Cristina and Meredith had been lying on Mer's bed for some time now. Mer still looked out of the window and had her back turned to Cristina. Then Cristina turned to her side and looked on Mer's back, when she started to talk:
"Meredith, this thing you do is not healthy!!! We all are totally worried about you."
Mer showed no reaction. Cristina went on.
"You know, some time ago I was carrying a child, too. The child of the man I loved. But I felt not ready to have it, I thought there were things that were more important at that time. I decided not to have it. But then I lost it, and there was nothing that I could have done against that. I always had the feeling that this happened because the child somehow realized the way I felt about it. I don't know if I really had been able to have that abortion at all as it still was Burke's child. I was so helpless, that is why I started to cry and could not stop! I felt guilty, and I still feel guilty sometimes today. But there is nothing for you to feel guilty for. You loved your child and you were really looking forward to having it, I know, although we never talked about it. But I know you, and I know how much you love Derek. And there was no way you could not have loved this child more than anything else as it was his. And maybe I am not the right person to tell you that, and please do not get mad now! You will never have this child back. No way. But you have to move on! One day you will have your baby, maybe there was a reason that it died! Maybe god thought it was too early as you are still an intern, and it was not the right time. You just got married! I am sure, as Derek and you would make great parents, that you will have a whole bunch of kids one day. But maybe this was not the right time! Maybe you think about that. I know how much it hurts, believe me, even if I never loved that baby the way you did…"
She could hear Mer started to sob hard. Then Mer turned around and started to cry hard in Cristina's arms. Cristina kissed her forehead and cradled her to calm her down. Then she went on.
"But remember that you have a husband by your side, who would do anything for you. He is so incredibly sad, too, Mer. But it is even more sad for him that you shut him out. I know that as I have talked about that with Burke after we found out about your story about how he felt at that time. Although men do not carry the child under their heart, they really feel the same pain! So talk to him, grieve together with him! It will help both of you. You are so lucky! Although you just lost your baby, you have a man by your side that would do everything for you. You are all that matters to him! Let him take care of you!"
Then she stopped talking and held Mer for a while. Mer breathed heavily, and then whispered between two sobs: "Thank you!"
Cristina was relieved that Mer finally started to cry. That would be a thing that really helped her.