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Journal Entry 17: She's Where?

"Pai!"

"What?"

"Did you get the information like I asked?"

"Yeah, but I don't know why you want information for this earth animal."

"Reason I asked you is because I have an idea on how to destroy the Mew Mews."

After what happened at Ichigo's apartment, I went straight to work. I asked Pai to do a little researching for me because I thought he was would enjoy it. Research is his first love but he did ask me why I couldn't do it. I only told him that I thought he was would enjoy it and he didn't push it further. Another reason why I asked him to do that is because I needed some…time. Just because I did what I did doesn't mean that I just ignored my feelings. I needed time to destroy them. If Ichigo won't hate me then I would destroy my own feelings and hate her. But no one ever said that it would be easy.

Just looking at how she looked at me when I told her that was just… too painful for words to even describe. But I had enough! If she can't hate me then I'll hate her so that she can hate me back. If I just hate her, then destroying her would be a lot easier. Not to mention that Deep Blue's words ranged in my head when she told me all of that. It wasn't her fault and yet she blames it on her. Stupid human…..

I took three days to try and destroy them and when I thought I was ready, I came out of hiding and Pai presented the information he just found.

Pai asked me, "So what is your plan?"

I told him, "This animal can hold a lot of things with its eight legs and if we can get a hold of the Mew Mews, then we can destroy them all at once. Simple as that."

Taruto only stared at me. "Are you sure about this?"

"Don't start that again," I told him.

"Hey! I was just saying. You sure you can destroy her after what happened?"

"It's her own fault I have this scar. I don't care anymore about that witch."

As much as it hurts, it has to be said. I just have to ignore the pain.

Taruto said, "Whatever you say but I hope you don't bail out on us." That was both annoying and confusing. It was annoying because he sounded a lot like the mutt and it was confusing because he sounded like he knows something and he won't tell me until the middle of what happens today. Whatever it is, I'll just ignore it.

I took the skin sample of the animal and then created a parasite alien. I fused the two together and there was a big bright yellow light. I teleported that to earth so that it can cause a little havic before we get there.

I smirked and thought, 'This should be fun.'

I teleported after that one thought and I decided to just watch the show from a tall building nearby. I saw the yellow light and then a giant turquoise, pink octopus appeared in its place. The humans started screaming and the kirema anima just went crazy with whacking at the buildings near it and even the cars that were in its way.

"Hold it right there!" Then the Mew Mews come. That was fast.

I looked down lower and I saw four Mew Mews and two of those humans. I wonder why they're here and why is there only four? Let's see…bird girl…wolf girl…fish girl…monkey girl…Kraehe…and Mytho. Where's Ichigo?

I decided to leave my question unanswered so that I could make my appearance. "Welcome humans!" I yelled out. They all looked up at me and some of them looked both shocked and angry.

The bird girl yelled, "Kisshu!"

I waved and asked, "Missed me? It's time you humans meet your doom. Do you have any idea how long it's been since we've been here? Quite a while. You're defeat is long overdue. Time to pay the price. Go kirema anima!" As commanded, the kirema anima attacked.

It charged at them and the Mew Mews got out of the way before it hit them. The wolf girl carried Mytho and the bird carried Kraehe when they got out of the way. Both of them went to an alley and probably told them to stay there while they take care of the kirema anima. Like that is going to happen. The bird girl flew up to the top of the kirema anima and kicked the top of its head. In reaction to that, the kirema anima let out a black gas that just covered the Mew Mews and blinded them. Octopuses in the human life let out a squirt of ink to distract their enemies. When that bird girl hit the kirema anima, it wasn't a smart thing for her to do.

The kirema anima used its tentacles to reach in and grab the four Mew Mews. The tentacles wrapped around them and took them out of the ink cloud. He tightened its grip on them and they were gasping for air. Perfect.

I looked at Kraehe and Mytho and they were surprised that the Mew Mews were captured so easily like that. I jumped off the top of the building and glided down to face the Mew Mews. They saw me and looked at me as I said, "I told you that it was time you pay the price. Now before I kill you, where's you so called strongest mew mew?" They were surprised to hear me ask that. I was just curious. I wanted to know why she wasn't here with them; fighting by their side. It's not like her.

"You want to know what happened?!"

I looked over my shoulder and I saw that mutt again but he was in his new human form and he was glaring at me.

I heard Kraehe gasp, "Taka?" Taka, huh? Nice name? What's next? Mutt of hell?

I faced him completely and asked, "Why are you here? I though you only protect the cat mew mew?" He was still glaring at me as his whole body glowed blue. There were some gasps of surprise in the background but who can blame them. I could still see his angry eyes as his body then shined like a blue star. When the light disappeared, he was in his Blue Knight's form. Show off…

Mytho whispered, "Taka is the…Blue Knight?" Since when did knew about him? Oh yeah, when Ichigo almost killed him. The other Mew Mews must have told him all about that since the Blue Knight showed himself for the first time in front of him and Kraehe. Typical…

"Answer my question!" I told him. He still only glared at me. "Where is she? I want to know why that mew mew isn't here helping her fellow comrades. Did my words really affect her like that? Pathetic! I thought she was stronger than that!"

Kraehe yelled, "What did you do her?!" Well doesn't she sound angry?

I looked at her and answered, "All I did was try to blast her bits then tell her that I hate her. For all we know, she's crying in her bed. She may look strong but she's as weak as glass."

"She's in bed alright!" the mutt yelled. "Her death bed!" What?

All eyes were on him as well as mine. After he said that, I was just too shocked to care where I was and what I was doing. I was sure that I didn't blast her enough for her to die so what did he mean by that? He glared at me and yelled, "You want to know what happened to that pathetic human? She's in the hospital right now! Right after you told her that you hate her, she cut her wrists, stabbed glass in her feet, and fell off the twentieth floor! She's in the hospital on the verge of death because of what you said to her!!" I just froze there in the air when he said that. She's where?

Kraehe asked him, desperate and scared, "Ichigo's in the hospital?"

The mutt looked at her with sad eyes and answered, "The doctor even said that he doesn't know if she'll make it. She's in Tokyo Hospital right now, denying all treatment." Kraehe covered her mouth in disbelief with tears threatening to fall as Mytho was leaning on the wall for some support and while trying to breathe. Then, like always, made a rash decision.

'Ichigo!' I called her name in my head and teleported away; leaving the mew mews and the kirema anima behind. I know that the kirema anima is going to be turned to bits by the mutt, but there was something else that I just had to do.

I had to see her. That was my only thought. I had to see her.

I arrived right in front of the humans' Tokyo Hospital and frantically looked through each window. I found her room at ground level that was closest to the emergency room. When I saw her through the window, it was worst than any nightmare. She was unconscious and she had on one of those breathing masks on to help her breathe. She had needles inside her and bandages on her. She was connected to so many machines that she could be a cyborg after this. If she survives.

I teleported inside and the first thing I did was lean over her from the side of her bed. I called, "Ichigo! Can you hear me? Please Ichigo! Open your eyes!" She didn't react in anyway but yet again, that was a stupid answer to ask. Yet I still flinched back when it didn't work.

I don't know what to do. When someone is in a comma, the best thing to do is to just wait and see if she'll pull through. But the mutt said that she's denying all treatment to save her. If I had known that this is who she would have reacted, I would have never said those words. I can't live without her no matter how hard I try if she dies and now I see that she can never live without me. Damn it!

I looked at her hand and grasped it. I didn't hold hard because her wrist was covered in bandages too. I gently rubbed her skin and it was so stiff and cold but it was also soft like how I remembered it. When I grasped it, I had to check one of the machines to check to see if her heart is still beating. I saw her clipboard and grabbed it with my free hand. It was in weird writing that barely made any sense but I did make out a few words.

She lost a lot of blood, she has a concussion, some major bruises, and her body is refusing to heal. Just like what the mutt said. She's refusing to heal because she refusing to live. The mutt blames me and I don't blame him. It's my fault she fell off the twentieth floor. I'm actually surprised that she survived after falling from so far. She must have landed on something to stop her fall. For all I know that mutt could have teleported to the ground before she hit it and stopped her fall. He was there to save her and I wasn't. Damn it all!

I put the clipboard down and sat on my legs so that I could lean on her bed by her side. The door's closed so no one can see me and I'm sure that no one is going to come in any time soon. The whole room smells weird but Ichigo's comforting scent distracted my nose. I brought her hand to my face and it was still so soft. This hand that once wiped my tears away, made all of my worries disappear, and gave me comfort is now so cold and stiff. From my memories, it used to be warm and gentle but now it feels like a dead person's hand. I don't want her to be dead.

"Please come back, Ichigo."