Katekyo Hitman Reborn

My Fate is Certainly Uncertain

Chapter 34: The Blue Dress

Overall warnings: Swearing, disclaimers and other things. Happiness in this chapter though as well. Wow.

[Written to: Oggi per la Prima Volta - XxMsYelenajonasXx ( Youtube Channel. ;) ]

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I didn't want to open my eyes. I had no idea what time I woke up, but underneath the sound of hair-straighteners sizzling my hair and everybody priming over me, the sound of the Italian breakfast show played on a low volume. I could feel the soft ends of a brush wipe over my eyelids and rather nicely, all of the ladies explained to me what they were doing. Putting on BB cream. Putting this product in my hair. Putting that product in my hair. Trimming my nails. Putting a new coat of clear on. Giving me a fair amount of eyeliner, by the feel of it. Though I could be wrong. I had my eyes closed, after all. Couldn't see anything except for the red haze that comes with staring into a light source with closed eyes.

Jenny hardly ever left my side. She stayed there, telling me how pretty I'd look, except for when there was a knock on the door. I turned my head slightly to hear better and under the t'ching of one of the ladies, I heard Jenny come back in.

"What's up?" I asked.

"You dress has arrived!" I heard crackling and the lady told me I could open my eyes. All of the mirrors in the room had been covered, so I couldn't see anything until I was put in the dress.

One thing about today was that I hardly got to plan things. Good for me because I hated doing that sort of stuff but I too was nervous-slash-eager-slash-and had the tight chest syndrome. Something things though I did have a say on, thankfully.

"What's it look like?" I implored.

"Dont' know yet miss, you'll and I will be the first to see it."

"Oh, okay." I hummed along to the tv. "How's Bianchi doing?"

"She's doing fine Miss. She'll be in once you've got the dress on."

"You can open your eyes now." The lady with the brushes whispered. I wanted to touch my face, but I got the feeling that if I did, I'd be told off.

I got up out of the chair and - still in my pyjamas, a lavender nightgown - I followed Jenny into the bathroom. This one was a little bigger than the one that I shared with Dino, and I often said to him that it's okay if he used it too. But he refused, saying that girls needed it more than guys did, to which I threw the pillow at him and kissed his cheek.

She locked the door behind me and I took off my nightgown. I wasn't embarrassed about stripping down to just my panties in front of a middle aged lady. We were all women here, it didn't matter at all. The bathroom mirror was covered with a sheet.

"Keep your eyes closed, Miss Phillipa."

I pouted. "Won't I have trouble getting it on?"

"That's why I'm here! I'm not going to stand by while you make a fool of yourself, now will I!" She chuckled. "I want you to be the first to see it on."

Ah.

This lady knew me well enough that getting stuck in clothes was a habit of mine. Strangely enough, Dino had the same problem as well.

I love you, strange, strange woman.

"But won't you see it first then."

I could hear her shake her head in a fit of giggles. "Oho, my dear, no no. I've been divorced twice and I've had my fair share of weddings and dramas for a lifetime. Just think of me as a mop that's leaning on a wall."

"A mop? No." I shook my head, as she directed me in putting the darn thing on. The top of my shoulders felt exposed but my arms had sleeves so it didn't feel like it was going to fall down. Certainly didn't when Jenny zipped it up. Oh boy, I could feel the nerves in my toes now.

"One more minute." She hummed, quickly tying something to my waist, to which I breathed in sharply. Jenny apologised, and loosened it up a little. "Aaand there! Oh Miss, you look wonderful…."

"Can I open my eyes?" I asked timidly.

"Hang on." She replied, and I heard ripping of fabric. "I'll take this down so you can see yourself, yes?"

And what I saw wasn't the girl I knew. She didn't have those bags under her eyes, like I had, from sleepless nights, thinking about what I've done and how I should've, could've, would've. No blemishes for my eyes to see and a whopping dress was in the place of my nightgown, that flowed to the ground and circled like mist.

"Oh my god, I feel weird…." I whispered into my hand and gulped, the pit in my stomach growing. "I feel so pretty….."

I could hear Jenny smiling, even though she didn't say a word while I gaped at myself in the mirror.

The sash around my waist was a fine blue and I couldn't stop myself from touching the lace sleeves. They felt so delicate that I didn't want to move! Heck, I was afraid of tearing it by falling or something!

"You look like a princess…" She told me and I took her hands in a breath's moment. Closer we were becoming, and I felt an overwhelming sense to cry. Today was a day that I never thought would happen.

"Thank you for being my friend." Smiled me, careful not to smudge my makeup. "Would you go get changed, please?"

"Excuse me?"

I smiled wider, pleased in the fact that my surprise was working. "I want you to be one of my bridesmaids. Go ask Lucy for your dress, she's got it kept in her closet."

He face was one of pure shock. No idea, no clue in the world that I would do this and she looked at me with those vibrant green eyes I envied. She clamped both of my hands within hers and spoke through tight lips, restraining herself. "I wish I had a daughter, who would be as pretty and as kind as you are Miss. I'm glad that Boss is marrying you."

I had to blink to keep myself calm. "...thank you. Really, I appreciate every detail. Would you please, though, go fetch Bianchi for me and then go get yourself changed?"

"Certainly Miss. I'll be back as soon as I can."

And then, once again this morning, I was by myself. I felt like I needed to sit to sit down on the bed and hold a pillow, or something just as soft. Time wasn't on my side today and as I speculated over myself in the mirror - wondering if I could loosen it up a little - I started to ready myself up.

I needed more confidence, honestly. Girl of my age should be excited, damnit but here I am, wishing I could crawl back under my covers.

"Stop that." I told myself, as soon as the thought had passed. "Today you are getting married to a guy who loves you and who's going to treat you well. You can't keep thinking and sulking about the past because you're going to look like a fucking sorry case and you know that you don't want that. You can protect and be happy! It's simple! Just live!"

I looked and myself and rolled my eyes. "What am I saying? Oh god I'm so nervous….."

"Phillipa?" Bianchi knocks, calling for me from the other side of the door.

I falter in my steps. I still didn't want to move. "Uh, yeah?"

"Are you okay?" She asked, a little worryingly. "You were a bit loud."

"Ah, sorry! Sorry!" I put my hand on the door handle. "I'm coming out now."

My hand was sweaty from holding the door handle and I had to lift the back of the dress a little so that I could close it behind me. I heard Bianchi gasping and covering her mouth, so dramatically that I winced a little from the pitch. It was like sparkles were in her eyes, her mind going into some sort of euphoric bliss. The dress made some areas of my body more accentuated, so I tried to pat myself down a little, but Bianchi shook her head. A wide, pink smile covered her face, and the girl, only a couple of years younger than me, wished that this could be her.

She was my Brides Maid of Honour and she looked as if this was her prom night. Hair piled into a swirling bun at the back, blue suede dress bouncing off at the knees. Halter neck. Just, amazing. I felt a little short though, since she was in matching heels and I was in bare feet, holding up the front.

"You. Look. Fabulous!" The Makeup artist swooned at the dress and smiled wider than Bianchi, waving her brush in the air, diving into the suitcase to find something. "Wait, wait, wait! I have the perfect lip colour for you!"

My day was just getting started.

I wasn't allowed to leave the room till I was told to, and apparently, Dino had asked Romario to come and check on me, but Bianchi got up quicker than a sprinter and ushered his out like there was no tomorrow. She went on hollering about how it was bad luck, even though that was only applicable for the groom. Because while she told him off, apparently there was no problem on letting Reborn into the room. Jenny hadn't come back yet and the people who were doing my hair and makeup had packed everything and left. They got paid before-hand, but the Lady with the suitcase said that she'd stop by Jenny's room.

It felt more like a normal day, with Reborn stepping into the room. He didn't have his cliched fedora with him today, 'cause he figured that today was a day for change. And instead of wearing that mauve dress-shirt, opted for a clean, white one with a custom Leon tie. Very snazzy, if I was allowed to compliment him. But I think if I did, I wouldn't hear the endless "No, you look way better!" comments.

"Hey." I said, in the most normal way I could. Today wasn't a good day for keeping the mind thing under control. Too many nerves.

He whistled and smugly smiled. I gave his a long hug, and set him on the ground. (To which he pouted and jumped up onto the vanity table. The mirror behind him reflected me in a light, and it was hard not to lose myself in the feeling that I could end up as several little bits on the floor, from being blown up.

"Looking good." He told me, taking his hands out of the pocket.

"Aha, thanks Reborn…." I scratched the back of my head. "Everyone's been telling me that….."

"At least act like it! It's your wedding day!"

"Huh." I smiled awkwardly. "I thought you'd be more upset about this. Not, you know, Iemitsu upset, but a little more upset that I'm sorta leaving?"

"You're not dying, right? You'll still be here. All you need to breathe and remember that you're still you."

"I getting more nervous by the minute….."

Reborn nodded understandably. "It's okay to be. You're making a huge decision in public that's for the rest of your life!"

Not helping.

The ceremony was going to be restricted to close family and friends and heads of other families plus one more guest of both mine and Dino's families. Then, after at the afterparty, we'll toast with everybody there. I personally was looking forward to dinner. And, you know, sleeping this day away.

"I think your mother would have loved to see you right now."

I blushed and looked down at my feet. "...Nah, she's was never one for parties."

"Nonsense."

"Thanks. Dad."

"You're welcome, daughter of mine."

"Don't go blowing up anything please."

"Aw, why not?"

"It's my wedding day."

"But weddings are boring and I want to show how much fun I can make things!"

"You are impossible."

"No, you are."

No.

Yes.

No.

~o0o~

The chapel ceremony was overwatched by a stained glass window that towered over the church, capturing everybody in it's gaze. The trail of my veil was almost as long as the dress itself and I tried not to fall over in the shoes that I'd been given. I hadn't improved in that area since Dino's coronation.

I could feel everyone staring at my back as the celebrant read everything out in a big, booming voice, the sound waves reverberating off of the brick foundations. I found myself staring silently at the back of his hard covered book, every now and then, squeezing Dino's hand. He squeezed back every time.

The celebrant addressed everybody and after that, the reading of the vows and expressions of intent were exchanged. I was pretty nervous, since I hadn't gone to a wedding before, so I had no idea what to do for this part. All this time, I felt like I was going to hurl. Maybe the dress was on too tight, or the twisting in my stomach cutting off my circulation.

It was my turn after Dino's. Repeating the words back to the celebrant was heartening, and I did stutter at first, and a squeeze followed.

"Do you Phillipa Marie-Ann Marsh take Dino Valentino Chiavarone, to be your beloved husband, knowing in your heart that you'll have a faithful and loving friend? On this wonderful, sunny day in front of your family, friends and alliances, will you give your all towards Dino when he needs support and care? Will you support him in times of sickness and health, through good and bad, through thick and thin, to share with him life's best and brilliant moments, for as long as you both shall live?"

Squeeze.

I looked at the celebrant, from gazing at the glass windows, and slipped a silent reply to the boy next to me. My boy.

"I-I do."

He smiled and I fixed the curl behind my ear. The celebrant, big in his appearance, addressed the crowd.

"Now folks, Phillipa and Dino have written their own vows and will now read them out to each other." He grinned and looked at me. "Ladies first."

"Thank you." I whispered and look up at those eyes I kept finding my way back to each night. Soft, pink lips parted patiently, and I told myself to get on with it. I'd have time later to watch him by myself.

I couldn't believe that I was going to say this in front of all these people. It felt very vulnerable to me.

"Dino. I feel so lucky to be able to have met you. Because of you, I can do things and smile and honestly say that I'm not bothered by anything anymore. Everytime you eat, every time you walk, smile, whatever you do it's like nobody else can do it better. I want to keep being that couple that everybody looks at with jealousy and know that I couldn't have found a better person to share my happiness with. I found a place to call home and I promise to do my best by your side. I never did think that this day would arrive, but it has and I stand here thinking how wonderfully lucky I am. I love you."

I swallowed a smile as everyone clapped and quickly whispered. "And protect you from Reborn. I love you, my darling."

He grinned like a wild mammal, showing a toothy smile that stretched from ear to ear, from planet to planet. The celebrant giggled like a child, hearing it, but apart from him, nobody else did. Nobody was prouder, not even myself or my father, than him. Dino's eyes were shining, and I didn't feel so vulnerable afterwards.

"My love, my silly Philly…." My jaw didn't drop but I knew from there he was going swimming in humorous waters. Silly Philly, Silly you! I couldn't believe he just said that! Oh my god…..

Dino flashed another, unstoppable smile, like he'd been given the best news in the world. I guess he had, in a way.

"You're perfect.I'm correcting you, when you say that I'm better, but in truth, you'll never admit to beating me there. I'm thankful for, not only what you give to me for just standing by my side today, but the man you've made me become. I love you no matter what anyone else tells or says, and I know you'll always share the last chocolate chip cookie, without me even asking. I love to to the sky and back, so please don't ever change."

Yes. I said mentally, smiling away my tears. This feels good and right. This is what I want.

"I love you more." He mouthed. "The most."

"Dino and Phillipa, with a warm heart, I now can proclaim you husband and wife! You may now kiss!"

That moment felt forever.

I wished it could have been.

~o0o~

Photos were right after we left together, and then for a period of twenty minutes, I was escorted around the back of the mansion, by myself, so that I could get changed out of the dress. Loved the look of it, but apparently there was another outfit ready for me back in my room.

Jenny gave me a big, clamorous hug and helped me take off the dress. My stomach and lungs were both grateful for the removal.

"Oh, is this it?" I asked, as Jenny was going to wait outside, as Romario came - once again, the cheeky bugger - to check on me.

"Yes Miss. Please get changed quickly now!"

Royal blue, it was, the colour of my evening gown. As I ran my fingers over the fabric, I stood there for probably a minute, just looking over it. Like my wedding dress, it felt so delicate. Chiffon, I think it was.

"Boss picked it out, Miss."

"Phillipa." I reminded her.

"He thought that you'd prefer a little comfort by this time of day. I must say though, your other dress was brilliant! I never heard of the designer though…"

"It's fine." I mumble, moving to pick up the coat hanger. I changed into the dress and slipped on some flats that were the same colour.

Everybody who attended the ceremony was out on the courtyard, enjoying drinks and chatting away to each-other. Dino was attending to some guys from the firearms department. Rather fearlessly, I kissed him on the cheek from behind and thanked him for the nice gift, which earned a couple of remarks from the men closest.

"She cant keep her hand off him!" The blond remarked, and I chuckled along with him.

"You're just jealous that you can't find this sweet hunk of man in your supermarket." I replied, giving Dino a hilarious smirk and wandering off to find Aria.

I couldn't determine what was more funny, Dino blushing immensely or the other blond actually thinking how true that was.

There was a live quartet, and above the floating notes, a light air of happiness covered the crowd. I could hear laughs and smiles. I could hear deals going on. As much as this was a happy, untimely event, this was also a large meetup.

Aria was at the far table, eating snacks, while listening to Gamma go on about something she didn't really care about. She was thinking about getting home and sending Yuni a care-package, like she did every month that her work forced her to be away from her daughter.

"Aria!"

"Phillipa! Yo!"

I gave her a hug. "How are you and missy?"

"I'm doing fine!" She smiled, and told me with her mind that they were both doing okay. Apparently, Yuni was in the middle of preschool.

"I'll have to come visit you soon, yeah? We should have some cake and tea and stuff." I clapped Gamma over the shoulder, to which he stumbled a little. "You should come too Gamma! Aria's always going on about you and I-"

I abruptly shut my mouth when Aria randomly changed the subject, as loud as she could. They were having fun, the both of them, and I was happy that they could come.

"You looked stunning!" Lussuria said, now examining her new outfit. The man had a flair for colour and in his maroon suit, he was one of many conversations today.

"I'm glad those who could came." I admitted. "You too Squalo. I know you'd rather be cutting people cut elsewhere."

Out of everyone in the Varia, only they came. While reluctant he seemed, the world class swordsman t'ched at my praise and took a swing of his wine.

But to my surprise, the Vongola were here. Tsuna, his guardians, even Lambo, I-pin and his mother. How did I not know they were coming! I thought they had school and other shit to work out!

I was about to go over to them when my elbow was grabbed by the man from before, the one that spilt red wine on me. He didn't spill anything on me this time, but sure felt like spitting on me. What a deplorable man.

"You looked nice."

"Thank you." I replied, taking my arm back, and with a firm voice, I addressed him to what he required. 'What do you need, mister? Because I need to go greet some guest who came a lo-"

His angry voice cut me off and the moustache that hung above his lip twitched. Somebody probably forced fed him a lemon to get his face to look so tarnished. "I hope you realise how much trouble you've caused me, missy. "

"I don't know what you're talking about, mister." I spoke innocently. "And I don't like the way you're looking at me right now. So I suggest you leave,"

"Leave? Ha, you're a joke. Who paid you to commit this fraud of indecency? Was it that loser himself? You know what, you're both a load of shit. Y-"

The man didn't have time to finish his insult. I slapped him with as much force as I would put into a punch. It knocked him back quite a bit, and I think I only angered him more, but the people around us were starting to notice, at least.

'How dare you call me that, call him that."

In that moment, he did what he wasn't to do as spat at me. The vulgarity really got me riled but what pissed me off more was that nothing got on my, but instead it hit Dino right in the chest.

I was going to strip this man from his skin.

"You f-"

"Enough." Dino told me, rather harshly. That made me pause and I watched behind him. "I invited you here as a peace offering, not for you to abuse it senselessly. Attacking my wife?! Spitting on her, I'd expect that of a child, not a grown man. I do not like to make enemies but I'm not going to tolerate this. Leave and don't bother contacting my family again. Romario, escort him off the property."

Romario bowed and took the man roughly by the arm. Some other men followed. "Yes sir."

The man went screaming bloody murder, a shaking fist but the music kept playing to calm everybody down. I touched his shoulder. His hands were clenched.

"Are you okay?" I asked, never seeing this type of anger from him before. "Want me to go get you a new shirt?"

"Are you okay?" He shot back. "He didn't hurt you?"

"I'm fine. I'm fucking pissed, but I'm okay. It's not like I can't deal with a toddler in suspenders."

"Good." Dino nodded and left to change out of his dirtied clothes.

The look on Tsuna's face was one of utter disgust and disbelief. I felt sorry for him, that he didn't have a choice at all for his future. But, despite the chaos that had occurred, everyone was starting to get back to their conversations.

He was just as apprehensive about being here as he was watching the man.

"Though you had other things to do Starfish."

"P-Phillipa!" He yelled, not realising I was there. Such an airhead this one was, for a guy who was meant to be the top boss. "C-Congratulations….."

"Yeah Yeah! You too looked so awesome, Pops said that you could stop by our restaurant anytime when you're in Japan!"

"That's so nice." I told him. "Tell him I said thank you. I hope he's doing well. Right, Tsuna, have you done it yet?"

"What?"

"It!"

"E-eh? P-Pardon?!"

I giggled. "You know, asked Kyoko out yet."

His shoulders sagged, relieved that I was talking regularly. "Oh…..well…."

"I take that as a no?"

"..." Poor Tsuna didn't have the courage to tell me that he was torn between a girl that really liked him and the girl he liked, who was bluntly oblivious to everything around her. Quite like his mother now, who was with Iemitsu, laughing away and having a good time.

"Good. Then you can dance with me, since you're single!"

"WHAT?!"

~o0o~

It was about three in the morning, when everyone had left the house to go back to their villas and town houses. I had a splitting headache from having to down some wine that had been forced upon me at different stages of the night. Dino was in a worse state, but enough to speak coherently and bid adieu to a guest whenever they left. The courtyard was a mess and Jenny said to leave it to her and the rest of the crew to clean it up while we trod off. I really should give her a holiday soon.

I led Dino up the stairs, making sure he wouldn't stumble or miss a step and fall on his face. Though, I too had to hold onto the banister.

The bed was soft and I felt like going sleep, right there. I'd changed and taken off all of that crap off of my face, gladly doing so in the process, noting that I kinda looked like a monster for a moment before wiping it again. I probably would have too, if Dino's face wasn't burying itself into the crane of my neck.

"Today was a good day." I said lightly, as he kissed my neck and shoulder, Dino's body was bigger than mine, so I felt as if i was being wrapped in a blanket or something similar. My mind was light like I'd inhaled gas but his hands were rummaging. He replied a mumble, bringing me closer.

"What did you think?" I asked, and again, the same tone of a reply was made. The kisses moved higher and soon became heated. "Alright, alright, you win."

His voice rumbled huskily from the pit of his stomach, breathing into my ear. I tilted my head, meeting up with him.

"I want you."

"You do, huh?"

His hand cupped my cheek and began stroking it with his thumb. As our mouths met, I gave in and kissed him harder.

Today had been a better day than most.

~o0o~

More than most people would have been offended to be escorted out of a private event in such a fashion, but this man wasn't. Outraged, yes. Supposedly, his father had been very very good friends with the Chiavarone head. Upon many times he had walked into the kitchen when he was little to find them talking away, happily, with smiles even. That should have gotten on their good sides, yes?

Maybe he took the spitting thing so far. Ah, well, it didn't matter.

Matherson had indeed made it home safely. His wife asked him how he was, and he hugged her tight, saying that he left early because he wasn't feeling up to scratch. She smiled and left to go check on how their son was doing. He sat alone in his study and scratched his nose, thinking about the new wife.

And then, he made a phone call. Not a rather eventful phone-call, but a necessary one, no less. He then kissed his son goodnight and then went to bed

Such a bore of a night.

~o0o~

Couldn't help but notice today how close we are to the halfway mark. Honestly, I might have said this a waaaay while back, but I never expected a story of mine to get over a hundred, let alone two. :) It makes me happy to think that you do like and read them and for the anonymous viewers, it's enough for me.

Hope all of your week has been as nice as mine. Despite all the work I've been piled with, I don't feel like I'm drowning in it. It's a nice feeling for sure, but it won't last. I'm sure about that too.

So, here you go. The wedding scene was one of the major points in this story, and it's certainly not over yet for a while, though I think maybe forty to forty five chapters was the aim. So everything is heading well. So, yeah. Yay!

Replies:

natachoco: I shall take note of that request. But really, that does sound exciting to write about. So maybe I'll save it for the end chapter. I dunno. I hoped you like this chapter. :)

My Name Is Alice: Yes, I hoped it would have! It was so much fun to write, and I thought the chapter felt a little short so I wanted Squalo's take on what he thought of it all. Ah, the unfortunate things that come with unrequited love… *tear rolls down cheek.* Hoped you liked this chapter.

So I hoped you liked this chapter. I don't really know what else to say right now.

Ah, shucks.

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