A/N: Hello everyone and HAPPY RUSHER DAY! I sent a bunch of crazy pics to the guys' twitter accounts, lol. I'm pretty excited! And I've had a good day so far helping out in medical missions...tiring, but nice.

So, um, no shout outs, I guess that's becoming sort of like the norm, huh? I'll try to do one next week, I swear, I've just been so busy...

As it is, thank you all for your wonderful reviews!

Enjoy what's left of your Rusher Day!

Cheers,

Franshes.

Ch.35: Knocked Down Again

Carlos woke up with a big smile on his face.

Today was the day of his first fitting!

He hopped off of bed, finding it a little weird that Logan had already gotten up and gotten dressed and showered without waking him up but quickly put it out of his mind.

Logan must be as nervous as he was. Besides, tonight was a big night for the smart boy.

He met up with James and they both left for Rocque Records.

At Rocque Records he was pricked and poked around with stitching needles and measuring tapes and thousands of different colored fabrics of different textures that overwhelmed him and made him feel like crying.

Thankfully, he had James, the expert, next to him, giving him tips and advice on what to try on, what combinations to try out and, ultimately, what to choose.

He was, however, very glad when Gustavo finally allowed them to return to their cozy apartment and he could begin getting ready for Logan's AA meeting.

(At the meeting...)

Carlos frowned as he stared at his boyfriend at his meeting later that day.

He seemed fidgety, uncomfortable and just...really really sad.

He wondered what could've happened between yesterday evening and this morning to cause so radical a change in his boyfriend's behavior.

"Is it just me or does Logan seem...sad?" James asked in Carlos ear.

Carlos sighed.

So he wasn't the only one who had noticed it, then.

"So Logan," the counselor said kindly "Can you share your experience with the group of what it's meant to you to be able to stay two months sober?"

"Well, um," Logan swallowed thickly, as if he were holding back tears "It-it has been...you know...great. I...I've managed to-to get my life back in order which is...very important considering I have a baby on the way...my baby," he croaked, his eyes glistening with unshed tears "Um, excuse me," he said, sprinting from his chair.

"Logan-" the counselor said, alarmed at the change in the boy before him.

"I-I have to go, Carlos, I'm sorry," Logan whispered before staring long and hard into Carlos' confused expression before bolting from the room.

"Logan!" Carlos exclaimed before he, James, and Kendall ran out after him.

It was no use.

Logan had been too fast for all of them and was nowhere in sight.

"What-what just happened?" James asked, confused and worried about his friend's safety.

"That's exactly what I want to know..." Kendall said, dialing Logan's number.

Carlos could only dissolve into tears in James' arms, wondering what had gone wrong with today...

(With Logan...)

Logan let out a sob, agitated as he made his way inside a bar.

He knew that what he was doing was wrong, he knew that he was about to throw away the work of two months' time, and yet he felt so confused and scared right now.

His mind was somewhat overwhelmed with fear and the knowledge that he was keeping a very important secret from his boyfriend.

Flashback

"So, you know how I auditioned for that cowgirl- turned- popstar show a few months back?" Camille asked him.

He nodded weakly.

"Well, I wasn't cast as the lead...I was runner up but the leading actress apparently had some huge drug scandal that they don't want to be associated with and so...she's been kicked off the show and I've been offered her role instead..."Camille said.

"And this program HAS to be shot in Australia?" Logan asked her.

Camille sighed.

"Everything is set up back there, it would mean millions of dollars that production is unwilling to pay to bring the set over here," she said apologetically "Logan, I know you're upset but...think about me for a second. This is the opportunity of a lifetime! You KNOW I'm never going to get an opportunity like that here...think about it, Logan, I'm going to be the female lead on a show!"

"It IS a great opportunity for you," Logan acknowledged.

Camille placed her hand in his comfortingly.

"I know you're upset," she told him quietly "But I didn't ask for this baby, Logan, I didn't WANT to be pregnant...I still don't and I definitely don't want to let this ruin my chances..."

"I know, and I won't ask you to give up your dreams for this..." Logan said, feeling more and more depressed.

"Logan, you know I'm 7 months along, which is far more than the time allowed for me to get an abortion..." Camille said "So, I can't get an abortion but...once this baby is born...I want out. I won't be able to be taking care of it in Australia, though it's probably going to be born in Australia, so I'll just...give it up for adoption over there, okay?"

"Well, can't you stay here for a bit longer?" Logan begged "At least have the baby here, so we can all decide what's best for him or her,I know Carlos would love to-"

"Carlos has no say in this," Camille said flatly "Face it, Logan, ultimately it's MY body...it's my baby to deal with as I think is best...you get a say in this because you're the dad but...Carlos has nothing to do with this. It's not HIS baby here..."

"Camille I just don't understand why you can't wait 2 more months until the baby is born and then leave!" Logan exclaimed, frustrated "I'll take care of it! I'll do everything just...don't leave with my baby, please..."

"You don't even want this baby," Camille accused.

"Well I-I didn't but now..." Logan tried helplessly.

"Now it's your ticket to get Carlos back," Camille said, rolling her eyes "Don't think I don't know what this is about, Logan, I know exactly what this is. I've seen the way Carlos acts around us, YOU don't really want this baby, HE does and you're going along with it because you think it's your way to his heart. It's your way to trap him into a marriage you KNOW he wouldn't want under any other conditions..."

Logan gasped, hurt.

"That-That's not true!" He said "Carlos loves me for ME, not because of my baby...and I want this baby and it's unfair that you want to take it away now..."

"Logan, they kicked the other actress out because she was involved in a drug scandal..." Camille said anxiously "I don't want to be next in line...if I have this baby here, the media's going to be swarming with different tales that are going to make both of us look bad...I can't be tagged as a bad mother who abandons her child and goes to another continent...I can't handle bad press, Logan,not when I'm so close to finally making my dreams come true..."

"But if you just disappear there's going to be bad press too!" Logan argued.

Camille shrugged.

"Maybe," she said "But if I go away and have this baby and quietly give it up for adoption to a low-profile Australian family, the media will eventually move on to the next story...if I have the baby here, we're NEVER going to have a moment's peace again...speculations about us and our relationship will be endless and they'll hurt me and you and Carlos. Don't you see? I'm trying to do what's best for you here too...what's best for ALL of us..." she said.

"By giving away our child?" Logan asked skeptically.

"By getting rid of a problem," Camille said firmly.

Logan gasped, hurt again.

Throughout these months he'd come to really love his baby and Camille calling it a 'problem' now rubbed him the wrong way.

"Do whatever you want, Camille," he gritted out "That baby was going to be ours as well as yours and...we had plans too but they apparently don't matter to you so, go ahead, whatever, give it up for adoption in Australia I-I don't care..."

"Logan!" Camille exclaimed but it was no use, the smart boy ran away from her as fast as he could into the black of the night...

End of Flashback

Logan was breathing heavily as the painful flashes swept through his mind.

He smacked another $20 bill in the be table.

The bartender eyed him suspiciously.

"Haven't you had enough already, son?" He asked him.

"I'll decide that," Logan snapped "Now give me another shot of tequila,"

The bartender sighed but handed Logan another drink...

(With Carlos, Kendall, and James...)

"We've looked everywhere!" Carlos said anxiously "Where is he?"

"Carlos, are you sure you guys didn't fight or anything unusual happened today?" Kendall asked sharply.

"Of course I'm sure," Carlos snapped "I haven't even been with him at all today! Ask James what we've been doing all morning and afternoon...we didn't even get to go baby shopping in the end!"

"We have been kind of busy with wedding arrangements," James said.

"Okay so, let's think, what could've triggered his breakdown?" Kendall asked.

"Who was he with while Carlos and I were being fitted for the wedding?" James asked.

Carlos and James turned to look at Kendall.

"Don't look at me," he said "I was down at the NTH set all morning going over some scenes with Jo and Elena..."

"Alright, let's go get our car and drive around the place, maybe we can spot him somewhere," James suggested.

The other two sighed but they all headed for the parking lot.

They found, to their amazement, that the BTR mobile was gone.

"What the-?" Kendall exclaimed as he frantically searched his jeans' pockets for the car's keys "I could've sworn I had them!"

"Didn't you give them to Logan when you were looking for you cellphone to put it on silent?" James said helpfully.

The three boys' eyes widened once they realized what this meant.

"He could be anywhere then!" Carlos said anxiously "Oh God, what do we do?"

Kendall's cellphone rang then.

"It's Gustavo, hang on," he said, fishing his cellphone out of his pocket "Gustavo we have a-"

He fell silent as he listened to his producer at the other end of the line.

His eyes widened and he grew physically pale.

"O-okay so what do we do?" he croaked after a while "Okay, we'll meet you there..."

"What's wrong?" James said worriedly as he stared at Kendall's crestfallen expression.

"Logan was in a car accident," Kendall whispered.

"WHAT?" Carlos exclaimed "Oh God, is he okay? Where is he?"

"He's in the hospital," Kendall said quietly "He's okay though, no major injuries but..."

"But?" James asked him.

Kendall sighed.

"He crashed into a tree and dragged a lamppost down with him...the police HAD to intervene, of course, and because he was drunk...he's being charged with DUI..."

"Logan's going to jail?" James asked worriedly.

"Possibly, after he comes out of the hospital and we're looking at a HUGE fine he's going to have to pay..." Kendall said with a sigh.

"It's his first offense, I don't think he's going to get jail time," Carlos said optimistically.

"He's a pop star and public figure," Kendall said with a sigh "They're going to be a lot tougher on him than they'd be on anyone else because he's supposed to be a role model and all those other things they always say about celebrity scandals..."

"Let's worry about that later," Carlos said firmly "If Logie's in the hospital, we HAVE to go see him..."

The other two nodded, their expressions grim...

A/N: Yep, that's it...

WILL Logie go to jail for what he's done? Are you guys disappointed that he got drunk once again? (Come on, alcoholism is a real addiction, I wasn't about to make it too easy for him to quit, lol.) Anyways, what do you guys think Carlos' reaction will be? What SHOULD it be?

And Camille? Is her reason for leaving a valid one? Is she to blame for this? Do you guys hate her? Yes, no, maybe so?

REVIEW TIME!

Cheers,

Franshes