Chapter 37: just wake up

Slowely the rain fell from the sky. She looked out the window. It was as if the weather was showing her what she felt. Closing her eyes another tear rolled down her cheek. This couldn't be happening to her. She had been sitting in this room for hours. The noices of the hospital were making her crazy. The smell was making her dizzy. But what bothered her the most was the fact that she knew nothing. Macca had gone to find out how Jack was. He couldn't be dead. She looked out the window. The rain fell on the window. They seemed like tears.

Macca walked trough the hospital. Trying his best to remain calm. He hated hospitals. Ever since he had spend so much time in a hospital he was actually a little afraid. He had never told anyone. He would surtanly not tell his little sister now. He wanted to stay with her. Take care of her. But she wanted to know how the rest was. So here he was looking for a doctor. Trying his best to remain calm.

Tasha sat next to his bed. She heard the beeping sound of the machine next to the bed. The one who shows his hearthbeat. He was alive. She closed her eyes. He was alive. He wasn't awake jet, but he was alive. It had taken her a long time to convince the doctors to let her stay her. But here she was. Waiting for him to wake up. She wanted to be the first person he saw. So she waited. Trying to block out the beeping. The beeping of his hearth.

Carla took his hand. She didn't know why she was still here. Kim had never been nice to her. She closed her eyes. She was here because she liked him. Not the selfcentern jerk that he had once been. But the nice caring boy whome he had become over the last couple of months. Slowely. She opened her eyes again. 'Wake up.' She whispered softly. If it was only to show the world who he had become. He didn't have to like her. Just wake up.

Flash back

Carla felt like she was paralyzed. Staring at the flames. She was sure that for a second her hearth stopped beating. She could hear Martha scream in the distance. But it was as if she was far away from her. The cellphone fell out of her hand and landed on the grass. It didn't matter. He had to be alive. And that's when she realised. She loved him. She couldn't explain it not even to her. But she was in love with Kim Hyde. And she had just lost him.

Martha screamed once verry loudly. Then her voice failed. She sat there. All the strenth seemed to have dissapeared out of her body. She closed her eyes. The glow of the fire was still visible though. He couldn't be dead. She loved him. She had already lost so much. He could be dead.

end of flash back

Martha tried to get up. Tired of waiting she decided to go herself. But her leg was wounded. And she couldn't stand on it. She couldn't even stand for a second. She screamed in pain and fell down. Her brother came in just in time to catch her. His strong arms around her made her feel safe. She looked at him desperatly. Please tell me he's alive. Please.

Tasha took Robbie's hand. Carising it soflty she whispered to him to wake up. If he could hear her, he didn't respond. She closed her eyes. He has to wake up. She couldn't live without him. His hand felt like it was dead. It didn't move. It was cold. With her eyes closed she wished he would move. And then he did.

Locked in the darkness and the silence. That's how he felt. Like he was locked up. He could hear someone's voice coming from verry far away. Telling him to wake up. He tried to make up where the voice came from. But not matter how many times he turned around, he couldn't see anything but darkness. He couldn't reconise the name. Then he suddenly did. Carla.

Flash Back

Kim felt like he was lying in an oven. He didn't even know why. For a second. Then he remembered the explosion. He tried to move, but everything hurted. He could feel the burnmarks all over him. It was like he was on fire. For a second he thought he was. But then her realised he wasn't. Then he remebered Jack.

Seconds ago, before the blast, he could hear Martha scream. Now he heard nothing. He felt Jack under him. In the last moment in an attempt to protect him. He didn't even know why. He just thought that if one of them deserved to live was Jack. If it was only for the person who was so desperatly screaming for him. He had nobody that screamed for him. He wished he had. And that's when he realised that it was Carla he wished that would scream for him.

end of flash back

Kim moved around. She could feel his hand closing around hers. She looked up. He was waking up. That was a good thing. She smiled trough her tears. Everything would be ok now. He would be fine. He would be able to show the world he had changed. And maybe when the time was right he could love her. Maybe. Then he whispered something.

'Carla.' She thought she was dreaming. Why would he ask for her? 'Shh. It's ok.' 'Hey. You're here.' 'Of course I'm here. You deserve someone on your side. You're a hero you know. You saved them.' He sighed. 'Martha?' 'She's fine. Just her leg. But she'll be fine.' 'Tash? Rob?' 'Tasha has a lot of wounds but she'll be fine. Rob is alive but last time I checked he was still in a coma.' He hesitated. He had waited to ask this question because it was the answer he feared the most. 'Jack?' She looked at him. She didn't know what to say.

'Hey. Shhh.' Tasha had lifted herself up as much as she could. It hurted but she wanted to calm him down. Soflty she cherised his cheek. She loved him so much. 'You ok?' He nodded. 'The others?' 'Don't worry about them. Shhh.' He tried to say more but he was so tired. So tired. 'I love you.' She looked at him. Had he just said that? Or had she dreamed it? 'I love you to.' 'You should.' She smiled. And she felt relieved when he smiled back at her. They would be alright.

Flash back

He tried to make out if his best friend was still breathing. But he coul hardly move. Using his last strenth he moved a little closer to Jack. Relieved he felt his hearth beat. It wasn't a good beat. He could hardly make it out. But as long as his hearth was beating he was alive. And as long as he was alive he had a fighting chance. That's when the darkness swallowed him again.

end of flash back

Martha sat next to his bed. She wanted to be calm but she couldn't. The doctors said that he had recieved the hardest blow. He had internel bleeding. His situation was critical but stabel. The problem was the fact that he wasn't awak yet. The doctors weren't very optimistic. She could feel her brothers arm around her. Tony was sittin at the other side of the bed. She knew they were all praying. She just didn't know if it would matter.

She took his hand. She wanted to feel close to him. Tears rolled down her cheeks. She wanted him to be ok. She wanted him to wake up. She moved closer to him. She closed her eyes. He felt her closer to him. He heard voices, sounds from very far away. He opened his eyes a little. Light was coming trough. He looked at her. Martha.

He wanted to say something but he couldn't. He wanted to move but he couldn't. All she had to do was open her eyes and she would now that he was alright. Slowely he closed his hand around hers. 'Jack.' Tony jumped up. 'Hey buddy.' He moved to the other side. 'Hey. The others?' 'All alright. Even Kim.' 'Kim?' Jack closed his eyes. Explanations would come later.

Martha smiled at him. He was ok. That's all that mattered. He smiled at her. He heard her say she would leave them alone. He closed his hand harder. She couldn't go. He had to tell her first. When the car spind out of controle he realised he couldn't let a chance go. He had to tell her now. 'I love you.'

Martha looked at him. He had just told her. Slowely she moved closer to him. Placing a soft kiss on his head she whispered 'I love you to.'