Sharon

I have no idea what just happened but I know I need to talk to Lena about it.

"Uh so what happened?" I asked sitting next to her and she sighed.

"I uh overheard Stef talking about Martin supposedly being a part of their plan and me and Stef fought. I ended up making out with Martin and Stef caught us and to use one of those expression things all hell broke loose" she said and I sighed. Well great this just gets worse for poor Stef.

"What was Martin arrested for?" I asked.

"He punched Stef." She said sadly. I shook my head.

"Honey I understand that Martin saved you in there and that the creates a bond that won't be broken. I understand that you have a sense of loyalty to him. But honey you don't owe him anything." I said and she looked down.

"I don't know what to do" she said and I know she has to be having very mixed feelings.

"Do you love Martin?" I asked hoping for a no.

"I don't know anymore" she answered.

"Then you probably aren't." I said and she looked at me. She looked down again.

Stef walked in and I got out an ice pack for her eye. That's starting to look bruised.

"I'm fine" she said but I glared at her.

"Come on it looks bad" I said and Lena finally had the courage to look up at Stef probably to see her eye.

"Lena can we talk?" Stef asked grabbing the ice pack and they both went outside to talk. I hope everything goes alright. Stef caught them kissing and everything is so crazy and they need too just have a good conversation about it and hopefully fix things.

Stef

There's so much we need to talk about it I might as well make a bulleted list too make sure I don't miss anything. I sat down on the porch and she sat next too me. I can tell she's scared and I know that is what we need to talk about first.

"I'm sorry about how I acted today" I said and she nodded.

"I never meant to scare you and I need you too know that no matter what happens, no matter what you do or how mad I get I would never hurt you. We don't solve things like that here" I said and she looked over at me.

"So shoving him against the wall…" she started and I sighed.
"Was a very bad example" I said and she laughed. At least she doesn't seem scared or mad anymore.

"Yeah it wasn't the best" she said and I nodded.

"I'm sorry about that. I just reacted and I didn't think and I know it's a little hard to believe that but I actually wasn't going to hurt him. Sure I pinned him against the wall but that was all I was gonna do I swear." I said and she nodded.

"Are you ok?" she asked sounding worried and I nodded.

"Oh yeah it's not bad." I said even though it's throbbing.

"I'm sorry about Martin…" she said and I shook my head.
"And you need to stop apologizing for him. He is responsible for his own actions and you don't need to apologize for what he chooses to do. He choose to use violence and look at how that worked out for him…. I also don't want to come off insensitive. I know that you care about Martin and I understand that this has to be hard." I said and she sighed.

"Do you want to talk about it?" I asked and she looked up at me.

"I just um… I always thought that we were going to be together you know and I always thought of him as this really great guy and he's now he's not who he use to be." She said and I sighed. I kind of feel bad for her I know what that's like.

"I know that this sucks, I do. I know that it hurts but it will get better." I said and she looked up at me. I can see how hurt and lost she feels and I just want to take it all away.
"I don't think that Martin has changed. I think you are just seeing this for the first time. I think that you are just finally realizing that you are worth more and deserve better. You are worth so much more than I think you realize. You deserve to be with someone that makes you happy not just someone that you think you should be with because you feel like you owe him. You don't owe him anything…" I said and she had tears in her eyes.

"Look I don't want too see you with anyone i'm not gonna lie about that…" I started and she laughed a little bit.

"But I really don't want too see you with someone that you are just with because he gave you some food and water while you were their. Don't get me wrong I understand that's a big deal. I get that but that's not a reason to stay with someone that doesn't make you happy." I said and she broke down crying and I pulled her into a hug.

"You deserve too be happy, ok? Remember that." I said blinking away the tears myself. With me please with me.

Once she stopped crying I smiled at her.

"We will finish this conversation another time lets go eat." I said helping her up. We went in and had a nice meal with the family. I hope that we are on the path back to our old family because I really miss that.

Lena

She hugged me as I broke down. She is the sweetest person I have ever met. No one lesbian me fell for her.

As I hugged her I let myself drift into the familiarness of it all.

I know I haven't been that close to her lately but when I was a kid we did so much together. I still thought I had more time to go see her again. Life gets in the way and I convinced myself I still have time to go see my wonderful grandma and I never saw the heart attack coming.

"Hey are you ok?" Stef asked handing me a glass of wine.

"I just miss her" I said and she nodded.

"I know you do, it was a beautiful ceremony" she said and I nodded taking a sip of wine.

"It was." I said and she took my wine and put both of our glasses on the table and pulled me into a hug. I let the smell of her and the feeling of being in her arms calm me as I let a few tears go.

"I should have gone too see her" I said and she rubbed my back.

"Hey don't do that. You have been too see her many times." she said and I shook my head.
"Not enough I was her granddaughter and I… never got too say goodbye" I said tears in my eyes. She wiped away the tear on my cheek.

"I know, love. She knows you loved her and she loves you very much." she said and I know that she's right.

"Thanks for coming with me" I said and shook her head.
"Of course, come here" she said and hugged me again. It was just what I needed right now and I know that it will all be ok.

The next morning at like three me and Stef were playing a game of uno because neither of us could sleep and she doesn't have work in the morning.

"So how did we meet?" I asked putting down a green seven on top of her yellow seven because I know she has two yellow left. She sighed at the sight of the changed color and I laughed.

"Well I see how it is" she said and I laughed.

"What I don't have a yellow" I said innocently and she gave me a knowing look.

"Yes you do" she said and I rolled my eyes.
"And how would you know that cheater?" I asked and she laughed.

"I didn't cheat. You even took them too the bathroom with you you didn't trust me how am I supposed to cheat?" she asked and I laughed.

"Yeah like i'm gonna trust you while we are playing a game and you have to be cheating" I said and she shook her head.
"I'm not i'm just smart. You changed the color too yellow earlier and I changed it back so you have too still have them in that half a deck you have" she said and I smiled evilly.

"Well have fun picking up four" I said and she groaned but picked up.

"To answer your earlier question you used too be a vice-principal at the school the kids go too. When Brandon was five I was checking out the school for him and you gave me a tour and we hit it off immediately. I was still with Mike but our relationship was already pretty much over. After a while it became hard to deny that we liked each other more that than friends and I came out…" she started.

"Came out?" I asked not sure what that even means. Come out of were.

"Came out? Where were you being kept?" I asked and she started laughing. I don't get it. Where was she being kept?

"No no I wasn't being kept anywhere. When you are gay people normally assume you are straight until you tell them otherwise. It's called coming out because there's a joke that gay people who haven't told people yet are in closet and when you tell people you are coming out" she said and I gave her a worried look.

"Why were they in the closet?" I asked and she laughed.

"No honey it's a joke…" she said.

"Well in the joke why were they in the closet? Where they hiding?" I asked and she nodded.

"Yeah I guess so… in a way they were from other people judgement." she said.

"And does it happen? Once they come out?" I asked worried about this. Their is no way everyone is just ok with them. People always hate on people that are different than them.

"Does what happen?" she asked confused.
"Do people judge them. I mean people normally hate people different than them" I said and she sighed.

"Well sometimes yes people have different views. People sometimes don't know how to react to people different than them. Sometimes they treat them badly because of that and it's not ok but we just have too hope that one day something shows them that it doesn't matter. That people no matter skin color or who they fall in love with are just people. The world is getting better at that." she said and I smiled.

"Good i'm glad" I said and she smiled at me.

"How do you even know that you are gay?" I asked curiosity getting the better of me.

She sighed seeming too have trouble with how to answer that.

"It's different for everyone I guess. My dad was a christian as was against gays. I was raised with it so I played the role of being straight. When I met you I couldn't deny how much I liked you. I felt comfortable with you and you were and still are so beautiful. And I just wanted to be with you" she said and I think this is the most personal information I have heard about her.

"It's nothing too be embarrassed by. You can tell me if you are having thoughts like this." she said and I sighed. I'm not sure what I should do. Do I tell her about the dream? I feel like that might be crossing a line.

"You don't have to figure out right now. I just want you to know no matter what I love you and that's never gonna change" I said and she nodded.

"So I used to be gay?" I asked and she nodded.

"Yes"

"So we used too be like together together" she asked and I still don't get how that works.

"Yes we used to be together together" she said and I still feel kind of embarrassed.

"So it's ok?" I asked and she laughed.

"Yes honey it's ok to be gay. Why are you having some feelings?" she asked and I nodded before logic could stop me.

"It's ok." she said.

"I had a dream that was um…" I said trailing off my face getting really hot. I shook my head at the smug look on her face.

"Their nothing wrong with that we are married after all." she said winking at me and I blushed harder avoiding eye contact.

"If you ever want to talk about this please know you can" she said and I nodded. Still not sure what to think.

OK so you were supposed to have this yesterday but my google docs wasn't working right. I hope you like it. Also too the reviewer complaining about the straight shit I promise you that's pretty much over. The story will be getting more lesbian from now on I promise. Please review and I hope you like.