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This chapter features Rossi and Reid talking. I hope I have done this okay, I personally feel that my writing is a tad dodgy in this chapter.

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Reid was sat on the sofa with his feet curled to his side, Garcia had covered him with a blanket and had made him another cup of hot chocolate. Reid really wanted a cigarette after the nightmare he had had but he fought against the urge to light one up due to the fact that Garcia was there with him. He didn't want to smoke in front of her, he knew he had been doing well not having one before Jacob had attacked him. Reid knew he was going to be breaking his promise to Garcia but he wasn't technically breaking a promise if she didn't find out. He was only having one more cigarette to calm his nerves. His next cigarette would certainly be his last. He had found a spare lighter and two cigarettes in an old packet in his bag a few days ago. He had almost smoke them then, he was glad he had kept them in some ways. He had stashed them in pocket before he had gone into the living room of the cabin.

Gum was not going to help him this time.

"Are you feeling better?" Garcia asked as she sat beside Reid, the rest of the team were around him with hot drinks in their hands. Reid nodded and took another sip of his hot chocolate, he smiled slightly as he felt the hot sensation of the drink as it made its way down his throat. Reid loved Garcia's hot chocolate. It was the best he had ever tasted.

Reid decided then that he needed to start talking to everyone individually. Reid put down his hot drink and pulled the blanket off himself. Garcia was at his side in a instant as he stood up, he swayed slightly but stopped a few seconds later.

"Reid, you shouldn't be up," Garcia said as she tried to get Reid back onto the sofa. Reid put his hand on his shoulder and gave her a small smile.

"I-I'm okay, I need to speak w-with Rossi alone, I hope that is o-okay with everyone," Reid said as he looked at Rossi.

"That's fine Reid, we'll leave you alone," JJ said gently.

"No, I w-want to go for a walk. I'll be f-fine I promise and I'll take it s-slow," Reid said quickly. Rossi stood up and followed Reid out of the cabin. Rossi watched Reid carefully, Rossi noticed that one of Reid's legs was weaker than the other.

They walked out of view from cabin. Reid stopped causing Rossi to give him a strange look.

"Reid, why are you stopping?"

Reid pulled out the two cigarettes and lighter from his pocket. He turned around so Rossi could see what he was holding.

"I haven't had one in d-days, these are my last two, I-I promise G-Garcy I-I would stop. I just need one to calm m-my nerves," Reid said as he twirled one of the cigarettes in his fingers.

"Promise me, promise the team that this will be your last smoke. At least let me smoke the other one, I'm not about to watch you smoke two," Rossi said as he walked forward and took one of the cigarettes from Reid's hands.

"I thought y-you only smoked c-cigars."

"Yes but smoking this takes away anymore temptation for you to smoke again. Now give me the lighter, your hands are shaking so much I don't think you'll actually hit the end of the cigarette," Rossi said as took the lighter from Reid's hands. Rossi put the cigarette in his mouth and lit it before he lit Reid's cigarette. They both stood smoking for a few minutes before they began to talk.

"I-I'm really sorry Rossi. I-I acted like a horrible person back on t-the plane before m-my attack and I-I'm sorry that I-I kicked you out of m-my room at the hospital," Reid apologised before throwing his cigarette to the ground and rubbing it out with his foot. Rossi also threw his cigarette to the ground and rubbed it out, he looked at Reid and gave a small smile.

"Reid, you don't have to keep apologising to us all, you have nothing to be sorry for. The team is the one who should be sorry. I'm sorry. The team should have been there for you, I should have been there for you. Reid, you have been through such an ordeal, an ordeal that none of us can understand. You have been through things that none of us would have been able to handle or even survive. Reid, I am so sorry for what has happened to you," Rossi said.

"C-can I b-be honest with you? Sometimes I w-wish that I had died back when J-Jay kicked the chair from un-underneath me. I wish that I had not survived," Reid sighed before he ran his hand through his hair.

Rossi was shocked at Reid's words.

"Reid, why would you say that?" Rossi asked, he couldn't restrain the shock as it ran through his voice. Reid let out a small little laugh before he answered.

"I wouldn't be like t-this, I-I wouldn't be this broken, weak man who c-can't even defend himself. I don't f-feel like a person anymore, I-I feel used and filthy. Jacob hurt m-me in ways you can't imagine. H-He is in my dreams and everytime I think of my home a-all I remember i-is him grabbing me and holding a k-knife to my throat while he...basically fucked me like I was o-only there to get him off. I-I can't speak properly, I-I forget things sometimes. T-The other day I-I forgot how to make a c-cup of tea, it t-took me time to remember. Jay and the others have scarred m-me for l-life, Jay cut m-my finger off. E-Everytime I look do-down at my hand all I think is what if. What if I had got away from J-Jay Henson when he f-first attacked me in my car. I should have fought back better, if I had I-I wouldn't be like this," Reid said angrily before he walked over to a small fallen log and sat down.

Rossi stood frozen for a few moments before he came to his sense and walked forward till he reached the log. He sat down on it and put an arm around Reid.

"Reid, you are the same person today as you were when I first met you. You still have the amazing strength that only you possess and a strength I envy. I wish I had your strength to get past everything and to fight when most people would give up hope. You are a person, you are an incredible person who is unique, I don't want you to ever feel the way you feel, you are not used or filthy. The first time I saw you, you made me laugh a little because of how you were dressed. You were dressed in some Halloween gear trying to bring the Halloween spirit to the rest of the team. You had this part inside you that always looked to the better things in life, to the things in life that made you happy. You still have that part inside you and I know it is small right now but I want you to keep remembering that part of yourself," Rossi explained before taking a deep breath and continuing.

"I know that memories of what Jay and the others did you still haunt you. I don't want you to think about what might have happened if you had escaped Jay when he first attacked you. You will drive yourself mad thinking about that. Reid, your body may have changed on the outside with the scars and your finger but inside you has not changed. You will always be Spencer Reid who is strong and can overcome great ordeals. I want you to always remember that you have a family. I want you to know that I am proud of you and even though I'm not your father, I would be proud to call you my son."

Reid cried gently before he used his sleeves to wipe the tears from his face. Rossi looked up and saw Reid was smiling gently.

"Rossi, y-you would have made a g-great dad. T-Thank you," Reid said before he gave Rossi a small hug. Rossi returnd the hug.

Rossi meant every word. Reid never have a proper father and his son had died before he had had a chance to live. Rossi thought of Reid as a son and he would do what he could to be a father figure to Reid.

Please review and what character would you like to see next talk with Reid?