Feels!

Uhm, I don't own the song. It's Bully by Three Days Grace and I've been meaning to write this song for like months now! You should go listen to it. :)

It's Lucifer, seeing as I see the 'family' as being Luci, Michael, Gabe and Raphael, and the Bully being Luci so he's speaking about how everyone blames him or his brothers for the things that went wrong in Heaven... :)

'He wakes up haunted with voices in his head, nobody knows it but today he won't go unnoticed.'

Memories swirl inside his head, memories of people screaming, people crying, memories of people falling down, down, down. He's kept himself to the shadows in this hard time, trying to remain as unobserved as possible, but he's had enough now.

'He can't forget, can't forgive for what they said, he's never been so hurt, but today, the screaming is over.'

The words that cut like knives, the cries that chill his fiery grace and the unneeded breaths that hitch and nearly break him. The screaming in his mind, his body and his grace that just won't stop, until today. He won't take this anymore. He will never forget them, never forgive this.

'Blame the family, blame the bully, blame it on me, maybe he needed to be wanted.'

They blame the four of us for the things that went wrong, they blame me for the ones that fell, they blame me for everything but it's not my fault. They blame me for the fact that we were made with love but never really given it, they blame me for the fact that he was made with a heart where his grace should have been. They blame me for the fact that he cared too much and too easily and that he wore his heart on his sleeve, but maybe he just needed to be wanted, maybe he just needed us to be wanted.

'She takes the long way home, fighting her emotions, she's a loner but tonight she won't go unnoticed.'

Orders and forbidden emotions and unknown feelings swirl around her and inside her head and she trembles as she flies, this can't be happening. A superior she may be but she's still at the bottom of the food chain and she doesn't want to do this anymore. She's through with this, she can't do this.

'She can't remember when she loses her temper, nobody knows her but tonight, the silence is over.'

She claws at her vessel, claws at herself, tearing at her grace as tears are falling warm and wet from her eyes and she snarls at herself, she hates herself. Her wings are starting to snap as the grace holding them together falters and she starts to fall. She cries and she screams as she plummets, tearing out the last piece of her grace and letting it soar away from her, she's through with following orders, she's not an angel anymore.

'Blame the family, blame the bully, blame it on me, maybe she needed to be wanted.'

They blame her superiors for her failure, they blame me for the 'taint' in her grace, they blame me for everything that is not my fault. They blame me for the fact that they never knew their father and never got the chance, they blame me for the fact that she was made with a righteous passion instead of an overwhelming sense of loyalty. They blame me for the fact that she was not blind to the crimes they were committing, the people they were slaughtering and the angels that fell and nobody cried for, but maybe she just needed to be wanted, maybe she needed us to be wanted.

'Blame the family, blame the bully, blame it on me, maybe they needed to be wanted.'

Everyone blames me for the things that went wrong, they blame me or they blame Michael or Gabriel or Raphael, they blame the brothers that raised them, that guided them, that taught them right from wrong, they blame us who were better fathers to them than our own. They blame us for not being good enough, for not remaining true enough, for not being pure enough. They blame us for not wanting them, they blame us for betraying them, and they blame us for Father leaving them. Maybe they just needed Father to want them, maybe they just needed Father to want us, maybe they just needed Father and they blame us because we raised them and He did not think them good enough. Maybe they just needed to be wanted.

'Blame the family…'

Sorry I haven't posted in like forever, my Loki feels havejust been taking over... damn Loki.