Tilly woke up to a text from Jen!
"Hey beautiful hope you slept well!
Can I see you later? Xx J
Tilly smiled as she replied back
"Of coarse
Call me later! Xx T
Jen headed off to collage with a spring in her step ..all she had to do was get through the next few hours and she would have Tilly in her arms and on her on her lips..
As she arrived at collage she spots Esther sat on the bench…Alone sketching..
"You have an amazing eye for detail" she states…
Esther jumps she didn't hear Jen creep up behind her…
"Oh thanks but its rubbish,,..
"Esther? Its not rubbish and this is exactly why I think this coarse will be good for you..
You put yourself down all the time.. when really there isn't any need…
If you produced that in my class I'd easily mark you an A..
So c'mon" Jen says nudging Esther,! ,See the good in yourself..
Esther felt good to hear Jen saying nice things to her…Ok I'll try " she smiled..
As the day went on Jen noticed Esther engaging in the group. .even answering some of the questions asked!
Every now and again Esther would look up at Jen and smile…Jen finally made a break through..
All she had to do now was get Esther to open up about bout the bulling…
Tilly checked the time ! It was getting on for 4.30pm and she hadn't heard from Jen yet..
"Hey Gilmore
Are we still meeting up ? Xx T
Jen was in the common room tiding away the last remains of the day. When her phone went off…
As she read the message a smile spread over her face. She was excited to see Tilly..
Just as she was about to message Tilly back. She was interrupted!
"Uh Miss?
As Jen looks up she sees Esther standing there looking very nervous..
Esther? What's up? Jen smiled still holding her phone ready to text Tilly…
Ummmm you know before when you said that I can talk to you anytime?" Esther said fiddling with the buttons on her blouse. Did you mean it?
Jen could see Esther was nervous and obviously wanted to get something off her chest..
"Yeah" Of coarse "Jen smiled..puttin her phone in her bag,,
Take a seat. She said pointing to the chair opposite her.
As Esther takes a seat ,she looks around as if she's searching for something or someone..
"There's no one around" Jen says. ."Just us..
If you want to share something with me Esther ..it goes no further….I promise
Taking a deep breath Esther began to speak…
"Well you know yesterday when you were talking about bullies?
You explained all different ways that you can be a victim. You know? Its not just about being called names or being hit"
Jen could see Esther was nervous and didn't want to scare her off from telling her what was going on so she decided that she wouldn't say anything….Just nodding..
"Well I think I'm being bullied" Esther continued..
"Some people are going out of their way to constantly belittle me and make me an outcast. Like it doesn't matter what I do its never good enough..
Every time im near them , they always have a dig at me" I cant see what I've done wrong..
Jen really felt for Esther ..she could see a younger her sat there , feeling all the pain she did at collage…their pain was for different reasons but never the less the same pain..
"And how does that make you feel"? Jen asked carefully..
Esther sat there for a while…staring at the floor..
"Well it makes me feel like im not good enough" Like im a no body. It makes me feel….
"What? What does it make you feel Esther..? Jen asked slightly concerned for this fragile girl before her…
Swallowing hard and wiping her eyes .Esther looks at Jen" It makes me feel like I don't want to be here!
At collage? Jen asks..
"Here at all. .Esther answers tears rolling down her cheeks..
Jen got up off her seat and hugged Esther who by now was breaking down,,,
Tilly was slightly put out that she hadn't heard from Jen..so she texted again,,
"Hey
Did you get my text?
Are we meeting ? Xx T
Jen lent across grabbing her phone from her bag…
She quickly texted Tilly back
"Sorry
Gonna have to rain check..
Something came up
Explain soon xx J.
Tilly read the message. .rolling her eyes and shaking her head…Again.. She said to herself..
What could be so important that she had to cancel "Tilly thought..
"Thanks..
You coulda told me earlier..
I've been waiting around like an idiot..
Tilly let Jen know she wasn't happy. !.she sent the message with no Kisses at the end. !.Jen would know she's pissed off at her..
As Jen is comforting Esther ..she encourages her to continue..
"I just want her to stop…I want her to leave me alone. If she doesn't like me that fine. But leave me alone…"Esther sniffs..
Jen knew exactly who she was talking about but needed Esther to say the names. She couldn't just accuse people unless she had hard evidence..
"Who Esther? Who do you want to stop…
Esther realise she said to much. She gets up off her chair grabs her bag..
"Its no one." I have to go….
Esther. If you don't tell me then how can we get it to stop…Jen shouted…Look I know who it is ok? I see it. I see them bulling you..
Esther looks round at Jen.. Unsure if she real knows or if she is just digging…
"What do you know? Who do you see? She asks..
"C'mon Esther you and I both know who I mean…the queen bee and her tag along's maybe? Jen replies folding her arms
Esther stands in front of Jen looking like a small child whose been caught drawing on walls..
"She is untouchable. What she says goes. They all follow her lead. Afraid that if they have a voice she will turn on them.."
"Why do you think she picked you out? Jen asked
Esther is a little nervous 1 She knows she couldn't walk away now. She had said to much..
"Well I thought it was because like an idiot I made a pass at her" Esther said with a little laugh..
Why I didn't that I don't know ..cause there is actually nothing attractive about her. Her ugliness from inside pours out of her..
Jen smiled at the fact Esther was getting a voice. She was expressing her feelings..!
"But the more I thought about it the more I realised it was way before that.."Ester stated..
Esther was unsure if she should continue or not. She believed Maddie was jealous over her friendship with Tilly..But knowing Jen had history with Tilly she felt torn…
Jen pushed Esther to continue…she felt Esther was getting somewhere and didn't want her to hold anything in…
"Go on Esther" If it isn't that then…..what is it?
Taking a deep breath and looking away from Jen ,Esther spoke..
"Its Tilly…
Jen was shocked at what she heard…"TILLY? She thought!
Jen's heart began to race. She felt hot all of a sudden. She felt her legs turn to Jelly so she sat down..
What about her? Jen spat out..Tryin to show no emotion..
Esther also sat down.! .Her and Tilly have been friends for like forever..Shes protective over Tilly and hates the thought of Tilly not being around..
She doesn't like Tilly to close to others. And when we….Esther stopped. Unable to look at jen..which was a good thing because Jen was close to tears..
When we all went on a trip a while back. She made me feel like I wasn't involved in the group…Tilly and I went on a date!. Which again Maddie decided to try and ruin. By showing up…Esther said shaking her head..
When she found out we Kissed she totally changed towards me. wouldn't speak to me. Never invited me to anything. And when she would make a point of letting me know she had made plans and they didn't involve me…Tilly would invite me Esther said with a warm smile…" Maddie would give me the dirtiest looks ever..espically if Tilly and I were speaking..
She hates me because others don't…
Jen swallowed hard trying to be professional…Have you thought about talking to Tilly? Maybe getting her to help you?
NO ! No Miss I don't want no one to know..im telling you because you promised you wouldn't say anything. You cant go back on that ..you cant tell anyone I said these thing.."Esther got herself slightly worked up…
O.k. calm down. I wont I promise..Jen said. Placing her hand on Esther's shoulder…If that's what you want ..I'll keep it between us"Jen smiled..