~Really Not Fine At All~

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Andy's POV but also includes a bit of Provenza and Patrice's POV.

Andy watched to make sure Sharon got to Andrea and they both made it safely into her building. He sat there for a while; a bit stunned, he was pretty sure he had blown it. He was just so frustrated with her that he let his hotheaded temper come out, not that he was mad at her or anything like that. It was just that he knew her too well to not see that Sharon Raydor was hiding what she really felt. He thought they were actually getting somewhere, but now he wasn't so sure.

Here he sat in his car alone outside her condo taking deep breaths to calm himself down. Andy wondered how big a fool he made of himself in front of her. He groaned as he rubbed his hands up and down his face, that wasn't how he imagined telling Sharon he loved her, but he was glad it was out there now. Andy knew he surprised her with his words, he would still give her the time to think about them. Though it also worried him to give Sharon time since he did know her well enough to know she would talk herself out of opening up to him and letting him know how she really felt.

Knowing he needed his own time to think, Andy drove back to the park where he and Sharon had breakfast and their horribly disastrous talk. Andy parked, but didn't get out. He needed time to regroup and figure where to go from here. As he sat there watching the world go by, he slipped his phone out of his pocket and made a much-needed call. It was time for him to bring in the big guns. He was happy that it was answered quickly. After hearing a hello, Andy anxiously said, "I need your help with something. Do you think you can help me out, Gavin?" After everything was finalized on the phone, Andy felt a little better. Gavin promised he would do his best to work on getting Sharon to come to her senses, then lawyer also explained that if he ever hurt her he would have to deal with him. Andy knew darn well from personal experience how ruthless Gavin could be.

Even though he was a bit less trepidatious about where this was going, he still felt the need to talk to someone. Sharon frustrated him so much that he needed to get away from her before it exploded out of him. Andy didn't want to drink, but at times like this he usually called Provenza to help distract him. They would either meet at his place or go to a game, but Louie was busy with Patrice now. He looked at his phone and thought maybe he could give him a quick call, possibly the poor newlywed would be happy to get rid of the old grump for a while.

Just before the first ring Andy changed his mind and hung up. Louie had Patrice now, and didn't need to be bothered by his problems. He should just call his sponsor or go to an AA meeting. Not that he would be speaking openly to strangers about what had happened between Sharon and him. Even though he didn't feel the urge to drink, it always helped him to listen to other's problems, maybe he could help someone else deal with his or her own demons. It did help him to keep busy for now, to keep his mind off of Sharon for a little while anyways. Andy knew there was no way he could ever really stop thinking of that woman, for she was always on his mind. He was caught off guard when his phone rang in his hand. He groaned when he saw the caller ID but answered it grudgingly, "Hey, sorry about that I didn't mean to bother you."

"So I see you called. Do we have a case?" His partner asked gruffly. Getting no answer, Provenza asked, "Flynn, what's up? What's going on?"

"Oh...um, we don't have a case and nothing's up. I must have pocket dialed you." Andy tried to say calmly to cover why he was calling.

After knowing they didn't have a case, Provenza worried about his partner. He knew Andy Flynn well enough to know something was definitely up. Louie all but ignored him and stated, "Patrice just said you better get your butt over here for dinner tonight or she'll send my duck lamps over to your house."

Andy smiled at that. It would be something she would say. Patrice seem to fit right in with them all and didn't mind having him or the team over to their place. In fact, they all had been over to the Provenza's more than ever before. He was sure this was all Patrice's doing. Andy laughed when he heard Louie's muffled voice ask. "Hey, how do you know I still had them?"

"I know you and I saw them when I went into the electronics room when we were talking or I was ordering you to make a decision about our wedding." Andy laughed harder at hearing Patrice in the background. He knew that woman might be the only one that could handle Provenza or want to deal with him anyways.

"Yeah well, the door's open for ya, Flynn. Just come on in whenever you get here." Then the phone went dead.

Deciding to drive around, and then head to a meeting or two before going to the Provenza's, it was his chance to unwind a bit. When Andy arrive he did a courtesy knock to announce he was there, then let himself in as usual. He made his way over to Patrice and gave her a hug hello then went to join Louie in the living room. The first thing Provenza asked when he saw him was, "feeling like you need a drink?"

Andy assumed he looked bad and replied with a smirk, "so I look as miserable as I feel?"

Provenza could see the gloom in his friend's eyes. The older guy might always act like a jerk to Flynn but they both cared about the other. As Andy passed by him, he took his jacket off and sat on the couch. "Well, if you don't feel like having one you could make me one." With that, Louie pointed over to the small bar area. Andy groaned but stood up again. Provenza questioned him as he moved, "What happened to your motto? Don't drink even if your ass is falling off."

As Andy was making his friend the usual, he answered him with a flat tone, "I said I have no urge to drink. I have another addiction now."

"Oh yeah, another addiction, huh? So, what's her name?" Andy handed Provenza his drink and sat back down on the couch raising an eyebrow at him. "E'gads! You don't mean the Captain do you?"

Leaning back against the new cushions that Andy was sure Patrice added to the decor, he closed his eyes before answering. "You know how I feel about her. It's just that I thought she felt the same, but it doesn't seem that way."

Provenza swirled the dark alcohol around his glass as he asked, "What's really going on here, Flynn?"

"I spent the night her place," he held up a hand when he heard Louie gasp and knew he was about to blow. Andy turned his head and looked at him as he explained, "Listen, I stayed there to help her out. Things were going well, even this morning, until Sharon decided to tell me off. Of course that irritated me, but even in my temper, I told her I'd give her two days to figure out what she wants."

Gulping down the rest of his drink Provenza then sat up straight. "Time? Why the hell did you give her time? We all know what that woman does with time. The Captain uses it to over-think and over-analyze everything. Flynn, I'm telling you don't let her have anymore time." Patrice came out and put a hand on Louie's shoulder and mentioned that dinner was ready. Andy got up and headed to the table, leaving Provenza muttering, "idiots," and shaking his head.

After dinner Andy helped Patrice clean up. They carried on the casual talk from earlier, but it was mostly one-sided. As he was loading the dishwasher, she asked him, "Are you ok, Andy? You seem quiet tonight."

"Oh, I'm fine or I will be, eventually," he answered as a plate almost slipped from his hands.

"No Andy, I've gotten to know the team, more so you and I can tell when you are really not fine at all. I heard some of what you and Louie were talking about." Patrice took the plate from him before he could break it and put it in the dishwasher herself. "If you're feeling down because of Sharon, don't be. I've seen the way she looks at you and it shows she cares deeply for you. Now, I don't know your boss well, but I know a weary woman when I see one. I also know what it's like to have your heartbroken. You harden yourself and go on with life not expecting to find love again, especially not understanding how to deal with it all when it suddenly hits you." Patrice turned her head to look at Louie kicked back in his newly upholstered armchair and they both laughed. Looking back at Andy, she smiled as she continued, "Sharon is just trying to wrap her mind and her heart around the new feelings she's experiencing, once again, if that makes sense. That's just my guess. If you really care for her, don't give up on her."

"Don't worry about that, I won't. I'm not sure what Provenza ever did to deserve you, but whatever it is the entire squad is grateful." After finishing the clean-up, Andy said with a lopsided smile, "thank you for dinner it was delicious. I'll have to get the recipe. Also thanks for the talk and for listening." He hugged Patrice and headed for the door. Putting on his jacket, Andy called out to his friend, "oh no don't get up or anything, Old Man. I'll see myself out. Good night to you both." He waved to them as he stepped out into the darkness.

Andy was torn on the drive home. Had he done the right thing by giving her time? Provenza seemed to think it was a horrible idea, but Patrice thought Sharon just needed time to figure it all out. Whereas Provenza knew their captain better, Patrice was a woman and seemed to know what she was talking about. He told Sharon that he would give her two days, even though it would be a hard two days to get through, Andy knew he would honor what he said. It was the least he could do after all they had been through, especially her.

He was so tangled up in his thoughts he almost missed it. Was that Sharon's car that just passed him? What was she doing out at that time of night and in his neighborhood? Andy automatically worried that something was wrong. Was she looking for him for some reason? When he had talked to Gavin earlier he had said he was going over to her place and that he would make sure she was alright. Why would she be out driving? Andy did a u-turn at the first chance he could. He didn't want to lose her in more ways than one. He was a little relieved when finally spotted her car a little ways ahead of him. As he got close behind Sharon's car, he knew he would catch a lot of grief for this, especially from a certain beautiful police captain, but Andy hit his police lights anyways.

~TBC~

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