AN - Here is the other half of that chapter, I know all the Army stuff is wrong but I just made it up, they would never let someone with a mental illness in and also I don't know how long it take to train as a doctor so I guessed, Enjoy :)

"Oh Sammy, I'm here for now and for always I can't believe you have been through so much. Do you mean the same Dylan Keogh we work with?" Tom asks.

"Thank you Tom, for this you did exactly what I would wish someone to do, not to ask questions, not to show sympathy but just to listen and be there for me and yes I do mean that Dylan Keogh" I tell we are about 10 minutes away from Tom's and I just can't wait to get out of this car after another two hour long trip and just be able to snuggle up to Tom.

"If you too are friends why is there so much tension between you too?" Tom asks, I don't mind these questions as they are not based on my life, they are just questions to try and lighten the mood another thing I love about Tom.

"Now Dr Kent if I told you that, I would have to move away" I tell him giggling a little bit.

"And why would that be" Tom questions.

"Because you most likely are not going to like the answer and I would not be able to live without you knowing that you work in the same building as me" I admit, we pull up in Toms drive and I get out of the car a stretch before walking over to Amelia's car seat and taking her out slowly not to wake her. Tom has unlocked the door and has come back to the car to take out all the bags, I make sure I have Uno and take Amelia inside and up to her bed, once up stairs and I have placed Amelia down I slowly take off her shoes and tuck her in leaving Uno next to her. I take of my shoes and pick up Amelia's leaving them at the top of the stairs I'll take them down in a minute but I want to quickly get changed into something more comfy. I pick up one of Toms t-shirts and put on a pair of hot pants, his top near goes down to my knees. I pick up our shoes and walk down stairs to find Tom bringing in the last bags.

"You didn't go upstairs where shoes did you?" Tom asks in a stern voice but in a jokey way. He turns and closes the front door and kicks his shoes off.

"Maybe…" I reply in a little shy voice.

"Not only that but you have my top on, God Sam where are your manners" Tom jokes, picking me up and running through to the living room before placing me on the sofa.

"Now where were we before we got out of the car" Tom asks kissing me then moving so I can sit up.

"Talking about me and Dylan" I say giving him a kiss "Tom, I don't want this to change anything but I'm scared it might but whatever you think and whatever happens can I please just stay here tonight" I ask him.

"Of course Sam, but what your about to say can't be that bad surely" Tom says giving me a smile.

"Not sure I'd agree. Well me and Dylan met when I had just turned 16 he was 24, 8 years older than me but I couldn't help but fall for him unknown at the time the love I felt wasn't really love, I'm more then sure he knew though but never said anything a year later we married, I was 17. A few months after the wedding on the 3rd anniversary of Jack being missing a Camp was found and taken down freeing loads of soldiers but none where English after hearing the news I got out a knife and cut my wrist again I was at my dad's at the time as Dylan was on the late shift and my dad's shift was finishing soon again I woke up in hospital and made the promise to Charlie I would never do it again, Dylan came down to see if I was alright. I went home with my dad not long after and I went and sat in Jacks room and I stayed awake that night thinking about Jack, what he would want me to do, he was a great Solider, corporal in fact and the Army loved him, I came to the conclusion that instead of training to become a doctor over here I would train to be an army doc that way I may possibly find more camps and one that Jack may be trapped in, it was hard telling dad the next day he just cried when I told him. I knew he wouldn't take it well but once he had calmed down he told me it's my life and he won't hold me back, it was always my dream to become a doctor and whether I'm one here or over there he will still be proud of me. Dylan he was a little harder to convince it was the right thing to do for a start he just put me down and kept doing telling me that the Army would never take me as I had self-harmed he was right I did have a very slim chance but when the day came I went with my dad, being who he was the Army was happy to accept the deal, which was they would train me up for 6 years and if at any one time I showed that I wasn't coping I was out and if I made it through those 6 years and passed I would be in the Army… so that's what I did and I showed Dylan"

"Sam, you are such a brave woman and you have been through so much I'm happy for you, and I love you, we have all had previous partners for a start look at me, I have had loads since Amelia's mother but none of them have ever compared to you, you are my everything Sam" Tom said, but I hadn't finished.

"Well things didn't work out well for me and Dylan it was the distance that ruined us, when I came home from Tours he would never speak to me never answer anything I said and by coming home from my second tour he had turned to alcohol which I couldn't take so I cut my home leave early and went back, I was 25 and surrounded by men all the time and one night I gave in and went and slept with my corporal, Ian Dean. I knew it was wrong but I couldn't help myself me and Ian spent a lot of time together and when I came home from my third tour I admitted to Dylan I had, had an affair and that I was leaving him but Dylan being Dylan found comfort in a bottle and once again I left early and this carried on for another 2 years leading up to the events a couple of months ago where I left the Army and Ian Dean behind to come and work back in Holby, my first day back I gave Dylan the divorce papers and he still has not signed them he is trying to hind from the truth. Tom I'm sorry I love you so much but yes I am still technically married, I've signed mine its just down to Dylan" I explain with more tears forming.

"Sam, I don't know what to say, I love you too but you're married?" Tom asks, I just nod my head.

"you needed to know the truth Tom, I should of told you before things get this far" I tell him with a tear falling down my face "I understand if you want me gone, but no matter what Tom I will always love you and I mean it I thought I loved Dylan but what I felt for him was nothing compare to this, this is what I do believe is real love" I tell him standing up.

"Sam, don't leave, I will talk to him and I will get him to sign those papers. I know the love you are feeling as I feel the same this is so much more powerful than any love I have ever felt" Tom says standing up and pulling me into a hug. "I need you Sam, don't walk out on me" Tom whispers and kisses my hair.

"Thomas Kent, I love you more then you will ever know and if you truly want me to stay I will, I need you Tom you make me feel safe" I tell him resting my head on his chest and feeling his heat beat.

"Of course I want you to stay" Tom says kissing my forehead "Let's go snuggle in bed, its 10:30 and we need to be at work for 8:30." Tom takes my hand and we go and snuggle up on his bed, I rest my head on his chest and wrap an arm around him and he wraps his arms around me and we fall asleep like this.