Homeward Bound

Coma

Demi's p o v

3 months it had been 3 months since the accident Miley was buried Selena was in a coma, I was losing it. I just couldn't believe it the media was going crazy Justin was out on bail awaiting trail. Memories were constantly haunting me no matter where I turn. I see Miley, I hear her laughing I see her smile it killed me she should be here with us not buried ...I sat here day after day holding Selena's hand praying she would wake up brushing her hair washing her up. Most of bruises had faded she was healing everywhere her ankle after 3 surgeries was on the mend but doctors couldn't say if she would ever be able to dance on it again my heart was breaking dance was half her life half our careers but more importantly her brain was still swollen. I watched her as she lay still machines helping her to breath.

Her chest rising and fallen not on her own but with the aide of metal and plastic. Tears leaked out when would things be normal again? That's right never even when she woke up which I refused to believe she wouldn't .Miley was forever gone and nothing could take that away. Silently I played with her hair talking to her..remembering how it felt to wake up from the accident and hear the news that she was in a coma...I still felt it like yesterday...

Maddie was holding my hand as Mom and my step dad were talking to the doctor Dallas was by my right side. She was crying softly as I opened my eyes...it had been two days since the accident they started crying and hugging me when they saw me awake. I was confused I had no idea where I was why I was there. The doctors kept pumping me for information. I was getting scared and angry mom fought them off.

It took me two more days till I was able to recall the accident it came back slowly in pieces.. the police were all over me trying to get information out of me making my head hurt. The nightmares are what did it though while my mind was foggy at best when I was awake but at night they recalled the events in terrible agonizing details. I would wake up sweating and sick to my stomach. They wouldn't tell me any info on Selena or Miley. I wasn't allowed to watch the news or have the radio on.. it infuriated me to no end. Finally one day when Dallas was in the bathroom I got up and went out on my own. I was fairly lucky a busted knee cap a broken ankle that had almost had to be amputated but was saved a broken rib and a concussion but other then that I was okay just sore. It was slow getting up I had only been up with help before this but I was determined to get up and try. I made it past the room holding onto the wall, Down the hall no one thought twice about a patient being up and movable. I went to the information desk, but they refused to give me anything without a conformation number ...I knew I should of thought about that which burned me up. I was desperate I had to find out something..finally I asked to use the phone and called Jennifer..she was almost hysterical when she heard my voice. She told me to meet her in the lobby so I wasted no time rushing down there by now Dallas had to have seen me missing. I had no idea how to get to the lobby so I winged it following signs and acting like I had a clue. Jennifer ran to me almost knocking me over we were both crying and holding each other, once we sat down, I saw her face she was pale no makeup on it looked like she had been crying. I swallowed taking her hand begging her to please tell me what had happened? She looked away I could tell she was hesitant to say anything but I kept begging till the point where I was almost crying, she held me and started to tell me just as Dallas came running in breathless...telling her to stop ..I whirled around pissed off...

[Me]- Don't tell her to stop!

I need to know!

Their my best friends!

Why won't someone tell me!

I need to know Dammit!

What happened to Selena!

Where's Miley!

Who hit us!

Dallas looked like she had been slapped , for a moment I almost felt bad I knew she was only doing what she was told but damn it I was 18. I deserved to know, she swallowed and took my hand I tried to resist but she nodded at me and Jennifer who lead the way ..way to where I had no clue but I had a feeling she was cracking and telling me what I needed to know.

We went upstairs to the 8th floor I read the signs as we passed pediatrics, poor kids I thought Rehab Ortho, outpatient Pediatric therapy ...people were buzzing kids waiting in the halls til they can get into their appointments, transportation wheeling kids to and from they were so cute . I smiled at some and stopped to give a autograph to a few who knew who I was. Nurses and doctors scurrying we went further down the noise level decreased drastically. I looked at Dallas her eyes were far away looking past me Jenn was sniffling again as we got closer to a locked unit.

[Me]-Why are we here?

In Front of..

I looked around to spot the unit PMICU..what was that?

[Jennifer]- Pediatrics Medical Intensive Care Unit

[Me]-Who's there?

I closed my eyes swallowing the lump in my throat it was hard and gagged me did I want to know?

[Jennifer]- Selena honey Selena's there

She's in a coma

It was like a ringing far off I heard her name but my brain didn't want to process it not my Lena .I looked at them tears overflowing they squeezed my hands nodding Jenn started crying harder as they lead me inside, I went slowly my legs felt heavy it was quieter in here no one was rushing around there was no sense of urgency. The unit was filled with the steady beeps of monitors and hissing. A house keeper was mopping the floor Rn's were at the station filling out paper work a monitor tech was watching the 12 little TV's that showed each room as she recorded stats. Jenn lead the way to the unit Secretary who she talked to before she took my hand and lead me to cubical 3 we stood outside. I swallowed against the rising panic as I felt my heart beat quicken, She brushed my hair back and told me calmly that she was going to look like she was asleep. That I could talk to her and she could probably hear me she just couldn't respond . I prepared myself as I went inside Selena was laying in the bed she looked so small her black hair was pulled up above her head which was covered in a white bandage machines covered her whole body wires propped from her chest her head was turned to the left she was on a vent and a tube was sticking out of her nose, her eyes were closed swollen ...her face was puffy and pale , her arms and legs were covered in deep purple bruises her one leg in a cast from her ankle to her knee. I gasped as I covered my mouth Jenn held me on one side Dallas the other my knees felt like they would give out. They helped me to sit down, as I took Selena's right hand which was bruised and swollen..

[Me]- What's wrong with her?

How Long has she been in this coma?

How long will she be in it?

Dallas started to tell me ..

[Dallas]- Selena Suffered a Intracranial Subdural Hematoma

She had to have surgery to relive pressure

She was in cardiac arrest twice

She never really regained consciousness after the accident

She injured her leg and ankle as you can see

They got her bleeding to stop

But her Brain swelled and she's not responding to

Treatment her lungs collapsed three times she's devolved pneumonia

She slipped into a stage 2 coma

[Me]- What's that mean?

I gripped her hand squeezing it tight.

[Jennifer]- It means she's responding to

Painful stimuli from the nurses when they test her eyes

She's making Incomprehensible sounds so she can speak

We just can't understand what she is saying but it's better then

Not being able to make any sounds

When they test her motor skills she

Responds to painful stimuli but she can't move by herself without being

Prompted to.

They don't know how long she'll be like this

But the longer she is the less chance of a full recovery..

[Me]- Where's Miles?

No one wanted to respond I knew then as soon as Jenn turned away that I didn't need to hear it out loud. I could sense it she was gone. I let the tears slide down as I held Selena's hand tighter begging her not to leave me. She made no response she just lay there the hissing filling the room. I swore I would protect her and never let anyone hurt her ever again.

Dallas made me go to my room then I didn't want to leave but I knew I had to ...the police were there wanting to question me on the accident. They just wouldn't stop wanting to know if Selena had been drinking when she was driving. Had she been distracted was she talking? Did she take her eyes off the road? Was she texting? I answered as best as I could.. No she hadn't been drinking...No she wasn't distracted, No she never took her eyes off the road..No she wasn't texting...

Okay so I lied ….to the police yea I know not so bright but I didn't care ...Miley was dead Selena was in a coma what was it going to hurt? The damage had been done. I was exhausted so after they left I sent Dallas and Jenn to go get coffee, once they were gone...I pulled Selena's cell out of my bag...I looked at the last message sent …

1:33 am Sepetember 11th 2010

Nick I miss you

We need to talk!

I am so sorry

Call me

1:33 am the accident happened at 1:33 am Selena had been texting nick when she lost control of the SUV while avoiding the paparazzi. Tears slide down my face as I looked around no one was around my fingers shock but I cleared her sent box erasing any proof she had been using her phone. Then I checked her in box no one had texted her around that time but I deleted them all anyway to make it look better. Sighing as I left out my breath I didn't know I was holding in I put the phone deep into my purse and went to sleep.