~4:28:43 PM~
Lion Raywood (D7)
I killed the kid. I can't believe I killed the kid.
Am I a bad person? I took a life. But I was forced to. Wasn't I? Does the circumstance justify the crime? Or does it just intensify the pain?
This is not the time to be thinking all psychologically, but I can't help it!
It wasn't even a clean kill. The cannon didn't sound for a couple of hours. He was in misery for that long. The least I could've done is made it quick. But no. He probably laid there, maybe even in a coma. I bashed his face pretty good. Not good as in good. Good as in bad for him.
What if he got devoured by mutts as he was lying there helpless? That happened last year to some guy. It wasn't pretty.
I have blood on my hands. Sort of literal, but mostly figuratively. I killed someone. He's dead. He's never going to laugh, walk, talk, or breathe again. I can't help but to think of the life he could've lived. Did Korri ever have a girlfriend? Did he ever love? Did he ever just have the most amazing day with friends? Did he ever do something great, that he'll regret later? Why am I bothering with all these questions? Why was that in question form?
I know that hundreds of kids have died in the Hunger Games, just that many have probably killed too. Did any of them ever feel this way?
Nimbus Blaire (D1)
"Just. Shut. The. Hell. Up." Fawn grits her teeth.
I'm not quite sure what her deal is. But her glare has Hunter taking a step back, that's pretty much worth it.
We quiet down a bit. Everyone seems lost in their own thoughts. I just hope that someone's not plotting to stab me in the back. What happened to Lulu...wow, didn't see that coming. I mean, I sort of did. I knew that she'd be the first to go. I just thought that it wouldn't be like that. I assumed that we were just going to use her as a shield more or less. If mutts attack, let her distract them kind of deal.
Never assume anything. Especially in the Hunger Games.
Speaking of plotting, the thought of revenge kinda floats around. Of course, the more I try not to think about it, the more the thought haunts me. I just have no idea anymore. No idea whatsoever. If I knew one little detail to help me, that'd be nice. Ya know? Just a tiny hint. Please? Anyone?
No? Damn.
I'm to the point of frustration where I just want to take the flat side of my sword and just smack myself with it. I'm not suicidal, I said the flat side. The non-sharp side. Anything just to clear my mind of this freaking stupid thought. Revenge. Shit! There it goes again. I officially hate that word. Absolutely HATE it.
It whispers in my mind. I don't know how to make it stop. Just do it. Do what? Ugh.
Thank you! A distraction. Hunter stops, "And here's is the next victim...the little lovebirds of the Games."
Rocko Warner (D12)
And this is why I liked Ali. Sorry hon, you're sweet and all, but these are the Hunger Games. Every man for himself. I pick up the speed and run.
"Rocko!" she screams. There's quite a bit of distance between us now. Meaning she's closer to the careers than I am. Again, sorry.
I don't answer her for a couple reasons. 1.) I want to focus my breath on running. 2.) I just ditched her. And most importantly, 3.) I have no idea what to say.
"Rocko!" she screams again. Gosh girl. I'm starting to feel guilty. Snap out of it, Rocko. It's her life, or yours. I'm in this for me.
She screams again, wordlessly this time. I hear laughter. It's menacing.
That's the problem with faking love, you kinda start feeling what you act. I'm not saying I love Ali. The L-word is a bit strong for just knowing someone for a couple days. I know what they say about traumatic experiences drawing people into relationships...yeah...heck no.
She's sweet, not quite the ditz I thought she was in the first place. Sure, she fell for the kisses and really cheesy lines, but that doesn't mean she was stupid. Just misunderstood. I think that's the part I halfway like, LIKE not love, about her.
She screams again, and I halt to a stop. Why is this so much harder than I thought? Don't think about it. Just don't. I just concentrate on running.
D1 Nimbus Blaire, 17 ~ (Hunter, Fawn)
D1 Juno Bledsoe, 18 ~ (Zella)
D2 Hunter Shade, 17 ~ (Nimbus, Fawn)
D2 Lucinda "Lulu" Zede, 17 ~ (betrayed)
D3 Korrigan Valencia, 16 ~ (stabbed by Lulu)
D3 Allison "Ali" Blazer, 15 ~ ?
D4 Karawan Mariak, 14 ~ (Korrigan finishes up his revenge)
D4 Gunvor Nikila, 13 ~ (Korrigan slits throat)
D5 Raidon "Rai" Shimizu, 16 ~ (neck snapped by Lock)
D5 Avri Veen, 12~ (Killed by Gunvor)
D6 Hermes Groats, 14 ~
D6 Aina Fluoreste, 16 ~ (Stabbed with stars, courtesy of Fawn)
D7 Lion Raywood, 18 ~
D7 Myrta "Ta" Ambrose, 14 ~
D8 Nilick Jayti, 15 ~ (knife in back by Lock)
D8 Zella Shadows, 15 ~ (Juno)
D9 Lock, 17 ~
D9 Rowena "Row" Loxet, 14 ~ (nightlock administered by Hermes)
D10 Elihu "Eli" Lyndon, 14 ~ (fainted, then stabbed by Hunter)
D10 Fawn Blackshot, 18 ~ (Nimbus, Hunter)
D11 Van Walker, 18 ~
D11 Mayzie Olmec, 16 ~ (died of previous wound inflicted by Fawn)
D12 Rocko Warner, 16 ~
D12 Ariella Chambers, 15 ~