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They stayed in Boston for a further week, after the funeral Meredith went straight up to her room, she couldn't stay downstairs for the wake, leaving Izzie, Alex, and Derek in charge, she never left her room for the next five days, Derek was really worry about her, she wasn't eating, or sleeping, she just laid on the bed and cried, Derek felt useless, he just didn't know what he could do. Derek in the end, lifted her of the bed and carried her to the shower, he knew that if he left her any longer, that she would never move, and seeing her hurting like that felt like a knife was going through his heart.

"What are you doing?" Meredith yelled at him, has she punched him on the chest with her fists, he placed her in the shower, and turned on the water, with Meredith still fully clothed.

"Meredith, i am not going to let you lay on that bed any longer, have a shower, get dressed, and come down for food" Derek said harshly.

"I don't want too"

"Right now Meredith i don't care what you want, i love you, and i am not going to sit here any longer and watch you in so much pain, i can't do it. Ellis would not want you to do this to yourself"

"I don't care" Meredith shouted at him. "Just leave me alone" she spat at him.

"Fine, if that what you want, I'll see you back in Los Angeles" Derek says leaving her on the shower floor, in her clothes with the water running over her, sobbing. Derek goes downstairs and slams the front door shut, he wasn't going back to LA without her, he wasn't about to leave her, he sat on the swing; he just didn't know what to do. Then he heard a scream coming from inside the house, and could hear her shouting his name, he rushed in the front door, he could see Meredith on top of the stairs, in her soaking wet clothes, Derek rushed up the stairs two at the time, and took her in his arms, before she fell to the floor.

"I...thought...left" Meredith sobbed into his shirt.

"Mer, i am not going anywhere" Derek said carrying her back into the bedroom, and in to the bathroom. "Meredith, you are going to get a cold" Derek undresses her, and strips off himself, and holds her has the water washed over to them.

"Please...don't leave me" she begged him.

"Mer...Baby, i didn't mean it; i just couldn't watch you like that anymore. I'm sorry"

"I love you too much to lose you, Derek"

"Meredith, you are never going to lose me that I can promise you, it would kill me to lose you" Derek assured her, kissing her gently with all the love that he feels for her. "Anyway Meredith we have a wedding to plan, and there is no way after all this time that you won't become my wife" Derek says, caressing her cheek, Meredith gives him a small sad smile, Derek grabs the shampoo off the shelf, and start washing her hair, and then washing her body, taking care of her, once they had finished in the shower, Derek grabbed a big fluffy towel and wrapped Meredith up in it, before reaching for his own towel and wrapping it around him, and he picked her up and carried her into the bedroom, putting her down on the bed, he kissed the top of her head.

"Get dressed, Meredith, i cooked us some breakfast, and then we are going out for the day, i don't know about you but i could do with some fresh air" Derek says pulling on his boxers and jeans. He looks back at Meredith who is still sat on the edge of the bed, watching him. "Mer, you okay?"

"What? I'm fine, Derek. Going out sounds like a good idea, love you"

"Love you too, I'll see you downstairs" Meredith watches him walk out of the bedroom, and she thinking back to the last five days, she knew that he was right to say all the things he said to her earlier, Meredith knew it was time to say goodbye to mom and put her to rest. Meredith got herself dressed, and went downstairs into the kitchen.

"Derek" Meredith says, causing Derek to turn and face her. "Can we stop by and visit Liam?"

"Of course Mer...i wanted to stop by again before we left anyway." Derek said walking over to her, he placed his arm around her waist and pulled her close to him, and kissed her gently, before pulling away and guiding her over to the table, where he put breakfast in front of her. Meredith wolfed it down, having not eaten in five days.