And again, hello my darlings. I would like to thank tardis-impala-221b-merlin for the lovely review.
So here it is. Destiel time. Whoop whoop. I hope you like it.
Disclaimer: I don't own Supernatural.
When the party arrived in LA they found two limos waiting for them. One of the drivers came forwards and spoke.
"Mr Shirley, Mr Winchester thought you might wish to go straight to the venue to do a run through. Your luggage will be taken to your hotel."
"Thank you yes."
With that Chuck turned to the rest of the party to bid them goodbye even if he felt as nervous as hell at the idea of playing on a stage with a band after so freaking long.
"Oh hell no. you ain't getting rid of me." Gabriel said, giving his bag over to the other driver and climbing into the limo that was for Chuck. He could see the fear in his friend's eyes and he wasn't going to let him face this alone. Nope, never going to happen.
"Okay then. See the rest of you later." Chuck replied with a shake of his head at his friend. He could understand what he was doing. He should have known that once he discovered the truth Gabriel wouldn't leave his side. He would be there to make sure he relaxed enough to do this. Make sure he could do what he needed to do. That was his friend. Always there when he needed him.
"Thanks." Chuck said once he seated himself in the limo next to Gabriel.
"Oh I'm only here to see if there's any hot barmaids I can hit on." Gabriel replied with his usual cheeky grin, but Chuck knew him well enough to know that that was a lie. Gabriel was there to offer him support, and he had never been for thankful for having him as a friend, well almost never.
Castiel watched his brother drive off with Chuck and sighed before turning to follow Sam and Jess into their limo. It seemed it was time to settle into the hotel they had been put up in for this trip. Not that he cared much. All he could think about was seeing Dean once more. What he would say to him, how he would reach, how much he needed him in his life.
They arrived at the hotel and were escorted to their respective suites. Jess in awe at all the lavishness she was being surrounded with, whereas Sam accepted it, even if he wasn't used to it. He knew what his brother was worth after all.
And Castiel, well with him it didn't really register. It wasn't the first time he had been in a suite of a five star hotel after all. As such when he walked through the door to his room he paid little attention to the décor. His only thought was trying to make himself look as good as he possibility could before he met Dean once more. Anything to hopefully get him to agree to his plan. But before he could a voice spoke, freezing him on the spot.
"Hey Cas." Dean said raising unsteadily from the chair he had been sitting in, waiting for Castiel to arrive. Seeming him now, for the first time in over two months Dean felt his throat go dry and all he wanted to do was grab him and kiss him, but he couldn't do that. He had left Cas, he needed to beg the guys forgiveness before he could once more feel the bliss of having those lips on his once more. Before he could even try to get things back to how they were before he made a complete ass of it all.
"Dean." Castiel whispered his eyes transfixed on the man in the room with him. As such his bags and coat dropped to the floor without him really thinking about it. All he could think about, all his mind was full of was the man in front of him, walking towards him. The man he had spent so many nights dreaming of, the man he missed more than he had thought possible.
"Cas." Dean replied his voice catching when he saw the look in the other man's eyes. He hadn't moved on, he hadn't forgotten him. He couldn't have. Not if he looked at him like that. Oh thank you god.
And Castiel hearing the catch and seeing the undiluted love in Dean's eyes didn't think, he just moved, grabbed Dean and pushed him against the wall before slamming his lips down on Dean's. Kissing him with all the pent up love and frustration he had felt for the last two months. And Dean well, he just returned the kiss will equal feeling, doing all he could to let Cas know how much he loved him, how much he missed him, how much a freakin' in stupid fool he had been.
Finally they pulled apart, mainly because they were both out of breath. But before Cas could connect once more and continue what they were doing Dean knew he had to speak. They had to speak. His time was finite and he needed Cas to know his plan.
"Cas, we need to talk." He muttered, putting his hand against he other man's chest to stop him from closing the gap once more.
"Of course." Castiel replied pulling himself away. Standing so there was a distance between them and Dean could move from the wall Castiel had plastered him against. Of course they needed to talk, Castiel had to make his offer. But being the croward he was, he decided to let Dean speak first. And in truth, even if he had wanted to he wasn't sure he could get the words out now he was standing in front of Dean.
"Cas, look umm… can we sit?" Dean managed to get out, moving away from Castiel and running his hand through his hair. Damn this was harder than he thought it would be. I mean hell he was offering his life to this guy. Why was that hard? But he knew, he was giving Cas complete control, and it took a hell of a lot for him to be able to do that.
At that Castiel nodded, he didn't think he could speak. Dean sounded so much like he was about to tell him that nothing was going to come of this visit. That it meant nothing, and Castiel wasn't sure he could hear that. Even if he knew if Dean spoke those words he would debase himself by begging him to change his mind.
Once they were both settled in the plush armchairs the room had to offer Dean tried to speak once more.
"Cas." he said, but found he couldn't go further, not while looking into those beautiful blues eyes. As such he moved so he was learning his elbows on his knees and he could stare at the floor as he spoke from the heart. Something he found so friggn' hard to do.
"Cas. These last couple of months… I've thrown myself into work. Hell I doubt anyone else has ever written an album so damn quickly. But that's not the point… the point is I realised something… I can't live without you. I need you Cas… I love you… as such I came to a decision. Tonight I'm gonna retire from my life so you and I can be together, if you want me that is." At his last words Dean lifted his head to look at Cas with a begging look in his eyes. Oh god he hoped he wanted him.
Castiel on the other hand was sitting there speechless at Dean's words. Was he serious? He was willing to give up all he was, just for him? No he couldn't let Dean do that. He wouldn't let Dean do that.
"No." he stated plainly making Dean wince as if in physical pain at the word. Cas didn't want him. He was a fool. It was too late.
"Okay." Dean replied in a defeated tone, starting to rise, to leave Cas to whatever he was going to do, though Dean had no idea what his plan was now. All he wanted was Cas, and he didn't want him. How would he go on? But before Dean could move much he found a hand on his arm stopping him, making him turn to the man he loved more than life itself.
"No Dean, I will not let you give up your life for me. I am willing to move here, be with you. We do not have to make it public knowledge if you do not wish to do so, but I want to be with Dean, I do not care how that happens." Castiel said staring into the green eyes he loved so much. The green eyes that had haunted his dreams ever since he had first seen them, if not before.
"You'd do that? For me?" Dean asked in disbelief sitting back in his chair as he stared at the man who had told him he wouldn't be his dirty little secret. But he knew that was exactly what Cas was offering to be. No. he wouldn't have that. He wouldn't be with Cas in secret. There was no way in hell he would keep Cas in some dark corner of his life, keep him in his home and in his bed but away from the light. If Cas wasn't gonna let him leave his life, he wasn't gonna let Cas live in the dark, but was there really any other option? Cos he knew he couldn't live without this guy.
"Of course Dean." Castiel confirmed, feeling as if he had just confirmed his fate. It was strange. He felt a mix of feelings at his words. He was happy that he would get to be with Dean, but there was also a small bit of sadness, a small bit of darkness inside him at this decision. But it was the only way he could be with Dean and let Dean continue doing what he was born to do. Because he knew that if he had taken Dean's offer then the man he loved would end up becoming nothing more than a shell of who he really was, Dean couldn't live without his music. It was part of him.
"No." Dean stated in reply. If they were gonna do this. Then he was gonna have to bite the bullet and do it properly.
"What do you mean Dean?" Castiel asked fearful at the idea of losing the man he loved. Maybe he should have taken Dean's offer, was it too late now?
"If you want me to continue working, and I want you by my side, there's only one choice right?" Dean said in a voice which contained both hopefulness and fear. Could he really do this to the man he loved?
"We face the world together. You and me." Castiel replied with a whisper and smile on his face. It was more than he had ever dreamed of, and it was something he wanted more than life itself.
"It won't be easy Cas. In fact it'll be hell. But… I'm game, if you are." Dean said having to take a deep breath before he committed himself to this idea. He was doing the one thing he hadn't wanted to do. Putting Cas out in the world, ready for the hate and evil that would come their way. The things he had tried so hard to protect him from.
"I am Dean. We can do this together, and we will do it well." Castiel replied with a genuine smile on his face as he reached across and took Dean's hand in his as a way of pledging his himself to the man with him. The man he loved.
"Okay." Dean nodded curling his fingers around Cas' hand. It seemed he would have to rewrite his speech for the evening, but the idea of having Cas at his side, while scaring the shit out of him at the idea of him getting hurt, it also caused a surge of feeling through him. A feeling of love, and… rightness. He should have done this all along.
With that Dean reached over and pulled Cas into another kiss, though this one was more sweet and gentle than the other they had shared that day. Because they knew this one was not the last, this one was in fact the first of the rest of their life. They could do this. Together they could do this. Because together they could face anything.