A/N: I apologize for not updating soon, here is a new chapter I hope you enjoy this one

XO I love you baby, you're my everything XO

I DO NO OWN SON

Music In This Chapter:

All or Nothing – Theory Of A Deadman

My Wish For You – Rascal Flatts

Chapter 37 – Hold Me Tight

Ashley POV

This is it nothing to hide

One more kiss never say goodbye

This is it babe your all mine

Looking at all or nothing

Babe it's you and I

I know that I am good for something

So lets go give it a try

We got our backs against the ocean

It's just us against the world

Looking at all or nothing

Babe it's you and I

With you I know that

I am good for something

So lets go give it a try

"Some how I knew you were going to be here" I looked up to see Spencer leaning against the door.

"Ya, I came to record a few songs" I bit my lip and played with the string on my guitar.

"It's not your fault you know" I got up and set my guitar down on the stand and walked past Spencer to the control room. She grabbed my hand and turned me around to face her.

"Ashley, we are all dealing with this. You and I have to deal with this together, you promised you weren't going to run again" I watched as she let go of my hand and went to see on the chair in the corner.

"Spencer, I'm not running"

"It feels like it! all you have been doing is spending more and more time recording music!" I could see the tears in her eyes, I let out the air I was holding and took a seat next to her.

"I feel like if I didn't leave, then maybe she would have never started the drugs Spencer. Everyone was hurt because I made a mistake, not you or anyone" I played with my fingers, and let the tears fall.

"That's what you think, Ashley we both messed up. Now we have to pay for what we have done. This isn't how are family was suppose to be, but it is. So let's get through it together, please" I reached over and grabbed her hand, letting my thumb rub the top of her hand.

"I'm sorry if I made you think I was leaving again" I turned her head and kissed the tears away.

"I need you, I need my wife, and I need my best friend" I needed her too.

"I'm here baby, I'm never leaving you Spencer" I lean in and Kiss her softly on her lips, wrapping my arms around her tightly.

"Hold me Ashley" I leaned back into the couch letting her snuggle into my side; I run my hand through her hair. Kissing her head once in a while whispering 'I love yous'

"My parents want us to come over and have dinner tonight, Kyla will be there too." I rubbed her shoulder.

"That sounds perfect, I miss your parents"

'They miss you too baby" I felt her kiss my neck lightly.

"What time are we going over?"

"We have to be there in an hour, mom told me to pick up some strawberries and watermelon for the fruit salad" I laughed.

"Your mom would ask us over for dinner then make us buy dessert"

"Shut up and let's go baby"

I pulled Spencer back down and kissed her hard, letting my hand run through her hair and pull her closer. I felt her hand come around and up under my shirt. I moan as she took my lip in between her teeth and pulled.

"Do we have to leave?" She laughed and shoved my away from her, making me get up from the couch.

I turned back around and gave her my hand to help her up, and kissed her on the lips once she was in my arms again. With her arms around me and mine around hers we headed for are car out side. Tonight we were going to spend some time with the family… minus one Carlin Davies.

"Can you grab the wine glasses from the top shelve honey" I gave Paula and smile and went and got the glasses, Paula loved her wine.

"Now Paula doesn't be drinking too much, we do have to get up early" I looked and Spencer and Laughed, her parents were always like this.

I grabbed the glasses and met Spencer in the back with the wine, tonight it was red wine. As she poured each glass I couldn't help but feel luck to have her as my wife.

"Baby I'm just going to go get the silver wears if you want to set the plates" I walked over and wrapped my arms around her, kissing her forehead.

"I would love to baby" She turned her head and kissed me, leaving me to set the table. Just when I was putting down the last plate, my cell started to ring.

"Hello"

"Hey Mom" My hearts skipped, we haven't heared from Dylan in a couple of days.

"Hey Baby girl how are you" I could hear her shaking, her withdraws were almost over if she could talk.

"I'm ok…mom it hurts" I sat down on the back stairs playing with some broken pant chips on the stair case.

"I know Dylan, but you will get through this. This is the hard part honey, but you gotta stay strong for me"

"Was it this bad for you?" Do I tell her the truth? I blew out some air and answered her question.

"It was worst baby"

"It was?" I could hear the crack in her voice; it was so painful to hear.

"Yeah baby girl, but you will get through this Dylan" I wiped the tear that had fallen from my eye. Hearing Dylan like this was killing me, I just wanted to go pick up my daughter and hold her.

"Mom?"

"Yes" It went quiet and I heared some ruffling, I looked at the time and she would be just going to bed.

"Can you sing to me mommy" I held in the tears, and the perfect song came to my mind.

I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,

And each road leads you where you want to go,

And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,

I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.

And if one door opens to another door closed,

I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,

If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

But more than anything, more than anything,

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,

Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,

You never need to carry more than you can hold,

And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,

I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,

Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,

All the ones who love you, in the place you left,

I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,

And you help somebody every chance you get,

Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,

And you always give more than you take.

But more than anything, yeah, and more than anything,

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,

Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,

You never need to carry more than you can hold,

And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,

I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,

Yeah, this, is my wish.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,

Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,

You never need to carry more than you can hold,

And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,

I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,

Yeah, this, is my wish.

This is my wish

I hope you know somebody loves you

May all your dreams stay big

"I love you Mom"

"I love you To Dylan"

Soon as I heared her end the call, I let the tears fall. Why did my daughter have to go through this, it hurts so much to know I couldn't be there holding her. I felt a pair of arms around me, there was only one pair of arms that made me feel safe, my Wife's. I turned and cried into her shoulder as she held me, griping me to her.

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