...Next Session...

-Doctor Alan's Office-

Randy sat in his session with Doctor Alan it had been a long couple days he'd been thinking about what he was going to say in this special for Television they were planning he was also kind of worried about what kind of questions he'd be asked he didn't know how to handle it. "So.. this special they are planning... you are going to set boundaries right?... you have to set boundaries make sure there are certain topics or things you won't talk about weather it be your family or past relationships.. just make sure you have set them so you don't have any surprises." Doctor Alan spoke.

"I will..." Randy nodded.

"It is a good thing Alyson will be with you.. to show a united front..." Doctor Alan nodded "I want to ask you something.. have you apologized to Alyson?.. that is something they are going to dive into they are going to want to know how you and Alyson have come out of this.."

Randy nodded "I've told her I'm sorry.. a million times.."

"Yes.. but have you spoke to her since you've broken up about this?.. I'm not just talking about the physical I'm talking about everything.. the emotional to.. cause it had to of hurt her emotionally to have someone she loves do this to her... " Doctor Alan said

Randy sighed and nodded "I guess I never thought of it.."

"Well it's a good thing to do before you go to do this special that way you can say you've really got this out in the open between the two of you.. it's going to help her a lot knowing how it made you feel and it's going to help you to hear what it did to her.. I think you should give it a shot.." Doctor Alan noted.

"I'll do it.." Randy nodded.

...A Few Day's Later...

-Alyson's Apartment-

Alyson walked into the kitchen throwing her hair into a messy bun she had just woke up and needed to put some coffee on. After putting the coffee on she hears a knock on the door she looks at the clock and see's that's it's only 8:30 in the morning she was wondering who could it could be at the door this early she looked down at her black sweat pants and black RKO shirt and shrugged oh she looked a mess but she hadn't even had a chance to get ready for the day so that was their fault. Alyson walked over to the door opening it she was surprised to see Randy standing in front of her. "Randy.." Alyson stepped back slightly.

"Hey..." Randy said a smile appearing on his face when he looks down to see Alyson was wearing an RKO shirt. "I was wondering if we could talk?" Randy said biting his lip.

"Umm.. Sure.. " Alyson stepped back even more "Come on in.." Alyson smiled

"Thanks.." Randy smiles and walks in the door Alyson shutting it behind him. Randy followed Alyson through the living room sitting on the chair next to where Alyson was sitting on the couch.

"So.. you wanted to talk?" Alyson looked over at him trying to read him he looked a bit nervous.

"Yeah... wow.. I don't really know how to start this.." Randy sighed rubbing his temple before looking over at her.

"Just come out and say it.." Alyson said softly.

Randy nodded " Well I've been talking with Doctor Alan..." Randy said looking over at Alyson who gave him a nod. Randy takes a deep breath before continuing. "And I've also been thinking a lot about you and what I've done to you.." Randy said as he continued to try to gather the right words in his head not wanting to say something wrong.

"Randy.." Alyson sighed "We don't have to rehash this.." Alyson said softly

"No.. I need you to know how sorry I am... for everything not just putting my hands on you but for everything... for not trusting you for my jealousy.. my paranoia.. " Randy sighed and looked down before looking back at her. "I hate that I hurt you in anyway.. you have no idea how much I hate myself for hurting you.. every time I hit you.. pushed you ... yelled at you I made me hate myself even more because you're the woman I love... you are everything a man could want in a woman your beautiful, you've got a great since of humor ... and a heart of gold I just couldn't get it through my head that you were really with me and I didn't have to worry about any other man... I didn't think I was good enough for you.. " Randy shook his head and went on after taking another deep breath. "I'm not trying to make excuses because there are no excuses for what I've done to you because you didn't deserve it one bit... I should of trusted you I should of treated you the way you deserved to be treated I should of shown you everyday how much I love you... not just told you after I had done something wrong because I felt as if I was telling you I loved you as a way to get you to stay and I don't want you to think that's what it was because I do love you more then you could ever imagine you and Alanna are my whole world and I know you did make me a better person you taught me how to really love someone again.."

Alyson looked on at Randy as he was speaking he was spilling everything to her she'd never heard him talk like this before and it was defiantly eye opening.

"After Mickie cheated on me I felt so used and angry I told myself I would never let myself fall in love again... but you came along and changed that and I told myself I could never loose you no matter what... so in away I guess I thought if I kept you away from everyone I wouldn't have to worry about someone taking you from me... and as wrong as it was it was the only way I thought I could keep you." Randy shook his head and looked down at the ground. "I'll never be able to tell you enough times how sorry I am for everything I've done to you... "

Alyson bit her lip and looked over at Randy reaching out she placed her hand on Randy's arm. "Randy... I know how sorry you are... and how sorry you were.. I can see it in your eyes now.. and I could see it in your eyes then.. I know you didn't like hurting me." Alyson said softly and Randy nodded placing his hand over her hand that was placed on her arm. "You are a wonderful man... I've seen how much you've changed ... and I know your heart..." Alyson smiled slightly.

Randy offered her one of his own and smiled. "Alyson... I need to hear from you how it affected you.. Doctor Alan thinks it will help me move forward if I hear that..." Randy said softly.

Alyson sighed shaking her head she looked to the ground. "Do you really want to hear this?" Alyson asked softly.

"Yes... I need to I need to know how my actions affected you.." Randy said softly.

Alyson nodded and took a deep breath. "Well I thought that it was my fault that I was doing something wrong.. and it really hurt me more emotionally then physically because I tried everything in my power to make you happy.. to make sure I didn't do anything that would upset you and it didn't work ... I wanted so much to make you happy to be the kind of woman that deserved to be with you and I felt as if I failed." Alyson looked to the ground as she wiped a tear.

"You didn't fail Alyson.. because you did make me happy... so happy.. it was never your fault.. you did nothing wrong all you ever did was love me and I didn't return it properly.." Randy shook his head and stood up biting his lip. "I hope someday you'll truly be able to forgive me... and I hope I can earn your trust back."

Alyson stood up moving in front of him she took his hand in hers bring her other hand to caress his face. "I do forgive you Randy... I want you to know that.." Alyson smiled up at him sweetly.

Randy smiled down at her kissing her forehead "I'm glad I have your forgiveness... even though I don't think I deserve it.." Randy sighed.

Alyson looked up at him and sighed softly "You do deserve it.. you've proved that to me.. I just hope you can forgive yourself... because you deserve that to.." Alyson smiled at Randy she believed he was sorry and he deserved her forgiveness. Alyson just hoped Randy would forgive his self someday.

Randy nodded and smiled he was happy Alyson forgave him and he did hope he could forgive his self for all he'd done to her because he knew that was the next step.

A/N- Wow this chapter was full of the feels! What are your thoughts on Randy's apology? Did you think it was the right thing to do getting it out in the open? Alyson forgives him do you think this will help Randy to forgive himself? Thanks for all the reviews, favorites, and follows :) *Hugs All Around* !