Married to the Mob?

Ch 36: Flashbacks?

I came into the foyer and saw Ana on the phone talking to someone. I must have startled her because she took in a sharp breath as she turned my direction.

"Christian, I didn't know you were here," Ana gasped out.

"Yeah, I was in talking with my grandmother. Are you sure you're okay? Did I interrupt something important?" he asked her.

"No, I'm fine. I was calling my brother and the nurse couldn't put me through," Ana said while running her fingers through her hair.

Christian was putting on his jacket he said, "Why don't you just try it again?" Ana seemed awfully tense for just a missed phone connection, but it was time to leave. He'd have to find out what was going on with her later.

"Where are you going?" she asked.

"I'm going down to the docks, you know, the shipment I told you about. I got to make sure it gets through customs," Christian grabbed her face and laid a kiss on her lips, but as he started to pull away, she grabbed him saying, "Please don't go!"

"Baby, why don't you want me to go?" Christian asked.

"Because...I have to tell you something."

"Okay, what?" he asked, waiting for her.

"I don't want to tell you if you have to dash off. I feel like you don't have time for me anymore."

"Ana...come on, we've discussed this…" Christian began saying.

Ana dragged Christian into the living area explaining that every time they got close, he had to go.

She drug me into the living room telling me she wanted to spend more time with me. That every time we get close, I'm called away. She seemed strangely near frantic for just wanting me to clear some time on my schedule for her, but then what did I know about wives? It seemed like such a nice normal married people topic of complaint. A "discussion" a real couple would have.

Christian decided to hear his wife out.

"Whats going on? Why don't you want me to go?" he asked, looking at her.

Only the phone rang interrupting them. Christian excused himself from her while he took the call as Ana seemed like she was anxious about something. After hanging up Christian told her he had to leave.

Putting his hands on her shoulders, as he breathed into her hair and said, "Baby, I heard what you said. I did. After I get back we can talk some more."

"Yeah, if another meeting doesn't pull you away." Ana replied, clenching her teeth.

Maybe I hadn't adjusted my schedule enough for just us. We hadn't even gotten a chance to go on that honeymoon I planned yet. I wondered if she'd be up for it and as eager as I was to take it now.

"It won't. I promise."

"Christian?"

"What?" Christian asked, obviously in a hurry.

"You can work yourself twenty four hours a day if you let yourself. What am I supposed to do, put my feelings aside?"

"Ana...you know how important this shipment is, don't you? We talked about this."

She was looking into his eyes like he was crazy or something. Ana didn't want him to go to the docks, so she had to stop him.

"Is it more important that us?" she asked looking into his eyes.

Ugh! How do I respond to that? I mean...now she is finally opening up to me and I have to leave.

"No..." Christian's voice trailed off when his mother walked in.

"You're asking my son to choose between our business and you, Ana? I can assure you his priorities are in order," Grace spoke out sternly.

Christian was leaning on the desk with one hand on his hip, as he looked between his mother and his wife. He felt stuck.

Damn it! Why me? I felt like I was backed into the corner. I wanted to do right by my wife, however; I know my mother feels otherwise. Ana looked at my mother then back to me, pleading me with her eyes. My mother ordered her out of the room and reluctantly Ana left, but not before begging me to talk to her first, "Please, don't go anywhere until we talked about this...please..." She walked out backwards as if she wouldn't take her eyes off me until she absolutely had to. She was acting strangely.

Ana left the room as his mother was looking back at him.

Grace walked towards her son and said, "I don't like what I'm seeing, Christian. Not only has Ana come between you and I, she's trying to distract you from the business. It's unacceptable!" She yelled.

"Unacceptable to whom, mother?" Christian asked her tightly.

"I still run this organization."

"Well, you don't run me, you got that? When are you going to get that through that thick head of yours?" he asked not happy about her interrupting me and his wife. This was between them...

"You have never spoke to me that way!"

"Well I am now! Just back off! Leave, her alone!"

"Not when I know she's up to something. And you know it too." Her eyes focused on his like guided missiles.

Mother always thinks I'm so weak, too weak to do what's necessary, I smirked back at my mother.

"Well if she is up to something, we will know soon enough."

Yeah she didn't expect that answer, Christian caught her off guard. Her look said it all.

"What's that supposed to mean?" she asked.

"I set her up, mother, just like you asked me to. To prove that you're wrong about her, it's all going down right now. Ana is either going to sink or swim and I'm betting that she swims."

"How are you testing, Ana?"

"I told her there's a shipment of illegal goods coming in tonight. But of course it's clean, I took care of that part."

"So if the FBI shows up on a tip there is only one person who could be responsible for that. Your wife." She said menacingly.

"Are you satisfied?" Christian asked, looking at her, not happy he was testing Ana like this especially since they've grown closer.

She grabbed his face with her hands saying, "Oh, Christian. I'm so proud of you!" She hugged him.

Pulling back she said, "I'm sorry I ever doubted you, your devotion to this family."

"Well you shouldn't have ever doubted Ana's devotion. I have to get the docks."

"Christian if Ana does betray our family what will you do?"

I knew what she was asking. She wanted to know if I would do away with her once and for all.

"What do you think? I will do what needs to be done, Mother." To avenge my brother's death, even though I didn't want to. But if she called the FBI, I won't have any choice.

Walking away from her Christian hoped it was clear.

After my son walked away I asked Jack to come into the room. I asked him to call his girlfriend. I want her to call the FBI. Although he looked at me disapprovingly I told him I knew what I was doing. I told him to have his friend to call as Ana Grey and that they should expect some contraband at the docks.

Jack looked reluctant and Grace told him, "Don't question me. Just do it."

"Yes ma'am."

I watched Jack call his friend. Somehow or another that trollop will get blamed for this and my son will finally avenge Elliot's death the way it should have been done.

Christian was about to walk out the door but Ana caught up with him.

Although I'd begged him not to, I saw Christian starting to leave. The next thing I knew I was running after Christian, begging him not to leave.

"Christian, wait please!" Ana begged him.

I was desperate for him to stay with me that I kissed him. I was trying everything I could think of to make him stay. I didn't want him in trouble even though I told Kate not to call. I had to save him from the trap that was waiting for him down on the docks. It was my fault.

He said my name over and over as he kissed me back lightly. But I must have played that kiss him to get away with something card once too often or else he could taste my desperation.

He whispered her name, "Ana...please stop. What is going on with you?" Christian asked palming her face.

I was crying over and over again. I couldn't let him leave, but I wasn't sure how he'd react to the truth. I was disgusted with myself, and if he knew it was me, he'd take it so much worse. I'd trusted Christian with my life before, always knowing somehow he'd never hurt me, but what if this pushed him too far? What if this killed his love for me? Worse, what if my betrayal pushed him over the edge into the dark side that the FBI agents had warned me he would eventually be drawn to? I couldn't be the one that killed the good man I knew lived inside him. I couldn't risk the danger to either of us by telling him I had indeed called the FBI. So I panicked.

"I don't want to tell you this because I really do care about you."

"What are you talking about? What's going on?" his voice concerned.

"I just wanted to tell you that I really liked that we were sharing things...I can't do this..."

"Ana, will you please tell me what's wrong with you?"

Wrong with me? I didn't want to tell him the truth. I had to come up with something fast! Wait... I remembered about my brother telling me about the flashbacks and how they could come back. It had been last year when I was having flashbacks after being attacked. That would buy me some time. It had to work. Running my hands through my hair out of frustration.

"I didn't tell you this before...because...well...I didn't think it was something I needed to bring up."

He looked at her and said, "Okay…what?"

"I...um...it happened a long time ago…"

"Ana...take a deep breath; and calm down," he coached her.

She did. After a few moments, her nerves finally calmed down.

"Now, what is it you needed to say?"

"I was attacked a while back, Christian. That's why all the stuff with your brother happened, I just reacted. It happened at a party before I met Jose, at a friends house. I didn't know the person..."

"I understand...go on," he insisted.

"I've been having flash backs lately of it lately and I thought it would go away but it seems to be getting worse. That's why I was calling my brother, since he's a doctor, I thought maybe he could help me...you know?"

Christian took a moment to let what she said sink in. "So, what you are saying is when you were attacked a while back, memories of it came back because of what my brother did to you?"

"Yes. I started having flashbacks again...and well...sometimes those flashback make me see Elliot instead of you and it freaks me out."

Wow! Christian had no idea that this was happening to his wife. He held her in his arms telling her, "I'm so sorry, Ana. You will be okay. I promise. I will take care of you."

A/N: Hey all...I hope you all liked the chapter. I know some of you are waiting for the lemons. It will happen. Eventually. Sorry for the long delay. I just needed to take sometime away.