"I got the milk!" Namine cheered as she came into her room with 3 glasses of chocolate milk.
While the youngest immediately jumped up with excitement and fetched a glass and a cookie, the other got up from the table at her own steady pace to retrieve the items. Once everyone was served, they all returned to the long white table.
Little Namie sipped on her milk happily and began to make a mess when she dipped her cookie into her glass. Namine tried not to look at her drinking the milk and distracted herself by playing with the liquid in her glass with a spoon.
"Can you try and not make such a big mess Namie?" the other asked and looked over at Namine. "I would think she would learn from her lessons by now"
Namine nodded with a small smile as she watched Namie take a sip from her cup.
"So" Namie began and put her cup down "Can you teach me to paint too?"
The question caught Namine off guard as she looked bewildered at Namie.
"What? But you hate painting." Namine explained still avoiding looking at little Namie having fun with her milk and cookies.
"Well, I know it means a lot to you and I want to do more stuff with you before your time expires"
Then, she let out an actual smile. One that Namine had never seen before. One that was given to a loved person.
'Is she beginning to really feel?' Namine thought and look back at her and saw her finish drinking her milk.
Namine wanted to throw up and placed over her hand over her mouth in shock of what she had just done.
'What have I done?'
A tear slid down her cheek and Namie noticed and got up to comfort her.
"Namine?" she asked "Are you- oh my God!"
She never finished her sentence on the count of seeing little Namie vomiting violently on the floor. But it was not the not the contents of her stomach they spread across the floor but a massive amount of blood.
Little Namie cried in pain as she laid down on her hands and knees in a puddle of her own blood.
"It hurts!" she screamed at the top of her lungs but she stopped screaming once she began to vomit some more blood. This time in large clumps.
Her red dress was painted red from her blood while her face turned red from her intense crying and sobs.
"Namine help her!" Namie yelled and joined her side only to get vomited on as she tried to help her up.
They struggled in each other arms as Namie tried to help the youngest but it was of no use, especially once she began to shake violently. Namine just stood away from the two and slowly backed into a wall whiling holding her breathe as she watched little Namie die in pain.
"Ugh, Namine! Hel…hel…!" that was all Namie could say before she let go of little Namie and allowed her shaking body to collapse onto the hard marble because she began to cough violently. Her body jolted with each cough and once she looked at her hands, she saw she was coughing up blood.
"Wh…what?" she whispered and fell to her knees onto the ground.
Little Namie now laid still on the ground, small rivers of blood still escaped her mouth and Namie continued to cough up blood as she crawled to the youngest. She was silent, and still. Her eyes were still open and she had a look of shock on her face. Namie looked away as she closed the toddler's eyelids and had a small tear come out of her eye.
"She's dead." Namie announced and looked up at Namine "I hope you're happy"
Namine tried not to let tears come out but they did. She slowly began to walk to Namie but she stopped once Namie began to vomit blood like the other.
"Why couldn't you have just killed me in my sleep!?" Namie yelled at her and vomited more as she held onto her stomach in pain.
Namine couldn't take it anymore and hurried to Namie's side and into her pool of blood and embraced her. Her dress absorbed the blood and even went into her hair but she didn't care, she wanted to hold on to Namie as long as possible.
But it was not long till the girl's body began to shake like the others. Namine held her tightly, trying to stop the shaking and to keep her still, but it was no use.
"Stop!" Namine cried out "Please stop!"
She continued to hold onto Namie's shivering body as if holding on tighter would make it all go away but the body eventually just froze and remained still. Namine pulled away from the body and looked down to see Namie dead in her arms with an expression of shock on her face.
Namine cried onto her face and closed her eyelids before letting the body fall to the floor next to the other.
They were dead and laying in a pool of their own blood. Red liquid covered the table, the floor, and all three of the girls. She could only stare with sorrow as she observed the bodies, unable to believe that they were dead.
The deed was done but at a price. How could she live with herself knowing what she had done just now?
Their blood was never the same as that of a regular person, so it did not surprise her to see the blood soon dry up and turn black within minutes, making it clear that the 2 girls DNA was indeed lost. Even the blood on her dress and hands hardened quickly and soon turned black.
It would take till morning till the bodies were found but even the fact of not being caught still made Namine uneasy. She was a murderer. Just like any other heartless Organization member. It made her just like the person she hated the most, Xemnas. She deliberately killed 2 people, and now she wanted to kill herself.
"What have I done?" she mumbled and held her knees up to her chest for comfort. She tried to ignore the blood that surrounded her as she rocked back and fourth. She ignored the bodies by putting her head down and closing her eyes and imagining this was all a dream. She ignored the time and just sat quietly as she let out soft cries of grief. She soon became so in tuned with how horrible she was that she didn't even notice when the door opened and someone came in.
They stood next to her and then kneeled down to her and wrapped their arms around her shoulders.
"It's ok Namine" Roxas whispered to her and slowly picked her up from the ground.
He held her gently and felt her arms wrap around his neck as he carried her out of the room.
The whole entire mansion was completely dark and it was clearly late at night but Roxas knew where he was going. He carefully brought Namine to an old unused kitchen in the basement where he sat her on top of a countertop next to a sink.
Moonlight crept through the blinds giving a very dim lighting in the room. The lights didn't even work where they were so Roxas just tore down the blinds to have the window completely clear for more lighting.
It took a while for the water in the sink to work but clear cold water soon ran out. Roxas grabbed a nearby towel and wet it and started to clean the dry blood off of her arms.
"Roxas" she said weakly "I don't deserve to live"
"Yes you do and you're going to" he replied and continued cleaning her arm.
"I just killed both of the Namies'. Just when they were beginning to really care and… feel."
"But it needed to be done" he explained and took the other arm in hand.
"Oh, Roxas. I don't know if I can help with the rest of the plan. I'm not strong enough"
"Namine" he told her sternly "you need to help me out when we see Vexen. I don't want to hurt him to make him cooperate since we need him alive."
"But I don't think I can do it" she began to sob
Roxas sighed and lifted her chin to meet her eyes.
"We need to stop this." He told her "I know it's hard on you right now but soon we'll be out. And we won't have to worry about this for the rest of our time. But you HAVE to stay with me"
More tears came out of Namine's eyes and she continued to cry more and covered her eyes with her hands.
"I know!" she screamed out at him "And I'm sorry but I feel so weak right now! Physically and emotionally!"
Roxas could only look at her, unable to say anything. She removed her hands from her eyes and stared down at him, now with a look of anger.
"I thought I knew what we were up to but its…I…Namie!...Ugh! Roxas, I just want to be dead right now!"
Roxas gave Namine a look of pity but after listening to her words, he began to get upset and sad himself. That's when he reached up and wrapped his arms around her and pulled her close to him. His head rested on her stomach and he clutched onto her as if holding onto life itself. Namine was too surprised by his actions to react and just stood still in his arms and looked down at him.
"Please don't leave me Namine" he begged to her "This is all for you. I'm doing all of this for you! To be with YOU!"
Namine felt hs grip on her dress tighten and she lightly laid her hand on his back, while the other patted his hair. Roxas got lost in her touched and continued to enjoy her hands running over him and began to daydream of those sweet peaceful days in his room back in Twilight Town. Back when everything was ok and they were together and happy.
"In all of my lives," he began "before I met you, I was always curious about my own emotions, yet I remained obedient to Xemnas and his evil plans. I didn't know compassion. I had never even considered being with another member or even thought about having a relationship. I didn't know how to care for anyone but myself just to make sure I didn't get killed out in the world. There were times when I thought I wouldn't live to see another day but I never cared, because I could be made again. Yet, I always felt like there was or should be more to life instead of just repeating it over again. But now I have something I want to have and hold on to. All those years ago when Xemnas began his reign over all of those worlds, it was a war everywhere a member went and a bigger war started once we met. And it's happening again now."
Namine took in his words and slowly began to smile down at him as tears continued to glisten in her eyes. Roxas looked up at her with sad eyes and she held him closer.
"Hearing you say you want to die" he continued "Just makes me want to give up, and die too"
This time, Namine let out her tears and let them slowly run down her cheeks. He gave his life as a regular teenager in Twilight Town, his high and powerful rank in Organization XIII and was ready to give up his life, all for her. And all she was doing was basically saying was that she didn't want it. She also wanted to stop this war too and be with Roxas more than anything but her morals were holding her back. Betrayals and grudges were keeping her away from their goal.
That's when she realized that this was a test. A test of trust and faith and, right now, she was failing. After a few moments of silence, Namine placed her hands on the side of his face and lifted him up so she could face him.
"Why do you have to be right?" she tried to smile "And why am I keeping you down?"
"But you're not keeping me down" he told her and stood up in front of her "You're the one keeping me alive! I know this is hard for you right now but I promise it will get better. Just, stay with me a little longer"
Namine brushed away her last tear as Roxas backed away from her to let her get her thoughts together. After a few deep breathes, she was finally able to stare back at him with sharp eyes.
"Ok. Let's go" she told him.
Authors Note:
Sorry the chapter was short, but the next is really long and I didn't want to split it. It's getting really dark and it only gets darker from here, sorry to break it to you guys…. Unless you like dark, then you're minds are going to be blown away! Sorry Kintora but there won't be a sequel. When this ends… it ends! I've been working on this story since 2006 for crying out loud! I'm ready to retire fanfiction writing until another plot comes up.
Speaking of ending, I've calculated maybe 1 or 2 chapters left. In the mean time, what did you think about this chapter? Yeah, Namine has some issues but, not for nothing, I always found her as a delicate and fragile character. Now Roxas is just awesome and can do anything! That's why he's a "raging, undefeatable warrior and a super, seductive lover"! ;-)