Not too long of a wait so not too bad on my part. Cool cool. It has been great hearing from you all again. I got chewed out by either the same guest reviewer or two I am not sure. So apparently there is too much drama going on that it is tiring and they don't want to read the story and the other told me I needed to proofread because my grammar is just awful. I appreciate criticism on all levels. I try to do the best I can. I welcome the new faves and follows, those are much appreciated.
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BPOV
I was sitting in the kitchen picking away at my breakfast. I didn't know when Emmett would stop by or if I was supposed to go talk to him. I replayed last night over in my mind and I just couldn't help but smile. The way Emmett and I were last night is the way we had always been like when we first started dating.
"Bellarina." Alice sang as she walked in the kitchen. I smiled at her
"Hey Allycat."
"How are you?" she asked
"Doing fine, you?" I asked sipping on my coffee. She was watching me closely.
"Did you enjoy yourself last night?" she asked
"I did." I said and she smiled
"You two looked like your old selves." She stated and I hummed in agreement
"Good to see you two awake." Rose said taking the coffee from my hands and sipping it herself
"Rosalie." I growled and she laughed
"So you and Emmett, have you talked since last night?" Rose asked
"Not yet." I said
"Are you nervous?" Alice asked
"Yes." I stated
"Why are you being so short?" Rose asked
"Because I am nervous." I said and they nodded their heads
"Well I think you should go over there." Rose said
"Why?" I asked
"Show effort, that you are trying." Alice said
"Oh and get him some breakfast like how he always brought you breakfast." Rose said and I nodded
"Well okay, will do." I said and left the kitchen
By the time I was ready to leave to get Emmett food it was lunch time. I grabbed him a sandwich, fries, and a drink from the hole in the wall burger joint we would go to. I tapped my fingers anxiously on the steering wheel prepping myself for this. I can stay calm we may even yell it is fine but I will stay calm. I will not leave. You will not leave Isabella. You. Will. Not.
I pulled into my parking and sat. I took a deep breath and grabbed his food. I made my way up to our floor and paused in front of his door. I raised my hand to knock but the door flew open.
"Oh Bells!" Jasper yelled before falling into me and we tumbled back.
He caught his footing before me and managed to catch me. The soda spilled but the food was saved. I looked up at Jasper and we started laughing.
"I'm glad you caught me." I said and he smiled
"I try. I am sorry about that. You going in to see Emmett?" he asked and I nodded
"Yeah I am hoping I can fix things." I said
"Well I believe you can but I am warning you, Hannah is here." Jasper said with an eye roll and I smirked. Oh it's on.
"Thanks Jazz." I said walking past him and inside.
Emmett and Hannah were sitting around their laptops at the kitchen counter. It looked like they were designing a building online.
"So I was wondering if we could go to lunch?" Hannah asked and Emmett coughed
"I have to meet Bella sometime soon so I can't." he responded and I smiled
"Oh come on, we won't be long." She whined and I saw him shake his head
"Hey there." I said finally making my presence known
I watched Hannah's demeanor change, she was fun to play with. Emmett pushed back from the counter and stood. I smiled.
"I brought you lunch." I said handing him the bag
"Thanks Bella." He said pulling me into a hug
"I had a drink but Jazz and I had a little run in at the door." I said shaking my head
"It's fine I am sure we have something here to drink." Emmett said and I smiled. I felt myself blushing
"Um Hannah I am sorry, if I knew you were here I could've brought you lunch." I said smirking and she smiled
"You showed up just in time, I was asking Emmett here to lunch." She said and I stopped myself from jumping across the counter when she ran her hand down Emmett's arm.
"Oh I heard Hannah." I said through clenched teeth and she flinched.
"Well Hannah now that my girl is here we'll have to finish up for the day. We can meet at Starbucks or something tomorrow to put the final touches on this." Emmett said and she flipped her hair smiling at him
"Of course or my place." She said
"Starbucks works." Emmett said looking at me. I was too busy plotting her death.
"Okay well just text me the time then." She said dejectedly and packed up her things.
I waved at her as she left and she essentially ignored me.
"She is a lot." I said and Emmett smiled
"I can't wait to get done with this project." He said sitting and taking the sandwich and fries out.
"What project?" I asked
"I'm taking the design class we had talked about so while I designed the building she did the interior stuff. It is interesting but I don't like projects with other people." He said and I understood
"It seems interesting, I would like to see everything when it's finished." I said and smiled brightly at me
"Of course Bells." He said and returned to his food
I just watched him eat and be Emmett. He was so cute.
"Are you just going to stand there?" he asked and I blushed
"I'm fine here." I said leaning against the counter
"Last night was fun." He said and I nodded
"Yeah I enjoyed myself." I replied
"I felt like we had just started dating again."
"Yeah same." I said my voice cracking
"You want to talk?" He asked and I nodded
He finished eating and we walked back to Emmett's room images of last time flooded my memory. I stood and let him choose where he would sit. He propped himself up on his bed and I pulled out his desk chair. I pushed it up against the wall and picked at my fingernails. I needed to do this and do it right. I took a deep breath, closed my eyes, and counted down from ten. By 5, my hands had stopped shaking. By 2, my heart rate had slowed considerably. At 1, I opened my eyes to Emmett watching me intently.
"I want to start by saying I am sorry. Sorry for walking out on you, on us. I am sorry for not trusting you. I'm sorry for constantly questioning your intentions after numerous times that you've been very honest about them. I am sorry most for always comparing you to Paul and believing you could hurt me like he did. I..."
"Bella." Emmett interrupted. I silenced him with my finger
"Let me do this. Please." I begged and he nodded. I took another deep breath and continued.
"I don't deserve you. You have been my dream come true and I was too scared and stupid to appreciate it. Not having you these past months has driven me up the wall. Every day I fought myself and every day I was a coward who decided to hide. I have not treated you with the respect and care that you deserve. You deserve nothing but love and I want to give that to you. I don't want another girl getting a taste of you, she wouldn't leave you if she did. I only want you. I've taken you for granted and I don't want to do that anymore. I want to do right by you." I finished with a sigh.
He was looking at me, a small wrinkle between his browns and he was chewing at his bottom lip. I didn't like the silence.
"Charlie was madly in love with Renee. At some point she was a pleasant woman, I remember a bit of that but for the most part she wasn't like that anymore. They were inseparable from middle school all through high school. She got pregnant and Charlie might've fallen even more in love with her. When I came, he always told me he could see a difference in Renee. She was lighter on her feet more vibrant. Then she up and left. No goodbye. Just gone in the middle of the night. Charlie was devastated when he couldn't get in contact with her and no one knew of her where abouts. I watched him change from my bright eyed witty father to a sullen pale shell of a man. I promised myself from a young age I would never fall that deep in love. I wouldn't let somebody have the ability to break me if they left. I watched Kate bring my dad back to his old self and she loves him just as unconditionally as he loves her. That gave me hope but not enough to know it could be real. Paul came and I was infatuated with him, I would do anything for him. Then he broke me and I had to pull through or I would drown in it. Then you came. Everything was so different, so new and so real. It was scary. What I thought was love from Paul is nothing compared to you. It rocks me to my core. I was always on edge and then the possible pregnancy and I couldn't help but think I could run away like Renee or you could." I rolled in front of him and grabbed his hands
"I've seen both sides of love the one that breaks you and builds you. Both are scary but I want to build with you and grow with you. I want to do life with you. I am so sorry for hurting you. It hurt me knowing you're hurting. I broke knowing I was the cause of it. I'm really tired of myself, tired of running. I want this." I finished and he squeezed my hands.
"I forgive you." He answered and I blinked, was that really it?
"Thank you?" I asked
"Bella, I forgive you but you broke me. I thought I had lost you. Then you come back and you don't come back to me you came back for school. You didn't try to talk to me. I thought I was supposed to step up but Rosalie, she told me no, told me you were wrong. She said it was time you took responsibility for things like this. I didn't understand then but as I played our last argument over in my head I wasn't the one who ran. I wasn't the one getting upset with being told the truth that was you. You didn't like what I was saying so you got angry. I had to restrain myself from forcing you to talk. I had to be alone while other couples were happy. You forced me into that uncomfortable and very sad position. All I could think about is how much I wanted you and you didn't even try to get me back. I knew the day you got back Edward had texted me. He locked me in my room so I wouldn't go to your place. I fought my instinct to run after you. Jasper sent the text that day while Edward calmed me down. You left me." Emmett said
I was having a difficult time breathing. My chest was on fire. I hurt him deeper than I even knew.
"You left me." He repeated and my heart raced. Does he not want me back? Am I about to lose the best thing that has happened to me?
"You left but here I am forgiving you, showing you that I love you, and that I want you. I want to believe that you believe that. It is so hard. Prove to me I am wrong." He pleaded and I blinked away tears
"How?" I asked
"Stay, stay with me." He answered
"For the night?" I asked slowly
"Move in with me." he said and I gasped.
"Are you…You can't be serious." I said and he shook his head
"I wouldn't have said it if I wasn't." he replied
"We have only been together for under a year and what are we supposed to do if we need space? What are our parents going to say? Are you even ready for that?" I asked and he pulled me onto the bed
"If and when we are to get married all of those questions apply why not go ahead and do it?" he asked
"I don't have a legit reason right now. I don't feel ready is all." I said and he smiled
"I knew you would say that. I am getting my own place next year. I love Edward and Jasper but I want my own place. I recently found a job and sometime in the spring, I will start assisting with the building of Johnathan's business. Bella we are getting older and I want things with you to work out. So how about this, around this time next year move in with me wherever that is and lets continue to grow together." He said and I thought about it and let the idea run around in my head.
It felt right. We would be 21. It gave me time to prove to him that I was committed to this. It gave me time to get my ducks in a row. It also meant that I had time to tell the parents. I was okay with the moving in with my boyfriend.
"I'll do it." I smiled and he smiled.
He pulled me into a hug it felt good to be wrapped in his arms. Without warning, his lips brushed against mine. That feeling, the one I had missed zipped through me. I pulled his face down hard and his lips were firm against mine. I wrapped my arms around him and put my all into that kiss. His tongue traced my bottom lip before pushing them open and dominating my mouth. I held him tighter to me and if even possible, he deepened the kiss. I couldn't breathe anymore but I didn't want to break the kiss either. He pulled back before me and I knew I looked dazed.
"Does that mean we are back together?" I asked and he laughed
"We have been together just on a break." He said and I nodded
"If you were Ross Geller you would have slept with someone else." I said and he laughed his beautiful laugh again
"The only woman I am sleeping with is in my arms. No other girl compares to her, Hannah hasn't figured that one out yet. You're it for me." He replied and I blushed
"I really love you." I said earnestly
"I know, I love you too." He said kissing my forehead
We were okay now, we are back.