I hope you guys don't hate me too much for making something happen between Jamie and Cherry - and if you do, don't worry. I highly doubt it will be permanent as even my brain isn't that messed up so do not fret and just be patient. All will be restored to it's rightful place in the end. Thanks very much to Sobia who has continued to review even though I guess my last two chapters weren't quite up to my usual standard. It means a lot and also, don't worry about Cherry and Jamie, they are going to end soon...just not quite yet because I do have a plan for what is to happen. In this chapter, I am going to continue Cherry's fling with Jamie, I hope you all like it. So anyway: READ, ENJOY, and REVIEW.

Chapter 37: Urges and Plans

Over the next few weeks I settled into a very weird and yet somewhat satisfying routine that involved both Jamie and Shay, for I needed them both, just in slightly different ways. Shay, well I loved him. he was my rock, the one person that had always been there for me and would continue to be there until the day I died (unless my unfaithfulness from the past few weeks were revealed to him). Jamie, on the other hand, well let's get this straight - I definitely don't love him. He merely fulfilled the urges in my life that depended wholly on excitement. I guess that was what made me feel even more guilty for betraying Shay. I wanted to stop, I really did but there was something about Jamie's muscly build that made me unable to resist temptation every time I found him there, sitting on my hospital bed in the dark. And there was something about the way his experienced hands touched me that made me unwilling to let it end. Something deep within me knew there was something wrong about the way he looked at me. There was no way in the real world that Jamie, who was twenty, would be interested in a fourteen year old like me but even this fact could not deter me from hooking up with him almost every night.

Jamie had not once told me that he loved me, not like Shay who made me aware of his love every time he saw me. This did not bother me though as I didn't love him either and I knew it was selfish to want any more from him than I was giving. I may be many things, but I was not yet selfish. I had also refused to sleep with Jamie because I thought that was one thing that should be kept just for Shay. Also, I had always associated it with love and so I kept faithful to Shay at least in that respect.

It was soon to be Shay's birthday, and seeing as we were both going to be spending it in the hospital, I wanted to make it as special as I possibly could. That also meant that I would not be seeing Jamie on that day. Seeing him would be the ultimate betrayal to Shay and I still had some of my conscience left intact. Maybe not very much but enough to not see Jamie on his birthday. I spent a lot of time with Charlotte and Paddy over the next few days, trying to organise something for him that wouldn't be too tiring but would still be special.

"Well what do you think he'd want Cherry?" Charlotte asked a week before his birthday. "You know him best."

"I'm not really sure," I wrote biting my lip. "We could ask the hospital if we could take him out for the day and take him out for a meal?" Charlotte was shaking her head even as I was saying it though.

"It's a lovely idea Cherry it really is, I'm just not sure if the hospital would let us though. I guess we could always ask."

"Don't worry about it," I scribbled quickly but I was disappointed because I knew that what Shay wanted more than anything was to get out of the hospital, even if only for a couple of hours.

"How are the wedding plans coming on?" I asked them, wanting a change of topic as the current one was depressing me somewhat.

"Yeah very well thanks. As soon as you're out of the hospital we're going to go shopping for brides and bridesmaid dresses," Charlotte smiled as my face lit up. It was ages since I'd been shopping and I had never owned a really pretty dress before.

"No pressure or anything," I joked and she chuckled.

"No of course not Cherry. Just concentrate on recovering in your own time, the wedding can wait as long as we need it to. Also," she looked at Paddy and he nodded indicating for her to go on, "well I don't have any parents so it's not like my dad can give me away. We were wondering if you would mind if I asked Shay to give me away as he's practically part of the family anyway." I beamed.

"I think that's a wonderful idea." I really meant it - it would mean a lot to him and give him something to look forward to for when he was finally recovered and out of hospital. Charlotte laughed at my enthusiasm.

"Well I'll ask him in the morning then. Anyway, we'd better get you back to your room before you stay out after your curfew," she exclaimed suddenly, looking at the time. "I promise we'll think more about Shay's birthday. Would you like us to walk you back?" I shook my head straight away, my mind immediately imagining the expressions of their faces if they walked me back and found Jamie in my room.

"It's just down the corridor," I wrote in my scruffy handwriting. "I should be fine." I smiled at them as I left the room and made my way carefully back to my room with the aid of my crutches. I was easily able to walk without them by now but I got incredibly tired and Doctor Parson's had said it would be better to wean me off of them slowly so for now I was forced to keep using them. I was determined to be rid of them by Shay's birthday though as I knew that would be something for him to really smile about. I reached my door and opened it to see, as I'd expected, Jamie sprawled across my bed. I quickly shut the door and let him take me into his arms, kissing him hungrily, my arms wandering all over his toned body. I reached up his shirt to place a hand on his six pack and he returned the gesture, rolling us over so he was on top of me. He started sucking on my neck but I pushed his head away quickly - I certainly did not want any evidence for Shay to find - and he began to nibble on my ear, sucking me even further into his world of lies and deceit. There was a knock on my door at that moment and I think my heart stopped beating. I couldn't get caught...not like this. I shoved him off my bed and he landed lightly on his feet. He answered the door after we'd both taken a few seconds to sort ourselves out.

"Oh sorry, I thought this was my sister's room," I heard Coco's voice drift through the door.

"Is your sister Cherry?" Jamie asked and I could just imagine Coco nodding. "Yes Cherry's in here and you can come in if you want - I was just leaving."

"Who are you?" Coco asked.

"I was her physiotherapist but she changed to someone else so I was just coming to see how she was getting on with her new one," he replied quickly and I thanked God silently under my breath that he was such a good liar.

"Ok," Coco seemed to buy the story but when Jamie opened the door, I could see that her expression was slightly suspicious and I tried hard to swallow down the guilty lump gathering in my throat. As Jamie left the room, she gave him a cold look that I would never have believed possible to be seen on her face. She slammed the door shut behind him.

"I thought you'd be asleep," she said. Sighing, I picked up my whiteboard and started writing.

"I was until people kept coming in."

"Do you want me to leave then?" she asked, raising an eyebrow.

"Of course not Coco, it's great to see you again."

"Yeah, and you Cherry, I was just surprised to see him here. Shay hates him you know," she said beginning to warm to me. I rolled my eyes.

"I know, why do you think I changed physiotherapists? He has nothing to be worried about though." I lied. I think she could see from my face though that there was something wrong because she looked slightly concerned.

"Are you sure you're alright Cherry?" Coco asked. "You just seem like there's something wrong."

"I'm fine, just tired."

"I'll leave then," she said. "I can always come back in the morning?"

"No don't leave. Stay with me until I fall asleep." I don't know why I asked her to but I guess I just wanted some company that didn't confuse me so much. She sighed.

"Ok Cherry, I'm right here," she said, putting a hand gently on mine while I drifted into an uneasy sleep full of dreams about Shay and Jamie and I could only hope that I wasn't sleep talking at all.

So, I hope you all liked this chapter as much as I did. What do you think of them almost being caught and how much do you think Coco suspects? Or do you think she merely doesn't like Jamie and so is suspicious of him rather than of what the two of them may be doing together? I also would like to ask you all how you think Cherry and Jamie should be found out? I have an idea but it's really cruel on everyone involved. Having said that...it is the sort of thing that could happen so I think I might do it and just hope you don't all hate me too much for it. I hope you liked the fact that this chapter was a bit longer again...I think we have been long awaiting a nice long chapter for you to feast your eyes on. Anyway, enough said for now - I will upload another chapter as soon as possible so until then: READ, ENJOY, and REVIEW.