Chapter 37: The mountaintop
It was like walking on eggshells- literally and metaphorically. Not only was it the mixed soil and leaves crunching beneath her feet as they weaved around tree trunks- it the tension between them, thick and smelling of the alcohol and bad decisions. Being the drinkers they were, a cup of spiked punch only wet their tastebuds, which was all they needed to keep them grounded. With each step closer out of the darkness, she felt herself falling further and further back into the familiar groove to things to where she almost thought she would be returning to her own apartment in the morning.
To think, that was only about a year ago…
Had she shaken off those memories so quickly?
He walked casually with his hands in his pocket and half his body illuminated by the hanging moonlight that would glide down his face to the crevices of his abdominal muscles. There was no sign of a twitch or nerve out of places and it seemed like a normal day in the park. She didn't look for long before she faced forward and focused onward through the trees, into the open path that lead past the clan ground into the village. Surprisingly, she too began to casually stroll to the steady rhythm his demeanor set.
"Your hair…it looks nice.." She didn't expect him to break the silence.
"Thanks. It took a while."
"I don't know how you girls do it all. It looks like it's a lot of work to look good by everyone's standards."
"It can be. Men should be grateful but I don't do it often. I prefer to look natural…more like myself."
"Natural.."
"Yea. What you see is what you get."
"You've always been like that and so it doesn't surprise me."
"Good. It means you learn quickly."
"Aren't shinobi suppose to be quick with the mind…just because I'm not on the battle field doesn't mean I just let it all go."
"I would think detailed observation uses too much energy for you to continue when it's not necessary."
"Not when it's easy."
"And I'm easy?"
Shikamaru paused as if to think through his answer wisely. "What will happen if I answer wrong?"
"You may lose and eye…or two.." She grinned and pulled a Kunai from her waistband strapped around her hips to tap the side her temple next to her eye.
He genuinely looked startled. "Hmpf….no…you're not easy. You just make doing the difficult more bearable."
"Nice save. You get to see another day." They both chuckled and she shook his head to himself. "I always get the scary ones. Whatever did I do to inherit this…"
"I'm sure not all the ones you've encountered having you running for the hills."
"I've had my share. I remember I brought this girl home one night after a mission. She was from Kumo and it was too late to start her trip back home so she hinted that she wanted to stay the night. Being the guy I am, I made sure that we were on the same page when she insinuated that she just wanted a place to waste some energy and crash. So we had sex and I woke up the next morning to some clipping sounds…"
"No…" Temari knew exactly where this was going but she wanted to save the laughter until the end. Shikamaru looked like he wanted to burst into laughter as well.
"So I'm thought, 'what the hell is that sound?' and I turn around to find that she had already cut off the ends on my hair and put it in some sort of collection sack."
"Whoa…"
"I don't know what she was planning to do with them but I knew her time was up."
"She probably put a curse on you for kicking her out."
"Probably. That whole week my shower only had cold water come to think of it." As he scratched his head in thought, their eyes met and soon they were both doubled over with tears coming out of their eyes.
"Shikamaru she could still have the clippings!"
"I know! Scary as hell right? I told you, women were crazy."
"Scary yes but not psycho. I would never do that to anyone. That's insane. Please keep these stories away from my son. You'll scare him into celibacy and I want him to have a family one day." Temari poked him in the chest.
"I'm sure once he gets out there, he won't need my stories. He'll see for himself. Nara men are cursed to be surrounded by terrifying females."
"I don't mind it though. At least I know that you'll never mess with me."
"I have my brave moments." Puffing his chest out, he marched a few steps before she slapped him so hard on the back all the air comes out of his lungs. When she sees him start a coughing fit, it only sparks a teasing laughter that carries her a few paces down the street.
"Are you sure you're not drunk?"
"That's insulting. One little sip is not going to do anything to me. I can probably still drink you under the table if I wanted."
"I'll remember this one day when you're not breastfeeding."
"Please do so I can add to my account."
"Whatever."
The rest of the walk home consisted of an exchange of more out-of-the-ordinary stores, the occasional awkward silence and some childhood memories. She learned about his childhood fear of spiders and she revealed that her deepest fear from when she was young was getting caught in the quicksand pits a little ways out from Suna. As they chatted and walked, they came upon a small bookstore was still open for "late night readings" by the apartment.
"Late night readings?" Temari was perplexed as to why at 1 am, a book store was still open and populated with a decent amount of people.
"They um…well it's for.."
"Just spit it out."
"That's when they put out the erotica books…" Shikamaru turned to look at the other side of the street but his neck revealed the red heat had spread to his face from the revelation.
"So you're telling me everyone in there is reading pornography….what better time I guess. The kids are asleep and no one of importance would be walking by to reveal your secret. Wait a second….how do you know that?"
Shikamaru cleared his throat and started to speed up.
"Shikamaru. Shikamaru!" Stepping quickly to catch up, she caught him by the shoulders and he jumped. "Did you use to go in there?"
"I don't know what you're talking about."
"So you did you use go there…interesting. I wonder if Yoshino-san-"
"You shut your mouth!" He looked around to be sure he wasn't attracting unwanted attention. "Look, I was like 13 and Naruto found this place first." His tone was reduced to a whisper. "We would dig through the trash at the end of the night and find the old ones they would throw away."
"You little perv!"
"Hey…I had to learn somewhere. My parents gave me the talk and all but I was still a horny 13 year old like any kid so….I got my fix like that instead of sticking my dick all around town like some other guys."
"I guess…" Temari clasped her hands behind her back and winked.
He placed his fingers gently under her chin, lifting it slightly to meet his gaze. "How do you think I learned how to make your knees buckle..."
If Temari held a mirror up in front of her face, she imagined her pupils to be dilated and a pink tint to be spreading across her cheeks like a wild fire. She would not let him get under her skin so her kept her eyes steadfast and she covered up any sort of surprise with a solid expression. "Experimenting."
"I've had my fair share of practice…not a lot by standards but enough. Getting around wasn't my thing." He walked off and left her suspended in position until she followed him again. "The last thing I wanted is someone to squeal to my mom. She would have had my head."
"What about your dad?"
"I'm sure he knew what I was doing but I never came home with disease or a baby."
"I was always surrounded by the chastity police. They'd tell me my virginity was a medal of honor for a woman." The phrase made her mouth bitter and dry. "I was to keep it for my husband and not throw my pearls to the swine."
"I use to think that way until I realized that everyone had their own life to live and choices to make…including women. While I do think there are roles, a woman is as intelligent as a man and at the end of the day can do what she wants. I'm sure you didn't throw your pearls to the swine or whatever….only to the fortunate. I consider myself lucky."
"Lucky? How so?"
"Because you probably could have spent your time with anybody you wanted but instead you choose some lazy kid with a crooked smile." And he gave her a crooked smile.
"I don't regret it though…you weren't my first but I don't regret it at all." It was the honest truth even if it meant revealing a little bit more than she liked.
"I know…even if you did, I could fix that." Picking up the pace, he walked ahead of her and stretched his arms high. Tiling back and yawning, the firmness of each muscle in his back was so defined that you could map it simple by running your hands over his tanned skin. She recalled the times her nails dug welts by his shoulder blades in the wee hours of the night and was able to trace them by memory alone when they faded. He took the pain like a champ and while she burned like a freshly lit candle in the darkness.
Hold on Temari…
Shaking her head to ease the tension built up between her thighs came a little too late because she was now walking with her lips sliding against each other. The slower she went, she worse it got but luckily they had reached the apartment.
"So um…your mother was nice to watch him for the weekend." Small talk could provide a quick clean up if she would detach her mind from the battle raging inside of her.
"That's her grandson. Her little deer is what she calls him….I don't really exist anymore. Go figure. Yet she still remembers me enough to nag when I'm around….what a drag." His voice echoed and the stairs seemed to be extra noisy or maybe she was just imagining things.
"I always knew I liked that woman." By the time they had reached the top to their floor, nothing had changed and it was so annoying that she began to get angry.
Grabbing the house keys from his pocket, he slowly slide the key in the lock and her heart started to pulse. "Shikamaru…"
"Yea?"
"Nothing…" The sooner they got inside was the sooner she could make a run for it to anywhere but within 2 feet of this guy.
With a shrug, he pushed the door open and she almost trampled him as she used the rest of her strength to make it inside to the kitchen.
"Um…are you alright? You look like you just got done fighting to the death."
You have no idea….
"Yea I'm fine." Turning around, she took her jacket off and threw it on the counter. "It's so hot here…even for Konoha."
"Want me to open the sliding door?"
"Yes please. That would help." The hot flashes were causing her to start sweating but she was able to act as normal as possible. Luckily he had left back some soaking bottles in the sink that she was able to busy herself with.
You could do this you know…and nothing would change. You use to do this all the time with no problems. No strings attached. You've been taking you birth control pills on time and so no baby…..
At the same time, she had to question if she really wanted to go that route again and possibly encounter some tangled feelings and trip wire situations that would leave her vulnerable. There was a risk of losing all the footing she's gained and with their attachment through a baby, it wasn't like she could just run off if things got too complicated-too deep for her comfort. For the sake of Shikachi growing up with both parents, she felt a little more stuck.
Maybe this isn't a good idea. Too many what ifs when there use to be none. Sex never use to be this complicated. Maybe I'm overthinking it or maybe I'm not thinking enough. This so annoying.
In the midst of her internal monologue, she frustratingly slammed her hand on the counter on top of one of the berries that had rolled out from an open plastic bag near by. It squirted it's content all over her hand and wrist with a few drops splattering. She growled lowly at how on edge she felt combined with her uncontrolled strength wreaking havoc on her wardrobe. "Wonderful…" Reaching over for a kitchen towel, she practiced her deep breathing as she tried to wipe down the counter and her berry coated hand. When she finally got it all off except for that now purple stain on her red top, she felt a lot more calm with even enough control to make it to her bed where he was probably laying down dozed off already. "Ok…I'm done for the night"
"You missed a spot." Shikamaru was hovering behind her, breathing warm air down the back of her neck that made her hair stand.
"Thanks but I think I got it all."
"No….you didn't. Let me show you." He did something she wasn't expecting in the slightest and reached over to carefully grasp her wrist that was still a little sticky. This time, her heart rate went from 0 to 100 where she heard the blood rushing in her ears. Holding it up to the moonlight shining into the kitchen, she saw there was a glistening spot still left on the side of her wrist that she strangely didn't catch. "I got it…" Before she could protest, there was a warm sensation swimming around her radial artery that made her almost fold in on herself. He bit her skin gently and ran his tongue around the circumferences until he coated it pink hickies like a charm bracelet. She wasn't sure if she could look at him over her shoulder without falling into him like chasm but her curiosity got in the best of her so she slowly spun around to meet his gaze. Cloaked in darkness except for the whites of his eyes, he looked like nothing but a heated shadow with bright teeth that would flash for a moment before disappearing between his lips. Squinting his eyes, she saw that he was smiling manically, possibly calculating her blood pressure as it rose.
"There." Pulling away, he dropped her hand and it fell limply by her side but they both remained static- getting caught but fighting their individual pull to each other. The tug of war with their hormones lasted a whole minute as she fought the demon voice herself inside of herself telling her to dip herself into the pool of her own sexual desires. Once frequented, the waters were still until Shikamaru threw his stone in again.
"Be sure this is what you want…" With shallow breaths, her fists tightened.
"The question is," He tilts his head to the side in curiosity. "is this what you want…"
It was time to stop the games- to stop acting like she knew this wouldn't have happened eventually. There was only so many times she could go around the outside with him before she would jump in. The only question would be how much would be shy away from initiating the static shock that she was craving down to her bones.
No time to be timid now…
Stepping up to meet him, she compressed her chest against his and tilted her chin up where she could see under his hooded eyes. "Do it." The words had barely fallen from her lips before he had her slammed against the edge of the counter. Her levels of endorphins were so high that she groaned through the pain and his lips climbing up and down the side of her neck. Their breathing was labored while they tangled into each other and his hands gripped the soft fat of her rear end to hoist her up on the table. His mouth started to detour south to the tops of her breast exposed through her top that were round and full. The tips of her fingers were pulling his belt buckle to bring his hips closer between her legs where she wrapped it around him tightly. Like clockwork, her fingers were working so quickly that they got tangled in the mesh of his shirt but he beat her too it bit quickly reaching from behind and pulling it over his head. Gone, right into the sink. "Add…that…to the..laundry.." He spoke while burying his face between her cleavage.
"Mhm…" The coldness of her flesh being exposed after hours of being wrapped up woke her as he slowly dug deeper and deeper when he pulled her zipper down. When they finally fell heavily out of their place, he swore.
"Shit Temari…" Her pink nipples puckered between his tongue and the roof of his mouth and she sighed.
"It's…the..breastmilk…." Feeding Shikachi had caused them to go up a cupsize to her annoyance. Not only was finding bras a little more difficult but their bouncing would illicit stairs from perverse elderly men and hormonal teenage boys. She didn't mind Shikamaru's admiration as he flicked her pink nipples tenderly with his tongue. He grabbed the tender members in his hand and squeezed them between his fingers that caused them to round out. Her senses heightened to every touch that it almost drove her insane as she bucked her hips against his.
"Too soon." His fingers latched into the sides of her sweatpants and undergarments underneath and she was ready to rip them off by the seams herself before he slid them down to her ankles. He removed himself from her grip, tugged the clothes from her ankle and threw them behind him but he didn't return to her, Satisfyingly he stood there with his arms folded, looking at her trying to hold on.
"Last chance."
"Shikamaru…"
"We can stop it now."
"Shikamaru." He was teasing her in the cruelest way while she sat as naked as the day she was born with her legs spread on each side of the counter.
"Say it and we don't have to do it."
"Shikamaru!" This time he ignited something darker that lust.
"I don't think I heard you." He smiled and put his hand to his ear as if to help amplify her reply.
"Shikamaru get over here now before I tear you to pieces!" And she literally meant it. With the way her emotions were going, murder wasn't far off from the dirty sex.
"I thought they taught manners in Suna." She wanted to rip the smirk off his face and shove it down his throat. "Say it…"
"No!" He was not about to get the upper hand.
Sauntering over with a determined twinkle in his eyes, he stood between her stretched out legs and rubbed his fingers over the hood of her throbbing clitoris. She whined and bit her lip to keep from exploding. "Say and it and I'll give you what you want." He leaned into her ear and repeated the motion. "I'll make you scream until you your lungs give out."
"Shikamaru…" He was playing with her labias, easing them between his fingers and clamping them together like he was milking them. It was too much for her to take and while she hated him for it, she could get it back later but now wasn't the time for stubbornness. "Please..." It was so low that it was almost unheard but he must have been listening closely. Putting his index and middle finger inside his mouth, he sucked off the fluid that made it glisten and shine as he held her head to watch him do it.
He's so sadistic its sickening….
In anticipation for what was coming, she began to moisten onto the counter and his fingers hovered in front of the entrance. Forcefully he grabbed her close to him so her breast were tightly packed to his chest and he slid his fingers inside. That was the moment she wanted to savor and she tightened around his digits and moaned in his ear.
"Oh.." He was back to suckling on her taut nipples as he slowly dipped is fingers inside of her narrow passage
"I'm sorry, I didn't catch that…" He twisted his hand upside down and began to rub the upper walls which caused waves of come to drip down his fingers.
"Don't stop.." It felt as though she wouldn't make it if he discontinued. "I'm not fucking saying please either!" He laughter meant that found her added sentence amusing. She held onto his shoulders like it was her saving grace and gave her hips over to his fingers that twisted and stretched her insides like putty. "Faster…go…faster." She was panting and squeezing her other breast in her hand tightly. She tried to reach out for the bulge in his pants but he quickly avoided it with a snicker.
"Not yet." Kindly, he sped up the motions and tilted his tips to push against the most sensitive portion of her cervix. There was nothing but stars that lit up her vision and he moaned loudly into the empty apartment. She grew closer and closer to combusting all over the counter in a ocean of slippery fluid when he abruptly stopped.
"No, no not yet!" The orgasm was so close that she just wanted to end the suffering herself but he slapped her hand away.
"Not so fast…" That was when he picked her up and threw her over his shoulders like a ragdoll. He walked swiftly over the circular dinner table and with her breasts pounding against his back and the fat of her derrière jiggling, he took a bite out of one cheek that caused her to scream.
"What the hell Shikamaru!? You wanna tear it off?"
"Nah. I'm gonna need it later." With a sadistic wink, he placed her onto the cold wood where she winced from the temperature difference and sat himself on the chair. Parting her legs again, the familiar chill wafted at it but she was too focused on what he was planning why she was on her back where they had just had soup hours ago. Sitting on the chair with his legs casually open, he leaned forward and she gasped before crying out. He started off leisurely, nibbling the inside of her thighs and occasionally sinking his teeth into the tender tendons that stretched around it. He once called her legs earmuffs because they were thick and soft to the touch but she never thought he would actually try and act out the metaphor. It was a pleasant surprise that caused a burn to light her nerves up all the way to her toes that pointed but she laughed when he was scrape his tooth to tickle her.
"What are you doi-" She inhaled so sharply, the air burned in her throat. Had pulled back the hood of her most tender part of her anatomy and took it wholly into his mouth. There was a constant sucking that was causing her to breath erratically at the earth shattering sensation that took over her body. She would randomly get the shakes like one of the drug addicts she would pass in the shady towns because the feeling would get too overwhelming. When he would pull away, she would whimper and grab his head to pull him back in. At on point he grabbed her wrists and firmly held them down by her side, which made her feel agonizingly helpless but she was too busy spiraling under the black magic of his shining tongue.
"Oh shit, oh shit…oh shit…" She would squirt randomly when he pressure would build but he would stop before the big one came. "Shikamaru please…just do it….I can't…hold it."
"No." He spoke with a mouth full of her slippery vagina and his hands still forcing hers to her side. The back and forth went on for fifteen more minutes before he pulled her to the edge of the table and threw her legs over his shoulders. When he stood up, the only part touching the table was her shoulders and he dug deeper into her, cleaning out her insides like he wanted to suck her dry.
"How does it taste?" It was the only smooth sentence she was able to get out since they started.
"Like water…but it smells like sugar…" He went back to sucking on her clitoris and she came again with a cry of anguish. "Like in that fresh syrup…Choji and I…would tap from trees…" She could feel him inhaling against her insides which caused her eyes to roll back in her head. "I could do this forever…but we got other things to do…" That was when he kicked it into high gear and she jolted her head forward. He pulled as much of her as he could and slurped her up like he was dead set extracting her soul. It was so much that she started to formulate tears from the corners of her eyes and squirming while palming her sore nipples. He was still very much in control and relaxed while she wriggled, ascending into a torturous climax.
"Oh-Oh I'm close! I'm close! Don't Stop. Please don't stop!" Her pitch got higher and higher as he made one finally and the burning overtook her. With a scream she arched her back and let lose the ocean from between her legs into his mouth as it came rolling down his chin, coating his chest and traveling down. Everything suddenly dimmed and she clenched her insides to hold onto the orgasm while he squeezed every last drop from her. When he let her down, she still had enough left the ride it out in front of him, opening up her legs wider and stroking herself slowly with one hand. A second eruption burst from her self-inflicted massages as her moaned and handled her breasts as he stood there panting and watching with a triumphant side smile. It was like she had woken up form a coma by the time the fog had cleared away but he still looked like he had a lot of energy left to give.
"I hope you're not tired because it's my turn."
She groaned with the last bit of energy she had while he pulled her from her legs. The next moment, she was on her back on the couch feeling like she was in a drunk stooper as she watched him slowly unbuckle his pants. Her labias tighten in anticipation and she was astonished that she even had the strength to do that. He wasn't going to stop anytime soon and so she accepted what was on the way by spreading on leg over the couch and the other on the coffee table.
"I haven't seen you in months. Are you still as big as I remember?" She taunted him to rile him up. The thought of him beating her insides like how he use gave her enough motivation. She craved the feeling.
"Ah you didn't tap out yet…"
"When would I ever?...Hit me with whatever you got." When he pulled it out after that statement, she instantly regretted everything. It stood on it's own, hard and strong like a hammer ready to tear down her walls if she wasn't ready. Her throat began to tighten by a reflex she forgot she had as he pulled himself above her. One arm, tethered with tendons and mature muscles was beside her head holding him up and the other was gripping he top of the chair.
"Come again?..."
"Is that and invitation?"
"Yea." And with that reply she felt his batterram stretch her inside so forcefully that she almost couldn't catch her breath. His mouth was still gleaming with her come that she smelled on his breath when he exhaled. Her hands were gripping his wrist so tightly that she knew they would leave red marks but he was so strong against her that she had to stabilize herself. "So…tell me Temari Of the Sand…am I as big as you remembered?.." With no strength to answer because he was slamming his hips against her inner thighs, the intense pressure felt so good that she couldn't formulate the words. He kept the pace slow and steady, seeing her internally collapse before his eyes. It felt so good to feel him inside of her that she almost thought it was a dream and that she would wake up in a soaked bed all alone.
"Faster…Shikamaru faster.."
"No. We're doing this my way." He started sucking again on one of her engorged breasts until she was so sensitive that she had to play with the other one herself. Rocking back and forth with such swiftness that the sound of loud clapping reverberated through the apartment, she thought she could feel him all the way up into her belly.
"Faster now…oh…shit Shikamaru…."
"Nah…." Suddenly, he flipped her over and pulled her rear end into the air.
"Oh yes." She hissed as she inch, by inch penetrated her so she was sure to feel her walls sliding against him. The torture was a welcoming slow burn that left her arching her back like a cat in heat. As he bounced off her backside, he reached over and grabbed some of her hair, pulling her face back so he could meet her ear.
"You were thinking of me when you were fucking those other guys weren't you Temari…." His words were smooth and confident, as if he was digging around in her mind each time she was out there. "I said… weren't you." He pushed harder and she moaned louder to his approval.
"Mhm…" It was the truth, she would often leave unsatisfied but in denial as to why. After her answer, he began to slow down to her dismay. "No no, go harder…." In his defiance, he kept would change the pace which would make her almost reach the climax before switching it up to make her start again. For an hour or so he would listen to her moan in frustration. She wanted to come so badly that she was ready to beg now and he must have read her mind.
"Only if you say please…." When she said nothing, he flipped her back over and pressed his weight against her as he lay still inside. "Not until I hear it…" Her muscles were squeezing tightly around him in anticipation but he only began to move slowly while she shut her eyes and complained weakly. "Look at me Temari…" Using his fingers, he began to rub her tender spot which made her leak into his hands like a faucet. "Say it and I'll let you go…." The pressure was just too much and her stomach was tightening with the building desire to relieve herself that she couldn't say no any longer. "…please…"
"As you wish…" Once again he gutted her swiftly and she dug her nails into his shoulder blades. With each solid push, she tore at his skin and the blood tipped her fingers but it only gave him for energy to continue. It was blinding to be so wrapped up on pleasure that she thought she heard her heart rip out of her chest while he took her further up. The higher she went, the more she would cry out his name over and over like a sacred chorus until he finally pushed her sensitive spot and she instantly flooded him and came on herself. It was the best orgasm she had every felt in her life and for a split second she was ready die because she finally experienced it. She was melting and reforming, burning and being extinguished in a perfect balance under him so much so that she shook before coming back down. He kept pushing until he gave a final thrust and with a groan from deep within him, she felt a warm sensation fill her up as he tensed above her and shuttered. They were both a mess. Sweating, panting, confused, tired, overwheleming mess. She was still soaking wet between her legs but he remained inside of her, unwilling to move. He relaxed carefully onto her and touched his forehead to her own and for a long time they breathed together with their hearts connecting from inside of their skin. When he was finally able to look up, his eyes were looking into hers with a quiet concentration, trying to read her reaction, possibly looking for pain, discomfort….approval?
After a long while, he spoke first. "Are you…ok?"
"Yes…very much so…"
…..
"I never thought after all that work, I'd still have energy...I'm finally able to feel my feet." Temari laughed in disbelief and looked down under the sheets she made into a makeshift dress.
"Congratulations. I wasn't planning on carrying you around."
"Oh stop, you basically threw yourself down onto the chair."
"Did not…" Temari called his bluff with her eyes and he looked away in a huff.
"Gotcha." She mimicked his wink and took a sip of water.
"I wonder how much exercise we got. You know we were having sex for like 2 hours."
"No idea but I'm sure it's enough to take the place of some training if you do it like that. We lasted longer though."
"Yea I think three hours was our max. You must have came like 10 times."
"I don't doubt it. I love a good orgasm."
"You're welcome." He raised his beer to her and she met him with her water.
"It's true you know…" Looking out into the village skyline, she wished she could have taken a picture at it's grandeur in the stillness.
"What is?"
"When I slept with other guys…they just never quite hit got it right…" Seeing him grin made her bite her lip and blush as she looked down at her hands.
"Don't be embarrassed about it. I won't tell anyone. The secret is safe with him."
"I was suppose to keep this secret from you."
"I put truth serum in your drink." Temari's eyes widened. "I'm kidding, I'm kidding…."
"Just so you know, I've been taking my birth control consistently."
"That's good. "
"So you don't have to worry about me getting pregnant again…." Shikamaru shrugs and takes another gulp. "You don't seem to care much, which you should."
"I don't…if I'm destined to have another then there's nothing I can do to stop it…to much work. That doesn't mean I'll just forget about being safe but…" He looks out. "If you were to get pregnant again, I wouldn't be angry about it…" She wanted to clear her ears to be sure she was hearing him correctly. "If we keep this up, odds are you'll have another anyway…"
"That's true…" The thought of another baby was still a little terrifying, not as bad as before but she still wasn't ready. The fear was written on her face as he spoke up quickly to ease her mind.
"Temari we can stop if you want. I won't touch you unless you let me. You can't get pregnant again if I stay away."
"No." Her reply was a little too eager. "No…it's fine…we're two consenting adults who like sex as much as other people." She exhales and crosses her arms across her chest. "No need to ruin a good thing right?" Temari couldn't help but grin with him.
We can do this and be normal….
"No strings attached…"
Shikamaru held up palms open. "None."
"Good. We have to use up energy somehow."
"Exactly."
And once again, there was that silence that graces them once the conversation takes a turn into something more serious. Shikamaru gets up and leans over the railing with something raging in his eyes. He would look down and shaking his bottle and then stare back up into the sky and then back down again. It took a bit before he said anything.
"A doe Rikumaru mated with died last week…A bear got her while he was trying to protect her fawn. Strange."
"Why is that? I thought all animal mothers protected their young…"
"Does don't always do it. It's a choice. In fact a good number of them leave their babies to die when there's danger…"
"Oh….that's odd…."
"Yea but everyone found it weird that she's live through other attacks."
"How? She has no protection and a baby."
"That's the interesting part…we think Rikumaru has been protecting her. It's unlike the males to do that. I mean, deer in the forest die all the time. We can't stop nature because we feel bad."
"Yea. I wonder why he's doing that….there are other doe if she dies. He can mate with another."
"Who knows but it looks like he's been watching her from the side and she may not have even known it."
"Except for this time."
"Yea…this time he wasn't there I guess. He left when she needed help…" Temari watched him struggle and a part of her crumbled.
"It's fine to take care of your own stuff…no one can look out best for yourself than you…"
"No. You're wrong. No matter what you go through, you don't walk on people you care about. Especially a man who is supposed to protect." He came and sat back down. "If I leave again, don't let me back in. I don't care how I beg or what I say. Lock the door and then change the keys."
She looked in disbelief. "Shikamaru that's unreasonable, we're human and we won't see eye to eye. I'm not gonna keep you away from being a father even if-"
"I know that but if I can't stay then I don't deserve to be that kid's dad alright? So if that's the type of person I am, then he'll be better off without me…."
"You should know me by now…I won't listen." They reached an impasse and turned away from each other until Temari stuck her foot out to kick him. "Stop trying to be noble…" She was trying her best to lighten up the atmosphere because the thought of her never allowing him back into her life left her feeling the familiar chill of loneliness.
"I'm not being noble…I'm serious…" Once again she tried to kick him from her chair but he grabbed her foot and tickled the underside until her sides cramped and she was gasping. "Stop Temari. You'll wake everyone up!" He wasn't helping by laughing with her but she couldn't stop because he kept trying to grab her.
"Shikamaru cut it out!" Getting frustrated while still cackling, she gathered herself up and bolted for the door but he blocked her path inside. "Move" He allowed her to push past him but not before tugging the sheet off her body, revealing her naked again. Looking back at him with the eyes of innocence, she sauntered over to the bedroom door.
"Round 2 already?"
"You mean round 1…what we had before was a warm-up…."
"Well then…lets see if we can break our max."
"Or I can just break you instead."
"Either one is fine with me."