal the will of one of the sick fuckers who had violated my angel - my sweet, sweet Nessie. And now they would pay…

A grin pulled across my lips, mirrored across from me on the vampires' face. He was mine…

"Get up," I ordered him.

He rose quickly; his gaze was blind – not seeing anything anymore. His eyes were staring blankly into mine. He didn't need to see…

"Turn to your friend."

He did as I told him, turning to the other vampire and looking down at him – a vicious grin pulled across his mouth to match mine.

"Felix, this is no time for games… kill the dog," The vampire sneered.

"Grab his throat and pin him to the wall."

A cracking noise splintered through the room as the vampire's marble body hit against the wall.

"W-what are you doing? Felix?"

"He can't hear you I'm afraid," I grinned widely as I moved toward him. "You're going to die."

"Y-you… what are you doing?"

"What I should have done the first time we met up with you bastards. I'm going to kill you – and I'm going to enjoy every. Single. Second…" I snarled.

I could hear footsteps approaching the house. The help I'd called for had arrived - I didn't want them to witness what was going to happen. The monster I was becoming… I didn't want Nessie to see me like this, either.

"Edward, come and get Nessie… we're in the kitchen. And tell Jasper and Emmett to go find Esme and Rosalie," The Alpha command sounded loudly, I was just taking everyone's will from them.

I could hear Nessie whimper behind me – a strangled cry ripping from her lips. Edward entered the room, taking in the scene before him. He didn't talk; he swiftly walked to the corner of the room and picked up his daughter – whispering calming words into her ear as they ran from the room.

"Now, where were we?" I grinned again.

"Don't you want to know where your other friend's are?" Demitri laughed.

"Don't you worry your little head about that – you won't have it for much longer… so I'd hate for that to be the last thought to run through that sick mind of yours," I growled. "We have an army here – just waiting to have some fun with you two if that's what I want. They'll find the others – I guaran-fucking-tee."

"Tear off his arms… slowly."

Felix reached up and grabbed hold of Demitri's left arm - wrenching it out from his side and twisting it around slowly. A sickening noise filled the room as the appendage was removed from his body.

I grinned widely – the image mirrored on Felix's face as he flung Demitri's body around so his face planted into the wall and he wrenched the other arm from its socket with another sickening 'snap' along with the sound of twisting metal. Demitri's screams echoed through the empty house and my grin widened.

"Turn him back around; I want to see his face."

Another crack rang through the room as Felix whipped Demitri's body around and smashed his body back against the wall.

"Jacob…"

"Yes, Edward…"

I continued to stare into Demitri's eyes as I communicated with Edward.

"We found them - they had them locked in the basement…"

There was something he wasn't telling me. I could feel his hesitation.

"And?" I asked as I grabbed hold of Demitri's left ankle.

"They had them locked in the basement - and they hadn't hunted for a while, I don't know how long. But - They had them locked in there with a human."

My jaw locked as I snapped my teeth together with an audible 'snap'. They really were sick - well; I could play at their game.

"Is…"

I didn't have to finish my thought.

"He's alive, they didn't… they didn't bite him. They're – they're pretty bad, Jacob."

"Take care of them, Edward."

I glared into Demitri's eyes as I ripped his leg around and tore it from his body.

"Jacob…"

"Edward," I growled.

"Don't lose yourself."

I laughed loudly, never taking my eyes from Demitri, who just looked at me as if I'd lost my mind.

The fire within me burned hotter still as I thought about Renesmee - her broken spirit, her bloodied body as she lay on the floor.

"You like to torture and rape girls and starve vampires – let's see how you like being tortured," I hissed between my teeth, I slammed my fist to the wall near Demitri's head; another ripple ran through my body and flames shot forward from my hand. I could smell the smoke as the flames burned up the wallpaper toward the ceiling.

"P-please," he begged as he watched the flames run up the wall.

My eyes found his again - he was begging. Did he listen to Nessie when she had begged them not to hurt her? Did he listen to her when she begged them not to violate her?

"You don't deserve mercy – I told you - you will die," I snarled loudly as I grabbed hold of his shirt roughly, shoving him farther into the wall.

"Back the fuck off," I ordered Felix. His hand released Demitri's throat and he took 2 steps back, waiting - still as a statue.

"She's not… we didn't rape her," he spat out.

"Really? Why was she fucking bleeding then?"

"We cut her, that's all… we just spread her blood out around the house, hoping to take you by surprise. We never touched her that way – I swear."

"You what - You used her as fucking bait?" I growled. "You think that's going to save your life? You fucking tortured my wife."

"Y-yes - But we never touched her intimately. We couldn't impregnate her…"

"I don't give a fuck! You hurt her – you still hurt her. Whether or not you raped her - it doesn't change anything!" I thrust him back into the wall again. "You touched what belongs to me!"

"Please, don't kill me - Aro sent us. Please - We couldn't impregnate her – we were forced to come here," he begged, "We had no choice, please. We couldn't do what we were ordered to do because she's already with child!"

"You could have said no. And what the fuck are you talking about?" I growled loudly as I took in his words.

Already with child…

"No, you have no idea - we had no choice. We are bound," he answered, ignoring my last question.

"You swore your life to them, you had a choice then. You took the job, and you hurt my family. For that - you die," I ground out between my teeth as I thrust my other fist against his chest, the sound of his marble body cracking as my fists connected with ribs. He howled in pain and tried to wriggle free.

I pushed my fist against his ribs harder, grinding my knuckles into his chest as I heard another crack. I pushed the hate and malice from inside of me – letting the fire inside take over and watched as my hand became engulfed in flames. My lips pulled back from my teeth as my eyes burned hotter – my entire body taken over by the flames that were inside of me. I inhaled deeply and let the fire from inside of me burst forward. I held him to the wall as I watched the flames engulf his body - his screams fell on deaf ears.

My lips twitched slightly as I inhaled the sweet aroma of his burning flesh.

I flung his scorched body to the floor and stacked his limbs into the fire. Turning slightly, I found Felix staring straight ahead. His eyes never moved - his body was relaxed and waiting.

"Now, what to do with you," I grinned evilly.

I didn't actually want to exert myself; it was as simple as making him do it himself. Make him start a fire and let him stand in it…

"Jacob, enough," Carlisle said softly as he came up behind me.

"I'll tell you when it's enough! It'll never be enough," I screamed.

"Go to Nessie; let us take care of this. Please… no more." Carlisle begged.

"T-they hurt her - I wasn't fast enough," I whispered as I felt my knees tremble.

"Go to her, take care of her. She's so scared, and she wants you."

"Carlisle, I want him to die – I want to see him die," I seethed.

"Jacob – he will die - I swear it," Emmett hissed.

The wolf inside howled in pain as I recalled once more the vision of Nessie on the floor - her body curled up like a child, the cuts… the blood. So much blood…

"He better die – I will kill you if it isn't done," I bit out as I pulled back my connection and saw Felix's body drop to the floor.

I walked slowly from the room as I watched Felix's body fling against a wall, plaster falling and wood splintering. Snarls and growls emitting from all around me as I heard grinding and cracking, swearing, screaming - and then nothing…

Just the pounding of my heart as I walked slowly up the stairs to where I felt the pull of my wife…

I continued walking, staring blankly at the floor as I placed one foot in front of the other. There was nothing left for me to do, nothing I could say to fix what had been broken. They had changed everything, everything I stood for - they had hurt her, and once again, I hadn't been man enough to take care of the people I loved most.

"J-Jacob…"

I could hear her sobs now as I approached the upstairs bedrooms. A door stood open at the end of the hallway and I could smell her. I could feel her, taste her scent in the air. The ache in my heart burned as I neared that open door…

My teeth clenched tightly as I heard her whimper again. I wanted to go back downstairs and finish off Felix; I shouldn't have left. Carlisle and Emmett did deserve their revenge though, and I couldn't deny them that. And Carlisle had promised me that he would kill that bastard…

"Momma, w-where's my Jacob?" Nessie sobbed.

"He's coming, baby, hush now," Bella whispered softly.

My heart clenched tightly in my chest, the ache flaring up and the burn behind my eyes returned with fury. But this wasn't the same - no, this burn was something I was becoming familiar with – the burn of tears.

The tears fell down my cheeks, leaving hot trails on my skin. I couldn't help it, all I could see when I closed my eyes was her, lying on the floor in a pool of her own blood. The look of fear etched across her beautiful face and her arms wrapped tightly around herself…

It was all too much, the pain, the sound of her voice, the anger - the burning… My body was weak as I slowly neared the door – the fight leaving me as my hate was replaced my fear – the fear that she'd never look at me as her hero again. Fear that she'd never be able to trust me – because I'd been too late…

My knees buckled beneath me as I reached for the door handle… and I was enveloped in darkness.

*sTaWmB*

"Finally," a voice said with a chuckle.

"Granddad, where am I?"

"Back with me where we met before," he said cryptically. "I see you finally embraced your full powers - how does it feel?"

"I feel good – better now that I know what to expect," I said honestly. My powers were a part of me – and I had to embrace who I was as a protector – as a true Alpha.

"Little Alice was right – you've been written about in legends. 'Angelo di fuoco e di morte' is you. You were born to be the perfect protector against vampires – evil vampires that is."

"You knew – she knew…"

"Yes, Jacob – she saw what you would become before you even knew," he nodded. "She can see you now because you have made right what was wrong. You brought the families together and we couldn't be more proud of you."

"I love them," I admitted with a slight chuckle. "But don't tell them I said that."

My grandfather laughed and crossed his heart. "Your secret is safe with me – it's time to part once more, Jacob. Just remember – we're always watching over you."

I nodded and smiled at him. "Thank you, Granddad. And please, tell mom and dad how much I love and miss them."

*StAwMb*

"Jacob, please…"

"I'm here."

I tried to speak, but it felt like my mouth was stuffed with cotton. I couldn't open my eyes; I couldn't speak… the ache in my chest flared up with fury.

"He's trying, keep talking to him. He can hear you," Edward whispered.

"Jacob, I love you. I'm…"

If she apologized, I'd lose my shit. It wasn't her fault. She was innocent, perfect. It was my fault; I didn't get to her in time.

"Nessie… don't," Edward whispered - always in my head. He snickered softly and I felt a cool hand rest on my shoulder.

I mentally rolled my eyes and tried to speak again, I wanted to reassure Nessie that I was… okay.

"Come on, open your eyes now. You've been out of it long enough; it's time to come back to your family now. We're all here, we're all okay," Bella's voice whispered into my ear. "You really need to stop this passing out stuff – you're starting to make me believe that you're a little bit of a girl." She whispered the last word with a soft chuckle.

I tried to open my eyes again, I could feel my fingers twitch slightly and I grasped the corner of something… a bed?

"Daddy… he…"

"He's trying baby, he really is."

The burning behind my eyes was still there, but it was dulled, I could feel my muscles starting to wake up and the ache in my chest was still there, the burning reminder of what a failure I was.

Not man enough… not strong enough to save her. I wasn't enough…

The cold grip on my shoulder tightened - Edward's reaction to my thoughts probably.

"Enough," his cold voice whispered against my ear. "Nessie, I need you to go with your mother."

"But…"

"No, no buts… go on now," he said coolly.

I could feel the pull of the imprint as she exited the room. I tried to reach out, to call out - anything. I needed her here…

"Now you listen to me, Jacob… and you better listen well - I know you can hear me, so you just keep your thoughts to yourself until I finish, understand?"

I didn't even let myself think anything; I just waited. Not that I had much choice in the matter, all I could do was lie here while he said his piece.

"Now, I'm usually a very understanding person; but enough is enough. I can't take your self-loathing bullshit anymore. If I have to listen to any more of your depressed, 'I'm not enough' crap, I'm going to kick your ass. My little girl is upset and hurt and you're lying here like some kind of self-hating masochist!" he growled loudly in his throat and then continued:

"Now, either you start acting like the man we all know you are, or I'm going to smack the ever-loving shit out of you. You lead us to a victory, Jacob - and for that… that alone, you're man enough. Your pack is so proud of you, so proud to call you their Alpha. But all you see is what you want to see. We're all so proud of you… we would all follow you, even if it meant our deaths."

My eyes twitched slightly and I felt my lips part…

"Now, are you going to wake up now - Because I'm through with all of this. No more pussy-passing out Jacob, because I can't take it. No one can take it – especially you. I feel your pain as if it's my own now. Whether you like it or not - we're bound together as a family and I love you like a son. Now, man up and stop being a pussy."

My hands clenched against the bed, and my eyes parted open slowly… I inhaled a deep breath and swallowed thickly.

"Get up… because we all need you. Get. Up!" he hissed.

My tightly clenched fists beat against the bed as I pushed my body up and my eyes adjusted as I opened them wider.

"Are you through with your speech?" I ground out, my voice coming out harsh and gravelly.

"Are you done being a whiney-ass child?"

His eyes bore into mine as he stood his ground and I wanted to tell him to go to Hell…

"Don't worry; you don't have to say it," he answered as he pointed to his head.

"Always in my head - Can't you find another brain to inhabit for a while? You're like a fucking parasite!" I growled.

"Hmm, better… at least you're not angry with yourself for once. I didn't think I could take any more of that. You're like a martyr - maybe you and Bella are more alike than I thought."

My head ached, and my body was stiff… but I flung my legs over the bed anyway and stood up to my full height. This vampire; was getting on my nerves.

"So - I'm no longer a leech?" he laughed.

"You're my father-in-law; I respect my elders – old man," I answered as I looked at him, a smirk pulling at his lips. "Where's Nessie?"

"With Bella - You were getting on my nerves and I was about to throw you out the window. Even while you're unconscious you're beating yourself up over things you have no control over."

"You… you have no idea what it's like. I should have been here; I should have been able to make to her in time."

He stared at me as he balled his hands into fists and I heard his teeth snap together, his eyes boring into mine…

"You think you know everything, don't you? You have no idea how much I do understand," he asked through his teeth. "Maybe you and I aren't so very different."

"What the fuck are you talking about?"

"I had a close call with Bella. I almost didn't make it to her in time," he whispered softly. "When she ran back to Phoenix, she was being chased by a tracker. He thought it would be a fun game… She ran away from Jasper and Alice to confront him, and she was bitten… I almost didn't make it to her in time. So I do understand…"

I stood there… What could I say? He did have a point, he understood.

"But you don't see me beating myself up over it all the time. And – Nessie is fine. Carlisle examined her; she wasn't raped. They cut her legs up to spread her blood around the house, and the cut on her face was - she tried to fight back. She's worried about you, and she's more emotionally scarred than anything."

"I just hate that I wasn't here for her. I wanted to be able to keep her safe," I whispered as I felt the burning behind my eyes flare up.

"I know, and you tried your best. We all tried to get back here to her - to all of them. And we'll fix it, we'll be okay and we'll be stronger as a family. We just need you to help us."

"Why me, Edward?"

"Because - you're our Alpha, too. You're not just the pack's leader anymore, Jacob," he answered and walked toward me slowly. "If there's one thing I've learned in my long life, it's that I give respect where it's due. You're an amazing creature, Jacob Black. I haven't forgotten anything, I have a very good memory - you've been there for us all when we needed you the most. And I will always, always be thankful."

"I want to be better, for everyone… I know it's in me somewhere."

Edward nodded and extended his hand. "It's always been there, you've always been meant to be a great leader. You just have to embrace it, and let us follow. We'll always be there, as your family and your pack."

This was some sick twist in the story of my life. The creatures who were supposed to be my mortal enemy, were now my family - my allies. Nothing made sense anymore, and… it felt right.

I took Edward's hand and shook it.

"Now, no more feeling sorry for yourself - You have a wife to take care of," he smiled.

"I'm a little shocked at your language, Edward… does your wife know you talk like that?"

"You know, I'm pretty sure I've never spoken that way to anyone… but – this was a time and place that it was needed. It got my point across, didn't it?" he laughed lightly.

"Sure, sure," I laughed and folded my arms across my chest.

"You ready to see Nessie?"

At the sound of her name, my heart started to pound faster. I missed her; I needed her… I could feel her, smell her… I just needed to see her. I needed to see that she was okay.

"Calm down… I'll go get her."

I stood there, stiff as a board as I watched him walk from the room. The pull of my body was telling me that she was near. My mate - my wife - My Nessie.

I cast my eyes to the floor as I waited. What was I going to say? Was she angry with me? Would she be all right?

My body stiffened as I sniffed the air. There was nothing in this world I knew better than that smell… I lifted my eyes and let out the breath that had caught in my chest.

"Nessie," I whispered.

"Jacob…"