A/N: hey guys! Wow...I wasn't expecting to be here before vacation...but I wanted to post the chapter before I go so...yea here you go! Now there's ones thing I want to say! Thank you guys so much for 100 reviews...this is the first time that this has happened! It is because of you guys that I continue to write this story. I struggle with unmotivation and writer's block and just reading your reviews and comments makes me want to push through and continue the story. Every time I get notified that I have a review, I feel excited and reading your nice reviews makes me feel like I'm making people happy so...again thank you so much for your continuous support I really appreciate it so much! So with that being said, let's get to you lovely reviewers!

Guest: thank you I'm really excited to go to the beach as I go every year! (Donnie: yea, you have vacation while everyone is over here hating on me!) well...Donnie is still mad at me for writing this story because everyone hates him but...you know he would never act like this in the actual show. Anyway, I hope you enjoy:)

Olive: yes Raph has it hard alright...(Donnie: oh for the love of...Umbra I'm seriously going to murder this story while you're on vacation!) Donnie, we've been over this...they only hate this story you! (Donnie: that doesn't mean I like it!) uh...anyway yea, I wouldn't do that...just go along with the story...this chapter especially. Uh...anyway enjoy the chapter

Nutella Swirl: ok first off I enjoyed reading your reviews and I wanted to thank you for being one of the people reviewing and helping me get to 100 reviews. As for what you said, thank you for liking my writing style and plot, I try to make it the best it can be. Also as for killing off characters, I would never kill off the main characters...well in this story anyway:)...anyway I hope you enjoy this chapter!:)

Anyway guys, as I said, thank you so much for your continuous support. After I post this chapter, I will be on another hiatus until sometime in August. I'll try not to be too long, but I can't make any promises. So with that being said, please enjoy!:)

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*2 1/2 weeks later*

Mikey's P.O.V.

All of us were sitting in the living room of the lair...well most of us. Rockwell was in the dojo with Raph doing physical therapy. Man he's only been doing it for 3 days and he wants to be done with it...typical. Leo and I talked to Shini about where Donnie has been hiding out. She gave us all the info she knows.

Leo seems eager to get his hands on Donnie but...I'm not. Is it bad that I just want to talk with Donnie and see why exactly he did it? I mean...I'm upset with him, but I don't want to get revenge or beat him to death.

Most of the group wants to but...not me. It might be too late, but I just want everything to go back to the things they were before...when everything was happier and everyone isn't so tense. I mean...I can tell Shini and Slash are talking to each other again, but I can tell that Slash still doesn't fully trust her yet...same with Casey. If I can go back in time to change that day that Donnie ran off, I would.

I let out a sigh as I look across the couch to see everyone talking...except for Shini. She looks in my direction before getting up to sit beside me. After a few awkward moments, I spoke up to her.

"So uh...what are they talking about?"

She sighs. "Donnie."

"Oh..."

"All they want to do is beat him up for what they did to Raph. I'm kinda tired of being reminded that I used to be his little buddy. I just...I should've seen what he was truly planning. I mean, he talked about how he hated you guys, but I didn't think he would take it as far as nearly killing his brother."

I looked at the ground. "We...didn't know he would end up like this. I just wish we saw his struggles sooner...none of this would be happening. Shini...is it bad that I don't feel a spec of revenge towards Donnie?"

I looked back up at her and after a few moments of silence, she sighs.

"No it isn't. I know the motto about how revenge leading to more pain and all that kind of stuff. What everyone is doing right now, is focusing on finding Donnie so they can take justice back since Raph can't right now. At least you have a clear mind than the rest of us."

"What about you?"

"I...already threw my punches at Donnie the last time I saw him. I to.d him to stay away from me and that I wouldn't want to see him again and...I haven't seen him since that night. I still wonder if he ever cared or even thought of trying to see me to apologize. But who am I kidding? After everything we did and said, none of us would want to see each other."

"At least you gave him a friend for a while."

She looks at me. "Mikey, do you hate Donnie?"

That caught me off guard. I wasn't expecting her to ask that question so quickly and straightforward. After a few moments, I sighed.

"I...I honestly don't know what to think right now. I am pretty upset that he injured Raph and everything, but...I don't know he might be misunderstood. After all, we didn't really appreciate him for all that he's done."

"Even if that is true, he didn't just hurt Raph...he stabbed you. It isn't just physical injuries that Donnie is forming, Mikey. He scarred Raph after he stabbed you, you were pretty shaken up after seeing Raph in that pool of blood, he betrayed my trust in him, and everyone is tense in finding him! Heck, Leo seems more pissed off than usual lately!"

"Like I said I don't fully forgive him, but I'm not gonna focus revenge on him either!"

She's silent for a moment. "You know, after everything that's happened in the past few months, you're one of the few people in the group who isn't thinking irrational about this."

"Irrational?"

"You aren't completely filled with vengeance like the rest of us all...I'm no exception. I believe there's you, Splinter, Rockwell, and Mondo who isn't filled with vengeance."

I sigh. "I don't know what to think anymore Shini. It's just-."

I was suddenly cut off by Raph storming out of the dojo.

"That's it! I'm done!" he looked pissed.

Coming right behind him was Rockwell.

"Raphael, wait!"

"No! I'm done!" he turned towards Rockwell. "I'm done with your PT nonsense!"

"Do you want to get better?!"

"My shoulder isn't fully healing anyway so what's the point?! I mean Mikey didn't have to deal with this, so why do I?!"

"Um...I kinda did...but it was with Sensei."

Raph turns to me. "But you didn't have to deal with this bullsh-!"

"Ok enough!" Leo stepped in before looking at Raph. "Raph, what happened?!"

Raph glared at Rockwell. "He decided it was a good idea to stretch my arm! He grabbed ahold of it and I wasn't even ready when he pulled it! Hurt my dang shoulder like crap!"

"I told you I was ready to pull it and even asked if you were ready!" Rockwell argued back.

"How is stretching my arm gonna make my shoulder any better! You even said my shoulder will never fully heal so why am I even doing this stupid therapy?!"

"It's to strengthened your shoulder! Yes it won't heal completely, but we can make it as strong as it can!"

Raph crosses his arms. "Well this is stupid! At least Mikey didn't get his arm yanked!"

"Raph, I was stabbed in the ribs, not the shoulder!"

Raph glared at me and I realized my mistake and looked at the ground.

"S-sorry!"

He sighs. "It's fine...but my point still stands about this PT nonsense."

"Look, I'm sorry I'll try to go easier next time...we'll call it a day for now," Rockwell sighs.

"Good!" Raph rolls his eyes. "I'm heading to my room."

And without another word, he made his way towards his room. I hear Leo sigh behind me and I turned my head towards him.

"Raph is really taking this hard...and I don't blame him."

"Raphael just needs some time...just like the incident with Michelangelo," Rockwell stated.

"I still feel like I'm...not apart of this."

"What do you mean by that?" Karai asked.

"I mean...Raph and Mikey were already injured by Donnie...even though Mikey was never on purpose."

"So you want to be injured?" Karai crosses her arms.

"Of course not! I'm just wondering if Donnie has some kind of goal. I've been up on the surface with you guys plenty of times and he's never once confronted me."

"That could be because you were never alone."

Leo looks at me. "What do you mean?"

"Think about it. When I was stabbed, we were alone...until Raph stepped in. When Donnie confronted Raph, he was alone as well. I'm not saying go up alone and get yourself injured, I'm saying he's going after everyone one by one."

"But...there's something that it's hard for me to understand," Shini says.

"What is it?" Karai asks.

"Raph mentioned of how Donnie had the opportunity to kill him if he wanted to but he didn't. I remember him saying that Donnie wanted to have everyone whenever he does end you. No doubt I'm on that list now."

"Maybe he's hesitant on killing us," I shrugged.

That's when everyone in the room looked at me.

"Are you being serious?!" Leo snaps.

"Just hear me out. Raph was there when I was stabbed as you all know. Raph told me everything that happened during the fight and I was unconscious. He told me that Donnie wanted to hurt him, but didn't because he wanted him to take me back to the lair to get fixed up. If he really wanted to kill us, he would've killed Raph either that night or the night where he stabbed me. And there's the fact that you go out almost every night and he never took the opportunity to strike. I think he just wants to threaten us to make us scared of him or something. Despite everything he's done, I think he's just taking his anger the wrong way."

Everyone stares at me as if I just cracked a murder mystery.

"That...actually makes sense," Mondo says an awe.

A few more moments have passed before Leo walks over to me, and slaps my shoulders.

"Mikey...we're gonna see if your theory is true."

I looked at him confused. "What do you mean?"

Leo looked at Shini, both of them gave a nod, before he looked back at me.

"We're going over to Donnie's hideout...tonight!"

No one's P.O.V.

Splinter watched as his son ran out of the dojo and Rockwell chasing after him. He knew that this was gonna be a tough time for his son and decided to give him space as he went back in his room to meditate. It has been stressful for not only him, but the rest of his family. As he walked into his room, he closed the door behind him, sat down, took a few deep breaths and began to meditate.

Meanwhile, Donnie was stressed himself as he headed back into his building and made his way to his room. He quickly realized that it has been quite a while since he even mediated and had to remember how to get into that state. He took several deep breaths, and it was around 5 minutes before he was able to meditate.

...

Splinter opened his eyes to find himself in a black space. This didn't really surprise him because this does happen at times. As he walked through the nothingness, he heard a slight voice in the distance. Confused, Splinter turned his head to see no one. After a few moments, he shrugs, concluding that he was simply hearing things and continued on his way through the black nothingness.

Suddenly, the voice shouted out again, this time much clearer. Splinter closed his eyes and relied on his ears to pinpoint on where it was coming from. After a few moments, it came out again.

"Hello?! Anyone here?!"

Splinter opened his eyes as he immediately recognized the voice.

"Donatello?"

Splinter turned around and slightly ran until he saw Donnie's back facing towards him. After a moment, Donnie turned around as he stared shocked at his Sensei.

"M-Master Splinter?!"

"Donatello..."

Happy to see his Sensei, he began running to him. Splinter began speed walking towards his son. As Donnie got close enough to his Sensei to hug him, Splinter did something that surprised Donnie...Splinter back slapped him in the face. Donnie stumbled backwards and stared at Splinter in shock as he cupped his cheek.

"S-Sensei...what was that for?"

"You know what you did Donatello!" Splinter's voice was unusually calm, and that scared Donnie.

"What?"

"You've injured two of your brothers Donatello!"

Donnie blinked, still in shock and surprise.

"Mikey...I stabbed him back accident!"

Splinter crosses his arms. "And Raphael?!"

Donnie hesitates but eventually grunts.

"You know what he and Leo did to me...especially that day."

"Donatello, what Leonardo and Raphael did to you was verbal! What you did to Raphael was far beyond what he and Leonardo did to you combined! As I said, their attacks were verbal while yours was beyond physical! Are you aware that you could've killed your brother?!"

"I was teaching him a lesson!" Donnie snaps. "He needed to know the pain that I went through!"

And at that moment, Splinter snapped.

"What you did Donatello, was beyond inhuman! Michelangelo was the one who found Raphael and it must've been the worst sight he has ever seen! You aren't only hurting your brothers Donatello...its impacting everyone! I know you and Shinigami were good friends for a month! She seemed to have enjoyed your company as far as I've known,a don you've completely destroyed her trust in you! Not only that, but she's having a difficult time with Slash and Casey! I thought I've raised you better than that! You know revenge is never the answer!"

At this point, Donnie was feeling both sadness and anger as he avoided eye contact with Splinter.

"I thought...you were on my side!" he then looked at Splinter. "I thought you would understand!"

"I've noticed that your brothers haven't been by your side, but I was leaving it to you to tell your brothers how you felt...obviously I should've stepped in because you chose the wrong path. I'm not against you Donatello, but your actions and hatred towards two out of three of your brothers is not only affecting them, but they are affecting your friends and allies! That is selfish behavior! You need to snap out of this revenge phase you are going through!"

"So what does everyone hate me now?!"

Splinter sighs. "Michelangelo still wants to believe that you're just lost...but he is upset with you. He doesn't hate you however. Leonardo however is a different story. Raphael is obviously angry, and everyone else...well they are mixed emotions."

"And you?"

"I've told you already, my son...I am not against you nor do I hate you, but I am angry and disappointed that this is the path that you've chosen...especially with the amount of physical attacks you put on Raphael. He has a shoulder injury that will never heal, and he was stuck in a coma for 5 days."

Donnie was slightly shock to hear this...not expecting to hear that what he did to Raph was this severe.

"Oh...I see," he sighed. "I...can't forgive them. I'll have to think this over."

Splinter nodded. "Very well...but just try to remember to not let this anger take over and let vengeance drive you. Michelangelo has been holding Leonardo back from that."

Donnie nod. "I see. Well...I better go."

Splinter nods, but before Donnie left, he ran up to his father and gave him a hug. This surprised Splinter for a second, before returning the hug. After a few moments, the broke free and Donnie waved goodbye as he left.

In the split moment before Donnie turned his back to Splinter, Splinter could see a smile...a real smile that has been worn to the Donnie who would get along with his brothers...tackling each other in the kitchen...when he finally finished his latest invention. Splinter smiled at this as he decided to end his mediation session.

...

Splinter opened his eyes as he decided to get up and check to see how everyone else was doing. He walked out to see Mikey asking multiple question to Leo. As he listened more, this is when he realized what they were planning on doing that same night.

Meanwhile, Donnie opened his eyes to find himself still in his meditation position. He sighed as he got up and walked to the lab to think things over. At first, he thought maybe Splinter was right...maybe he did take things too far...maybe he does need to try to reach out to his brothers...even if they won't forgive him.

However, the horrible things that Leo and Raph had said to him suddenly came swimming back into his head, and it was nothing but echoes going through his head. He covered his ears, wishing it would stop, but it happened so much, that he screamed as he broke something from his lab table and shattered on the floor.

He clenched his fists as he stared at the table below him. After hearing what Splinter said about everyone hating him and never understanding how he was actually feeling, he obviously won't understand them.

Feeling his anger and hatred returning, Donnie stormed out of the lab...to make a plan of his own.